(put: (prompt: "It happens to everyone.") into $a)
<sub><blockquote>The amount of times that you hadn't found the will to get out of bed was innumerable.
<sub><sub>
hint:
click the arrow to advance ... </sub> </sub> </sub>
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "one")]
(put: (prompt: "You're not particularly special.") into $b) (put: (prompt: "Nor interesting.") into $c) <sub><blockquote><br>**There's 7.125 billion people in the world.** </sub> </sub> </sub>
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "two")]
<sub><blockquote>
<br>And all of them get sad sometimes.
<sub><sub>
hint:
you may be able to click highlighted text ... </sub> </sub> </sub>
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "three")]
(click: "sad")[(go-to: "angry")]<sub><blockquote>
<br>And all of them get angry sometimes.
<sub><sub>
hint:
you may be able to click highlighted text ... </sub> </sub></sub>
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "three")]
(click: "angry")[(go-to: "sick")]<sub><blockquote>
<br>And all of them get sick sometimes.
<sub><sub>
hint:
you may be able to click highlighted text ... </sub> </sub> </sub>
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "three")]
(click: "sick")[(go-to: "jealous")]<sub><blockquote>
<br>And all of them get jealous sometimes.
<sub><sub>
hint:
you may be able to click highlighted text ... </sub> </sub> </sub>
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "three")]
(click: "jealous")[(go-to: "depressed")]<sub><blockquote>
<br>And all of them get ill sometimes.
<sub><sub>
hint:
you may be able to click highlighted text ... </sub> </sub>
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "three")]
(click: "ill")[(go-to: "sad")]<sub><blockquote>
<br>And all of them get sad sometimes.
<sub><sub>
hint:
you may be able to click highlighted text ... </sub> </sub></sub>
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "three")]
(click: "sad")[(go-to: "angry")](put: (prompt: "Your name is ... ") into $name)
<blockquote>Your name is $name.
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "four")]<blockquote>Your name is $name and you are a young (set: $gender to "man") man. You're in your second year at university.
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "five")]
(click: "man")[(set: $gender to "girl")(go-to: "female")]<blockquote>Your name is $name and you are a young (set: $gender to "woman") woman. You're in your second year at university.
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "five")]
(click: "woman")[(set: $gender to "person")(go-to: "other")]<blockquote>Your name is $name and you are a young (set: $gender to "person") person. You're in your second year at university.
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "five")]
(click: "person")[(set: $gender to "man")(go-to: "four")]<blockquote>You study (set: $uni to "science")science.
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "six")]
(click: "science")[(set: $uni to "literature")(go-to: "literature")]<blockquote>You study (set: $uni to "art")art.
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "six")]
(click: "art")[(set: $uni to "business")(go-to: "business")]<blockquote>You study (set: $uni to "IT")IT.
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "six")]
(click: "IT")[(set: $uni to "history")(go-to: "history")]<blockquote>You study (set: $uni to "fashion")fashion.
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "six")]
(click: "fashion")[(set: $uni to "science")(go-to: "five")]<blockquote>You study (set: $uni to "history")history.
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "six")]
(click: "history")[(set: $uni to "fashion")(go-to: "fashion")]<blockquote>You study (set: $uni to "literature")literature.
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "six")]
(click: "literature")[(set: $uni to "art")(go-to: "art")]<blockquote>You study (set: $uni to "business")business.
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "six")]
(click: "business")[(set: $uni to "IT")(go-to: "IT")](put: (prompt: "You have a partner. Their name is ... ") into $partname)
<blockquote>You met $partname when you were in high-school and you've been sweethearts since.
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "seven")](put: (prompt: "They bought you a yellow goldfish for your anniversary yesterday. You named the fish ... ") into $fish)
<blockquote>A fish isn't very cuddly, but, you think that $fish is a nice pet ...
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "eight")]<br><blockquote>
<b><sub><sub> welcome to .</sub></sub>
<u>Woebegone .</u>
<br>
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "nine")](put: (prompt: "Also. You want to kill yourself.") into $d)
<blockquote>(set: $happiness = 0) (set: $love = 0) (set: $school = 0)
**Make it through three days.**
<br>-->
(click: "-->")[(go-to: "truestart")]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "9:00am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
You are lying in bed. You hear $partname's voice from the opposite room ...
"$name! Are you up?"
<div align = left>
-> [[ You roll over and sleep. ]]
-> [[ You get up. ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "9:15am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
You get up after a brief nap. You feel sluggish.
You drag yourself to the kitchen and see that $partname is leaving for work.
<div align = left>
-> [[ You tell them you want to stay home. ]]
-> [[ You wave goodbye. ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "9:03am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
You pull yourself out of bed. You greet $partname with a smile, a kiss on the cheek, and you eat toast together.
You don't want to go to university.
<div align = left>
-> [[ You tell them you want to stay home. ]]
-> [[ You force yourself to go. ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "09:36am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
(set: $love to $love -1)
$partname pauses, and they regard you ...
"Well, that's your choice," You kiss. $partname leaves.
You watch $fish swim around in circles while you think and eat toast.
<div align = left>
-> [[ You go to class. ]]
-> [[ You decide to stay home. ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "09:36am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
(set: $happiness to $happiness - 1)
You get dressed and say goodbye.
The train is fifteen minutes late. You arrive already exhausted.
<div align = left>
-> [[ You go to class. ]]
-> [[ You decide to skip class. ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "3:04pm") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
(set: $happiness to $happiness - 1) (set: $school to $school + 1)
Your $uni lecturer arrives late.
You are dismissed early from class because of technical issues. You are annoyed, but, your lecturer was glad that you attended.
<div align = left>
- > [[ Go home. ]]
- > [[ You spend time at the nearby arcade.-> You decide to skip class. ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "5:04pm") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
(set: $happiness to $happiness + 1) (set: $school to $school - 1) (set: $mun to $mun + 1)
You head to the close-by arcade and you play Galaga all day.
Once you get home, $partname is already back, and they look very tired.
<div align = left>
- > [[ You spend time with them.-> EndDay11 ]]
- > [[ You don't bother them. You go to sleep.-> EndDay12 ]]The sun has set at $time.(set: $love to $love +1)<div align = right><sub><sub><b>
(if: $happiness is <0)[You are unhappy.](else:)[You are somewhat happy.]
(if: $school <0)[You missed out on an important class.] (else:)[You are passing your classes.]
(if: $love <0)[You and $partname are on shaky terms.] (else:)[You and $partname are doing fine.]
<br>[[ -->->Day2 ]]
The sun has set at $time.(set: $love to $love -1)<div align = right><sub><sub><b>
(if: $happiness is <0)[You are unhappy.](else:)[You are somewhat happy.]
(if: $school <0)[You missed out on an important class.] (else:)[You are passing your classes.]
(if: $love <0)[You and $partname are on shaky terms.] (else:)[You and $partname are doing fine.]
<br>[[ -->->Day2 ]]
(put: (prompt: "Don't you hate yourself?") into $e)
**You wake up.**
Sometimes you wished that you wouldn't.
[[ -->->Day22 ]] <sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "10:10am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
It's a Saturday.
You need to go grocery shopping. (if: $love is <0)[$partname has already left the bed and you wake up alone.](else:)[$partname is sleeping soundly beside you.]
<div align = left>
-> [[ You go shopping ... ]]
-> [[ Sleep more. ]]
-> [[ You get up, but to do some early morning work, instead. ]]
<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "09:36am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
(set: $love to $love + 1) (set: $happiness to $happiness - 1)
You smile and wave at them. You decide to just go to school.
The train is fifteen minutes late. You arrive at your class already exhausted.
<div align = left>
-> [[ You go to class. ]]
-> [[ You decide to skip class. ]]
<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "5:04pm") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
(set: $happiness to $happiness + 1) (set: $school to $school - 2)
You miss your $uni lecture and go back to bed. You wake up in the late afternoon.
You eat Weet-bix. You turn on the TV. $partname is due home in an hour. You feel very ill.
<div align = left>
- > [[ You make dinner. ]]
- > [[ You just go back to bed ... -> EndDay12 ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "5:40pm") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
(set: $happiness to $happiness - 1)
You head home in a bad mood. You just want to go to sleep. $partname will be home in an hour.
<div align = left>
- > [[ You wait for them, eat, and then go to bed together.-> EndDay11 ]]
- > [[ You go to bed without dinner.-> EndDay12 ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "6:00pm") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
(set: $happiness to $happiness - 1) (set: $love to $love + 2)
You make chicken and noodles for $partname - they seem delighted. They kiss you a lot.
You eat together, you feed $fish and then you go to bed.
<div align = left>
[[ --> -> EndDay11 ]]
<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "10:30am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>(set: $hap to $hap + 1) (set: $learn to $learn + 1)
You wheel your trolley around a neon Woolworths. You fill it up with necessities. (if: $mun is 1)[You spent your pocket-change on Galaga and can't buy $fish's flakes.](else:)[You make sure to get $fish flakes.]
You go to the check-out. You tap your debit card and it declines.
<div align = left>
- > [[ You put medicine back. ]]
- > [[ You don't buy any credit for your phone. ]]
- > [[ You put some food back. ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "12:30pm") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
You let yourself slip into a deeper slumber. You don't start to wake up until you feel afternoon light on your face.
When you do rouse, you are foggy and sick-feeling ...
<div align = left>
- > [[ You sleep... ]]
- > [[ You force yourself up. ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "10:30am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>(set: $hap to $hap + 2)(set: $shopping to $shopping +1)
You push yourself out of bed. The morning air is freezing on your naked ankles. $partname gets up, too - off to visit their family. (if: $love is >0)[You hug then they leave.] (else:)[They don't hug you when they leave.]
There is an unhappy weight inside you.
You know that you have to get some manner of work done. But, before working, you ...
<div align = left>
- > [[ Eat breakfast. ]]
- > [[ Watch some TV. ]]
Or ...
- > [[ You just get straight down to work. There's no point dilly-dallying. ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "10:40am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>(set: $med to $med + 1)
You put multiple packets of Panadol back on the shelf. You tap your card again and the payment processes.
<div align = left>
- > [[ You head home with the shopping. ]]
- > [[ You go for a drive. ]] <sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "10:40am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>(set: $phone to $phone + 1)
You decide not to purchase any phone credit from the cashier. You tap your card again and the payment processes.
<div align = left>
- > [[ You head home with the shopping. ]]
- > [[ You go for a drive. ]] <sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "10:40am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>(set: $food to $food + 1)
You return a few loaves of bread and cereal boxes. You tap your card once more and the payment goes through.
<div align = left>
- > [[ You head home with the shopping. ]]
- > [[ You go for a drive. ]] <sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "12:00pm") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
You drive home, unload the shopping, and have a bowl of Cheerios. You are very tired. You turn on the TV.
$partname has left a note:
<div align = center>"Out to visit the folks! I won't be long
- (if: $love is >0)[xx $partname<3"](else:)[ $partname."]
<div align = left>
- > [[ You do some school-work. ]]
- > [[ You clean the house. ]]
- > [[ You do a face-mask and go to bed early. ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "3:30pm") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
You decide to go for a meandering drive around the neighbourhood. It clears your head a little but the afternoon lags past.
You eventually begin the drive home.
<div align = left>
- > [[ You hurry there. ]]
- > [[ You take your time. ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "2:00pm") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote> (set: $learn to $learn +2) (set: $boi to $boi +1)
You sit down and you try to do a little course-work.
Your head isn't in it, but, you manage to get some important study done. You feel accomplished but fatigued.
You're too drained to text $partname.
<div align = left>
- > [[ Sleep through the day. ]]
- > [[ Try to make dinner. ]]
- > [[ Watch TV until your partner gets home. ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "2:20pm") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote> (set: $boi to $boi + 2) (set: $learn to $learn +1)
You only manage to dust down things down here and there, but, your living area now looks less lint-y ...
You think that $partname will be pleased when they come home.
You ...
<div align = left>
- > [[ Watch TV until your partner gets home. ]]
- > [[ Try to make dinner. ]]
- > [[ Sleep through the day. ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "2:13pm") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote> (set: $hap to $hap + 2)
You do a rose sheet-mask. It's revitalising and it allows you a moment to breathe.
You tuck yourself into bed. You sleep easily.
<div align = left>
- > [[ Sleep through the day. ]]
- > [[ Try to wake up before dinner-time. ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "5:16pm") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
(set: $boi to $boi + 2)
You simply sleep until it is dark, and then until it's light - through until it's a yellow morning ...
$partname spends the evening alone. (if: $food is > 0)[You didn't buy any bread so they have dry Cheerios for dinner.](else:)[They have a sandwich for dinner.]
Your dreams are red and upset.
<div align = left>
[[ -- > -> EndDay33 ]]
<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "5:16pm") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
(if: $hap is 1)[You don't manage to wake up. You are too exhausted ...
(set: $part to $part + 1)
You simply sleep. $partname comes home alone.](else:)[You manage to force yourself awake just as $partname gets home.
But, seeing how dishevelled and sleepy-eyed you are - they smile, and they send you back to bed.
They say they will tell you about their day tomorrow.]
<div align = left>
[[ -- > -> EndDay33 ]]
<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "5:16pm") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
(if: $boi is 1)[You wait paitently for $partname to come home.
They come in. You argue.
$partname's family have been disapproving of your behaviour. You break a cup. $partname pushes you off the couch.
You sleep in bed by yourself.](else:)[$partname comes home.
They eat what they can find and then join you on the couch. $partname puts their head on you. They are fast asleep.
You don't go to bed because you would rather stay here with them.]
<div align = left>
[[ -- > -> EndDay33 ]]
The sun has set at $time.<div align = right><sub><sub><b>
(if: $hap is 1)[You are growing very unhappy. You feel constantly tired.](else:)[You could be happier. But you are coping.]
(if: $boi is 1)[You and $partname haven't spoken to each other in a while.] (else:)[You and $partname are content.]
(if: $learn is 1)[You are considerably behind on your school-work.] (else:)[You are on top of your pressing course-work.]
(if: $shopping is 1)[You have no shopping.] (else:)[(if: $med is 1)[You have no Panadol.](else:)[You have a supply of Panadol.]
(if: $phone is 1)[You have no phone credit.](else:)[You have phone credit.]
(if: $food is 1)[You don't have a lot of food.](else:)[You have enough groceries.]]
<br>[[ -->->Day3 ]]
(put: (prompt: "Can't you feel yourself suffocating?") into $f)
<sub><blockquote>It was like there was a sharp rock stuck in-between your clavicle notch and sternum.
You can't breathe.
It hurts.
(click: "It hurts.")[(go-to: "buddy")] <sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "4:00pm") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote> (set: $boi to +2)
You get home as quickly as you can. You pick up $partname from work on the way there, just on-time - and you get home together.
It is late afternoon, and you are beginning to get very sleepy, but you still have much of the day left.
You decide to ...
<div align = left>
- > [[ Try to make dinner. ]]
- > [[ Sleep through the day. ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "4:15pm") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote> (set: $boi to $boi + 1)
You enjoy a slow drive home. You get back and $partname isn't there.
Their ride cancelled on them and, due to your drive, you weren't available to pick them up ...
On the phone, you can tell they are unhappy. (if: $phone is 1)[You use the last of your credit. You unload the shopping.] (else:)[You unload the shopping.]
You ...
<div align = left>
- > [[ Try to make dinner. ]]
- > [[ Sleep through the day. ]]<sub><sub><sub><div align= left> [[ you can't get up. ]]<sub><sub><sub><div align= left> [[ <b>you can't get up at all</b> -> you can't get up2. ]]
<sub><sub><sub><div align= left> [[ help me. ]]
<sub><sub><sub><div align= left>[[ <b>help me please.</b> -> help me2. ]]
<sub><sub><sub><div align= left> [[ please help me i can't ... -> please help me ... ]]
(set: $shopping to $shopping +1) (set: $learn to $learn + 1) (set: $hap to $hap + 1) (set: $boi to $boi + 1)<sub><sub><sub><div align= left> [[ i can't get up. -> Sleep through the day. ]]
<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "12:30pm") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote> (set: $hap to $hap +1)
You feel terrible.
But you need to make today count for something.
You feel like you're about to throw-up at any minute. But you force yourself out of your bed-covers.
You lay on the hardwood floor.
<div align = left>
- > [[ You do some school-work. ]]
- > [[ You clean the house. ]]
- > [[ You do a face-mask and go to bed early. ]]<div align = center><blockquote>(put: (prompt: "It hurts.") into $g) (put: (prompt: "It always hurts.") into $h) (put: (prompt: "It hurts.") into $i) (put: (prompt: "It hurts.") into $j)
(put: (prompt: "I want it to stop.") into $k) (put: (prompt: "I'm going to cry.") into $l) (t8n: "dissolve")[-->](click: "-->")[(go-to: "DayThree")] <sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "6:23") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
It is Sunday.
You wake up in a pearlescent dawn.
You have an important $uni assignment due today. (if: $learn is <1)[You've started it.] (else:)[You haven't started it.] (if: $boi is 1)[$partname is nowhere to be seen.] (else:)[$partname is awake and in the living room.]
You feel clammy and ill.
<div align = left>
[[ --> -> DayThree2 ]]
<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "11:30am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
You try to eat a little breakfast, but it makes you feel woozy. You end up with half-eaten pear and a sick stomach.
You throw the core out.
It's like you're being punished for something.
<div align = left>
[[ --> -> You just get straight down to work. There's no point dilly-dallying. ]]
<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "11:30am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote> (set: $hap to $hap +1)
You watch a few minutes of the weekend talk-show. It's mundane, but familiar. You have a coffee.
You almost feel a little more prepared to tackle this Saturday now.
<div align = left>
[[ --> -> You just get straight down to work. There's no point dilly-dallying. ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "11:00am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote> (set: $hap to $hap +1)
As you try to get up, you can feel like your limbs keep refusing movement. You manage to get upright.
You just need to get something - <i>anything</i> - done today, it almost didn't matter what it was ...
<div align = left>
- > [[ You do some school-work. ]]
- > [[ You clean the house. ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "5:16pm") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
(if: $hap is 1)[You try ...
But you can't. You are bone-tired. You can't even bring yourself to open a packet of dry noodles. You find yourself on the couch.
$partname goes straight to bed. They hardly even spare a glance.](else:)[It's difficult, as you're not a cook, and you are tired.
You manage to microwave a fresh helping of two-minute noodles. $partname comes home. They're just on time to share the noodles with you.
$partname laughs at your efforts, but, you can tell that they are a little happy..
(if: $boi is <1)[You re-enact <i>The Lady and the Tramp</i> and then you go to bed together.] (else:)[You go to bed.]]
<div align = left>
[[ -- > -> EndDay33 ]]
<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "6:30am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
(if: $mun is 1)[You weren't able to feed $fish. It is floating dead in the fish-bowl.] (else:)[(if: $shopping is 1)[You weren't able to feed $fish. It is floating dead in the fish-bowl.] (else:)[You sprinkle some flakes into $fish's bowl.]]
You sit down at your desk and you take out your $uni homework.
<div align = left>
[[ --> ->DayThre4 ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "6:40am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
Your heart thuds in your mouth.
<div align = left>
[[ --> ->DayThre5 ]](put: (prompt: "Have you ever felt like nobody loves you?") into $p)[[ Thud. ]][[ Thump. ]]Thud.(click: "Thud")[(go-to: "dude")] (put: (prompt: "You are going to have an anxiety attack.") into $n)
You need to make decisions [[ quickly. ]]
{(live: 10s)[
(set: $timeLeft to $timeLeft -1) (replace: ?countdown)[Time remaining: $timeLeft]
(if: $timeLeft <= 0)[(goto: "Dead")]
]
}
<b>too slow!</b>
<b>too slow!</b>
<b>too [[slow]]!</b><sub>You get out a pen. Your fingers are shaking.{(live: 5s)[
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- > [[ Grip the pen tighter. ]]
- > [[Let go of it. ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "7:16am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
"Too slow! Too slow!"
You keep repeating that. Your speech is fast. You slur.
It becomes but a feverish mutter as you try to wipe your face clean of tears and mucus. You are shaking very hard.
"Too slow ... "
You can't make words appear on the paper. You can't do it.
(if: $learn is <1)[You have a little bit done that you can hand in. Nothing substantial, but - it is something.] (else:)[You don't have anything you could hand in. You haven't touched your work for days.]
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- > [[ Try to make yourself write something. ]]
- > [[ You just give up on it. ]]<sub>You try to tighten your finders. Your knuckles whiten.
There's a sharp pain.{(live: 5s)[
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- > [[ You clench even tighter. ]]
- > [[ You just let go. ->Let go of it. ]]<sub>It rolls off the desk and onto the floor. You feel useless and want to cry.
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- > [[ Let yourself cry. ]]
- > [[ Fight it. ]]<sub>Tears sting you as they come out. Your breath is juddering and you can't control it.
You feel like you are going to die.{(live: 4s)[
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- > [[ Accept it. You want it. ]]
- > [[ No. -> No. ]]
- > [[ You can't. -> No. ]]
- > [[ No. -> No. ]]<sub>You try to force back the tears and a salty burning in your eyes puts you in more pain.
You can't do this. You cannot breathe. You feel like you're going to die.{(live: 5s)[
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- > [[ Just let me die ... -> Accept it. You want it. ]]
- > [[ No. ]] <sub>A cramp flares through your hand. You hold the pen in a clawlike grip and let out a groan of agony.
You are tearing up. You are frustrated. You can't move your hand.{(live: 5s)[
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- > [[ Let yourself cry. ]]
- > [[ Fight it. ]]<sub>You lay down. Your knees touch your chest as you take on the foetal position, subservient to the pain -
You are crying freely - endlessly, at this point.
Your stomach is aching. You feel ill. There is a dizziness in your head that won't leave you alone. You feel as though you are going to die.
You don't care. You need this. Die.{(live: 4s)[
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No No No No No No <sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "7:17am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
Your hands are dead-locked. They refuse to move.
Your insides are cold.
You want to cry, but, everything in your body is steeled-down; you are immobile.
You simply can't.
You simply can't do anything.
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- > [[ Go and find that Panadol. -> Look for Panadol. ]]
<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "7:17am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
You just can't do it...
You just can't do anything.
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- > [[ Look for Panadol. ]]
- > [[ Give it another go ... -> Try to make yourself write something. ]]<sub><sub><sub><div align = left>
<i>You want to kill yourself ...</i>
<sub>(t8n: "dissolve")[$d]</sub>
<i>Don't you hate yourself?</i>
<sub>(t8n: "dissolve")[$e]</sub>
<i>Aren't you sad?</i>
<sub>(t8n: "dissolve")[$z]</sub>
<i>Can't you feel yourself suffocating?</i>
<sub>(t8n: "dissolve")[$f]</sub>
<i>Have you ever felt like nobody loves you?</i>
<sub>(t8n: "dissolve")[$p]</sub>
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---
thank you for playing</sub>
<u><b></sub>Woebegone.<sub>
A Game by Louis Stockfeld.</u></b>
[[-- > ->dat ]]
(text-color: white)[<sub><div align = center><sub><sub>If you, or anybody you know, ever needs any help ...]
---
<sub><sub><sub><a href="https://www.lifeline.org.au/">Lifeline Australia</a> - 13 11 14.
<a href="https://www.qlife.org.au/">QLife</a> - 1800 184 527 - LGBT Mental Illness Helpline.
<a href="https://www.beyondblue.org.au/the-facts/suicide-prevention">Suicide Prevention.</a>
<a href="https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/national-help-lines-and-websites">All Nation-wide Helplines.</a>
</div>
---
<div align = left>[[ -- > ->dot ]]
---
(text-color: white)[<div align = center><sub><sub>(t8n: "dissolve")[Do you want to try again?]](click: "again")[(go-to: "truestart")]
---(put: (prompt: "Aren't you sad?") into $z)<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "7:18am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
(if: $med is 1)[You can't find any. How could you have been so <i>stupid</i> as to not buy any?
Your shaking has become violent tremours. It's irrepressible.
You had a stale bottle of chardonnay in the fride that would've matched perfectly with the Panadol.
You just felt sick and helpless.
You just wanted to feel <i>in control</i> of it --
This neverending fear and the cold brick in your stomach that made you act like this.] (else:)[(if: $shopping is 1)[You bought some at Woolworths, yesterday, you know you did --] (else:)[You have some around, you know you do --]
You find it under the sink. At least three packet's worth.
An excessive amount for you to buy.
You still had a two-dollar bottle of chardonnay in the fridge. You had figured that, should it come to it, you wouldn't even need all three packets.
But, then again, you still weren't sure how strong of a medicine Panadol is.
You think that it wouldn't hurt to be safe.]
You can't see $partname anywhere ...
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[[ --> ->NextUp ]]<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "7:18am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
(if: $phone is 1)[You instinctually take out your phone, hands unstable, but --
<div align = right><sub> $partname Im scared
<sub>(text-color: red)[Not Delivered!]</sub>
Im fel really sick.
<sub>(text-color: red)[Not Delivered!]</sub>
i don't want t be alive.
<sub>(text-color: red)[Not Delivered!]</sub>
I want to talk to you pleas;. Im afrad
<sub>(text-color: red)[Not Delivered!]</sub>
PLes $partname I love you .
<sub>(text-color: red)[Not Delivered!]</sub>
<div align = left>[[ --> ->BAD ]] ](else:)[You are determined but you know that you cannot be selfish.
You are a little shivery, now - not unbearably shaky, like before, but more ...
Shivering coolly.
Anticipatively.
You take out your phone. Your thumb is as uncoordinated as you.
And you realise you are still afraid.
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[[ --> ->BADDISH ]]]
<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "10:17am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
$partname comes back home a little early from their Sunday market.
(if: $med is 1)[You are in the bath-tub. You only needed one packet. The bath-water is mostly chardonnay.] (else:)[You have strung yourself from the ceiling-fan with a scarf.]
(if: $learn is 1)[The kitchen trash-can is full-up with your crumpled homework] (else:)[Your half-finished homework is neat and presentable on your desk.]
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[[-- > ->Ending1 ]] <sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "7:18am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
(if: $boi is 1)[
<div align = right><sub> $partname I am shakeing.
<sub>(text-color: gray)[Sent.]</sub>
i Kno things hav been.
<sub>(text-color: gray)[Sent.]</sub>
ROugh..
<sub>(text-color: gray)[Sent.]</sub>
But i I love you alweys $partname.
<sub>(text-color: gray)[Sent.]</sub></div>
<div align = left>I'm sorry but are you alright $name?</div>
<div align = right>
H
<sub>(text-color: gray)[Sent.]</sub>
<div align = left>$name?</div>
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[[ --> ->OKBAD ]] ]
(else:)[ <div align = right><sub> $partname...$partname Im afrad.
<sub>(text-color: gray)[Sent.]</sub>
i love you, oky?
<sub>(text-color: gray)[Sent.]</sub>
Just always know that.
<sub>(text-color: gray)[Sent.]</sub>
Adn nothing is your fau.lt
<sub>(text-color: gray)[Sent.]</sub></div>
<sub><div align = left>$name? R u feeling ok?</div>
<div align = right>
H
<sub>(text-color: gray)[Sent.]</sub>
<div align = left>Babe? $name?</div>
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[[ --> ->NOTTOBAD ]] ]
<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "10:17am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
$partname comes back home a little early from their Sunday market.
(if: $med is 1)[You standing on your desk. You have a long, hardy scarf.
You are trying to loop it around the ceiling-fan.
$partname walks in mid-attempt.
They drag you off the desk forcibly. They rip the scarf half-way across the room and, soon, you find yourself sobbing uncontrollably into their elbows ...] (else:)[You are in the bath-tub. You have a handful of Panadol.
$partname hears the running water.
They bull-rush the door.
They drag you out of the tepid bath-water, and they tear the Panadol apart.
You find yourself sobbing uncontrollably into their elbows.]
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[[-- > ->Ending2 ]]
<sub><sub><blockquote>(set: $time to "10:17am") <blockquote> <blockquote> <u>It is $time. </u></blockquote></blockquote>
$partname comes back home a little early from their Sunday market. They rush in looking for you.
"$name!"
(if: $med is 1)[You are holding limply onto a long scarf. You stare up at the ceiling-fan above you. You're sitting at your desk with your assignment strewn in front of you.
You are milky-eyed. $partname charges toward you.
They gently take the scarf from you, and they set it aside just as gently, but they move with a vigour, with a fiery purpose --
You soon find yourself pressed into their chest.
You are crying hysterically. They start to cry as well, "It's okay," $name says, "I love you so much ... it's okay - I promise that it'll be okay."] (else:)[You are holding a packet of Panadol with limp fingers. You're statuesque. You sit at your desk with your assignment strewn in front of you.
You are milky-eyed. $partname charges toward you.
They gently take the Panadol from you, and they set it aside just as gently, but they move with a vigour, a fiery purpose --
You soon find yourself pressed into their chest.
You are crying hysterically.
They start to cry as well, "It's okay," $partname says, "I love you so much ... it's okay - I promise that it'll be okay."]
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[[-- > ->Ending3 ]]
You have been pronounced dead at $time.<div align = right><sub><sub><b>
(if: $hap is 1)[You weren't managing your depression.](else:)[You tried to manage your depression but to little success.]
(if: $boi is 1)[$partname is in grievance counselling.] (else:)[$partname is inconsolable. They have developmental stages of a post-traumatic disorder.]
(if: $learn is 1)[You didn't finish your homework.] (else:)[$partname handed in your half-done assignment.]
<br>[[ -->->dis]]You were stopped from killing yourself at $time.<div align = right><sub><sub><b>
(if: $hap is 1)[You weren't managing your depression.](else:)[You tried to manage your depression and did so to small success.]
(if: $boi is 1)[$partname, though they care for you, is unable to be with you anymore. You go your seperate ways.] (else:)[$partname is doing their best to accomodate your needs. They love you and stay with you.]
(if: $learn is 1)[You have been asked to leave your university course.] (else:)[You are scraping by with bare-minimum grades in your $uni course.]
<br>[[ -->->dis]]You broke down at $time. <div align = right><sub><sub><b>
(if: $hap is 1)[You weren't managing your depressed very well.](else:)[You tried to manage your depression. You still feel it weighing on you, daily, but - you are learning to cope ...]
(if: $boi is 1)[$partname loves you deeply. But the strain of this was too much. You have gone your seperate ways.] (else:)[$partname faithfully stays by your side. They love and support you every step.]
(if: $learn is 1)[$partname and you did your best to finish what you could of your homework. You, however, were still asked to leave your $uni course.] (else:)[You worked to complete your assignment. You are enjoying your $uni course.]
<br>[[ -->->dis]]