Love and Politics

By Emily Salvatora

Love and Politics

Emily Salvatora

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Text copyright © 2012 By Emily Salvatora. All Rights Reserved.

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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

Table of Contents

·      Prologue

·      Chapter 1

·      Chapter 2

·      Chapter 3

·      Chapter 4

·      Chapter 5

·      Chapter 6

·      Chapter 7

·      Chapter 8

·      Chapter 9

·      Chapter 10

·      Chapter 11

·      Chapter 12

·      Chapter 13

·      Chapter 14

·      Chapter 15

·      Chapter 16

·      Chapter 17

·      Chapter 18

·      Chapter 19

·      Chapter 20

·      Chapter 21

·      Chapter 22

·      Chapter 23

·      Chapter 24

·      Chapter 25

Prologue

Evelyn Stratford watched her friends flare about through the murky bubbles of her champagne glass. She watched their distorted images as she tapped the glass with her French manicured fingertips. Through the glass, she noticed a woman stood before her. Amongst the dark suits in the room stood this one solitary figure, she was wearing a scarlet dress and an apprehensive smile.

“Are you okay?” The woman in scarlet asked as she sat next to Evelyn.

Evelyn took a sip of her drink and smiled at the young woman sitting next to her. “I’m fine, in fact, I’m quite calm.” She said as she closed her eyes. Scenes from the past six years began to play in her mind. The love, lies, sex, betrayals, and mistakes, she recalled them all in that moment. “Who would have thought that we would be faced with this now? We were so close to our happy ending.”

“Is it really that surprising? The truth always has a way of swimming to the surface. We need to address what’s happening.” The woman in scarlet tried to reason with Evelyn. "We have to talk about the press conference tomorrow morning.”

Evelyn placed the drink on the table in front of them. The rest of Evelyn’s friends stood around her now. They waited for guidance and a plan. Evelyn stood up before them, her sequined black dress clinging to her muscular thighs. She felt a tension rising from the floor through her legs and into her chest. As her chest pulsated, she opened her mouth to speak. As she spoke all she heard were the loud thumps echoing in her chest.

“I thank you for coming over tonight. I know you are all wondering what I’m going to tell the world tomorrow." She paused as she looked into the eyes of her loyal friends and family. She knew that her story was one that had never been told. She could cower in silence with her head down ashamed of her predicament. She could stand at a podium eyes fixed on the floor, and explain her life. She could shake, she could tear, or she could stand up for the choices she had made.

“I’m going to tell them everything.”

Chapter 1: January 2007

Evelyn Stratford flung open the double doors that led to her husband’s gubernatorial office. Her stiletto heels clanked through the hallway, causing a minor commotion for those who watched as she passed. The attention was a way of life for Evelyn. At thirty-four she was a physical force. Her high cheekbones framed plump lips perched high in a confident smirk. Her navy suit clung to her hips as she moved, the skirt was a tad too high, the white blouse comfortable but tight. She took off her sunglasses to reveal steely blue eyes. As the clatter of her heals intensified so did the silence in the room.

“Good afternoon Edward.” Evelyn walked into her husband’s office and kissed his cheek.

“I didn’t expect you at the office today, do you need anything?” Edward continued reading the security briefing on his desk. Evelyn waited to be acknowledged. She knew she was entering a battle and wanted to face her combatant eye to eye. When Edward finally looked up at his wife, he saw the cup of coffee before him and offered an appreciative smile. He took the cup but was briefly startled when he noticed her attire.

“I’m starting to think you work for the other guys."

“Why is that?” Evelyn sat on the leather couch opposite Edward’s desk and crossed her legs.

“Because you seem to distract my staff every time you set foot in this building. You may have it out for me.” Edward peered out of his office window and noticed a large contingent of his staff keeping one eye on their desks and the other on his wife. Her outfits were a constant source of conflict between the two. Not only did her outfits command attention from the opposite sex they were not good for his wholesome image. He really did wonder if she wore those outfits purposely to upset him. When he decided to run for governor in Connecticut many believed he would have to win the seat despite his wife. Evelyn was known for her far-to-the-left views and her knack for ruffling feathers. She was his equal in experience and, as much as he could never admit it, his superior in intelligence and guile. He tried mercifully to persuade her to keep her opinionated mouth shut long enough for him to get elected. He had to fight not only his opponent but also the view that she would be doing his job behind the scenes. He pleaded with her and she agreed to take a back seat during his campaign. While she toned down her approach, she still found subtle or not so subtle ways to make her presence known.

“Ridiculous Edward, no one cares about what I’m wearing.”

“What frustrates me dear is that you will never be taken seriously wearing outfits like that.” He begrudgingly put the security briefing on his desk and waited for his tongue-lashing.

“Let’s not kid ourselves you would rather I not be taken seriously at all.” Evelyn said as she pounded her fist against the desk. “My own husband doesn’t take me seriously.”

“What would give you that idea sweetheart?” Edwards sat back as he inspected the messages left on his desk. He wanted Evelyn to be content but he was no longer sure how to placate her.

“You haven’t read my proposal on education reform.” Evelyn walked over to the window and watched the lunchtime rush reach its peak. She wanted to follow those cars in any direction that led away from Edward’s office.

“That is because I am working with some of the brightest minds in this state on that very subject. No offense darling, but we have it covered.”

Evelyn leaned forward to stand face to face with her husband. “I’m not exactly a bimbo, we went to the same college, joined the same groups, hell I got better grades but you shoot down every idea I pose.”

“That is not true Evelyn, tomorrow you have a meeting with your outreach foundation you should prepare. I can't do my work while you saunter around.”

Evelyn maintained eye contact with her husband. “Do not tell me what I have to worry about when my program continues to raise funds so our poorest communities can buy textbooks for their schools. At the same time, your tenure in office has let our most prominent schools have any resource they need. Now my proposal can solve this but you’re too stubborn to read it. Just like in school Edward you may be able to see but you lack any vision.” Evelyn felt her temper reach a fever pitch.

“Now I am the Governor of Connecticut and you are my lovely stay-at-home wife; exactly what I envisioned.” Edward found Evelyn's proposal in the bottom drawer of his desk and put it in his wife's hand. “You should get out of here, go shopping, don’t worry yourself with this nonsense.”

“Fuck you Edward.” Evelyn stormed out of his office as swiftly as she had walked in. However, her pace was faster and seemingly more determined. She stopped when she was at the center of the room. She screamed in the direction of his office.

“Perhaps you would prefer a muffled mindless wife who would much rather sit on her ass all day.”

Evelyn always had to have the last word. As she huffed and puffed into the lobby she decided to call her best friend Stacy to meet her for coffee.

As Evelyn waited at the coffee house across the street, she took stock of her surroundings. To her right sat an older woman in a long red polka dot dress reading the New York Times. She imagined what life was for this woman sitting next to her. Did she have kids and a family to go home to? Were her mornings always spent with strangers and a newspaper? She pictured lady polka dot going home in the early afternoon and greeting her cats with a kiss. She definitely looked like the type of woman who greeted her felines with a kiss.

Straight across from polka dot lady was a man who had at least a dozen textbooks surrounding him. He was no doubt a student from the nearby university. As she stared at him he smiled in her direction. His smile wasn’t predatory like the leers some of the men who would stare at her. His smile was warm and welcoming. It reminded Evelyn of summers spent by the shore with her parents and two brothers. She recalled the many mornings spent in bed after long nights of partying. It was her brother Ron who would greet her with a cup of coffee and a warm smile. Evelyn was certain that this college guy had a couple of sisters and treated them the way Ron treated her.

Evelyn’s gaze moved to her left. It was then that she noticed that she was being watched. A tiny lump developed in her throat when she noticed a young woman staring intently at her. The dark haired woman had a book in her hand and wore a gray pinstriped suit. The brunette took a sip of her coffee and smiled at Evelyn. Evelyn quickly looked away. Evelyn gaze landed back on the young woman once she sensed she was no longer being watched. The woman was now reading her book. Evelyn began to inspect the woman as she intently read her book. Evelyn decided that this woman was single by choice. However, her innocent demeanor suggested something darker below the surface. Small ripples that lead to deep rumbles below, Evelyn felt those rumbles now. The woman startled her and Evelyn was not sure why. Perhaps it was the intensity in the woman’s maple colored eyes. Or the small but elegant fingertips that clung onto the novel she had in her hands. It may have been the olive complexion that seemed to sparkle with a golden sheen. Evelyn watched as the young woman licked away a trace of coffee that sparkled on her lips. Yes, this woman had a sex life to die for.

Stacy walked into the coffee shop. Evelyn cringed when she saw the fur coat Stacy insisted on wearing. “Late again.”

“Better late…” Stacy didn’t finish her thought as she opened the newspaper that sat on the table.”

“I need to speak with you about Edward.”

“Your favorite subject, leave your poor husband alone Evelyn he is harmless.”

Evelyn frowned at her best friend. She wanted an ally. Someone who would tell her she wasn’t the only woman miserable in her marriage. “Can't you take my side for once?”

“I'm always on your side sweetheart tell me what happened.”

Evelyn tried to recall the exact reason why she was upset. Deep down she knew that she was frustrated and angry. However, she knew that Edward wasn't the source of her frustration and her anger was misplaced. She then remembered his comments from earlier and realized that while she was frustrated regularly, this time she had just cause.

“He said that I should do more shopping and less thinking.”

Stacy surprised herself when she let out a hearty laugh that echoed throughout the coffee shop. “He didn't say that did he?”

Evelyn kicked her friend underneath the table. “He sure did. He also said that I should get used to the idea of being a stay-at-home wife.”

“Maybe he is just intimidated when you’re around.” He knows that the Bannister Foundation is your job even if it isn’t a paying one.”

Evelyn grew tired of hearing how much of a problem her presence caused. She felt stifled at home and at work – the realization saddened her. “Well, Evelyn think about it, many people thought you would run for Governor, not Edward.” Stacy knew that Edward was a good man and that any man could become intimidated by Evelyn’s large shadow. “He just wants to make his mark.”

“One day maybe I will.”

The brunette walked past their table, which caught Evelyn's attention. She swayed slowly as she passed and when their eyes met Evelyn looked away. The knot in Evelyn's stomach grew larger.

“I'm way too emotional today.”

“You call it emotional, I call it bitchy” Stacy smiled and took her best friend's hand. “Seriously, what has been going on with you recently? You're irritable one minute the next you’re drifting into space.”

“Nothing new, trust me.” Evelyn stood up and gave her friend a reassuring smile. “I think shopping may not be a bad idea after all.”

Evelyn didn't want to divulge any more information. Stacy had the best intentions and she knew that Stacy was right. Edward was a great man and she was probably just a little jealous that her ideas weren't being listened to the way his were. Jealousy, that is what this is, nothing more nothing less.

After a round of shopping Evelyn found herself at her secret hideaway. The waves crashing down allowed her to concentrate on more than her own troubles. It was a familiar pattern she perfected while in college. She felt the current against her skin and knew when the right wave would send her gliding across the ocean. Surfing was her passion and it was the only time she felt like her true self.

The ocean was reliable it was always there to offer support and guidance. Although the course of the wave was unpredictable, the surf would always exist. There would always be another wave to explore. She sprung up on her board as her perfect wave approached. Her worries vanished replaced by the brief euphoria of the wind whipping through her hair. As she fell into the ocean she tasted the bitter saltwater against her lips, she was at peace.

Evelyn stepped into her shower after the short ride home. She washed the sand out of her hair with a smile still spanning her face. She was able to ignore the depression gnawing at her for a few hours. As she stood at her sink, she wiped away the fog and stared at herself in the mirror. The smile broke and her afternoon as a beach bum was over. She opened the cabinet and took out the anxiety pills her therapist prescribed. After a deep breath she swallowed down the small white pill. She headed towards her empty bed unable to watch her reflection any longer.

Evelyn hurried into her office in Stamford Connecticut. She had purchased the office space for the nonprofit organization started by her parents. Her assistant, Janice, was sitting at the conference table ready with the day's agenda. Janice was the ideal personal assistant – astute, organized, and dependable. Evelyn always felt more relaxed when she was in Janice’s presence. “Good morning Evelyn how was your meeting with Edward?”

Evelyn sat at her desk and sighed loudly. “Pleasant compared to having to meet with the foundation’s financial advisors and persuade them to give us more money for our summer program.” It was the first program her father had started and it was her favorite.

“Henry would like to meet with you beforehand.”

Evelyn pinched the bridge of her nose as Janice spoke. Henry Kissinger Grant was Edward's chief advisor as well as Evelyn’s cousin. Evelyn detested his arrogant demeanor and leering eyes. He was Edward's right-hand man and acted as if he was above the law.

“He said it would be quick.” Janice tried to comfort Evelyn with a sympathetic smile.

Evelyn thanked Janice as she stepped out of her office. The drive to Henry's office seemed long. When Henry greeted her with a smile and a wink, Evelyn rolled her eyes. She felt his arrogance would be his downfall and she only hoped to witness his fall from grace herself.

“Good morning Evelyn, please have a seat.”

“Henry, what did you need?” Evelyn decided that continuing to stand was her best option.

Henry stood up and leaned against the front of his desk closing the gap between them. “I know you have an important meeting today about the summer program and wanted to see if there was anything I could do.”

Evelyn flinched surprised by the thoughtful offer. “Since when do you care if my foundation can help inner city kids experience a summer of culture?”

“I don't care at all but Edward had mentioned it and it seemed to be on his mind. I need him focused.”

Evelyn sneered at Henry. “Well, I will have to thank Edward for his concern.”

“Regardless I will let you borrow my assistant for your meeting. She has experience in financial planning. You need all the people on your side that you can get.”

Evelyn walked out of Henry's office annoyed that he had sent her reinforcements without her approval. Especially, Henry’s newest acquisition she hadn’t met. Henry was notorious for hiring young female assistants. They were arm candy without substance. She hurried instantly to her car. She needed to prepare for her meeting – Henry’s minion added more complication to the political tug of war she knew she was to embark.

Evelyn felt more confident when she entered the office. Bannister Headquarters was her home court advantage. The Foundation was a large part of Evelyn’s childhood. She remembered meeting some of her best friends as a child through the summer program. Her father would always take her along to events and have her spend time with the children they hosted. “I really miss dad,” she thought.

She remembered meeting Gloria at a day camp when she was twelve. Gloria was a camper the foundation had sponsored. After one game of badminton they were best friends. Evelyn pleaded with her father to let her go back to the camp every day. That whole summer was spent at camp with Gloria. They remained friends throughout junior high and high school. As the years went on Evelyn concentrated on her political future and her new friends. She always remembered her time at the camp as the happiest and most herself she had ever felt. She wondered why they had lost touch so long ago.

Evelyn entered the modest offices of the foundation. She saw five men and women sitting impatiently in the lobby; the financial advisors were an intimidating bunch. All were wearing matching gray suits and surly expressions. She walked with more confidence than she felt. Her father had taught her to fill the room when going to battle. She was ready for a battle.

“Good morning ladies and gentlemen shall we go to the meeting room.” They nodded in agreement and followed Evelyn.

Once Evelyn entered the conference room she noticed that the assistant Henry mentioned sat waiting for them. Evelyn froze where she stood. The woman was vaguely familiar although Evelyn would have never pegged her as Henry’s assistant. Her looks were more exotic than Henry’s typical lot. Her flawless skin and caramel complexion reminded Evelyn of the beach at sunset.

The young woman seemed equally surprised to see her and offered Evelyn a smile. It was the warmest smile Evelyn had ever met. With reddening cheeks Evelyn returned the smile.

“I am glad you have all agreed to join me to discuss the Bannister summer program the most pivotal subset of our foundation.”

One of the suits, a nickname Evelyn took pleasure in using, gawked: “Don't you mean most expensive Evelyn? Honestly we should be implementing our funds elsewhere.” With that the meeting had begun.

The advisors made their way out of the conference room after a grueling budget meeting. “Excuse me miss.” Evelyn called out to the young woman before she entered the elevator.

“Good afternoon Mrs. Stratford.” The young woman looked a little frazzled as Evelyn joined her in the elevator. Her cheeks reddened as Evelyn settled in next to her.

“Please call me Evelyn. I wanted to thank you for your contribution today. You were really speaking for the attendees of the program. You put into words the value these kids get from the camp."

The woman smiled and Evelyn warmed by the gesture. “I relate to those kids thank you so much for listening to my ideas.”

They stood quietly for the duration of the short elevator ride. Evelyn tried to think of something intelligent to say. Right before she could speak the elevator doors opened and the assistant rushed out of the elevator.

“You can't leave.” Evelyn blurted out before the assistant could leave. Although she was not sure why, Evelyn felt a nervous twinge in her stomach as the assistant slowly walked back towards her.

“Why can't I leave?” The woman studied Evelyn's face.

“Because we must meet to discuss in detail your ideas for this summer’s program. I need your fresh take.” The assistant smiled as she agreed.

“A lunch meeting then I'm starving.” Evelyn was surprised at her own suggestion.

“My first question is very important.” Evelyn began as they were inspecting the menu at her favorite lunchtime restaurant. It was a small diner in New London. Evelyn loved diners; the clientele were mostly locals and the atmosphere unpretentious. “What is your name?”

The woman smiled that warm, genuine smile Evelyn was quickly beginning to appreciate. “I'm sorry Mrs. Strat...Evelyn I didn't introduce myself, my name is Angelica Montalvo.

“You have a beautiful name Angelica; now please tell me your thoughts for the program.” Once Angelica opened her notebook and began to discuss her ideas a very confident intelligent woman revealed herself.

“I think we should really expose these kids to places they would never see in their everyday life, people they would never normally meet. Yes, we can take them to theme parks and museums but if they can meet the Governor or a CEO of a company that would really be a treat. If they get comfortable in the professional world now, they will feel like they belong later. It will also serve as positive publicity for some controversial figures.”

“Oh Edward will love if we put his name all over it and insist we pursue it wholeheartedly.”

"I didn't mean to insinuate that Governor Stratford...” Evelyn cut Angelica off.

“Is self-indulgent? Everyone in this business is, including Edward, insinuate away.”

Angelica blushed but continued proposing her plans. Evelyn masked her staring as concentration. She couldn't help but stare at Angelica; her eyes sparkled when she spoke about something that interested her. Evelyn noted the passion in Angelica's eyes as she discussed the school kids in formal attire as they meet the Governor. The sheer fact that they shared a common interest was enough to send Evelyn's stomach into another knot.

“I know you were forced to come to this meeting but obviously you did your research regarding our kids."

“I know what they need because I can relate in some ways. They have it rougher than I ever did but I know what it’s like to be the first person in your family to brave the white collar world.”

Evelyn yearned to know more but she wasn’t going to push. This woman fascinated her and she was happy to be around someone who showed genuine emotion. She realized authenticity was fleeting in her own world.

“I should tell you though, I am a fan of the foundation and the work you do.” Angelica shredded her napkin as she spoke unwilling to make eye contact with Evelyn.

“Yet you didn’t know who I was when I walked into the boardroom.”

“I knew who you were Mrs. Stratford. I just didn’t expect… I didn’t expect to be able to work with you on my second day.”

“I will need your efforts as we go forward with planning so please get used to calling me Evelyn.” Evelyn felt her fingers caressing the soft skin of the woman's wrist before she realized what she was doing. She moved her hand away when startled eyes met her own.

“I will be happy to offer you all that I can provide.” Angelica said her smile widening.

Evelyn attempted to finish her salad. She wondered why her stomach was in knots. “Now tell me a little about yourself and what made you interested in politics.”

“I guess my story is typical, I want to make a difference. Really stand up for the things that are hard to stand up for. If I am ever spoken of after I die, I want people to say: Angelica Montalvo she was a spectacular woman.”

Angelica searched Evelyn's eyes. She suddenly felt like a naive kid who uttered an unrealistic fantasy. She had been laughed at before so she didn't expect any different.

“I don't think that your motive is typical at all. Many people come into politics to seem like they're making a difference. You spoke up. You were the one that decided to make a difference today.” Evelyn became nervous when Angelica didn't respond. Did I say something wrong? “Are you okay?” Evelyn asked. Angelica leaned forward surprising Evelyn.

“I hope I can make a real affect for the Bannister Foundation. Thank you for the opportunity.” Evelyn surmised that affect was the perfect word for Angelica.

“Thank you for telling me your name. Now I don't have to call you Henry’s minion.” Angelica laughed as she took a sip of her soda.

“You're welcome, I should also tell you that I am aware of Mr. Grant’s reputation and I will not be his minion.” Evelyn look surprised.

“Has he been treating you well?”

“Let’s just say he is realizing I won’t be enamored by his station.”

“Has he disrespected you?” Evelyn felt anger strain through the muscles of her arms into her fists. This intelligent vibrant talented young woman was working under Henry of all people.

“No, so far he is polite.”

“Well, he is a playboy and a womanizer so don't let his sweet talk fool you.” Evelyn was angered by the idea of Henry shooting his leering smile at Angelica. She realized she was over reacting but didn't care.

“Oh I know, but any sweet talk will not work with me. He is one of the brightest minds in the Democratic Party and that is what interests me. Angelica felt the need to reassure Evelyn and instantly noticed the relief in Evelyn's face once she did. “I will confess he did send me to this meeting to spy on you.” Evelyn looked at Angelica with amusement.

“Oh really, and why did he do that?”

“He said he wanted to make sure you weren't causing anymore trouble for him to clean up, his words not mine.”

“He can't even clean up after himself the little shit.” Angelica placed her hand over Evelyn’s fists. Evelyn felt her fingers loosen as she began to relax.

“Don't worry, anything we've discussed is strictly confidential, it stays between us.”

Evelyn noticed something new in Angelica's smile it was decidedly flirtatious. Evelyn felt her hands tremble uncharacteristically unsure of herself.

“I may have to steal you away from Henry.”

Angelica Montalvo couldn't contain her smile as she entered her dark blue Hybrid. Her day seemed to fly by after her lunch meeting with Evelyn. She waved at some of her neighbors as she drove past small mom and pop shops that were prevalent in the community. It was very different from her hometown of New York City. She enjoyed the energy of a big city but loved the slower pace of the small towns that were hidden throughout the tri-state area. They were little inconspicuous towns where people knew each other and smiled as you passed by. She felt at home in these towns even if it wasn't home at all.

“Hello gorgeous.” Angelica said through her Bluetooth headset. Denise Davis her girlfriend of five months was on the other end. “I'm going to pick up some dinner for us and meet you at your place.” With that, Angelica picked up speed she needed the release her girlfriend could provide. Her successful meeting for the Bannister foundation invigorated her. Angelica recalled the collage of notable political figures she had on her dorm room wall. She blushed as she remembered staring at Evelyn’s beautiful face throughout her college life.

Angelica shook her head unable to believe that the notorious Evelyn Stratford noticed her. She recalled locking eyes with Evelyn when she first saw her in the coffee shop. She barely recognized Connecticut’s First Lady. All Angelica could see was a woman who made all time stop with a glance. She couldn't believe it was the same woman whose career inspired her to get into politics. The pictures did not do Evelyn justice. They didn't capture the youthful glow in her face or the smoldering eyes that could penetrate steel. It had been a couple years since she had followed Evelyn's work. It had been years since Evelyn was relevant.

It took Angelica about two hours to reach Denise Davis' high rise complex in White Plains, New York. She had a couple of plates from Denise's favorite Italian restaurant in hand as she greeted Robby, the doorman. She rushed into the elevator as her cell phone vibrated. The text message read: “The dinner will have to wait I want you now.” Angelica took a deep breath, smiled, and made her way out of the elevator.

Evelyn peered out of her office window. Her view was of the small city's main street. It was a clear and windy day. The bright hue illuminated the dark pavement and the wind howled in Evelyn's ear. The surf must be killer. She traced the thick glass of her window. It was cold against her fingertips. She missed the sea salt breeze and unpredictable ocean waters.

Evelyn turned to face her desk and pressed her intercom button. "Janice can you come in here please?" They stared briefly at each other as her assistant entered. After years of working together they had become friends and at times Evelyn regretted how easily Janice could read her emotions. Evelyn set her jaw. "The board has approved the new budget. We get to keep the summer program."

"That's wonderful Evelyn, how did you pull it off?"

"I didn't." Evelyn walked over to the mirror at the far side of her office.

"I don't follow." Janice waited patiently for further information.

"Henry's new assistant Angelica persuaded the board to allocate the funds." Evelyn was fidgeting with her suit.

"Humph, it's rare for Henry to involve himself in philanthropic efforts."

"He still doesn't, he sent her to spy on me." Evelyn found a piece of lint on one of her jacket button particularly interesting.

"Is he playing an angle?" Janice asked unable to hide her trepidation.

"I believe Angelica's efforts were sincere."

"Good." Janice opened her notebook readying herself for any task Evelyn threw her way.

"She has agreed to help me on the project. I need you to get her up to speed on the foundation." Janice hesitated as her pen paused against the notebook.

"Is that a good idea?"

"I've already made up my mind." Evelyn's voice took on a rougher edge than she intended. She did not want to add Janice's concerns to her own growing list.

"Angelica and I haven't met; I'll have to seek her out." Janice reassured her boss.

"Let's remedy that." Evelyn walked out of her office and motioned for Janice to follow her. She walked to the lobby where Angelica sat waiting for them. Angelica was staring pensively at her computer tablet. It gave Evelyn and Janice a chance to study the young woman. Janice was not surprised that Henry chose a beautiful woman as his assistant. She was surprised by the intensity and knowledge in the woman's eyes as she studied the screen.

"Hello again Ms. Montalvo." Evelyn cleared her throat enjoying the startled expression on Angelica's face. Angelica stood up and found herself face to face with Janice. She smiled and Janice found herself smiling in response.

"Hello Evelyn, I was just working on the application for the summer program." Angelica found it difficult to focus with Janice obviously sizing her up in proximity.

"Wonderful, this is my assistant Janice. She is going to help you hit the ground running." Janice shook Angelica's hand.

“Let’s start our run then.” Angelica beamed and Janice felt her concerns wither as she stared into the warm brown eyes in front of her.

Chapter 2

“Janice, is Angie in yet?” Evelyn asked as she looked over the plans she had created with Angelica over the span of a few weeks. She had asked Henry if she could borrow Angelica as she worked on starting up the program. Henry was reluctant to offer Angelica but eventually relented.

“No, she's not and it’s not like her to be late.” Janice said as she peeked over at the lobby entrance. They both inwardly attempted to pinpoint Angelica’s whereabouts. Janice noticed Evelyn tapping her fingers against the table. She shook her head in agreement although Evelyn hadn’t said a word. Janice knew what Evelyn was thinking: The office is not the same when she isn’t here.

Evelyn felt invigorated by working with the young woman. She couldn't remember the last time she felt so invested in every moment spent around someone. Evelyn looked forward to their long discussions each day. More than anything Angelica spoke with a passion that Evelyn used to feel.

“I’ve looked over all the applications from students throughout the state and they are very impressive.” Angelica explained as she walked into the office. Angelica sat next to Evelyn at Evelyn's conference table. Evelyn smiled realizing her mind seemed to drift a lot more since she met Angelica.

“You're late, is everything okay?” Evelyn searched Angelica's face.

“Everything is fine I had to pick up Henry's dry cleaning.” Angelica opened her folder as she tried not to notice Evelyn's crossed legs.

“We have many important matters to discuss and he has you pick up dry cleaning?” Evelyn said with disgust. “Janice, get him on the phone.”

Janice ran towards the phone as Angelica leaned in towards Evelyn.

“It’s okay Evie, it’s my job.” Angelica whispered. “I appreciate that you would rather my time be used more effectively.” Janice chucked as she walked out of the room. She stepped out without either noticing.

As Angelica began to point out some noteworthy applications, Evelyn took a deep breath. The airy scent of Angelica's perfume was attacking all of her senses. Evelyn closed her eyes and moved her body closer to Angelica's. The mixture of her perfume along with Angelica's melodic voice made Evelyn feel lightheaded. When Evelyn opened her eyes she found Angelica staring back at her. They were inches apart and their lips were dangerously close.

Evelyn peaked around the room for Janice, but Janice was nowhere to be found. Angelica leaned closer to the papers on her desk as her cheeks reddened. Evelyn tried to break the tension. “What is your favorite way to spend a Sunday afternoon?' Evelyn asked suddenly.

“Why?” Angelica asked, surprised by the question. Evelyn placed her arm around Angelica's chair.

“I want to understand your life outside of this office.”

“Do you really? Are you sure?” Angelica asked with a smile. Evelyn was a little nervous by Angelica’s warning but shook her head anyway. Angelica placed her papers on the desk and thought about the question.

“My ideal Sunday would be spent watching the football game with friends.” Evelyn laughed.

“You sound like my husband.” Angelica stared at Evelyn.

“My Sunday night would have nothing to do with sports.” Angelica leaned back in her chair resting her back on Evelyn's arm.

“What would you be doing on Sunday night? A lump developed in Evelyn's throat as she whispered.

“I would be pouring a glass of wine for a sexy woman right before we surrender to a passionate night.”

The revelation shook Evelyn to her core. The question she had pondered for the past month was now answered. While Evelyn had heard many rumors about Angelica’s orientation she had never confirmed those rumors. Now Evelyn was certain that Angelica was a lesbian and she was forced into silence.

“I hope that doesn't offend you.”

“No, that doesn't offend me I think that's great.”

“Do you?” Angelica moved closer to Evelyn as she pointed out the GPA of a promising student. Evelyn felt her body tingle, a loss of control of which she wasn’t familiar. Her whole body was warm, her mouth was dry, and her palms sweaty. She wondered if she was coming up with a cold.

“Good morning ladies.” Edward proclaimed as he walked into the office. Edward didn’t seem to notice the heat that was emanating from the room.

“I have a press conference in a few minutes and I thought you may want to watch.”

Evelyn was irritated by the interruption. “I guess I could make it.” Evelyn stated begrudgingly.

“That’s wonderful darling but I was speaking to Ms. Montalvo.” They both looked up surprised. Angelica stood up and began to walk towards Edward. “I hope we can continue this meeting later?” Evelyn shook her head and watched Angelica and her husband leave her office.

Angelica listened intently as the Governor fielded fevered questions. She tried to keep her mind off of Evelyn to no avail. Edward seemed uneasy himself as he dodged questions the media threw at him. He was off-topic and ventured far from the statement his staff had prepared. Henry was now in the room poised to end the press conference at any moment. Henry winked at Angelica as he walked by her. Edward made eye contact with Henry as Henry motioned to wrap up the conference. Edward decided charm would be his escape as he started to make a few jokes. Within moments he had every reporter laughing forgetting the urgent questions they had just posed. He had just enough time to end the press conference before the reporters could catch their breaths for the next question.

Angelica was still getting used to the fast-paced world of politics. While it could keep her mind spinning at times she knew it was exactly where she should be. Edward was the right person to watch, he had everything going for him. He was the most powerful man in the state, could command a room, and had the potential to take his career anywhere he would like.

“Great speech Mr. Stratford.” Angelica said as Henry and Edward walked out of the room as Angelica rushed to keep up.

“Thank you Angelica, you didn’t think I seemed flustered?”

“You recovered well sir.” Angelica said honestly.

“You recovered very well except your speech was supposed to be about the fundraiser.” Henry hated when Edward veered off topic.

“The police brutality case was a more pressing matter and I had to address it. Angelica, what do you think, should I have read that piece of paper in front of me?”

Angelica did not hesitate: “If you avoided this pressing matter it would have looked like a sign of weakness, you had to show you were in touch with current concerns.”

“Yes, but that is what strategy is for, it's something we in politics like to use instead of making rash decisions.” Henry pointed out as he stared at his assistant. “This is why it would be best to inform your chief advisor of anything you may bring up.”

Edward forged ahead taking Angelica with him. Henry stood uneasily in the corridor of the pressroom. He knew Angelica was no threat to him. His years of work eclipsed any effort she could possibly make. However, he didn't appreciate the Stratford's fascination with his assistant. He wondered if he would have to remind her of her place in his world.

Janice brought Evelyn a cup of coffee as Evelyn studied some fund proposals on her desk. Janice stared at the door and noticed the Governor enter the lobby with Angelica. They were laughing as they parted ways. Angelica peered into Evelyn's office as soon as she was at the desk Evelyn had set up for her. It didn't surprise Janice. Janice noticed the flirtation between the two women very quickly into them working together and this morning only verified her suspicions. She found herself staring when she saw how close Angelica and Evelyn were to each other. Angelica's reputation as a womanizer proceeded her so it was no surprise she would set her sights on the woman rated hottest lesbian sex symbol in the state by various gay and lesbian magazines.

Janice however saw Evelyn for what she was, an intelligent, gorgeous, and scared woman. Janice's gaydar was in full effect when she first met Evelyn. Every day that followed only further convinced her that Evelyn was a lesbian. It wasn't the stereotypical lesbian feminist or the idea that a powerful woman must be gay. It was simply the look of discontentment that always lay under the surface of her boss's face.

As Janice's gaze again ventured outside of the office, her eyes connected with Angelica’s. Angelica did not turn away or blink she held onto Janice's gaze. Janice’s gaze traced down Angelica's leg. Her legs were muscular with a golden complexion Janice had tried to summon at the tanning salon with no luck. Her skirt was a navy blue and it clung to her curves. Janice knew she should look away although she decided to stare more closely at Angelica's body. Her eyes moved up to feast on the ample breast that adorned Angelica's chest. She saw them slowly heave up and down. Her eyes again met Angelica's. Angelica shook her head in amusement at catching Janice so thoroughly check her out. Angelica smiled as Janice realized she was caught red handed. They shared a laugh from afar. Janice noted that she knew exactly why Evelyn was so fond of the young Angelica and it had nothing to do with her looks.

“Angelica is back I thought maybe you had asked her to come see you because she keeps looking in here.” Evelyn head swiveled up so quickly Janice was sure she had tweaked her neck.

“She’s looking in here?” Evelyn asked with a smirk on her face.

“Yes, every few minutes she has been peaking in.” Janice knew it was wrong to encourage the obvious attraction. However, she also knew it wouldn't go anywhere. Evelyn didn’t have the courage to leave her large closet. Also, Angelica was simply a flirtatious person whose advances she thought should not be taken seriously.

“Angie, can you come in here please?” Evelyn called from inside her office in a tone that was suspiciously innocent.

Angelica jumped from her desk and walked over to Evelyn's office. As she passed Janice she winked as their bodies brushed each other. Janice giggled, a reaction she was sure to kick herself for later. Angelica stuck her tongue out at Janice hidden from Evelyn's glare. As Janice left the room, Angelica watched her leave.

Angelica really liked Janice. She felt like Janice was the most sincere person she had met in a long time. Janice went unnoticed as she was able to effortlessly treat everyone as a priority in her world. Angelica really wanted to be friends with Janice knowing how much she could appreciate Janice’s considerate nature, she thought about that as she watched her leave the room.

Evelyn frowned at the sight of Angelica watching Janice's butt as she walked out of the room. Evelyn felt a twinge of anger whenever she saw Angelica flirt with another woman. She figured it was natural to want her friend to concentrate on the task at hand, which of course was her job.

“Angie I needed to talk to you about something important.” Evelyn sounded a tad more upset than she ever intended.

“What's wrong is everything okay?” Angelica asked with a concern etched upon her face that made Evelyn smile.

“I haven't gotten the minutes from your meeting with the teachers on the Education Committee I needed them two days ago.”

Angelica stood next to Evelyn and leaned on her desk: “I'm so sorry Henry didn't mention this to you but he already took my minutes. He told me he would update you so I assumed he had.”

That asshole strikes again. “No, he hadn’t.”

“The good news is that Governor Stratford approved all the ideas and is excited about presenting the ideas at the benefit.”

Evelyn stood up and met Angelica face to face. “Did Henry give you the credit for coming up with these ideas?’

Angelica found it hard to speak when she looked into Evelyn's eyes. Those baby blues staring back at her seemed to strip her of all her general motor skills. When she placed her hand on the desk she was surprised to feel that her hand had landed right over Evelyn's.

“All that matters is that the ideas will be implemented not who gets credit for them." Evelyn felt Angelica's small hand cup her own and her whole body froze at the sensation.

“You deserve to be praised for a job well done not Henry.” Evelyn whispered her response as her eyes remained glued to their touching hands.

“He is my boss so my success is his success and I'm not really interested in his praise but your praise would mean so much more.”

Angelica lips were so close to Evelyn's ear she could feel Angelica's breath tickle her face. Evelyn wanted to wrap her hands around Angelica's waist and pull her close. She wanted to push her lips against Angelica's and pray she would be granted access to that beautiful mouth. Would Angelica want that? Evelyn's doubts swarmed and she knew she could not make that move. What would Angelica want with a married woman quickly approaching her mid thirties?

Evelyn backed away and walked away from her own desk. She felt much older than she was and it saddened her. A vibrant woman like Angelica would not want her. “If you don’t mind, I have to read over some contracts.” Evelyn did not want to lose the connection she felt when Angelica was close. She did not trust herself enough to revel in their closeness any longer.

Angelica took a deep breath confused by Evelyn's reaction to their closeness. She believed Evelyn felt the same energy reverberating through her body. Evelyn’s dismissal made Angelica ache. She was suddenly aware that her chest hurt and her breathing was heavy. She knew that being close to Evelyn felt better than she should ever allow it to feel. She walked out of Evelyn’s office, the sound of the door shutting behind her echoing in her ears.

Chapter 3

Angelica was surprised to see her roommate Kai as she walked into their apartment. Angelica decided to go home for lunch in the hopes she would have some time alone. Kai was reading the newspaper and waved when Angelica walked in never raising her head.

“Your mother called.” Kai said casually. Angelica cracked her neck a usual physical reaction to hearing her mother had rung.

“What about?” Kai slowly raised her head annoyed that her one day off was about to be disturbed.

“Nothing unusual she only mentioned your ungodliness once.”

“I’ll call her back tomorrow the last thing I need is another lecture about my lifestyle being unnatural.”

“Let me guess girl troubles?” Kai was upset by Angelica’s aloof nature towards women and commitment. She had seen many women enter and leave Angelica’s life and felt Denise would be the next victim.

“I guess you could say that.” She knew she needed to keep her growing discontent to herself.

“Still fighting with Denise or did she give up on you?” Although they argued often Angelica knew she had a solid girlfriend in Denise. Denise Davis had come into Angelica’s life at a point when she craved stability. She was tired of the wild nights and thoughtless flings. Denise was very successful and ready to settle down. Angelica hated the gossip that plagued her office and didn’t want to be a headline story. Evelyn’s reaction also made her weary. Denise was everything Angelica should want but Evelyn was everything she craved. She thought about the energy between her and Evelyn when they were close. She felt out of sorts when she was close to Evelyn.

“Denise hasn’t given up on me but maybe she should.” Angelica knew Kai didn’t think highly of her after their short lived relationship. Kai felt they had a future while Angelica realized they would only be friends. Angelica hoped they could maintain a friendship.

Kai looked up and studied her former girlfriend and now roommate. She always found it odd and annoying that Angelica could talk about her love life so freely. She never told Angelica that it bothered her, but some things shouldn’t have to be said.

“Okay than seriously, what is the problem?” Angelica bit her lip and looked away. Kai could read her like a book and she knew that this was going to be interesting.

“The problem is married and she works with me.”

Kai laughed out loud. “You’re actually considering this, a married woman?”

Angelica stood up and tried to answer the question. What was she considering if anything at all? She enjoyed every second she spent around Evelyn but this time was no different from time spent with coworkers. She couldn’t truly convince herself that Evelyn Stratford has been just a coworker but she knew she should try. Angelica had been absolutely numb towards women for the past five years so she was surprised by this connection with Evelyn. When she was close to Evelyn her chest grew heavy and her mind raced. A stifling heat consumed her that somehow felt liberating.

“Have you ever felt connected to someone, so much so, that nothing has to be said yet you’ve had a whole conversation?”

“You’re not making sense Angelica, there are many single women out there but you have to go after someone who can jeopardize your career? Is drama always a requirement in your life?”

Angelica cringed as if Kai’s reaction hurt her physically. Kai could be right Evelyn could be a distraction from her relationship that was becoming serious quickly. Kai got up and sat in front of the television. She grabbed the remote and began to channel surf. She watched Angelica through the reflection from the television. Angelica was scratching her head as she paced from the kitchen to the living room.

“Angelica I’m not trying to be mean, I’m just being honest with you, I am being as realistic as you should be. This woman is married; you have better morals than that.”

Kai stood up and wrapped her arms around her roommate: “You’re never going to succeed in life if you’re always open to screwing up.”

Angelica pulled away in frustration: “I’m not trying to screw up…”

Kai interrupted angered by Angelica’s raised voice. “You constantly want women who will suck you dry and give you nothing in return. Don’t you want someone who could actually love you?”

Kai’s cell phone rang and she checked the screen. She began typing on the cell phone keyboard and walked back into the living room. Angelica threw up her hands in frustration. Angelica knew Kai was right she had to get over her attraction to Evelyn. She had spent the last five years recuperating from failed relationships and she did not have the luxury of playing with fire now. Deep down she felt that Evelyn could be different but she couldn’t take that chance.

Evelyn sat at the kitchen counter of the Governor’s mansion as she finished the evening’s meal. Evelyn was beginning to think that controlling her desires would be harder than she thought. It had been years since she admitted to being attracted to another woman. But the way her body responded to Angelica left little doubt of her desires.

“Hello darling.” Stacy said in her southern drawl. She gave Evelyn a kiss on the cheek and sat next to her friend. “You looked like you were lost in space when I walked in what’s wrong?” Evelyn poured Stacy a cup of coffee never making eye contact with her.

“I just have a lot going on in my head that’s all.”

“Are you and Edward still having trouble?”

“It’s something else Stace, something very different.” Evelyn thought about the near instant attraction she felt for Angelica. She thought about the way her body ached with need when she was close to her. She thought about all the repercussions she could face if she acted on her desires. “I’m attracted to someone.” She whispered so no one else in the room would hear.

“Oh my gosh Evelyn, are you serious?”

“Shhhhh.” Evelyn tried to calm her friend down. She hoped for a more understanding reaction or at least the chance to finish her thought.

“I haven’t done anything I haven’t even considered it, well I have considered it, but haven’t acted out on anything.”

“Oh my gosh.”

“Can you stop saying that, don’t be melodramatic.”

“Okay I’m sorry I knew you two were having trouble but attracted to another man Evelyn?”

“Not quite.” Evelyn looked down to her own hands and was surprised to see them shaking. Revealing fundamental truths about yourself isn’t as easy as I thought. She laughed to herself.

“What is it honey? What in the world are you thinking?” Evelyn shook her head, she could not put into words why her body failed her now. Why her body would dare respond to a woman, a younger woman at that.

“It is just one of those passing attractions, a little fun to think about that is all.” Stacey rubbed her friend’s shoulder. “Good, I think the mailman is hot but I’m not trying to fuck him” Stacy laughed and Evelyn followed suit.

“Edward I’m glad you finally realize that I need to be more involved in your career if you plan to run for another term.” Evelyn was finally having a meeting with Edward and Henry that she could tolerate.

“There have been rumors that you and Edward are at odds so we need you to put forth your best wife of the year impression.”

“My marriage is no one’s business.” Evelyn said disturbed by Henry’s forwardness.

“You have a scheduled trip to New York coming up and we need you to make nice to remind people you are the First Lady of the State and not a liberal hothead.

“We are both liberals Henry so what the fuck is your point?”

“My point Mrs. Stratford is that you can come across more like a leftist lunatic and less like the First Lady of Connecticut. New York is safe ground for you to find some good publicity”

“Enough.” Edward yelled as both Evelyn and Henry stood up. “Sit down and let’s talk about this.”

“Honey we just need your support for me to resonate with voters. I wish I had the opportunity to go with you.”

Evelyn was excited by the idea of visiting New York City for a few days. She needed to get away from her world and rejuvenate under the city lights. She did well ignoring Angelica who either didn’t notice or didn’t mind, both prospects were dire. They would cross paths and Angelica would smile and exchange pleasantries but no real conversations in weeks. Evelyn hoped that some time away would clear her head.

“You both have a meeting with one of our biggest donors Mr. Gaines and his wife in a couple of weeks.” Henry mentioned as the meeting continued.

“I already had the meeting and he is going to donate a large sum in a few weeks. Ms. Montalvo and I met with them at the game a few nights ago." Edward’s statement caused both Henry and Evelyn to jerk up in surprise.

“What are you talking about? That’s impossible."

“I was given a private suite to the baseball game and invited Angelica knowing she is a big fan. She had the great idea of inviting George and Whitney knowing we could do some schmoozing in a relaxed environment.” Evelyn and Henry were beside themselves. While Henry was upset his assistant would do these things without his consent, Evelyn was annoyed that the woman she shared closeness with was developing a bond with her husband.

“It’s a shame that Angelica won’t be able to go to any games for a few days since she will be accompanying Evelyn on her New York trip.”

“Absolutely not I need her here we work well together.” Despite Edward’s protest, Henry believed he needed to get his assistant away from Edward because of her obvious attempts to discredit him.

“We need someone with the ability to think quickly when Evelyn needs help with reporters. We need someone who is savvy with words and Angelica obviously has a way with those.” We need someone to watch Evelyn.

Edward relented while Evelyn pondered time alone with Angelica. She peered out of her office and saw Janice talking to Angelica. She missed Angelica and couldn’t help but be excited that they could spend time together. At the same time, she was upset that Angelica would try to bond with her husband. Evelyn noticed a woman she had never seen in the office before standing next to Angelica.

“Evelyn, Henry and I are going to go back to my office to discuss some things. Why don’t you and Janice start preparing for the trip?” Evelyn barely noticed she was being spoken to as she watched Janice, Angelica, and this mystery woman interact. When the mystery woman rested her hands on Angelica’s shoulder Evelyn decided she should go over and introduce herself.

Janice noticed Evelyn marching towards them and her smile quickly turned to apprehension. She was scared that Evelyn’s temper would rear its head.

“Hello ladies.” When Angelica heard Evelyn’s voice behind her she understood the look of dread spanning Janice’s face. Angelica turned around to face the woman in which she had successfully avoided for the last few weeks.

“Evelyn, this is my girlfriend Denise Davis.” Angelica said deciding to get straight to the point.

“It is a pleasure to meet you Mrs. Stratford I have admired your work for a long time now.”

Evelyn stared at Angelica as she shook her girlfriend’s hand. The woman spoke to her but Evelyn wasn’t listening, instead, she was sizing her up. She was an attractive woman with striking features. She had a strong jaw line and cheekbones. She did listen long enough to hear that Denise was a corporate lawyer. Evelyn decided that the role of corporate lawyer fits this woman well. Her demeanor screamed organized and rigid. She was the exact opposite Evelyn envisioned that Angelica would want.

“I’m surprised we just met, how long have you and Angie been together?”

“It’s been six months now but I barely get to stop by I get so busy at work.” Evelyn was surprised by the revelation. Angelica had a girlfriend during her entire time on Edward’s staff. While Evelyn was surprised she couldn’t be shocked, Angelica’s reputation was apparently more accurate than she thought.

Denise exchanged goodbyes with the women and gave Angelica a kiss on the cheek goodbye. When the elevator doors closed and Denise’s smiling face disappeared, Evelyn spoke first: “What type of game are you playing with me?” Janice quickly decided to walk away from them both. Angelica looked at Evelyn surprised by her honesty.

“I am not playing any type of game with you. Can we go somewhere private?” Angelica and Evelyn walked into the boardroom and Evelyn locked the door. She had to let out her frustration: “I am talking about you going to the baseball game with my husband. What are you pulling?"

“First, Edward asked me to go because he wanted to discuss my career with me, what was I supposed to do, say no?”

“You could have told me, you don’t even speak to me.” Evelyn heard her quivering voice echo in the room, speak to me. She leaned on the conference table crossing her arms across her chest. She sounded wounded.

“Is that what this is about Evie?” Angelica walked towards Evelyn. “It is hard for me to speak to you sometimes.” Angelica brought her hands to Evelyn’s arms and slowly uncrossed them.

Evelyn’s heart pounded, she knew there was no turning back. The look in their eyes as they stared at each other could not be ignored. “Why?” She whispered.

“Because how it makes me feel, it scares me.” Angelica brushed the tip of her finger on Evelyn’s cheek.

“That woman, she has been with you this whole time and you never told me?” Evelyn asked. She could feel her body tingle at the slight touch of Angelica’s finger.

“Yes, she has.” Evelyn moved away with the admittance. Angelica followed Evelyn closely refusing to let too much space pass between them. “What am I supposed to do? What are my options here?” Evelyn flinched as Angelica raised her voice. She knew Angelica was right. Her jealousy was unfounded. Angelica was young and available and she should be with someone who can give her a real relationship. However, the idea of Angelica with another woman was tough for her to digest.

“Janice seems to be a healthy option for you here.” Evelyn wasn’t going to budge there was no doubt Angelica had spent the last couple of months flirting with her and she never mentioned a girlfriend.

Angelica stood face to face with Evelyn. Their bodies close again, a position that seemed natural for them both. Evelyn’s mouth opened in reaction to the sensations traveling through her body. The desire she felt for this woman was unlike anything she had ever experienced. She wanted to devour her in that moment. The idea of Angelica in bed with another woman only fueled her desire. She wanted to take Angelica and explain that no one else should be touching her.

“Janice and I are friends, is there no other option here for me?” Angelica leaned forward so close to Evelyn her lips brushed Evelyn’s lips. Evelyn could hear Edward’s voice echo in the hall, he was asking for her.

“Janice would be it. If there is someone else here, I am not aware of it.” Angelica pulled away her eyes filled with anger and pain. Evelyn instantly regretted her words. She wanted to rush up to Angelica wrap her arms around her and take it back. It was too risky to get involved further and she knew it, so she let Angelica walk away.

Angelica quickly walked out of the conference room and closed the door behind her. Her eyes watered as she took a deep breath. She rushed quickly to the bathroom.

Evelyn pounded the table behind her and resisted the urge to chase after Angelica. It was red-hot desire that flashed within her for the young woman. Desire alone wasn’t worth the risk if it would destroy both of their worlds. She closed her eyes to blink away tears, if it was nothing more than desire she couldn’t entertain it.

Henry stood at the far end of the large room of cubicles. He had noticed Angelica walk out of the conference room with tears in her eyes. He was going to follow her but stayed still when he noticed someone else leave the conference room. When it was Evelyn that appeared from the room, Henry smirked. It was as if a light came on in a dark room.

Chapter 4

“Your dinner is getting cold, is everything okay?” Denise asked as she watched Angelica tap her fork against her dish. Angelica forced a smile as she placed her fork on the table. The posh restaurant was filled typical for a Friday night. Angelica took in her surroundings; she took note of the pretentious crowd and grimaced. She hated the scene but it was Denise’s favorite restaurant.

“You know for a plate of food that cost well over a hundred dollars I’ve had dishes at fast food joints that taste better.”

“Sweetheart please that is the best sea bass on the East coast. Are you okay, you seem agitated?” Angelica sighed and gazed at her girlfriend. She wondered why she wasn’t happy. Denise was the perfect girlfriend in every way. Angelica couldn’t figure out why she didn’t feel everything inside her push her towards Denise the way she felt pulled towards Evelyn. As Denise smiled at her, she wondered if it was a fear of commitment that drove her towards Evelyn.

Angelica was only nineteen when she first fell in love. It was a passionate whirlwind affair. Amber was a grad assistant for one of Angelica’s classes. She remembered how in love they were as they spoke of their future home, vacations, and children. A lump in her throat developed as she recalled all that transpired. She promised herself she would never be had by another woman again.

“Sweetie I’m fine things were stressful at work. I just can’t wait until we can get away for a few weeks, I need the break.”

“You just started you shouldn’t need a break yet. You need to establish yourself for a few years before taking a vacation.” Denise said as she ate her dinner. Angelica cracked her neck an instant reaction when Denise was about to get into what she called nag mode. Denise meant well but they had two very different opinions of what life should be. Denise grabbed Angelica’s hand and gave it a kiss.

“I’m sorry sweetheart I just know how hard you’ve worked to get this job and want to see you succeed.” Angelica gave Denise a kiss. Despite the relentless approach, no one looked out for her the way Denise did. “I’ll tell you what, let’s go away soon. We can leave for a long weekend so you don't miss much time at work.”

Angelica smiled, a weekend away was needed and soon.

“Edward what do you mean Madison is coming to live with us?” Evelyn walked out of her bathroom in a plush white robe.

“It is only temporary she has nowhere else to go.” Edwards said as he took off his tie.

“So your daughter that no one knows about is coming to live with us and you think no one will notice?” Evelyn tried to make sense of what Henry was throwing at her. It was a secret they had shared for their entire marriage. The life she was trying to make sense of what's about to become more uncertain.

“Henry is going to announce it to the press. He is going to explain that it is a child from a very brief marriage that occurred when I was stationed in Germany and that her mother had to go back to Germany for a little while.”

“Okay so her mother is going back to Germany?” Evelyn tried to process the idea of having a young teenager in her home.

“No, she is going into rehab but she doesn’t want anyone to know that she’s been having problems.” Edward understood why Evelyn was concerned. Evelyn’s motherly instinct was nonexistent. He felt guilty, he knew he was throwing this at her but his only child was in trouble and he had to help her. If he had known that his ex-wife was out of control he would have stepped in years ago. He was excited to see his daughter every day instead of every other month.

“Evelyn, I need you to be on board with this, I am happy to have her here. I miss her.”

“I just hope she and I can get along you know?" The truth was that Evelyn never felt more inadequate than when she was around Madison. Every attempt Evelyn made to get close to Madison failed miserably. Evelyn succeeded in all she ever attempted. Step-mom was the one role she could never get right.

“I am going to spend some quality time with her. It will give us a chance to connect away from you. She has to see that she means more to me than anyone.” Evelyn quickly changed into her nightgown as she processed the news. “When will she get here?”

“She is meeting us at the office tomorrow.” Edward gave his wife a kiss on the cheek and turned off the light on the nightstand. “Don’t forget you also have to finish the itinerary with Janice and Angelica tomorrow.”

Evelyn stared up at their ceiling. Her stepdaughter would be coming to live with her on the same day Angelica would be informed that they would be spending the next month working together exclusively. She would soon face the two people who despised her most. She decided to try her best to get a good night’s sleep. It would seemingly be the last time she could relax for a while.

Angelica waited on the couches outside of Henry’s office. The small note on her desk asking her to come to the chief of staff's office first thing in the morning worried her. She was confident she had been doing a good job but knew that this meeting could be about her argument with Evelyn. Maybe Evelyn was worried that Angelica had gotten the wrong idea and wanted to get rid of her. Angelica tried to slow her mind as it began to race.

Angelica noticed Janice quickly walking towards her with a young girl. Angelica thought that she had to be in her teens. The heavy eye shadow and earphones blasting music into her eardrums were a definite giveaway. “Is this your little sister?” Angelica asked.

“No, not exactly, look, I’m sure you noticed things are absolutely crazy this morning.” Janice sighed. Angelica had noticed more Press around than usual but wasn’t sure why. “How can I help?” Angelica asked.

“Can you watch her for me until Henry gets back?” Janice eyes were red and she looked a wreck. Angelica got up and placed her hand on Janice’s arm. “I’ve never seen you this stressed out, I will watch her, go do what you have to do. Please do me a favor, take a deep breath and relax.”

Janice took a deep breath and gave Angelica a hug. It was exactly what she needed to hear. Evelyn had called her at five in the morning and told her the situation. She got to work around six and had been running around ever since. “Thank you so much Angelica, Henry should be back soon. I’ll explain everything later.”

Angelica sat back down next to the girl who refused to make any eye contact as her music blared. Angelica tapped her shoulder as the girl begrudgingly took off her headphones and flashed the most insincere smile Angelica had ever seen.

“Hi there, I’m Angelica, what’s your name?”

“I’m Madison and I don’t really need to be watched so you can be on your way.” Madison rolled her eyes. Angelica laughed in amusement at the adult-sized attitude the girl displayed. “Hi Madison, it is nice to meet you as well. I was here first so I guess you’re stuck with me.”

“Oh joy.” Madison said.

“How old are you, are you related to Henry?” She must be she has his personality.

“I’m fourteen and no Henry is the annoying snot that works for my dad.”

“Your what?” Angelica was sure she misheard.

“Yep, I’m Edward Stratford’s secret daughter awesome to be me right?”

Angelica’s eyes were wide with shock. She had no idea that Edward had a child. It definitely explained the peculiar vibe in the office that day. Angelica noticed that Madison described herself as Edward’s daughter not Evelyn’s. “What are you?” Madison asked.

“I think you’re asking me what I am doing here, I’m waiting for the snot too, I work for him.” Madison smiled but then quickly retreated back to her stoic expression.

“So are you here visiting Edward?”

“Apparently.” Madison rolled her eyes again.

“What’s with the attitude you just met me for all you know I’m pretty cool.”

“No one uses the word cool anymore and no one here is cool except Janice.” Madison decided to give Angelica a break. “Look sorry I haven’t eaten all morning and I’m being shipped from person to person and haven’t even seen my dad yet so I’m pissed off.” Madison couldn’t hide the defeated tone in her voice.

“Then let's go grab something to eat. I’m hungry too.” Angelica could sense that there was a lot this girl wasn’t saying.

“We can’t just go didn’t you just get orders to keep me here?”

Angelica stood up. “You just said you didn’t need to be watched and I really need a cup of coffee so you can stay here and wait or come grab something with me.” Angelica started walking away as Madison contemplated her next move. Angelica was relieved when Madison didn’t call her bluff and began to follow her.

“So no one in the office has had time to tell me what’s going on. Why don’t you enlighten me?” Angelica asked as she sipped her caramel latte.

“Dad is having a big press conference today telling everyone about me. My mom is going away for who knows how long and I have to move in with my dad and Evelyn.”

“That sounds stressful to me no wonder you’re feeling moody.” Madison almost choked on her hot chocolate with Angelica’s statement.

“I’m not moody and if I am, you’re not allowed to say it I’m like your boss’s boss by blood.”

“Hey I’m just keeping it real. If it was me and my whole world changed in a day I’d be pissed.” Madison had to agree with Angelica. She was scared to move in with her dad and all the fuss at his job didn’t help her nerves.

“Evelyn has to be a good stepmom at least.”

“Are you kidding me she is beyond horrible she is possibly the shallowest person I’ve ever met?” Angelica couldn’t help but smile as a result of Madison’s obvious disdain for Evelyn.

“I work with her a lot and I happen to know she isn’t THAT shallow.”

“You don’t know her like I do. She can’t stand me and I hate her.”

All she was finding out about the Stratford’s shocked Angelica. She would have bet that Evelyn was great with children considering her charitable causes. Maybe she was wrong about Evelyn in many ways.

Angelica picked up her phone and called Henry, there was no answer. After hesitating she decided to call Evelyn. “Hi Mrs. Stratford this is Angelica.” Madison started shaking her head with a look of dread.

Evelyn sneered when she heard Angelica refer to her as Mrs. Stratford. “Hi Angie, how are you?”

“I just wanted to let you know that Madison is at the coffee shop with me and I may be a little late to our meeting with Henry.” Evelyn walked out of Henry’s office and into the hallway.

“So you met Madison?”

“I sure have.”

“Can we talk later? There are some things I have to tell you.” Evelyn asked as she banged her head softly against the wall.

“Yes, we can, will you please tell Henry where we are before he worries.” Angelica hung up and took another sip of her coffee. What a hypocrite, I guess I am not the only one holding in a few secrets.

“You don’t like her either? Madison said with a smile.

“She is not my favorite person right now.” Angelica said. They both nodded in agreement as they continued sipping their drinks.

Evelyn sat in Henry’s office as they waited for Angelica and Madison to return. Evelyn was rubbing her forehead as Henry watched her.

“What is with the Stratford’s, Evelyn?” Henry asked.

“What are you talking about now?” Evelyn was not in the mood for Henry’s bullshit.

“First you, then Edward, now the young Madison all card members in the Angelica Montalvo fan club. Maybe Edward is attracted to Angelica after all why give her so much responsibility when she is obviously under-qualified.” Evelyn saw red whenever someone she cared about was attacked, Henry questioning both Edward and Angelica was more that she could tolerate.

“She is not under-qualified she is more than deserving of everything she gets. She was given a chance and she ran with it you can’t fault her for that.”

“She certainly did, didn’t she?” Henry loved toying with Evelyn.

“What does that mean?” Evelyn was turning red.

“It means that Edward has become her mentor, you two are close, and now she is taking Madison on outings.”

How did that happen? How did she meet Madison? Evelyn thought as she vowed to find out.

“She also has been quite eager to please me in any way I see fit.” Henry proclaimed as he smiled in Evelyn’s direction. He watched her hands curl into fists. He watched her expression change into a dark brooding gesture. Her eyes turned black. I have her right where I want her.

“If you ever insinuate a lie about Ms. Montalvo again I will make it my personal obligation to make sure you suffer a political death and you know I can make it happen Henry.” Evelyn and Henry overheard Angelica laughing as she walked into the office with Madison. Evelyn stood up to greet Madison who barely smiled and sat next to Angelica. Angelica and Madison were sharing a powdered doughnut as Evelyn peered over to Angelica. Angelica smiled and quickly looked away. It stung to look at Evelyn but she hid it well.

“Welcome to the meeting Angelica, so nice of you to join us. How are you Madison? It’s been awhile.” Henry said as he offered his hand. As Madison raised her hand to shake Henry’s she noticed her fingers were filled with powder. She shook Henry’s hand anyway.

Evelyn watched Angelica throughout the meeting. Henry was right Angelica had quickly found a way into every Stratford’s world. Angelica still avoided eye contact with Evelyn who was waiting for some level of acknowledgement. As Henry began to explain that she would be accompanying Evelyn on her New York trip, the expression on Angelica’s face changed. Angelica slowly turned to face Evelyn. Evelyn couldn’t tell if her expression was one of anger or of happiness. She saw a look on Angelica’s face she had never seen before. Evelyn’s stomach tightened as they hashed out the details of the next few weeks. Her anticipation grew now that Angelica knew of their work together and didn’t respond with disgust. Evelyn hoped that they could at least become friends.

After the meeting, Evelyn caught up with Angelica. “Hi.” She tried to say more but nothing else left her lips. Angelica sighed deeply and faced Evelyn.

“Hi Evelyn, how are you?”

“So you met Madison, I’m sorry I didn’t tell you.” Evelyn said with exasperation in her voice that did not go unnoticed.

“Oh Evelyn, I completely understand why some things are hard to say.” Angelica’s eyes danced in a way that Evelyn couldn’t decipher.

“I didn’t tell you that Edward has a child with someone else and you didn’t tell me about your girlfriend. Are we even?”

“Not even close, now excuse me I am not going to miss the strategy session with Henry.” Evelyn followed Angelica annoyed by her stubbornness.

“I didn’t tell you because it was a secret only a handful of people knew. Everyone knew you had a girlfriend but me so why would it be hard to tell me about your girlfriend?” Angelica smiled a reaction that made Evelyn weary. Angelica turned to face Evelyn and they both stood quiet for a moment. Evelyn traced the silk fabric of Angelica's blouse with her fingertips.

“I was afraid that while you support gay rights you may not be comfortable working so closely with a lesbian.” Evelyn laughed at the obvious lie. Angelica was not going to give into her question and Evelyn couldn’t blame her.

“Nothing about you could make me uncomfortable and I look forward to seeing you in the place you love most.” Angelica bit her lip as Evelyn walked ahead of her. She wasn’t sure if she wanted to scream at Evelyn or kiss her. She did however know that watching Evelyn walk away was pleasing nonetheless. Angelica tried to remind herself that Evelyn wanted nothing more than friendship from her. She wondered if she could spend time alone with Evelyn and not reveal her evolving feelings. She looked around and watched Madison as she spoke to Henry. Angelica realized that Evelyn’s life was very complicated. Her stepdaughter was moving in and Evelyn had to try to create a family amongst the mess. Despite Angelica’s growing lust for the governor’s wife, she knew she had to step aside and let them be happy. Angelica decided to bring a frustrated Madison to see her father.

Angelica had never seen Edward’s face light up like it did when his daughter walked through the door. It was a father so happy to see his daughter he was beaming. “It is so nice to see you." He said as he gave his daughter a hug.

“It’s nice to see you too dad. Janice has all my things by her desk.”

“I’m sorry I haven’t been around all day, how have you been keeping busy?” Edward asked.

“I’ve been hanging out with Angelica all day.” Edward looked surprised as he smiled at Angelica. He was relieved to hear comfort in Madison's tone.

“Having fun I hope?”

“Yes, she’s cool.” Madison said as both her and Angelica laughed.

“Do you mind waiting with Janice as we have a meeting.” Madison left the room as Angelica sat down at the head of the conference table.

“Madison seems comfortable around you which isn’t an easy feat. My wife enjoys your company as well. Do you see where I am going with this?”

“I’m not sure I do sir.” Angelica said as her voice quivered.

“I am going to ask you for a personal favor. Can you do a personal favor for me?”

Angelica wasn’t sure how she should answer the question. “Depends on the favor sir.”

Edward laughed heartily. “I was hoping you could spend time with both of them. Maybe they could get along better if they are around another girl they feel comfortable around, like a girl’s day out.”

“No problem sir, I would be happy to.” Angelica said relieved.

“Maybe next week you three can go out. I know that it seems like you’re doing a lot of grunt work, watching my daughter and tending to my wife, but I promise you all that you’re doing will not go unnoticed when I am looking to promote someone.”

Angelica smiled: “Thank you sir, I am more than happy to do all I can.” Henry and Evelyn walked in surprised to see Angelica already sitting down. Henry stopped directly next to Angelica.

“You’re in my seat.” Henry said as he motioned for Angelica to get up. “You won’t be needed for this meeting, thank you.” Henry dismissed his assistant without bothering to look in her direction.

“I would like to sit in on the meeting Henry.” Angelica said as both Henry and Evelyn looked up at her in surprise.

“Every top tier staff member will be in here any minute. There is no room for assistants or interns.” Henry said with steely eyes penetrating his assistant. The room had quickly filled with the most notable political minds in the state. Men and women that Angelica had seen in person but never actually spoke to. Excitement filled her and she knew she had to stay.

“Governor Stratford is it okay if I stay?” The Governor was surprised by the request that undermined his top aide. However, he saw ambition in Angelica’s eyes that reminded him of his own climb from mediocrity. He would have never made it to where he was without stepping on a few toes. “Of course Ms. Montalvo please take an empty seat." Henry was about to protest but didn’t want to admit defeat in front of his colleagues. It was only Evelyn who truly witnessed the disobedience of his assistant. Evelyn’s smirk was enough to make Henry redden with anger. Angelica took the only seat left in the room directly opposite Evelyn Stratford.

“In one hour I am holding a press conference to introduce my daughter to the world.” The whispers and chatter began instantly in the room. Henry stood up and explained the situation to the shocked room along with his strategy plan. “Edward will apologize for keeping this secret from the people of Connecticut.” Angelica eyes were focused on Evelyn the entire time that Henry spoke. Evelyn’s plump lips were inviting and Angelica couldn’t help but wonder how they would feel pressed against her own lips. The more she resisted the more she was drawn to the First Lady. The way Evelyn returned her gaze made her wonder if Evelyn could feel her desire from across the table.

“He will also explain that he is proud of his family.” Angelica sighed and shook her head. Evelyn was the only one to notice as she gave Angelica a quizzical look. Evelyn gave her a reassuring nod as Angelica yearned to speak up. Angelica could feel a different heat this time centered squarely on her shoulders. She opened her mouth to interrupt: “I’m sorry sir but I have to disagree.” Henry closed his eyes blinking away sheer anger as he slowly looked at his assistant.

“You have a better idea?”

“Different idea sir, may I?” Edward shook his head and offered his youngest, most inexperienced staff member the floor.

“Sir, it just seems like we are opening up to criticism by starting this press conference with an apology. We are letting the Press decide how the public should feel when they hear this news. I say we offer this good news as part of the press conference not as the topic of the press conference.” Angelica looked around for a reaction but all she heard was silence throughout the room. She knew that she would be stuck fetching dry cleaning permanently if this risk didn’t pay off.

“That is true we should embrace this as something positive and not as something we should apologize for.” Priscilla Cane, Edward’s press secretary was the first to speak out. “We just received some preliminary results from our health care initiative thousands of families have been able to sign up for health care with the more affordable rates. Our incentives have worked and we should announce that.

A confident Angelica continued: “Our State budget is at a surplus for the first time in years, you have cut spending for three consecutive years we will not apologize for a happy moment in your personal life.”

Henry interjected: “And you think reporters will simply follow suit and not fall over themselves over this juicy tidbit? Ms. Montalvo you should be seen and not heard from right now.”

Edward stood again and began to pace. Everyone waited for him to speak: “She’s right Henry, I don’t want to apologize for this, the media has been looking for an excuse to eat me alive.”

“Exactly sir, you have a chance to control your publicity and not live in fear of your public persona.”

“Edward it’s true you are only proving to be a confident leader.” Evelyn interjected. She was preoccupied with how turned on she was by Angelica’s confidence and forced herself to speak. Her chest thumped with desire as she felt Angelica’s confidence surge.

Henry began to offer more possibilities for their new strategy. Everyone was on board and Angelica couldn’t help but take a deep sigh of relief. She hadn’t noticed Evelyn’s look of sheer desire. She shifted her legs and accidentally hit Evelyn’s leg with her own. When she looked up to apologize she noticed Evelyn’s fingertip tracing the side of the table. She watched Evelyn’s fingertips slowly sway back and forth. She imagined those fingertips on her body. She felt her breath catch as her body tingled. She wondered if the display was a real interest or if Ms. Stratford enjoyed toying with her.

Chapter 5

The ride to the beach was a quiet one. Madison watched the deep blue hue of the water become brighter and they drove closer to their destination. Evelyn was wearing a purple bikini top with a matching purple skirt that tied at her side. Angelica enjoyed the sight of the late morning sun hitting Evelyn’s muscular thighs. She found it hard to watch the road.

“Thank you for coming out and spending time with us. Madison and I have been looking forward to this, right Maddy?” Evelyn watched Madison from the rear view mirror. Madison pretended not to notice as she continued to stare out of the window. Evelyn was truly relieved to have Angelica there with them. The more time Evelyn spent with Madison the more Madison seemed to dislike her. Edward’s poise and confident approach in his conference turned possible negative publicity into a positive. The new First Family made sure they were seen everywhere. As much as Madison didn’t like being close to Evelyn she was a natural in front of the camera.

“No problem, I love the beach.” Angelica winked at Evelyn who stared intently at her. Angelica swallowed hard as she watched the road. Angelica’s goal was to help bridge the gap between Evelyn and Madison. However, she didn’t anticipate how sexy Evelyn would look in her bikini. Focus Angelica, focus. She was happy they arrived quickly as she hoped the cool morning waters would calm her down.

Angelica acknowledged three members of Evelyn’s protection team within the small crowd at the beach. They didn’t seem to notice or pretended they hadn’t. They were always close but incognito to everyone except those who knew they were there. Evelyn never seemed to notice them. Angelica wondered if Evelyn preferred to ignore them. Evelyn’s life wasn’t truly her own and Angelica wondered what Evelyn would change if given the chance.

Madison ran towards the water as Evelyn and Angelica opened up their blankets across the sand. Evelyn froze when her fingers touched Angelica’s while holding the blanket. Angelica bit her lip and looked up at Evelyn. The wind was blowing her golden blonde hair away from her face. Even nature was working against Angelica she thought as she watched Evelyn’s hair flap in the wind in grand cinematic style. Angelica decided to run away from the situation.

Angelica took off her shirt revealing a black bikini top. Before Evelyn could speak she ran towards the water. Evelyn’s mouth opened slightly as if she was about to comment on the sight before her but couldn’t. Madison began to splash Angelica who tried to pull her deeper under water. Evelyn watched as Madison let loose so easily in Angelica’s presence. One day she hoped Madison would be as comfortable around her.

“Can I ask you something?” Angelica asked Madison as they circled each other in the water.

“Yeah, go ahead.” Madison said.

“Why don’t you give Evelyn a chance? She loves you despite what you may think.” Madison rolled her eyes as Angelica splashed water in her face.

“Look I’m sorry for rolling my eyes but she does not like me, let alone love me.”

“How do you know she doesn’t like you Madison? Did you two get into an argument or something?”

Madison splashed the water in front of her as tears formed in her eyes. Angelica grabbed her hand underneath the water. “You can tell me Madison, let me help.” Angelica whispered in a soothing tone. Madison paused as she tried to decide if Angelica was a person deserving of her trust. Angelica tugged on her hand slightly reassuring her just enough for Madison to continue.

“She’s just like the girls at school you know? They think they’re so good looking and get everyone’s attention. She ignores me the way they do. She’s too pretty to worry about Edward’s pudgy daughter.”

Angelica instinctively wrapped her arms around Madison whose tears increased with the admission. Madison sobbed as she spoke of being picked on at school. The names she was called and how she cried many nights. Angelica felt tears form in her eyes as she fought them back for Madison’s sake. She noticed Evelyn standing up in the distance with a concerned expression on her face.

“She thinks of me the way they do like I’m not good enough because I’m not as pretty as other girls.”

Angelica broke their embrace and faced Madison. “First, these people who tease you have no idea what they are talking about. You are a beautiful person you need to know that.”

“You have to say that you work for my dad.” Madison looked away.

“I do not have to say that if I don’t believe it. You try to hide how caring a girl you are but I see right through you. On the outside well, let’s just say that your father is going to have to watch you like a hawk when people start banging on his door.”

“Then why doesn’t she want me around? She barely looks at me.”

“Did you ever think that maybe she is intimidated by you? She doesn’t know how to open up to you because you don’t let her in. Give her a chance she is so much more than you think.” Angelica began to nudge Madison and pleaded for a smile.

“Okay, I will try because if you like her she must be okay.” Madison felt a burden lift from her shoulders. She had never voiced her weight concerns but the relief was instant.

“Don’t let anyone make you feel bad about yourself. You are beautiful you hear me?” Madison nodded her head as they circled each other in the water, “Thank you now let’s dip in the water so no one notices our teary eyes.” Angelica and Madison dipped underneath the water and swam back to shore.

Evelyn waited anxiously for Angelica and Madison to return from their swim. She thought she had seen Madison crying. As they approached, she sighed with relief when she saw nothing but smiles heading her way.

“I hope you two had a good swim?” Evelyn asked as she looked at Angelica.

“Very good, right Madison?”

“Yes, it was, um you should join us next swim Evelyn.”

Evelyn smiled. “I would love to.”

“That is, if Mrs. Stratford can get her beautiful hair wet.” Angelica said as she sat on the beach towel. Madison laughed as she sat down next to her. Evelyn grabbed a handful of sand and sat next to Angelica. She stretched onto her side and faced Angelica who was lying on her back. Angelica rested her hands behind her head very satisfied with herself. Evelyn began to sprinkle Angelica’s hair with the sand she had collected in her hands. Madison covered her mouth with her hand in shock as Angelica gasped.

“I don’t know when and I don’t know how but I am so going to get you for that.” Angelica said she shook her head causing sand to land on all of them.

“I’ll have you know that I spent two years after college at Manhattan Beach surfing so I have no problem getting my hair wet.” Evelyn said as she wiped the sand off of Angelica's cheek.

“You did? I wouldn’t have thought that” Angelica faced Evelyn, their bodies inches from each other.

“There are many things about me you may not expect.”

Angelica moaned her reaction to Evelyn’s suggestion. Evelyn leaned in close to Angelica and began to wipe some sand off of her hair. She laughed when she realized just how much sand was on Angelica’s head. She wiped sand off of Angelica’s ear. Angelica leaned her head back in obvious approval. Evelyn then placed a fingertip on her chin and traced across. When she noticed Angelica look away, she followed her gaze. A group of kids were playing volleyball as Madison watched. A young boy was smiling at Madison who smiled sheepishly in return.

Angelica smiled and nudged Evelyn at the sight. Evelyn gave the boy a territorial gaze as she lifted herself up with her hands. Angelica whispered: “Relax, she’s a good girl and we are right here watching her, encourage her.” Evelyn’s body would tingle whenever Angelica whispered softly in her ear and this time was no different.

“Do you want to go play volleyball with those kids Madison?” Evelyn said with a smile. Madison jerked up in surprise. She got up and put on her hoodie.

“Thank Evelyn.” She said as she walked towards the boys playing volleyball. Evelyn watched as the boy threw Madison the ball. She flinched in surprise when she felt Angelica’s hand on her stomach.

“I’m sorry. You just had some sand on your abs.” Angelica said as she slowly wiped the sand off of Evelyn’s muscular abs.

“It’s okay I don’t mind. You do know that Edward would kill me if he knew I let her talk to that boy.” Evelyn explained as Angelica sprawled out on the towel. Angelica eyes remained fixated on Evelyn’s stomach.

“Don’t worry I’m very good at keeping secrets. Now tell me how you got into surfing.” Evelyn absent-mindedly began to work the sand out of Angelica’s hair.

“Well, after college I just wasn’t ready to surrender to the stressful world of politics. I got some money together and rented a shack by the beach. I spent those two years surfing in complete serenity.”

“Aren’t your parents loaded, they couldn’t get you a condo?” Angelica said as she watched Evelyn intently.

“Yes, they could have but my father was not into spending frivolously when there were so many people out there who needed it more. If I was going to spend a couple of years without a career, he wasn’t going to fund it.”

“How did you afford two years there?”

“I worked at a crab shack down the road on the pier.” Angelica laughed as she tried to picture the trendy and proper Evelyn in a plastic apron serving the catch of the day.

“So you were a surfer girl in California that makes me see you in a whole new way.”

“What way is that?” Evelyn traced Angelica’s ribs with her fingernail. She could see Angelica’s body become tense.

“You’re just more amazing that I originally thought and I didn’t think it was possible.” Angelica’s voice trailed off as she watched Evelyn’s fingernails trace her own ribs. “I dream about living by the beach with the sound of the waves crashing in the distance.”

“Is Denise beside you in your dreams?” Evelyn asked, her voice lower matching her fingers as they traced an imaginary line towards Angelica’s legs.

“She should be she is good for me.” Angelica found it hard to speak as Evelyn’s fingers traced her thighs. “I know deep down it isn’t Denise. We have a nice relationship but I wonder if there is enough passion to sustain us.”

Evelyn noticed a look of concern on Angelica’s face. Evelyn tried to read Angelica’s eyes but Angelica wouldn’t make eye contact with her. Evelyn wanted to alleviate Angelica’s discomfort but wasn’t sure how to do so. “You deserve passion in your life always.”

“As do you.” Angelica said. Her chest grew heavy with desire. She watched as Evelyn continued to trace her thigh. She was relieved that Evelyn’s body was hiding her fingers from the view of others. She concentrated on Evelyn’s fingertips as they continued tracing small circles on her thigh. She leaned her head close to Evelyn’s neck and took in her scent.

“Why do you tease me?” Angelica said as her body ached for more.

“I’m not teasing you Angie. It just feels so perfect to be close to you.” Evelyn placed her hand in Angelica’s.

“Well, I am trying so hard to do the right thing but sometimes I am just not sure what the right thing is.” Angelica tried to explain all the possibilities that consumed her mind. “I can’t risk feeling anything for you and you being this close to me doesn’t help. Do you have any idea what you’re doing to me right now?”

Evelyn removed her hand from Angelica’s as Angelica’s words settled in. She could see the vulnerability in Angelica’s face and she knew she had caused her internal struggle.

“Why can't we enjoy each others company, I can see us being lifelong friends.” Angelica sighed in frustration. Being friends with Evelyn seemed far-fetched as they lay in the sand together. She again looked over at Madison playing volleyball. Evelyn was part of a family and as accessible as Evelyn made herself seem, she wasn’t. Angelica got up and began to walk off.

“Where are you going?” Evelyn asked as Angelica walked away.

“I’m going for a run.” Angelica wiped away tears as she picked up speed. She began to jog across the sand right by the water. The sand was cool and damp underneath her feet. She could still feel Evelyn’s body close to her own. She recalled Evelyn’s fingertips on her stomach. She could feel goose bumps all over her body simply by thinking about those fingertips that she craved on her body. She shook her head vigorously as she attempted to rid herself of the image.

Amber had captivated her as well. She remembered how vigorously Amber had shown her interest. Amber really wanted to have the courage to live her life with a woman. Behind closed doors Amber was the most loving woman Angelica had ever been with. However, when push came to shove, Amber decided life as a lesbian was just too risky a choice. It was all false hope. Angelica couldn’t do that to herself again. The fundraiser was two days away and she had to get Evelyn out of her mind and wherever else she was starting to penetrate.

Evelyn tried to blink away the bright lights that still flashed in her eyes. She was past the line of photographers but could still see the flash bolts as she sat down at the benefit. She smiled as she vaguely listened to George Graves tell her table all about his time in Europe that fall. Her eyes were focused on Madison. She watched Madison talk to various people with ease. She worried about her more than she ever thought possible. Madison was a young teenager suddenly thrust into political life. She was away from her mother and away from any semblance of normalcy. She smiled as Madison laughed across the room. Evelyn was amazed by Madison’s poise. She wanted desperately to connect to her stepdaughter but hadn’t found a way. She decided she had to talk to Angelica soon to find out how she was able to penetrate her defense.

Evelyn’s gasped softly as she noticed the woman she was thinking of enter the large ballroom. Her violet dress complimented her tanned skin and the way it hung perfectly from her body was enough to awaken Evelyn in ways long forgotten. The flash bolts in the background only increased the sparkle in Angelica’s smile as she waved to some colleagues in the room. Evelyn found it hard to breathe as she watched Angelica from afar waiting for Angelica to notice her. Madison ran up to Angelica who greeted her with a hug.

When Angelica finally made eye contact with Evelyn, no other thought mattered, no other face registered in the room. I can’t deny this anymore. Evelyn stood and made her way through the growing crowd. Angelica was watching her now as she spoke with Madison. Evelyn could feel her pulse pound in every fiber of her being the closer she got. She stopped a foot away from both Angelica and Madison. It was Madison who moved first. She kissed Evelyn on the cheek and walked away. Evelyn moved in close to Angelica: “Angie, you look absolutely gorgeous.”

“Why thank you Ms. Stratford you look pretty sexy yourself.” Angelica whispered as Evelyn’s perfume took hold of her senses like it had countless times before.

“Can we go somewhere and talk? Evelyn asked and she moved painfully close to Angelica. She could have sworn she heard Angelica’s heart beating as fast as her own. Her eyes darted trying to take all of Angelica in at once. It took Evelyn a few seconds to notice Denise Davis walk into the benefit. Denise looked Evelyn’s way as if she felt herself being watched. She smiled but Evelyn sensed a territorial anger in her eyes. Angelica tried to decipher the frown that suddenly appeared on Evelyn’s face: “So you brought her.” Evelyn said as she sighed.

Angelica felt a hand grasp her own and soft lips kiss her neck. Evelyn turned away before Angelica could object. Evelyn looked around seemingly looking for a place to hide. A pain in her chest throbbed its beat hard and heavy. Janice was walking towards her as she tried desperately to find a way out of the ballroom. She cursed to herself when Janice caught up to her. “Are you okay?” Janice asked as she noticed the watery eyes Evelyn tried to conceal.

“I’m fine I just need some air.” Janice grabbed Evelyn’s arm and brought her past the many faces to the back of the ballroom. They passed the kitchen and walked out of the service entrance of the hotel. Evelyn could still feel the ache in her chest as she felt the cool air hit her face. Janice stood before her as she tried to avoid eye contact.

“What do you expect?” Janice said as Evelyn gave her a quizzical look. “She is going to bring her girlfriend to events like this especially now that she has come out.”

Evelyn was startled by Janice’s forward approach.

“Who and what are you talking about?” Evelyn thought about Angelica inside the benefit with Denise. She became mad at herself for her moment of weakness. She was affected by Angelica and seeing her with Denise conjured up a feeling of sadness in her that she had never felt before. The past few years of her life were easy because she lived them without any real desires or emotions. Now for the first time she felt like her life was spinning out of control.

“I’m talking about Angelica. I saw what happened.” Janice did see Evelyn’s face light up when Angelica walked into the ballroom. She was shocked by Evelyn’s inability to hide her emotions. As a friend, she wanted nothing more than for Evelyn to find real happiness, happiness that most likely would be felt in another woman’s arms. As her assistant, she knew that whatever attraction she had for Angelica had to be stifled quickly.

Evelyn knew she should continue to deny her feelings even if it was a confidant that stood before her. As she felt the lump in her throat tighten she knew she couldn’t deny herself anymore. “Just when I think I can open myself up to her I see her with Denise and I lose my nerve. Angelica is not in love with her.”

“You’re right she isn’t in love with her I agree.” Janice felt her own pulse quicken realizing the magnitude of the conversation they were having. “But you’re married. Can you expect her to take a chance on you?”

Evelyn tried to erase the image of Angelica but the image became clearer. She thought of the electric impulses that tickled her body whenever they were close. She pictured Angelica’s soft full lips on her own. She felt their bodies intertwined in a passionate embrace. “What if she wants to?"

“She does want you Evelyn that is obvious. But you can’t even entertain the idea, do you understand me?”

Evelyn jumped up as if awoken from a dream. She tried to collect herself as she let Janice's words sink in. She also began to realize that she just outed herself to a woman who works for her. She studied Janice and felt her loyalty in the certainty of her voice.

“Thank you Janice, I can't talk honestly with anyone really.”'

Janice gave Evelyn a quick, awkward hug.

“Don't worry about it. Are you ready to go back in?” Janice led the way as Evelyn followed quickly behind her. She closed her eyes as she attempted to adjust to the lights in the ballroom.

Angelica was relieved to see Evelyn reenter the ballroom. It was killing Angelica to not know what was bothering her. Angelica was excited and quite surprised to be placed at the governor's table. It was the perfect opportunity to keep an eye on Evelyn. She had initially intended to avoid Evelyn but not after seeing her upset.

“Governor Stratford I think it is absolutely wonderful that you're honoring our younger generation in this way.” Denise said breaking the silence at the table.

“This is a wonderful night isn't it?” Edward beamed like a proud father as he looked over at the children from The Bannister Foundation. They spoke amongst themselves across the room equipped with eager expressions and smiling faces. Madison sat with them and he was happy to see her at ease with the guests of honor. He brought his attention back to his own table. “Ms. Davis how do you know Angelica?”

Janice tried desperately not to laugh as Angelica began to chug down her soup.

“Angelica is my girlfriend sir. We've been dating for six months now.” Edward looked surprised for a moment but smiled and winked at Angelica.

“Angelica where have you been hiding this woman?”

“Her job keeps her busy sir.”

“As will yours.”

“I don't understand.” Angelica was feeling uncharacteristically unsure of herself.

“You've proven that your talents can be better used in my office. I want you to be a media strategist for the Governor’s office. You won't be reporting to Henry anymore.”

Angelica received congratulations from everyone at the table as the Governor excused himself to greet the students at their table. Evelyn wanted desperately to give Angelica a hug. She was envious of Denise as she watched her so freely kiss and hug Angelica. She wanted to be able to share this moment with Angelica.

“Congratulations Angie, no one deserves this more than you.” Evelyn said with warmth and sincerity. Angelica smiled and tried to mask her desire to embrace Evelyn.

“Thank you Evelyn, you have a lot to do with my success you know." Angelica said with that wide smile that always sent Evelyn swooning.

“Oh do I, how so?”

“You were the first person interested in what I had to say.”

“Always will be.”

Janice tapped Evelyn on the shoulder after noticing the sexually charged exchange. Evelyn and Janice huddled close together. Angelica noted the urgency in Janice’s eyes as she whispered to Evelyn.

“She likes you.” Denise said and she leaned in close to her girlfriend.

Angelica felt her body tense up as Denise whispered the words she knew to be intrinsically true. She laughed nervously not quite sure what to say.

“Yes, she does, we have had many opportunities to work together.” Angelica said as Denise interlocked their fingers.

“And you capitalized on those opportunities, it is important to have friends in high places. I'm so proud of you for taking my advice. I can't wait to get back to your place and celebrate.”

Denise placed her hand on Angelica's thigh and moved up slowly. Angelica bit her lip as she tried not to make obvious the hint of pleasure tickling her thigh. Denise moaned into Angelica's ear as she pushed deeper inside Angelica's dress. She felt pure heat pushing back against her and she curled her finger deep inside her girlfriend's thighs. Angelica closed her thighs and she heard the MC of the evening introducing the governor.

“Tonight then.” Denise said as the fundraiser portion of the evening began. Angelica was relieved as the lights went down and the spotlight focused everyone's attention to the stage. She smiled at Evelyn as Evelyn moved to sit next to her. Henry now sat across her. He reeked of alcohol as he stumbled into his chair.

“Congratulations gorgeous.” Henry lifted his champagne glass to his former assistant. “You've really earned that promotion isn't that right Evelyn?”

“Yes, she has Henry.” Evelyn said through gritted teeth. Henry continued to stare at Angelica as everyone else watched Edward urge his guests to donate funds for his wife's charity.

“Henry maybe you should lay off on the champagne.” Janice said now sitting next to Henry.

“She is a fraud but that is okay she will have Priscilla Crane to worry about now.” Henry stated as he ignored Janice's plea.

“Let Angelica worry about her new boss Henry.”

“She won't be able to charm Priscilla the way she has charmed all of you.” Henry attempted to whisper but his voice was loud enough for all at the table to hear.

“What do you have against me Henry? I did your bidding yet you hate me why?” Angelica said exasperated.

“I don’t hate you I have no respect for you or your tactics.” Evelyn hit the table and was about to speak before she felt Angelica’s hand on her thigh instantly silencing her.

“Henry you just can't handle the fact you couldn't control me. You're an asshole and I am glad I can finally say that to you.” Denise interjected.

“Sweetheart let's just calm down and help Mrs. Stratford raise money for her charity.” Henry got up from the table and leaned in close to Denise.

“Watch her closely doll. She is poisoning you too.” Henry walked away from the table. No one spoke as the fundraiser continued. Angelica was seething her cheeks red, her eyes filled with fury.

“He is obviously intoxicated it doesn't help you to get into an argument with him." Denise stated sternly to her girlfriend.

“It's not her fault you should be defending your girlfriend not reprimanding her like a child.” Evelyn had enough of Denise and wasn't going to keep quiet anymore. Evelyn stood up and headed towards the service entrance. She rushed outside hoping the cold air would calm her. She put her head down against the brick of the hotel wall. She felt all self-control slipping away. Her eyes were closed so she did not notice Angelica open the backdoor. She felt hands on her hips as her eyes shot open. Angelica stood closely behind her. She leaned into Angelica whose hands wrapped around her.

“Thank you.” Angelica said as she placed a soft kiss on Evelyn's shoulder.

“I don't like your girlfriend.” Evelyn said with a pout.

“She's looking out for my career, something I should be doing.” Angelica pushed against Evelyn's body. Evelyn quivered as she steadied herself with a hand to the wall. “I am pretty lucky I have, not only a girlfriend, but a lifelong friend to protect me.”

Evelyn laughed as her own words came back to haunt her. “How can I go on being your friend?”

“Evie, your husband is in there raising thousands for your foundation you will celebrate with him tonight. I will celebrate my promotion with my girlfriend. That's how we go on.” Angelica tried to relinquish her grip but Evelyn held Angelica's arms around her. She never felt warmth in an embrace like she felt in that moment.

“What if I can't go on like that anymore?” Evelyn asked as she turned around to face Angelica while still locked in their embrace. Their lips again were inches away from each other but this time Evelyn would not let the opportunity pass. She pressed her lips against Angelica's. She was eager but unsure what to do. Angelica opened her mouth slightly as Evelyn sucked Angelica's bottom lip into her mouth. Angelica moaned into Evelyn's mouth as she placed both of her hands onto Evelyn's cheeks. Angelica’s tongue traced Evelyn's lip as Evelyn hands swept across her lower back. When Angelica's tongue entered Evelyn's mouth they both crashed into each other. Angelica pushed Evelyn against the wall as Evelyn's hands explored her body. Evelyn felt her own body on fire with need. They both jumped as the back door swung open next to them. Madison ran out with Janice chasing after her.

“There you are Angie!” Madison exclaimed as she took Angelica's hand unaware of what she had just interrupted. “You have to sit with me I'm dying in there.”

Angelica followed Madison inside. Evelyn looked up into the sky as Janice stood before her.

“What was going on out here?' Janice asked noticing Evelyn's smudged lipstick and silly smile.

“We kissed.” Evelyn sighed her head spinning. “I've never felt anything like that.” She traced her lips with her finger. She could still feel Angelica’s mouth against her skin.

“You do realize that you stepdaughter almost caught you?” Janice tried to reason with her boss. Evelyn stood quiet as she stared at the night sky. She looked sorrowful as she spoke out to Janice.

“Please Janice let me have this moment. I finally did something for me in my life I don't want to apologize for it.” Janice gave her boss a hug as she realized how big a step this was for Evelyn.

“So you liked it?” Janice asked realizing that Evelyn needed a supportive friend not a lecture.

“She is so sexy she blows me away.” Evelyn said as she replayed their kiss in her mind.

“That she is.” Janice said with a smile. Evelyn pinched her assistant noticing the look of admiration from Janice.

“Well, anyway I came to get you because Stacy just got here and your husband is looking for you.” Evelyn just shook her head and allowed Janice to pull her back into the hotel.

“Why are you so quiet?” Denise asked as she drove her BMW back to Angelica's apartment. She had noticed Angelica had been quiet since Henry made his nasty comments. She was upset at herself for not defending Angelica and allowing another woman to do so. She sensed that Angelica was upset at her. “I'm sorry I didn't confront Henry I just thought it best to ignore him, he was drunk.”

Angelica snapped back to reality. She had been staring out the window watching the streetlights blur together. “No, you were right not to be bothered with him I'm not upset.”

“Then what is wrong sweetheart?”

“I just don't feel well.” Angelica lied.

“I told you not to drink that second glass of champagne on an empty stomach.” Denise continued to speak but Angelica focused on the world around her as they drove along. Her mouth still felt electric after the best kiss of her life. However, it was guilt that consumed her. She had spent the rest of the banquet sitting with Denise to her right and Madison to her left. Two people she cared about that she betrayed simultaneously in one night. She tapped the window glass as she thought about taking Evelyn in her arms. She knew that she had to break it off with Denise. She had cheated on her and Denise didn't deserve to be betrayed.

“We need to talk.”

“Okay then let’s go inside so we can do just that.” Denise interrupted as they arrived outside of Angelica's apartment. Kai waved them into the living room where she sat watching television. Angelica sat down across from Kai and Denise. She watched quietly as Denise and Kai gossiped about the evening. They spoke about the designer dresses and present scandals that were making headlines. However, all Angelica thought about was the way that kiss made her feel. She hadn't felt that much intensity in a kiss since the last time she kissed Amber. More importantly, she hadn't felt exposed since Amber had left her. She had done a good job protecting her heart from further damage.

“Guess who yelled at me today?” Denise said with glee in her voice.

“Who?” Kai exclaimed eager to hear more.

“Evelyn Stratford of all people.” Denise described the conversation with Henry and Evelyn's criticism for not getting involved.

“Now why in the world would Evelyn Stratford get involve in how your girlfriend handles anything involving you Angelica?” Kai asked with a smirk. Angelica didn't say anything although she so deeply wanted to scream out what had happened earlier that night.

“It doesn't matter, what does matter is that Angelica got a promotion and we should all go away this weekend to celebrate.” Denise said as she headed to the kitchen. Angelica followed Denise slowly. Angelica knew it would be a long night.

Chapter 6

“I don't understand why you have to go with her?” Madison asked as she walked with Angelica across the long row of cubicles.

“Because Governor Stratford wants me to.”

“I want you to stay so maybe I can talk to him.” Angelica walked over to Madison and placed her arm around the young girl's shoulder.

“I know my job will take away some of the time we spend together, but I will make time.”

“The only solitude is that you're taking Evelyn with you to New York.” Madison said as she sat at Angelica's desk.

“Aren't things a little better between you two?” Angelica asked as she studied her newest friend. Madison’s eyes were filled with pain and Angelica knew there was more to her story than she would ever let on.

“Things are a little better she isn't full monster just half. I just want some time alone with dad. We're going to spend a lot of time together.”

“Then I am happy you have this time to spend with him.” Angelica's phone rang and Madison picked it up before Angelica could grab it.

“Angie's phone. Yes,...of course...ok she will be right there.” Madison hung up the phone as Angelica waited for her to speak.

“That was Dad he wants to see you in Priscilla's office.” Angelica finished collecting her belongings and made her way to Priscilla Crane's office. Working under the Director of Communication was an exciting new venture that should have made Angelica nervous. However, the recent changes in her love life were more than enough to keep her preoccupied. She lightly tapped on Priscilla Crane's office door before walking in. Edward Stratford stood against Priscilla's desk as Priscilla watched the television in her office.

“Please sit down Angelica we have a lot to discuss.” Priscilla said as she motioned to the empty seat in front of her desk.

Edward smiled at Angelica, which caused her to stare at her own feet in front of her.

“You have to take care of my wife for me while she’s in New York do you hear me?” Edward said as he moved towards the door.

“Yes, I understand sir.”

“Congratulations again and I know you will make us proud.” Edward left the office as Priscilla stood up. Angelica had rarely spoken to Priscilla Cane. Priscilla was intimidating as she stood above Angelica. She pushed down her eyeglasses and stared intently into Angelica's eyes.

“Unlike Edward I am not impressed by you and you were never my choice for this position or for this assignment.” Angelica was caught off guard and found herself to be speechless. She wanted to defend herself as worthy of the position but her confidence wasn't at its highest point. She started to wonder if Henry was right, she was a poison to the Stratford's. Edward trusted her and she was causing him harm.

Priscilla was surprised to see the uncertainly in Angelica's face. She felt that Angelica was a hotshot that had to be brought down a peg. However, the woman with the cocky reputation was not the woman sitting before her.

“Keep Evelyn out of trouble and make sure she watches what she says. She respects you use that to your advantage. Prove me wrong kid.” Priscilla gave Angelica a smile as she opened the door to usher Angelica out. Angelica walked back to her desk where Janice and Madison waited.

Angelica was relieved to see Janice's welcoming smile. “How are you?” Janice asked as she leaned in close to Angelica.

“I'm fine just getting ready for New York.” Angelica said as she greeted her friend. Janice’s eyes darted around as she avoided eye contact with Angelica.

“If you ever need to talk about anything I am here.” Janice cheeks reddened as she placed her hand on Angelica’s shoulder. Angelica gasped realizing the source of Janice's concern. She grabbed Janice by the arm and led her into the conference room. Angelica studied Janice closely. She saw feign innocence in her eyes.

“Tell me what you know.” Janice paced as the question was posed. She was never good at keeping things hidden especially from a woman that affected her in the ways that Angelica did. Angelica came close to her and leaned her head toward Janice; their eyes were inches apart. Angelica tilted her head and read Janice's eyes. Janice cracked quickly.

“I know about the kiss.” Janice said as Angelica sat on top of the conference table. Angelica's mind raced back to that night. She knew that her life had been changed permanently after that kiss she just wasn't sure if it was for better or worse.

“It got out of hand.” Angelica said as she tapped her hand against the table. Janice walked over to Angelica and put her hand over Angelica's.

“Everyone makes mistakes.” Janice said as she rubbed Angelica's hand.

“Is everyone a home wrecker or a poison to a family?” Angelica asked as tears began to form in her eyes.

“Shhh don't cry.” Janice said as she put her arms around her friend. “What is making you so sad?”

“I'm not sad, I feel guilty. That kiss did not feel like a mistake I loved it. She has a family, and her husband trusts me, and this is how I repay him.” Angelica knew she could never regret her feelings for Evelyn; however, her sense of loyalty caused her to struggle with what she had done.

“Look Evelyn is a grown woman and her family is her concern. You can't beat yourself up for enjoying that kiss. Have you noticed how beautiful she is?” Angelica laughed as Janice intended.

“She's more than beautiful.” Angelica's thoughts trailed off. Deep down she knew Janice was right she couldn't beat herself up especially when kissing Evelyn made her feel alive for the first time in years. I'm tired of feeling bad over what I did. Angelica knew that while she couldn't forget or even want to forget that it happened, she could prevent it from happening again.

“Good for you. You are a great person Angelica and your sense of loyalty is highly attractive but you have a right to look after your own happiness.” Angelica smiled and gave Janice a tight bear hug.

“The girl that gets you Janice will have to deal with me. You deserve the very best.” Evelyn walked into the conference room as Janice and Angelica hugged. She watched them embrace waiting for them to notice she was there. A quick twinge of jealousy gave way to a sense of excitement. She couldn't wait to leave for New York with the two of them. She needed to spend as much time with Angelica as possible to explore what she was feeling.

“Ladies are you ready to go? Evelyn asked at the edge of the door. Janice nodded her head as she walked out of the conference room. Evelyn locked the door behind her and moved closer to Angelica. Angelica watched Evelyn stride confidently towards her. Evelyn's eyes glinted with desire as she stood in between Angelica's legs.

“It's been a long couple of days, I've missed you.” Evelyn rubbed Angelica's legs affectionately as she spoke. Angelica watched Evelyn’s hands wishing she could wrap them around her body.

“It's been hectic getting everything ready for my new position and with Denise.” Angelica said as Evelyn's hands promptly stopped their movement.

“I hope you have your affairs settled because we are off to the city babe.” Evelyn playfully slapped Angelica's leg. As they both made their way out of the room. The team that would be escorting them on the trip quickly bombarded them. Angelica was taken aback by the size of the contingent that would accompany them on this small but meaningful trip. They only had to be out on the road for a few short days but Edward made sure he had a few eyes on Evelyn at all times.

Janice wrapped her hands around Angelica's arm as they walked towards the dark black SUVs that were outside on Capital Avenue. One member of the security detail sat with Angelica, Evelyn, and Janice as they made their way to New York. It was a quiet ride for most of the trip. Evelyn watched Angelica stare out the window. She was confident that Angelica enjoyed their kiss as much as she did but they hadn't discussed it. She was unsure how to discuss the brief but powerful moment they shared. She watched as Janice began to flick Angelica's shoulder with her finger.

“I never realized you two get along as you do.” Evelyn said masking any sense of displeasure.

“What's not to like, look at this face!” Angelica said as she softly grabbed Janice's chin. The bright red cheeks that appeared revealed more of Janice's feelings than Janice would ever want. Evelyn felt her slight twinge of jealousy turn into a wave of concern as Angelica put her head on Janice's shoulder. Evelyn hated the lack of control she had over her emotions where Angelica was concerned. She wanted to be by Angelica's side for all to see. She wanted to be able to wrap her arm around Angelica and protect her always. Just to touch her softly in the car and cause her to smile would be enough to make Evelyn happy. It was envy that she was truly feeling.

“Janice, will you please go through the agenda for the day?”

Janice explained that they would first attend an exhibit at the museum of art followed by a lunch with their directors. As Janice continued Evelyn's foot bumped into Angelica's leg. It caused Angelica to jump slightly. Before Evelyn could apologize she was looking straight into Angelica's eyes. Her body and mind pulled her close to Angelica. Janice began to speak louder but all Evelyn could hear was Angelica whisper.

“I have to leave lunch at 2pm.”

“Why?” Evelyn asked her voice as quiet as Angelica's.

“The Gay and Lesbian Alliance at NYU would like to interview me for their newspaper.”

“You think I can sneak out with you?”

“I don't think that's a good idea.” Angelica knew that while the Stratford's were known for gay rights advocacy she was to avoid polarizing issues on her trip. According to Edward, she had to make sure Evelyn did more listening than speaking for the next few days.

“Why? I just want to keep you company, this is your thing and I don't want to interfere.” Angelica relented. Janice gave up on explaining the day’s agenda and just doodled in her calendar. Angelica tried to peak at Janice's day planner which caused her to shut it quickly.

“What do they want to interview you about?” Janice asked hoping Angelica would stop poking at her day planner.

“They want to talk about coming out when you work in politics, being a young lesbian, and relationships.”

“So they want to talk about you and Denise?” Evelyn pointed out as she rolled her eyes.

“Well, the reporter will be disappointed.”

“We all are.” Evelyn said which prompted Janice to smack her on the arm.

“She will be disappointed because Denise and I broke up.” Angelica had been waiting for the right time to let Evelyn in on the news. Evelyn smiled as she asked Angelica if she was okay. The fake sincerity was obvious to both Janice and Angelica although neither acknowledged it. The SUV halted before Angelica could answer. They had arrived at the museum just in time to be bombarded by a crowd eager to speak to the First Lady.

Angelica couldn't believe that she was able to sneak out of the luncheon with Evelyn. Evelyn asked Angelica to accompany her to the bathroom and next thing she knew they were running towards the SUV. Evelyn watched Angelica as she watched the road. She was excited by the revelation of Angelica’s breakup. She was also relieved that they were finally completely alone. She thought that Angelica’s new position would afford them many opportunities to be alone but she quickly noticed time alone was hard to come by.

“Why did you and Denise break up?”

“We just aren't right for each other so she deserves someone better for her.” Angelica kept her eyes on the road as Evelyn traced small circles on her finger.

“That is the politically correct answer and I’m not a reporter so how about telling me the truth.” Evelyn began to rub the back of Angelica’s neck. The touch was instinctual filled with more care than lust.

“Did it have anything to do with me?

“Yes.”

Evelyn grabbed Angelica's hand and linked it into her own. She was frustrated with Angelica's short answers, as the car ride became a quiet one. However, the silence as Evelyn continued to rub Angelica’s hand spoke more of what they were beginning to share than any words could.

Angelica eased her hand out of Evelyn's as she continued to drive towards the university. It hurt her to disappoint Evelyn but Evelyn was asking for more intimacy than she could provide. Angelica could date women but she vowed never to open herself up to heartbreak or disappointment again. Evelyn's marriage and position in the world guaranteed that Angelica would find another broken heart in her arms.

The perpetual shade that covered Manhattan due to the tall buildings was a welcomed sight for Angelica. It was home, the hustle of people rushing by, the yellow cabs cutting her off, the color billboards and the concrete backdrop all familiar attributes of home.

Angelica took Evelyn by the hand and led her to the school's bookstore. For a brief moment they walked as a couple would, hand in hand. The moment was fleeting as Angelica let go and began to rummage through some sweatshirts in the store.

“Why are we here?” Evelyn's voice was strained. She was growing tired of Angelica's confusing demeanor.

“I have got to get you into a sweatshirt, Mrs. Stratford must be incognito.” Angelica picked up a large hooded sweatshirt and put it against Evelyn. She let her hands linger on Evelyn's body. Evelyn placed her hands over Angelica's as their eyes met. Angelica forced herself to move away as she found a cap to put on top of Evelyn's head.

“You know this is scary for me too.” Evelyn voice was louder than she intended but she didn't care. “You know maybe I shouldn't even care.” Evelyn snatched the newly bought clothes from Angelica's hands and put them on.

“I care, you know I do, I just want to focus on this interview, can we do that?”

Evelyn sighed deeply and shook her head. She saw fear in Angelica's eyes, pure unadulterated fear. She hated that not only couldn't she comfort Angelica, but that she was causing this fear. She decided all she could do was watch the interview and find some time to speak alone again later that night.

“You fit right in you barely look twenty-one.” Angelica said as they headed towards the student center to the main cafeteria and waited for the reporter to meet them. Evelyn was shocked to see the woman heading towards them. The woman was positively stunning. She was tall and statuesque. She wore tight blue jeans and a blue striped blouse. Her hair was pulled back in a perfectly placed messy bun. Her eyeglasses were stylish as they highlighted her sky blue eyes.

“Good Evening Ms. Montalvo thank you so much for meeting me for a late lunch.” Angelica took the reporter's hand and gave her that smile that Evelyn loved.

“Kristen, this is Evelyn Stratford.” Evelyn shook Kristen's hand the reporter seemed startled by the introduction.

“Thank you for allowing me to attend this interview.” Evelyn watched as Kristen gave Angelica a look that caused her to cringe.

“The pleasure is all mine Mrs. Stratford, thank you for your continued support of the LGBT community”

“It is an issue close to my heart.” Evelyn said as Angelica kicked her underneath the table.

“Now to you Ms. Montalvo you have caused quite a stir with every lesbian on campus I had to make sure quite a few girls agreed to stay away from here tonight.” Angelica laughed nervously. One thing she always tried to hide about herself was that deep down she was painfully shy.

“Oh stop, no one knows who I am nor should they.”

“Quite to the contrary when a woman who is frequently seen to the right of an influential Governor comes out we tend to notice.” Evelyn loved watching Angelica take on this praise with humility. She knew that the political spotlight would never change Angelica. Kristen asked Angelica many questions about her early life and how she reached the Governor's mansion. The questions were standard, all questions Evelyn had answered many times before. Evelyn perked up when they again began to discuss Angelica's sexual orientation.

“How does it feel to know you are being seen as a lesbian sex symbol in our community?” Angelica laughed as her cheeks reddened.

“I don't know how it feels because I don't see myself that way. How did that even happen?”

“That picture of you and your beautiful girlfriend from the governor's fund raiser turned many heads. A few girls are very disappointed that you are taken.” Kristen's voice took on a suggestion that Angelica and Evelyn both noticed.

“Here is some breaking news for you, my girlfriend and I are no longer together. She is a beautiful person and I wish her the best.” Evelyn was uncomfortable with the direction the interview was taking. The reporter leaned in close to the table, her breasts were on display and she seemed quite proud of them.

“I may not put that in my story. Your personal life should be kept discreet and if women get wind of this I might lose my exclusive access to you.” Kristen's airy voice grew deeper with her intent clear.

“I think you can be my personal reporter anytime you’d like.” The reporter smiled and her attention shifted to Evelyn.

“Mrs. Stratford do you mind if I ask you a few questions?”

“That wasn’t part of our agreement Mrs. Stratford has no comment.” Angelica said never losing her composure.

“I would just like to know as a supporter of gay rights why Mrs. Stratford hasn’t done more to push down lobbyist who are trying to ban same sex marriage?”

“I have fought to the bone for…” Angelica cut Evelyn off as she spoke…

“Mrs. Stratford cannot answer for the Governor’s politics, she has no comment.”

“We have a prior engagement we must get going.” Evelyn was made nervous by the twinge of anger in Angelica’s voice. She stood up and waited for Angelica to do the same.

“You listen to me I would love to do all I can for your organization, however, I cannot do that unless the story your writing leaves Mrs. Stratford out completely. Do we have an agreement?” Angelica took out her business card and wrote a note on the back.

“Here is my cell phone number we'll keep in touch.” Angelica gave her card over to Kristen as Evelyn tapped her foot.

Angelica felt the cold air hit her face as she walked back to the SUV. Angelica regretted not picking up a sweater for herself on an unseasonably cold day.

Evelyn wrapped her arm around Angelica's as they rushed towards the car. She knew deep down that she shouldn’t mention the flirtatious interview she just witnessed or how much it angered her.

“That girl was flirting with you and you gave her your number.” Evelyn was not very good at hiding her emotions, at least not with Angelica.

“That girl was trying to provoke you and you almost let her. I should have never let you come with me.” Angelica laughed when she noticed that Evelyn seemed annoyed with her. “And if I did give her my number because I was interested?”

Evelyn got into the car without answering the question. Angelica tried to hide her frustration but it was evident. For a married woman to be possessive of her was a little more irony than Angelica cared for. Angelica closed the door behind her as she sat in the driver's seat. Before Angelica could put her seatbelt on Evelyn moved across her seat and kissed her. Angelica didn't fully realize what was happening until she felt Evelyn's tongue dart into her mouth. She let go of her seat belt and wrapped her arm around Evelyn's back. They were entrenched in a deep embrace within seconds. Angelica moaned when she felt soft lips move down to her neck. She not only surprised Evelyn but she surprised herself when she moved her head away. Evelyn sat quietly with her leg in between Angelica’s legs. She finally moved back into her seat and waited for Angelica to start the car.

As they drove off they both sat in silence. Evelyn tried to cool down after a fleeting moment of red-hot desire. Angelica's heart was beating faster than it ever had before. She was angry with herself for wanting a married woman as much as she knew she wanted Evelyn. She was also scared that pushing away would alienate Evelyn permanently.

“Why are you so scared of me?”

“What? I’m not scared of you. I just know that we can’t do this.”

“No, that isn’t it I am here wanting you and that is obvious. You won’t open up to me or anyone will you?”

“Not a married woman.” Angelica pointed out as her palms became sweaty. Evelyn was dangerously close to spaces inside of her she kept solely for herself. She knew it was more than Evelyn’s marital status that caused her pause. She didn’t want to open her heart fully the way she had once before in her life. “Just drop it Evelyn.” Evelyn remained silent she didn’t want to push Angelica any further than she already had.

When they reached the hotel on Broadway Priscilla Crane was standing outside yelling into her cell phone. Angelica was hesitant to leave her car as Priscilla began to yell in her direction. Angelica tried to explain why she allowed Evelyn to go missing. Evelyn attempted to intervene but Angelica motioned for her to go upstairs.

Evelyn met Janice in the lobby and walked with her into the elevator. Evelyn was quiet as she followed Janice into her hotel room. Evelyn smiled when she noticed Angelica’s luggage on one of the beds. She took the luggage off of the bed and lay down. Janice studied her boss closely waiting for an explanation of their disappearance.

“So you are staying with her?” Evelyn stated the obvious.

“Why did you disappear?” Janice asked. “We were worried about you and I had to cover and say that I didn’t know where you two were.”

“Thank you for doing that Janice I just couldn’t imagine spending the rest of the day away from her.” Janice sat down on her bed. She knew that Evelyn was embarking on feelings that put everyone’s career in serious jeopardy. Evelyn was acting like a love struck schoolgirl and if anyone found out about this all hell could break loose. It seemed like Janice was the only one focusing on the possible problems they all could face.

“Are you two involved at this point?” Janice didn’t know how else to put it.

Evelyn took in a deep breath and pondered the question. Her lips still tingled from the kisses they had shared less than an hour before. She felt invincible although she knew she was nothing of the sorts.

“No, she keeps pushing me away. She’s not ready to let me in, she’s not ready to trust me.”

“Isn’t that a good thing?” Janice asked. The door swung open before Evelyn could answer. Angelica walked in with Priscilla Crane close behind her. Evelyn got up from Angelica’s bed and walked towards Priscilla.

“Mrs. Stratford, I would like to meet with you to discuss the next few days.” Pricilla said never taking her eyes off of Angelica. Evelyn walked out of the room trying to avoid looking at Angelica. She knew if she had it would be too hard to leave. She felt all of Angelica’s defenses slowly chipping away and she wanted to stay near. Before Priscilla left the room she walked over to Janice and Angelica who was now sitting next to Janice.

“Janice I want you to watch her and if she allows Mrs. Stratford to cause any more trouble you let me know.” Janice agreed as Priscilla slammed the door shut. Angelica collapsed onto the bed as Janice stood up.

“You’re in some deep shit you realize that right?”

“I know Janice I just got chewed out on the way up here.”

“No, I’m talking about the governor’s wife. She is falling in love with you.” Angelica felt goose bumps all over her body. She wanted so desperately to believe that Evelyn’s feelings were genuine. However, she knew that she wouldn’t know genuine if it kissed her on the lips.

“I don’t know what to think and more importantly, I don’t know what to do.” Janice sat back down next to Angelica and softly rubbed her head. Angelica closed her eyes as many images flashed across her mind. She thought of her and Amber together and how in love they were. She thought about the kiss she shared with Evelyn only an hour before.

“I don’t want to fall in love.”

“We can’t control when we fall in love. You’re lucky if you can share that love with someone else.” Janice said softly as she rubbed Angelica’s back. Janice yearned to be the best friend possible. She saw an anxiety in her friend’s eyes that made her want to protect Angelica.

“I am not lucky in love.”

“What has happened to make you so weary?” Angelica sat up and opened her mouth but no words escaped her lips.

“You can trust me.” Janice urged Angelica to continue.

“I’ve just been crushed in the past. I was in love with this woman and she really broke my heart. She couldn’t handle the pressure of being with another woman. I gave her everything I had inside and since then I’ve been….”

“You’ve been what?” Janice whispered.

“Numb.”

“I will hunt her down if she hurts you.” Angelica laughed at the idea of Janice hurting anyone, especially Evelyn. She thought about the desire she had for Evelyn and the guilt and fear that accompanied it. Angelica gave Janice a kiss on the forehead and thanked her for listening as she got up. She changed into her robe as she prepared to go to sleep.

Chapter 7

Evelyn slept fitfully in her bed as she tried to fall asleep. She could hear the low rumble of the air conditioning unit in the room. She tried to will herself to sleep to no avail. The rumble and her thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door. Evelyn hesitated to get up. She was exhausted and confused by the day’s events. She was not used to rejection. She wasn’t even used to wanting someone at all. Control had been replaced with an intense wanting that Evelyn knew might not be a good thing. She slowly slumped to the door annoyed by the interruption. When she opened the door she was surprised to see Angelica standing in front of her. Evelyn noticed that Angelica wore a silk robe and a troubled expression. Angelica walked in without saying a word. She leaned against the door when it was closed. They stood silent for a moment taking each other in. Evelyn leaned in close against Angelica and traced Angelica’s bottom lip with her finger. Her fingers tingled as they traced the softest lips Evelyn had ever felt. She pressed her thigh against Angelica’s body. She waited for a moment as she asked permission with her eyes to continue.

Evelyn took in Angelica’s sweet scent and began to kiss her softly. She took her time placing soft kisses on every inch of Angelica’s face. She was going to savor every moment she touched Angelica. When Angelica returned her kisses it shot electricity throughout her entire body. Evelyn wrapped her arms around Angelica and hugged her tightly as they kissed.

“What made you change your mind?” Evelyn asked as Angelica kissed her neck. Angelica continued to kiss Evelyn’s neck, down to her throat.

“I ran out of ways to say no.” Angelica said as she grabbed the drawstring of Evelyn’s gray track pants pushing her body deeper into Evelyn. Evelyn moaned as she felt the sensation throughout her body.

Angelica kissed down Evelyn’s chest. Evelyn tried desperately to reach for Angelica’s robe but it was just out of reach. When she finally reached the tie of the robe with the tips of her fingers, Angelica moved out of reach.

“Don’t make me beg.” Evelyn said breathlessly. Angelica had no intention of making Evelyn beg. She untied her robe and she let it fall to the floor. Evelyn gasped softly at the sight in front of her. Black lace panties were all Angelica wore. Her breasts were full and free of any restraints. Evelyn let her hands shakily reach for Angelica’s breasts. She moaned as she felt Angelica’s nipples harden as her fingers grazed them. She took her time exploring Angelica’s breasts.

Angelica bit her lip as her whole body tingled. She buried her head into Evelyn’s neck as Evelyn touched her with both curiosity and desire.

“Come lay down.” Evelyn said as she led Angelica to the bed. Evelyn arranged the pillows so Angelica could sit up on the bed. Evelyn felt her heartbeat pound from the inside out as her eyes met Angelica’s. Evelyn was meant to love and be with a woman a reality it took her a long time to accept. Now she had what in her opinion was the most beautiful woman she had ever seen responding to her touch and the excitement was unparalleled.

Angelica had her eyes closed but she opened them when Evelyn’s touch was replaced with the cold air of the room. Evelyn stood at the front of the bed. She was frozen as she stared at Angelica. Angelica moved towards the edge of the bed and took Evelyn’s hand. She gave Evelyn a reassuring smile when she felt the sweaty palm against her own hand. “Let’s get you out of those clothes."

Angelica pushed the sweater she had bought earlier over Evelyn’s shoulders. As she rubbed her head against Evelyn’s stomach she felt the white-hot heat of Evelyn’s body. Evelyn held on to Angelica’s head. She caressed Angelica’s neck and hair.

“You have to walk me through this I’m not sure what to do.” Evelyn said as her nerves began to play tricks on her. She tried to conjure up her confidence but it eluded her. As her shaky hands reached for Angelica’s shoulders, she knew she had lost all control. Angelica slowly lowered Evelyn’s pants. Evelyn began to shake as she stood naked before Angelica. Evelyn could not speak as Angelica held her gaze. The moment their eyes locked everything changed. Although naked for the first time in front of Angelica, she felt safe and cared for.

Angelica held Evelyn by the cheek and brought her in for a soft kiss. The kiss quickly intensified as Angelica’s tongue explored Evelyn’s mouth. Evelyn pushed Angelica onto the bed, which caused Angelica to gasp in shock. Evelyn laughed as she jumped on top of Angelica. Angelica was surprised to feel how wet Evelyn was as Evelyn moved on top of her. Evelyn traced Angelica’s body with her hands. She again took Angelica’s breasts in her hands. She softly squeezed which caused a moan from Angelica that made her swoon.

Evelyn replaced her fingers with her tongue as she traced the outline of Angelica’s breasts. She licked down to the curves of Angelica’s abs feeling the muscles ripple with her touch. She pulled Angelica’s panties off as she stared deep into Angelica’s eyes. Deep within those eyes she found the exact reason why she had to be with Angelica. She had spent months wondering why she could not resist, why she would risk everything to be with this woman. Angelica’s eyes resonated with such genuine passion Evelyn needed to be consumed by them. She hadn’t known such authenticity in an embrace until she shared one with Angelica.

She reached between Angelica’s thighs as her body crashed into Angelica’s. They were both surprised by the ease in which Evelyn slipped her hand deep into Angelica’s body. Liquid heat enveloped Evelyn’s fingers as Angelica sat up in both shock and excitement. Evelyn closed her eyes as she felt Angelica’s body wrap around her fingers. All uncertainty was replaced by blinding need as she pumped her fingers into Angelica’s sex. Evelyn wrapped her legs around Angelica’s thigh as Angelica moaned into her ear. It was all the encouragement she needed as she rocked rhythmically with her new lover. Her actions were more instinctual than when they had started. Her thumb found Angelica’s clitoris as they buried their bodies into each other.

Angelica wrapped her arms around Evelyn as her body began to shake. Evelyn watched as Angelica’s body began to glisten with sweat. She watched Angelica’s stomach quiver as she ran her hand over the tight abs. Angelica’s small frame was curvy yet muscular. Evelyn considered for a moment that she was the luckiest woman in the world. Evelyn knew Angelica was close to a climax as her moans deepened. Evelyn grabbed Angelica and brought her in for a kiss. She tried to hold onto their kiss as Angelica cried out. She felt nails digging into her shoulder as her own orgasm exploded. She saw blinding white hot flashes of light as intensity in its purest form found her body for the first time.

They both fell back onto the bed, shaking from the most intense orgasm either had experienced. Angelica looked on as Evelyn placed her hand on her chest over her heart. She felt fully connected to Evelyn as her heartbeat pounded against Evelyn’s hand. At that moment they were one.

“It’s beating so fast.” Evelyn said as her hand moved up and down over Angelica’s chest. She placed soft kisses onto Angelica’s forehead. They lay there quiet holding each other. Angelica crawled away from Evelyn who still had her eyes closed. Evelyn still kept her eyes closed as Angelica helped her onto her back. Angelica began to kiss Evelyn’s thighs. Evelyn’s eyes shot open when she felt those soft lips caress her thighs. It was her turn to quiver under Angelica’s knowledgeable touch. Angelica smiled as Evelyn’s eyes met her own.

Angelica kissed up Evelyn’s thigh and up to her lips. Evelyn held her breath as Angelica began to kiss her sex. She pulled the back of Angelica’s head closer to her as the waves of sensation seized her body. Angelica was bringing her to heights of pleasure she had never been close to experiencing before. She reached another orgasm quickly as her body gave into the sensation. She held Angelica close as Angelica lay on top of her. Only a few minutes passed before they were both in a deep sleep.

Evelyn rolled over to find that the side of the bed was empty. She wondered briefly if she had only dreamt she had made love to Angelica. The vibrating sensations that still captured her body confirmed that the amazing lovemaking was indeed real.

“Angie?” Evelyn called out as Angelica left the bathroom in a terrycloth robe. Angelica walked over to Evelyn and placed a soft kiss on her lips.

“Let's stay in today. Janice can cancel all of my engagements today.” Evelyn said as she wrapped her arms around Angelica. Angelica was quiet as the ramifications of the night before consumed her. She did not let those thoughts linger for long as she settled into Evelyn’s arms. Evelyn slowly untied Angelica’s robe. She took in Angelica’s body as she opened the robe wide. Evelyn kissed Angelica’s shoulders down to her chest. Angelica eased away understanding that if she spent another second in their embrace they would not leave the hotel room.

“We can’t stay in we have a briefing with the team in an hour and we have to get ready for the gathering at the Mayor’s Mansion. Angelica explained as she put her robe back on. She gave Evelyn a kiss. Her lips lingered on Evelyn’s lips as Evelyn followed her to the door, they remained connected. Evelyn held onto Angelica’s hands, she did not want to let her go.

“Thank you.” Evelyn whispered as she rested her forehead on Angelica’s.

“For what?” Angelica asked. She wrapped her arms tightly around Evelyn. Evelyn’s naked body felt warm against her skin.

“Last night was amazing.” Evelyn said as she leaned in and kissed her new lover. Angelica fought the urge to return to bed with Evelyn.

“I will see you at breakfast.” She willed herself to leave the room. Angelica skipped through the hallway quickly hoping that no one would see her take this long, half-naked walk. She slipped into her own room relieved that she had not been noticed. She heard a clearing of the throat when she entered the room. Janice sat at the corner of her bed with a wicked grin on her face.

“I take it last night went well.” Janice said unsure if she should sound happy or apprehensive for her friend.

“I have to get ready. We are supposed to be at our breakfast meeting in forty-five minutes.” Angelica said as she ran into the bathroom. She jumped into the shower and let the cold water slam into her face. She wondered if she could wash away the guilt she felt when she thought of Madison and the Governor and how much they trusted her. She thought about erasing the previous night from her memory. She shuddered at the thought, not matter what the ramifications were she knew that she would never want to forget the night she shared with Evelyn.

Angelica was right on time for the morning’s briefing. She greeted the security detail as she poured herself a cup of coffee. She looked around casually to see if Evelyn was in the room but she was not. Angelica listened intently to Janice as she outlined Evelyn Stratford’s agenda for the day. She tried to focus on the particulars of the day but her mind kept drifting off to the night before.

She could still feel Evelyn’s body firm against her own. She could still taste Evelyn’s lips. The night before had been unlike any previous night with any previous lover. She lingers all over me.

“Angie, are you okay? Earth to Angie...” Janice tried to get Angelica’s attention. Angelica shook her head as if to physically push away all thoughts of Evelyn.

“Yes, I’m sorry Janice. “I’ve set up photo ops at the hospital, board meeting, and the party at the mansion.” Janice ended the meeting as Evelyn walked into the room with a security officer by her side. Everyone sat still in the room as she walked in. Evelyn wore a cream silk suit that accentuated all of her infamous curves. She poured herself a cup of coffee as the others gathered their belongings. Angelica watched her but Evelyn never made eye contact. She called Janice over to her and they spoke quietly at the corner of the room. Angelica was unsure what to do as she made small talk with security guard Arnold Herrera. Arnold, who had been working up the courage to speak to Angelica, fumbled through a story about his workout schedule as she watched Janice and Evelyn.

Angelica got up as Arnold helped her with her bag. She began to walk out of the room when she felt a familiar presence at her side.

“Where are you going?” Evelyn asked as she tried desperately not to touch Angelica.

“I am going to meet some friends since I have the afternoon off.” Evelyn briefly held on to Angelica’s arm but the touch was fleeting.

“Why don’t you spend the day with me instead?” Evelyn’s tone was soft and inviting. Angelica stopped walking to step closer to Evelyn. She brought her hand up to Evelyn’s but stopped herself from touching Evelyn’s hand.

“It’s my only afternoon off and I am not needed at the hospital or on your shopping spree.”

“What if I say you are needed?” Evelyn smile shook Angelica to her very core. It excited her as much as it scared her. She needed to know if their night of lovemaking was a passing night of lust or the start of something real. She cursed herself for thinking for a moment that anything meaningful could come from their encounter.

“If you need me to be at the hospital I will be there, but I have plans for lunch.” Angelica’s tone was professional. Evelyn took a step back, she wasn’t quite sure why. It was a reflex to the cold demeanor emanating from Angelica. She was silent as Angelica walked away from her.

Janice sure has good taste. Angelica thought to herself as she adjusted her Cavalli tuxedo suit and took in her reflection in a yellow parlor of Gracie Mansion. The shimmery satin accents added glamour to the suit perfect for the occasion. She wore her hair in a long ponytail held up by a diamond barrette that Janice picked out for her from the Governor’s home. It amazed Angelica that jewelers would give out these expensive items just in the hopes a politician like Evelyn would wear them.

Angelica took in the yellow and green décor as many accomplished women surrounded her in the room. New York Mayor Peter Lake’s new wife Valeria was throwing the party for notable politician's spouses. Angelica was surprised by the subdued aura of the home. It felt like a home and it comforted her as she recognized many faces as they passed by. Angelica watched closely as reporters took pictures of Evelyn with Valeria Lake. Evelyn was forced to field some questions about Madison and Edward but she stuck to the scripted answers. It was an easy night for Angelica whose main duty was simply to watch and observe. She was hoping to call it an early night but admitted to herself that there were worse places to be than at a New York political party.

Angelica’s breath caught in her throat as Evelyn walked towards her. Evelyn handed her a glass of champagne and stood as close as their newfound familiarity would allow.

“Angelica, darling, how am I supposed to concentrate on this event when you look the way you do tonight?” Evelyn said as she watched Angelica quickly gulp down the glass of champagne. Evelyn had thought about Angelica for every moment since they kissed goodbye in the morning. Angelica was either at the forefront of her mind or just drifting with her as she went through her day. When Angelica entered her limo on the way to the mansion she was happy and relieved to be back in her presence.

“My only intention tonight is to be in the background until I am needed.”

“That is quite impossible for such a beautiful woman.” Valeria Lake pointed out and she walked over to both Evelyn and Angelica. Angelica was taken aback by Valeria Lake’s beauty as she stood closer to her. Her brown eyes were sparkling and her skin was golden and flawless. Reporters dubbed her the Brazilian bombshell and she certainly was all they made her out to be.

“Valeria, this is my media strategist Angelica Montalvo.” Evelyn watched Valeria take Angelica’s hand and hold it longer than she thought necessary. Angelica’s cheeks reddened as Valeria held on firmly.

“It is a pleasure to meet you Ms. Montalvo you look exquisite tonight.” Valeria voice was sultry and its appeal was heightened by her accent.

“The pleasure is mine Mrs. Lake. It is an honor to be here, thank you.” Angelica smiled nervously as Valeria maintained steady eye contact with her.

“Call me Valeria, now I must welcome the rest of my guests, but I will be back to speak with you.”

“Oh, I am only to be here until reporters leave in the next half-hour.” Angelica kept the eye contact although she felt Evelyn get closer to them both.

“You will stay for a while longer.” Valeria Lake walked away her perfume still dancing in the air. Angelica looked back at Evelyn who gulped down her own glass of champagne.

“She is a pariah Angelica who may enjoy women even more than you.” Evelyn pointed out annoyed by the look of awe in Angelica’s face.

“Are you seriously telling me that the Mayor of New York’s wife sleeps with women?” Angelica mouth dropped in shock as she watched Valeria. “Oh and you’re right I do love women, but one at a time.”

“Now you’re ready for the next one?” Evelyn fumed. She couldn’t believe that Angelica could show interest in another woman blatantly in front of her. They had made love less than a day ago and Angelica had already set her sights on another woman. A woman’s whose beauty made everyone in the room take notice. She was an exotic beauty who did anything or anyone she wished. In Evelyn’s estimate Valeria Lake was everything she was not. “This is politics Angelica there’s a whole other side to our lives the public just doesn’t know.”

“I am certainly learning that lesson Evelyn.” Angelica still watched Valeria Lake watching her. She knew she was upsetting Evelyn but it began to dawn on her that it could all be a game for Evelyn. It may be how the spouses of politicians work. They play these games with people’s lives and hearts. It was hurting her to remain so cold with Evelyn but she was determined to maintain the icy exterior.

Angelica walked confidently towards Valeria who took Angelica’s body in with dancing eyes. Angelica picked up another glass of champagne and stood next to the tall Brazilian.

“Thank you again for allowing me to stay a little while longer.” Angelica watched as the reporters began to leave the parlors leaving the guest to truly relax for the first time that night.

“It is my pleasure isn’t it?” Valeria cooed close to Angelica’s ear. Valeria took joy in the way Evelyn watched every move she made from across the room.

“I’m not sure what you mean but it does give me the chance to further admire this beautiful home.” Angelica found it hard to concentrate as Valeria's perfume again danced in the air.

“It gives me the opportunity to admire your beauty.” Angelica was taken aback by Valeria's forward approach. Valeria did not care if she was gay or straight and she made no attempt to find out. It seemed like Valeria always got what she wanted so it just didn’t matter.

“Thank you.” Angelica was practically speechless.

“So you are Evelyn’s strategist, is there anything else you do for her?” Valeria asked with a smirk that spoke of her own intentions.

“I work for the Stratford’s that is it.”

“It is unfortunate that a woman so obviously more than meets the eye chooses a life so, mundane isn’t it?” Valeria was pleased to see a small hint of acknowledgment in Angelica’s eyes as they both peaked over at Evelyn who sat at the far end of the room.

“May I ask how long you have known Evelyn?” Angelica asked making sure to give away nothing about Evelyn to Valeria.

“For a year now and I will never forget the day I met that breathtaking woman. She looked at me with telling eyes.”

“Telling eyes, how so?”

“You know the look Ms. Montalvo. It is a source of comfort when you are far away from home to see someone, like you.”

Angelica was quiet but she knew exactly what Valeria referred to. The look of interest, woman to woman, was subtle but filled with intent.

“Will you join me outside Ms. Montalvo?” Angelica followed Valeria Lake past the parlors as Evelyn watched them walk away. She wanted to rush over to them and take Angelica away from the alluring woman. She knew Valeria's history of bedding and discarding many women. She did not think Angelica could be seduced by the swarthy likes of Valeria Lake. Maybe I’m wrong.

Angelica followed Valeria to the back porch of the mansion. She took in the fresh air with a smile.

“Are you as excited as I am to get out of those stuffy parlors?” Valeria asked.

“Yes, I am, can you tell?” Valeria tapped Angelica’s champagne glass with her own. They were quiet for a few moments as they both looked up at the stars forming very rarely seen in the heart of New York City.

“Why did you ask me to stay?” Angelica asked as she watched Valeria take a sip of her champagne. Valeria turned towards her and got closer.

“I asked you to stay because those women make me nervous and I wanted to talk to someone, like me.”

“We’re both Latinas.” Angelica surmised and Valeria laughed.

“Yes, we are but that is not what I meant, my English is not perfect but I think this is how you would say it, we are both stuck in an alien world.”

“Are you one of those trendy cult people who think we are all aliens?” They both laughed.

“No, I mean we are in worlds not like who we truly are. I am a girl from Brazil hosting parties for rich powerful America and you are too young and naive for this world. It’s going to eat you alive, unless I do that tonight first.” Angelica faced Valeria and challenged her with steely eyes.

“You don’t know me and you don’t know what I’ve been through.”

“You haven’t been through American Politics love, you are soft this world is hard. Find the right world for you, politics is not it. I can help you if you would like.” Angelica took a step back as she questioned herself. Valeria's eyes did not denote a cruel intention. At times she herself wondered if politics was the right world for her.

“Honey do not misunderstand me, I am very interested in finding out how soft you really are.” Valeria's eyes sparkled as Angelica met them once again.

“You know you could say anything to a woman with that accent and they would fall at your feet?” Angelica smiled

“You are not planning to do this falling tonight no?”

“No, that woman will not be me.” Angelica said as she patted Valeria's hand quickly.

“I cannot persuade you to change your mind?” Angelica shook her head “no.” “Then there must be someone else.” Angelica sheepishly agreed as Valeria took both of their glasses and placed them on the porch ledge. Valeria put her arm around Angelica’s waist as they reentered the mansion. Angelica was grateful that Valeria did not question her further. She looked around for Evelyn but could not find her. She asked one of the Mansion staffers if they had seen Evelyn. The young server explained that Evelyn had just left the mansion. Angelica said her goodbyes as she walked out of the main entrance of the Mansion. She saw Evelyn enter their limo. She hurried over to the limo and caught the door before the driver could shut it. Angelica entered the limo much to Evelyn’s surprise.

“Were you going to leave without me?” Angelica asked slightly out of breath from running to the limo.

“I thought Valeria would see you back since you stayed as her personal guest.” Evelyn attempted to sound unfazed but she was incensed. Angelica tilted her head and studied Evelyn. When Angelica saw a tiny hint of vulnerability in her eyes she moved closer and sat next to her.

“No part of me wanted to be taken anywhere by her.” Angelica grabbed Evelyn’s hand who squeezed back instantly. Angelica inched in for a kiss but Evelyn moved her head away.

“You seemed smitten with her and I don’t blame you, she is beautiful.” Angelica decided not to answer the comment. She wasn’t going to reassure Evelyn. With every moment she stayed quiet, Evelyn became uneasy. They both had decided they were not going to be the next one to speak. Their struggle lasted ten minutes because Evelyn, unable to contain herself, spoke: “I missed you all day.”

“I missed you too.” Angelica whispered as she kissed Evelyn’s neck. The limo came to a stop in front of the busy hotel in the heart of Times Square. The Broadway crowd had just let out and many people waited to see who was exiting the limo. When the two women left the limo the onlookers went about their ways. They reached their floor of the hotel and Evelyn followed Angelica into her room. Angelica opened the door and allowed Evelyn to enter. As Angelica shut the door, Evelyn pulled down her evening dress.

“Janice isn’t here. It’s just you and me.” Evelyn whispered as she kissed Angelica softly. Angelica felt Evelyn’s stockings against her thigh as Evelyn tightly wrapped one leg around Angelica. Evelyn’s body tingled when she felt Angelica’s warm hands on the small of her back. They explored each other’s mouth without urgency.

“Don’t let me go.” Evelyn whispered as Angelica placed small kisses on her neck. Angelica held on tightly to Evelyn. They stood silently holding each other. Angelica felt Evelyn’s heartbeat quicken against her chest. She looked into the eyes of the woman who had completely captivated her. She saw love in Evelyn’s eyes and felt it in Evelyn’s trembling hands.

“Evelyn…” Angelica whispered as she watched Evelyn unzip her pants. They were both naked as Evelyn led Angelica to the bed closest to them. They fell onto the bed never losing a strong grip on each other. Angelica began to kiss Evelyn’s chest. She loved the feeling of Evelyn’s hand possessively holding her hair. She traced kisses over Evelyn’s chest until she reached her breasts. She flicked Evelyn’s left nipple with her tongue. Evelyn cooed as she watched Angelica kiss her breasts. When she felt Angelica hands move up her thighs she shook in anticipation.

Evelyn felt Angelica’s body heat up over her own and the sensation thrilled her. Angelica’s hand entered her body as she moaned forcefully. She kissed Angelica with an urgency that she was not aware she possessed. Angelica pumped into her body with knowledgeable hands. Their foreheads met as they stared into each other’s eyes. Evelyn screamed out as the orgasm took its hold over her. She felt enveloped by Angelica’s touch and nothing had comforted her more than that envelopment. After her breathing eased she wrapped her arms around Angelica. She held Angelica as she watched Angelica’s sleepy eyes close.

Angelica opened her eyes forgetting briefly where she was. She knew the bed was unfamiliar as she felt the sheets against her skin. It was Evelyn’s strong hands wrapped around her that made her keenly aware of her surroundings. She smiled as she finally made eye contact with the woman who held her.

“How long have I been asleep?” Angelica asked as Evelyn kissed her softly.

“Only for a couple of hours…” Evelyn wrapped the soft covers around them both. Evelyn hadn’t slept, instead, Evelyn watched Angelica as she slept enjoying their fleeting time together. She yearned to learn more about Angelica. Her heart ached with the knowledge that Angelica had lived a lifetime and she had seen just a glimpse. She needed to know all that brought Angelica into her arms.

“When did she get back?” Angelica asked as she saw Janice sleeping in the bed next to them.

“About 45 minutes ago, we spoke for a few minutes then she fell asleep as quickly as you did.” Evelyn explained as her hands traced Angelica’s stomach. Angelica again felt Evelyn’s heartbeat quicken against her body. She stared into Evelyn’s blue eyes. The sincerity in her eyes made Angelica turn away.

Evelyn’s heart sunk as she saw tears form in Angelica’s eyes. She was paralyzed into silence as she wiped away Angelica’s tears.

“Don’t look at me like that it makes me feel a way I don’t want to feel.” Angelica said as she faced Evelyn.

“I’ve never felt this way Angelica. I look at you the only way I know how.” Angelica closed her eyes as she thought of Amber her former lover and only love. She drifted back to sleep.

It was unseasonably warm for a March day in the Bronx, NY. Angelica heard cries from behind her ripple throughout the small gathering of people who were there to mourn her father’s sudden death. She was a sophomore in College burying the father with whom she shared a close bond. Angelica bent to her knees and squeezed a patch of dirt that was soon going to be placed over her father’s casket. The harsh sun had dried the dirt as she pressed it against her skin. The crowd began to disperse. They allowed Angelica her space alone with her father. Angelica looked back to see only her mother and her lover Amber behind her.

She heard her mother speak to Amber: “Go to her.” Amber moved closer to Angelica as she stood to embrace her lover. Amber pulled away slightly which confused Angelica. Amber looked past the plots to the teachers, classmates, and friends who watched them. Angelica followed her eyes and waited for the comfort of the one woman who could give her any solace. Amber got closer to Angelica and whispered in her ear.

Angelica jumped up from a deep sleep with a shrill scream. She saw both Evelyn and Janice standing over her. They both look worried as they sat on either side of her.

“What happened? You were tossing and turning then you just screamed out.” Evelyn said as she held Angelica’s hand. Angelica allowed her heart to calm. It was pounding against her skin. The sound pulsated up to her head.

“I had a dream about the day my father was buried.” Angelica explained as her voice cracked under the pressure of the visions that had taken hold of her. Evelyn brought her close and embraced her. Angelica felt safe and safe was not a feeling she felt often. She resisted the need be held or comforted at all costs. However, resisting Evelyn was beginning to feel like an impossible task.

“I don’t want to be in New York, I just have to go home Evelyn.” Angelica stood up and moved towards the large window looking out into Manhattan.

“We only have to be here for a few more days.” Janice tried to reason with Angelica who did not look at either Janice or Evelyn. “I’m going to get all of us some sodas from the lobby.” Janice left the room leaving Evelyn and Angelica alone. Evelyn stood next to Angelica as they both watched a small fleet of yellow cabs navigate Broadway.

“What is going on with you Angie?” Evelyn asked as she moved to stand behind Angelica. She wrapped her hands around Angelica’s waist. Angelica stood still never acknowledging the embrace. “Let me in.” Evelyn whispered as she placed a kiss on Angelica’s shoulder.

Angelica moved away from the kiss. Evelyn felt an instant sense of loss as Angelica pulled away but she was determined not to show it on her face.

“I can’t wait a couple of days I have to go home now.” Angelica voice was aloof but urgent.

“Then we will leave first thing in the morning.”

“You can stay I know you have things to do I just need to leave.” Evelyn again moved closer to Angelica and wrapped her arms around the young woman. This time Angelica did not pull away.

“If you leave, I leave.” Evelyn vowed as she tightened her grip on Angelica.

Chapter 8

Madison turned off the television and threw the remote on the table with disgust. She was not getting used to a life where each move was planned to the smallest detail. It was to be another weekend spent at the mansion. She loved being close to her father. She also loved the security the mansion brought to her life. She felt protected and while she missed her mother terribly, protected was not something she felt often while staying with her mother. However, she missed being able to go wherever she pleased. She missed her friends who really cared about her. She continued to lie on the couch as she heard someone enter the living room.

“You know midday naps on a Saturday should be forbidden.” Angelica said as she stood in front of Madison. Madison lit up as Angelica sat down next to her.

“Are you here to work with my dad or Evelyn?” Madison asked as she sat up. Angelica picked up the bowl of popcorn on the table and took a handful.

“Neither, I was going to the movies but I didn’t want to go out by myself so I wanted to see if you would come with me.” Madison took the bowl from Angelica and placed it back on the table.

“Get me out of here.” Madison said as she rushed Angelica to her feet. They walked straight out the front door without any interruption. As they drove away from the mansion, Madison looked quizzically at Angelica.

“I can’t believe we got out of there without anyone stopping us.” Madison peered out of the rearview mirror as the mansion became smaller with every passing road.

“I asked your father for permission and he agreed that a day out would be fun.” Madison was surprised that anyone noticed that life at the mansion was beginning to suffocate her. She was not used to anyone thinking about her needs. She decided she liked the new feeling.

“So are we off to the movies?”

“Eventually…” They ended up at New Roc City in New Rochelle, NY. It was a popular entertainment complex with the local high school students. After games of laser tag, air hockey, and miniature golf they decided to head to the bowling alley. Angelica grabbed a heavy ball and attempted to avoid another gutter ball.

“Two pins…” Madison enjoyed watching Angelica struggle. Simply because she saw the flawed side of Angelica: the person that didn’t’ always have the perfect answer or respond in the perfect way. “You’re way too competitive Angie.” Angelica kicked the floor in front of her and sat back down. She watched Madison saunter to their lane and she released her ball with precision. “Strike!” Madison screamed. She sat down next to Angelica who had ordered hot dogs for both of them.

“It is time to take a break.” Angelica declared as she passed over a hotdog with mustard and onions. They sat in silence for a while as Madison watched Angelica intently. Angelica noticed but she sat motionless eating her hot dog.

“Can I ask you a few questions Angie?”

“Sure.” Angelica took a sip of the water bottle in front of her.

“Are you a lesbian?” Angelica was surprised by the question. She worried that Madison had noticed an exchange between her and Evelyn.

“What makes you ask me that? I don’t know if that is something we should be talking about, you’re so young.”

“I’m a teenager practically an adult Angelica. I heard Janice mention that the woman you were with at the benefit is your girlfriend. She didn’t say it like it is a friend girlfriend.” Angelica pondered her next move. She realized that Madison was measuring the trust she had in her. She wasn’t going to do anything that would make Madison question her trust.

“Yes, but I'm not a fan of labels, Denise was my girlfriend, but we are no longer together.” Madison was pleased by the honesty.

“If you ever stop working for my dad will we still be friends?”

“No doubt about it.”

“Why did you and Denise break up?” Angelica placed her hot dog on the table in-between them. She was amused by Madison’s utter fascination with her personal life.

“It wasn’t love and you just reach a point where you know it’s not right for you and I reached that point.”

“She is beautiful.”

“That she is.”

“She wasn’t right for you though. How do you know?” Madison asked as she grabbed her bowling ball.

“I just know.”

They spoke for a little while longer before heading to the movie theatre for the movie that was promised to Madison. Angelica had her heart set on the new romantic comedy but Madison had wanted to see the new action flick. Madison’s choice won out and they went to see the action movie. After the movie Angelica drove Madison back to the mansion. Edward Stratford sat at his desk in his home office waiting for Angelica and Madison to return home.

“I need to speak with you Angelica.” Edward motioned for her to sit in the seat across his desk. A surprised Angelica sat down quietly. Edward kept his gaze out of the window that overlooked the expansive grounds of the estate. Two other men walked into the room. "Angelica please meet Ron and Brian Bannister, Evelyn's brothers." Angelica shook both of their hands. Ron smiled while Brian did not make any eye contact with her.

“You are wonderful with my daughter and I have grown to truly like you not only as a member of my staff, but as a person. I see a little of me in you.” Edward stood up and walked over towards Angelica. “This is why I don’t understand why you would betray me by sleeping with my wife.” Angelica flinched as she heard the words she knew to be inevitable but dreaded nonetheless.

“I do consider myself a person of honor sir so I will not make excuses for my actions.” Angelica felt her body shaking but steadied herself as she stood. “I love her.”

“You are a fool my dear.”

“If so, I am a fool for love.” Edward was surprised that Angelica did not cower away from him.

“I will go to the office now and collect my belongings.” Angelica began to leave but Edward grabbed her arm before she could go. He held on tighter than needed.

“Not so fast. Do you really think I am going to make you leave and have my wife blame me forever?”

“I do not understand sir.”

"Look Angelica my sister tells me you are a wonderful person and I believe her. However, what this family does is bigger than any one person." Ron explained but Angelica was still unsure of what they were discussing.

“You will end your relationship with her without mentioning our conversation today.”

“Why would I do that?”

“Because Evelyn is pregnant.” Angelica searched Edward’s eyes for signs that he was lying but all she saw was hurt and anger, no deception. Angelica felt the room spin around her so she steadied herself against the oak desk. “If you do not break it off with her, I will ruin you permanently.” Edward’s threats straightened Angelica’s posture as she lifted her chin high. "We are good at making problems disappear."

“Governor, I sincerely apologize for betraying your trust and you may do whatever you want to me. I will not hurt Evelyn for your convenience; I could not live with myself.” Edward still held on firm to Angelica’s arm the skin was reddening as he willed himself to let her go but he could not. It was not the betrayal that shocked him. He knew that he lived in a world where betrayal was not only common but normal. He was angered because he was sure that Angelica was completely in love with his wife. If she was a snake he could handle the situation, he was outraged because he knew that she respected him.

“You think she will protect you the same? You are so naïve.” Edward released his grip and Angelica moved away. “Get out of here and I suggest you rethink your choice.”

"Hey, wait up." Ron called out to Angelica who stopped and allowed him to catch up.

"I got the message." Angelica held her body as she shook.

"You have no idea how much bigger everything is, I am sorry you find yourself in the middle." Angelica looked into Ron's eyes and saw sincerity reflected back at her.

"I need her in my life Ron, I make her happy."

"I know you do, but we have plans in this family, and you are not a part of those plans." Angelica left the mansion, she wondered if she would ever return.

Chapter 9

Angelica watched the flame from a candle flicker as she stretched in her bathtub. She sat in a bath as the calm water rippled around her. She could smell the soothing aromas of the candles envelop the room. She tried to will herself to relax to no avail. She feared she was destined to repeat past mistakes and end up alone as so many had predicted for her. Being the only child always allowed her to be comfortable on her own but she feared what being truly alone would do to her. Growing up she was daddy’s little girl and was never very close to her mother. When her dad died she drifted apart from her mother and moved in with Kai. Her mother found it hard to accept her sexuality so living with Kai released her from her mother’s judgment. She knew that choice had also run its course.

She thought of Edwards’s words and knew that she deserved whatever punishment he intended to inflict. She was surprised that he would allow her to take on all the repercussions on her own. He intended to threaten her but it relieved Angelica. Angelica knew she could start from scratch somewhere, anywhere, but it was Evelyn who she felt she needed to protect. She then thought about the news that Evelyn may be pregnant. Everything inside her wanted to be close to Evelyn. Any fear she had about being along drifted away when Evelyn was with her. Could she really be pregnant? Her thoughts were interrupted by a knock at the door. Angelica heard Kai open their front door. She heard some chatting and a voice she swore she must have mistaken for someone else. She hesitated to get up as she heard footsteps close to her bathroom door.

“Evelyn Stratford is here to see you.” Kai said plainly through the door. Angelica quickly got out of the tub. Droplets of water fell from her body as she patted herself dry with a towel. She could not believe that Evelyn was in her home. She put on her robe and left the bathroom. She saw Evelyn in her living room with a look of apprehension that made clear what she was there for. Angelica inched towards Evelyn and sat by her side.

“I really need to talk to you about something I just found out.” Evelyn did not acknowledge Angelica she kept her eyes focused on the floor.

“Whatever it is that you have to tell me, it must wait until morning.” Angelica tried desperately not to share all that had just happened with the Governor. Angelica knew what Evelyn had come over to reveal but she was not ready to hear it. She knew she had to think about her actions before making her next move.

“I need to tell you something though it is important to me.” Angelica got close to Evelyn.

“It is getting late I don’t want the Governor's Office to think you have gone missing again.” Angelica said as she attempted to change the subject. She was not sure if she was ready for the truth.

“Janice is covering for me; they think I am at my mother’s.”

“You think Edward believes that?”

Evelyn pondered the question. She didn’t care if her excuse was flimsy. She needed to be close to Angelica and she could not wait until work the next day. She craved the moments they were alone. She needed Angelica’s touch and the comfort that accompanied their embrace.

“Angelica I need to tell you something that is hard for me to say.”

“Then it can wait till morning.” Angelica got up, kissed Evelyn softly, before walking to her bedroom. Evelyn followed closely but the door closed before she could make it inside. She tried to open the door but found it to be locked.

“Please let me in there’s something I have to talk to you about.” She knocked and asked Angelica to let her in but her pleas went unanswered. She went into the kitchen where Kai was up drinking hot chocolate.

“Can I have one of those?” Evelyn asked as Kai handed her a mug. Kai poured her some hot chocolate as they sat down next to each other. Kai watched Evelyn in amazement. The beautiful and famous wife of the governor was sitting at her kitchen counter. It was a fantasy come true, what she didn’t envision was that this woman would be infatuated with her ex-girlfriend. She wondered why this regal and beautiful woman would allow herself to fall into such a mess.

“What do you possibly see in her?” Kai had to know what women like Denise Davis and Evelyn Stratford saw in Angelica.

“What did you see in her that made you date her?” Evelyn enjoyed watching Kai squirm with the question. Evelyn knew more about Angelica than Kai expected.

“Same thing I see now, beauty, intelligence, but a pension for screwing up her life any chance she gets. Are you looking to save her? Is that the appeal?” Evelyn blinked but was not going to let her anger show.

“You claim to be her friend, she, yet to me, all you seem to be is a jilted ex. Angelica should know better than to keep a bitter ex around.”

Kai got up from the table and placed her mug in the kitchen sink. She leaned in close to Evelyn.

“I wish you no harm Mrs. Stratford and I would never do anything to put Angelica in harm’s way. I just know that when this goes bad it will be me who will have to help her pick up the pieces.”

Evelyn studied the hot chocolate in her hand as Kai’s words resonated. Evelyn knew that the words were from a woman who had held a lot of anger towards Angelica, a woman whom Angelica had rejected. She didn’t blame her for the resentment. She chuckled realizing that there may be quite a few women who suffer from the same affliction. However, every time she looked into Angelica’s eyes she felt welcomed and wanted. She made her way to the guest bedroom that doubled as an office for Angelica and Kai. She lay on the sofa bed surprised that there was a blanket waiting for her. She could not and would not leave without speaking to Angelica. She planned to wait all night if she had to. She thought about Kai’s words and her eyes became heavy. She knew that Kai was wrong, she did not want to save Angelica, she was the one who needed to be saved.

It was close to noon when Angelica entered the Evelyn’s office. She was four hours late as she waited for Evelyn to leave her apartment. She had successfully avoided Evelyn as she pondered her next step. She had spent the night knowing Evelyn lie waiting in the room next door to her and did nothing. Her walk was now purposeful and strong. She walked to Evelyn’s office space to find it empty.

“Where is she?” Angelica asked as she stood in front of Janice’s desk.

“I’m right here.” Evelyn answered from behind as she walked towards Angelica with Henry alongside her.

“I need to speak with you.” Evelyn followed Angelica closely as Henry remained standing with Janice.

“You avoid me all night now you want to talk.” When the door closed Angelica kissed Evelyn with an intensity that made Evelyn’s knees buckle. Angelica helped her stay on her feet as their kiss intensified. Evelyn broke the kiss after a few minutes.

"I met with Edward and your brothers last night." Evelyn felt her stomach turn in response.

"What did they want with you?" Evelyn placed her hands on Angelica's cheek as if making sure she was okay.

"They want me to stay away from you."

"Tell me exactly what they said Angelica it is very important." Evelyn felt sheer panic as her shaky hands brushed against Angelica's face. She held her as if relieved she still could.

"They said they can make problems disappear, what are you involved in?"

"I come from a unique family Angie. Why didn't you tell me last night?"

“I’ve made a decision.” Angelica proclaimed with a certainty in her voice that made Evelyn take notice. “I want you more than anything. I want to give you everything I can.” Evelyn’s heart fluttered but uneasiness remained in her eyes. She held Angelica close but Angelica noticed the awkward reaction. Angelica moved away and peered into Evelyn’s eyes. “Not exactly the reaction I was expecting.”

“What you just said makes me so happy. I just want to live up to your expectations.” Evelyn’s eyes watered as Angelica kissed her again. Angelica felt her whole body tingle as Evelyn’s hands moved all over her.

“I’m falling in love with you.” Angelica whispered as Evelyn kissed down her chest. Evelyn tried to hide her face as her eyes watered. They held each other for a few moments. “We have to figure out what to do Evelyn.” Evelyn shook her head in agreement. As they began to kiss again there was a knock at the door which made them both jump away from each other. Henry Grant and Governor Stratford walked into the office. Henry chuckled as he noticed the disheveled clothes. He waited for Edward’s reaction but did not see any acknowledgement from the governor. Angelica excused herself as Henry walked over to stand by Evelyn.

“Someone should tell her that she already got one promotion, she doesn’t have to work so vigorously for another.”

“Watch your mouth Henry I’m tired of your shit.” Evelyn moved closer to Henry as their eyes locked challenging one another.

“You two are cousins can’t you get along at all?” Edward sat down exasperated by the bickering.

“We never did before, why start now?” Henry said as he sat down and put his leg against Evelyn’s desk.

“I always knew you were a snake Henry even as children.”

“You should talk.”

“Enough of this I have to talk to you both about a decision I have made about the makeup of my staff.” The topic presented brought both Evelyn and Henry to a halt. “I’ve decided to fire Angelica Montalvo. Priscilla will be meeting with her tomorrow to let her know.”

“You can’t be serious Edward. You just gave her a promotion.” Evelyn’s rising anger made Henry spring into action.

“That is a great move Edward you’re doing the right thing.”

“What has she done wrong? Evelyn’s voice was a slight tremor.

“Evelyn you don’t think we know about you and your little girlfriend? This is the safest thing for her." Evelyn stood shocked for a moment by the blunt approach but did not deny anything. She couldn’t bring herself to deny what had become a part of her. Edward sat down trying to calm the throbbing that was beginning in his head. Henry and Evelyn waited for Edward to speak further they both knew that he ultimately was the last say between them all.

“Evelyn we are about to have a baby you have to end it with this girl. You know that the family will see her as collateral damage.” Edward tried to remove all emotions from his words. He kept his bitterness mute and his anger subdued. The look of shock on his wife’s face made it difficult for him to remain calm. “Did you think I was a fool?”

“Hardly Edward, please do not act like you have not had countless affairs.”

“Another woman Evelyn? I probably should have known all along.” His voice trailed off as he thought about his wife’s cold demeanor that plagued their marriage from the very beginning. He thought that he simply was not good enough for Evelyn, but when he realized he could never earn her love, he felt betrayed. “My only concern is Madison I do not want her distracted as she starts at a new school.” He did not want to fire Angelica initially but after speaking with her the night before he knew she would not break things off with his wife, he would have to break this relationship himself. She was too young and the danger was too real.

Evelyn clutched her stomach tightly. She had a feeling at the pit of her stomach unlike anything she had ever felt before.

“You need to break up with her for her own sake as well as your own. We have to prepare for a child and another term in office.”

"What are you going to do to her?” Evelyn asked as she watched Angelica sitting at her desk. She was surprised to see Valeria Lake sitting at the base of Angelica’s desk. She watched from her office as Valeria whispered in Angelica’s ear. Evelyn watched Angelica and Valeria and was surprised to see Angelica looking straight at her. Evelyn walked out of her office leaving Edward and Henry.

“Should we talk in your office?” Angelica asked unsure why her voice was shaky.

“Let's go to the conference room.” Evelyn knew Edward and Henry were still in her office ready to confront Angelica again. They both entered the conference room as Evelyn locked the door quickly.

“I have something to tell you." Evelyn spoke before Angelica could. Evelyn rested her head against Angelica’s forehead. The gesture brought her comfort and warmth she hoped she wouldn’t lose.

“What is it Evie?” Angelica asked as she held Evelyn’s hands close to her chest. Evelyn stood silent for what seemed to be centuries for Angelica. She tried to look patient but the shaking she felt from Evelyn’s hands made her nervous.

“I’m pregnant Angie.” Angelica was sure she had just been punched in the gut by the sensations that overtook her body. Evelyn’s words hit her like a tidal wave, her mouth opened slightly, but no words escaped them. Edward had told her but to hear it confirmed by Evelyn stung. “I found out for sure yesterday I realized it was a possibility two weeks ago.”

“You didn’t say anything?”

“I tried to tell you at your apartment.” Angelica still held on to Evelyn but her grip was loose as her hands became numb.

“Angie I conceived before us.” Angelica was relieved to hear an answer to the question she did not dare ask.

“Evelyn, I love you.”

“I love you too.” Evelyn surprised herself by answering effortlessly. She intrinsically knew that what she shared with Angelica was love.

“I know I have to leave here. Valeria was just giving me some of her contacts in LA.” Angelica paced as she tried to come to terms with everything that had happened. “Come with me.” Angelica wrapped Evelyn’s arms around her but the embrace was brief.

“Angelica, what do you mean? Maybe you did not hear me, I am pregnant.” Evelyn wanted to run away at that moment. Leave her life and her family behind. She knew that was impossible and she could not risk any danger for Angelica.

“Be with me Evelyn I love you I will love this baby come with me there are more opportunities out there for me.” Evelyn placed her hand on Angelica’s cheek Angelica’s eyes radiated with hope Evelyn knew did not exist.

“Edward will not let me just go.” Evelyn wanted to feel a glimmer of hope by Angelica’s announcement but she knew that Edward would crush this chance and any other that came Angelica’s way if Evelyn went with her.

“You do not need Edward’s permission Evelyn, we love each other, and we will figure the rest out. I want this more than anything.” The tears in Angelica’s eyes almost broke Evelyn’s will. She knew, however, that she could not do what Angelica asked of her. “Come with me.” Angelica whispered as she put her hands and hopes on Evelyn’s shoulders. Evelyn closed her eyes and lowered her head:

“No, I can’t.”

“Evie you have to, we can be together. I will help you with the baby I promise." Angelica’s voice cracked as she waited but Evelyn did not respond. “Evie?” Evelyn did not speak as she slowly took Angelica hands and moved them away from her. She walked out of the room.

Chapter 10: Five Years Later

Angelica had been at LAX for about four hours. She waited anxiously for Janice to arrive from JFK airport out of New York. Another plane had arrived and was landing onto the tarmac, Angelica peeked at the arrival screen…

“Is Aunt Janice on this plane mommy?” Abigail asked her mom as she stood at the large windows that looked out over the runways. She clutched her Minnie Mouse doll dressed in a 50’s Doo Wop skirt and blouse as she pointed to the plane that passed by.

“No baby, only a few planes more, don’t put your head on the glass.” Angelica picked up her daughter and sat her on her lap. She handed Abigail the matching fifties Mickey Mouse complete with varsity jacket. Abigail clutched her dolls and began to speak to them in a language only she understood. Another half hour passed before Janice’s plane reached the gate.

“Is this it mommy?” Abigail asked in a tone that Angelica was sure meant she was close to needing a nap.

“This is it.” Abigail jumped out of Angelica’s arms to watch the travelers heading towards baggage claim. Angelica was just as excited to see her friend. It had been years since she was on the East coast. She would be content if she never set foot on the eastern seaboard again. However, she did feel the comfort of home whenever her family and friends visited her.

“Is that my beautiful goddaughter?” Abigail jumped into Janice’s waiting arms. After two delays, a missed connection flight, and six hours in the air, Janice had finally reached Los Angeles. She held Abigail in her arms as she watched Angelica walk towards her. Angelica blew her away more than ever. Her skin was even more radiant due to the California sun. She looked relaxed and rejuvenated, troubled still, but radiant.

“I am so happy to see you.” Angelica bear hugged both Janice and Abigail. When she released the two of them she noticed a young woman standing behind Janice. She took a second look at the woman before shaking her head in a timid shock.

“Madison is that you?” Angelica had not seen Madison since she left Connecticut. They had spoken a few times immediately after she left but not for the last three years. Madison walked into Angelica’s arms for a hug that brought the warmth to her soul she had craved.

“Yes, it’s me and this must be little Abigail.” Abigail held Madison’s hand with the familiarity of family.

“What are you doing here? I’m glad you’re here, but I didn’t know.”

“I’m going to UCLA in the fall and I need to visit the campus. I knew Janice was visiting and I wanted to see you.” Angelica gave Madison another hug. One of her biggest regrets was leaving her friendship with Madison behind. She thought about the young, self-conscious Madison who now seemed a stranger to the lively beautiful woman that stood before her.

Angelica drove onto Santa Monica Boulevard on the short trip home from the airport. She couldn’t help but stare at Madison as she drove. She wondered if Edward knew she was there. She shuddered as she wondered if Evelyn possibly knew. Madison, on the other hand, was excited to watch the famous street as they passed by.

“Will Jake be at the house when we get there?”

“Who is Jake?” Janice played with Abigail but paused when Madison asked the question to Angelica. Janice told Madison about Abigail but remained mum on all the other details. If Madison had been shielded from the truth from her family, she was not going to be the person to fill in the blanks.

“Jake is Abigail’s father.” Madison stared at Angelica with a look of confusion that Angelica did not seem to notice. “My ex-husband.”

“I had assumed that you had Abigail on your own.” Before Madison could question Angelica further they arrived at Angelica’s home. Madison was impressed with the home before her. The outside was a soft yellow that felt as welcoming as Angelica herself. She walked into a house that was bigger than she expected. She saw a pool outside through glass double doors. She smiled when she saw the various toys sprinkled throughout the home. She never thought of Angelica as a mother but she felt the role fit her well. Abigail attempted to grab Madison’s bag and move it into the guest bedroom.

“You are the cutest girl do you know that?” Madison held onto to the bag as she helped Abigail drag it into the room.

“Maybe.” Abigail giggled as she ran over to Angelica who was standing at the doorway.

“UCLA?” Madison walked over to Angelica with the same enthusiasm that Abigail demonstrated. She did not realize how much of an affect Angelica had on her life until she was close to her again.

“Yes, they gave me a scholarship.”

“With your grades and your family background I’m sure many schools gave you scholarships so why UCLA?”

“It is the school farthest from home that gave me a scholarship.” Madison had dreamed of the day she could move off to college and it was fast approaching. She wanted to live in a place where no one knew who her father was and no one cared about what her mother had become. She hoped Los Angeles was that place. “You don’t think UCLA is a good school?”

“It is one of the best I know it well, I’ll visit the campus with you if you’d like?”

“Thank you.” Madison gave Angelica a hug but she quickly felt little hands moving in between them.

“Abby that is rude.” Angelica reprimanded her daughter for stepping in between them. “She does that anytime she sees me hug someone I am trying to get her to stop.”

“She doesn’t want to share you. I can’t blame her for that.” Madison began to unpack some of her clothes when she heard someone enter the house. She heard a male voice greeting Janice.

“Jake is here, he is cooking dinner for all of us tonight.”

“So Jake is your ex-husband and he is over for dinner tonight, is that a common thing?”

“He lives next door so yes he is a common visitor.”

“You don’t like talking about this do you?” Angelica did not want her uneasiness to show but it was very evident.

“I don’t discuss my personal life often no.”

“Why?”

“It’s boring no one would want to hear about it.” Angelica felt suddenly warm and short of breath. She felt like she we being interrogated and Madison’s peering eyes told her she was correct.

“I get the feeling it isn’t as boring as you try to make it sound. Last time I checked you had a beautiful girlfriend and now you have an ex-husband, care to fill in the blanks?”

“Things happen and people change.”

“Did you love him?”

“I did and I do.”

“Did you love him in a sexual romantic way?” Madison covered Abigail’s ears as she asked.

“My god Madison I can’t talk to you about things like that. What happened to the bratty teenager who didn’t talk about those things?

“Nice try at changing the subject.” Angelica turned around to see Janice behind her at the doorway.

“I’m going to go help Jake and let you two settle in.” Angelica picked up Abigail and quickly walked out of the room. Janice and Madison stood alone in the room.

“We have to get to the bottom of this.” Madison always wanted to know why Angelica left Connecticut suddenly. She allowed herself to trust Angelica and was devastated when she was gone. As they walked over to the living room she observed Angelica and Jake. She was taken back when she saw Jake. His black hair shined and brought out his blue eyes. The dimples were enough to make any woman swoon. But was Angelica that woman? They seemed completely in sync as they maneuvered around each other in the kitchenette area that opened into the living room. She sat next to Janice at the counter as she continued to observe Angelica and Jake.

Angelica stopped chopping the garlic when she noticed Janice and Madison watching her. “Jake let me introduce you to my guest. Jake this is Madison.” Jake took Madison’s hand and offered a smile that made Madison sigh.

“It is a pleasure to meet you Madison.” Angelica couldn’t help but laugh. Madison was swooning over her ex-husband and she could tell Jake loved it.

“Madison is Edward Stratford’s daughter.” Jake eyes darted toward Angelica in shock. Angelica shook her head confirming her own words.

“I didn’t know she would be coming with Janice.” Jake whispered quietly as he leaned close to Angelica. He picked up his daughter and placed her on the counter next to him. He began to feed her the salad he had prepared.

“Neither did I.” Angelica watched Madison who spoke with Janice at the far end of the kitchen counter. She felt a tension within her that she hadn’t felt in years. It was her past weighing heavy on her soul.

“Does this mean you have spoken with Evelyn?” Jake asked what he knew was on both of their minds.

“I haven’t, I am not even sure that Evelyn or Edward know that she is here staying with me.”

“Are you going to tell her?” Jake touched Angelica’s arm fleetingly. Angelica placed her head on his strong shoulder. “I can’t talk to her.” Her voice trembled and he instinctively held her to him.

“You can’t ignore her forever.”

“Can’t I?” Angelica softly pulled away to shift her attention back to her guests.

“Madison, if you don’t mind coming to work with me in the morning I was thinking we could go to UCLA and check out the dorms in the afternoon.”

“Mommy we’re all going to make sand castles on the beach tomorrow, Aunt Janice promised.”

“You guys go, I’ll take the munchkin while you’re at work, maybe beefcake can join us?” Jake laughed.

“I have to send my story in the morning I can meet you guys after.” They settled in for dinner in the adjacent dining room. Madison sighed as she sat down to enjoy the home-cooked feast. The home felt warm and inviting and she could feel the love that consumed every inch. She feared the comfort it brought to her soul knowing deep in her heart the feeling would be fleeting.

Madison awoke next to Janice in the guest room they shared. She clumsily made her way to the bathroom and was comforted by the scent of coffee in the air. After brushing her teeth and splashing her face with cold water she made her way to the kitchen. Angelica stood at the counter pouring coffee into two mugs. They were the only ones up. Madison took a sip of the coffee and moaned aloud. They were quiet as they ate the bagels before them. It was not an awkward silence it was filled with a familiarity that should have disappeared long ago. Before they left the house Angelica picked up Abigail from her bed and Abigail quickly ran to the guest room and cuddled up against Janice, the action seemed intuitive to the two of them. As Madison and Angelica got into Angelica’s Mini Cooper convertible Madison could hear the waves in the distance.

“I have to get used to this wind in my hair.” Madison adjusted to her own blonde locks whipping into her face. She loved the scent of the crisp ocean air. She had just learned the beach was a quick walk from Angelica’s home and looked forward to spending some time on her tan.

“So I am not even sure what you do Angie or what Jake does for that matter.”

“Jake is a reporter for a local newspaper and I am the Director of Public Relations for Isabella Models, Inc.

“So wait, you work with models all day, no wonder you got a divorce even Jake can’t compete with that.” Madison quickly gasped as she realized that her comment was said aloud not in her mind as she intended. “That was out of line, I’m so sorry.”

Angelica laughed, a twinge of bitterness seeped in its tone. “That’s okay, I know that I left suddenly and it hurt you, that I never intended, but I didn’t try hard enough to stop it. So let me just get that out there right now.” Angelica thought back to her decision to leave Connecticut for California. She knew leaving the Governor’s staff was hardly a choice but she was lucky to find a job at Isabella’s as quickly as she did. With Valeria's help she was able to find a decent condo and she quickly climbed Isabella’s ranks. She left everything behind and the gamble paid off. She never admitted that she missed Connecticut, but she did, and her brief time with Madison was a certain reason. “I’m so sorry.”

Madison eye’s blurred with tears and she surprised herself when she wiped them away with shaky hands. She knew Angelica leaving hurt her and she didn’t understand why it happened. She wanted to ask why. She wanted to explain how she intrinsically trusted Angelica and felt utterly unsafe when she left. Angelica took her hand and she did not speak all she could do was hold on tight.

They remained silent in the car as they listened to the radio, an easy-going melody perfect for the early morning ride. “Enjoy the serenity while you can because when we hit traffic it will be a bitch to deal with.”

Angelica was right Madison thought that New York City traffic was the worst she would ever experience, after spending one morning in Los Angeles her thoughts changed. Isabella Models was located in a skyscraper in Downtown Los Angeles. Angelica was greeted by virtually everyone who walked by. Angelica discussed the Dodger game from the night before with the security guards at the front desk and she signed Madison in as her guest. She discussed a book she was reading with a young woman in the elevator. She asked a burly older man in a cubicle by her office about his children’s soccer game. Everyone seemed to notice her and Madison smiled, proud to be walking with her. People looked at her father the same way, with genuine respect.

Angelica’s office was smaller than she expected but the view of Los Angeles was breathtaking. She took in the many pictures that adorned a bookshelf by the windows. There were pictures of Angelica and Abigail and a few of Angelica and Janice. Pictures of Jake were surprisingly absent. Madison was about to speak but before she could a statuesque woman busted into the office. The woman was about five foot ten with a lanky figure that she was sure she had seen on magazine covers. The woman was staring at her and she found it hard to look away, the woman’s eyes were a piercing green like that of a cat, an aggressive feline.

“Who is this?” She asked as she continued to stare at Madison. Her words sounded closer to that of an accusation than a question. Angelica smiled but the expression was fleeting. “Sasha, this is Madison, a friend of the family.” Sasha extended her hand with regal elegance, Madison wasn’t sure if Sasha wanted her to shake her hand or kiss her ring.

“Madison this is Sasha, one of our models.” Sasha shot Angelica a backwards glance. “Our most prized supermodel.” Madison shook her hand and watched from her view perched by the window, as Sasha sat seductively on Angelica’s desk. Madison was sure Angelica could see Sasha’s entire world as she made no effort to shut her legs.

“I cannot work with Pablo it is him or me.” Sasha pouted and Madison rolled her eyes instinctively. Angelica did not once look down, as she remained focused on Sasha’s eyes. “Pablo is one of our best photographers, what is wrong now?”

“He treats me like shit, he yells at me!” Angelica stood and placed her hand on Sasha’s leg. Madison felt as though the moment was too intimate for her presence. She began to leave the room when Angelica motioned for her to stay.

“Now one captures the essence of your beauty like Pablo. Yes, he is an asshole but sweetie the way he shoots you, there is no other choice.” Angelica flashed a smile and Sasha licked her lips.

“Will you come to the shoot? I can cook you an authentic Mediterranean dinner after.” Sasha’s voice was lower its suggestion obvious.

“I can’t we’re going to the school than the beach with my daughter.”

“Of course darling, next time then.” Sasha left the room never once looking over in Madison’s direction. Once the door shut Madison walked over to Angelica’s desk and feigned fanning herself. “That woman is hot and totally wants you.” Angelica laughed trying to hide her reddened cheeks. “Is she your girlfriend?”

“No, I’m not seeing anyone, Sasha is a friend.”

“Does she know that?”

“I think she does.” Madison did not sense any sarcasm in Angelica’s tone. Madison picked up a picture of Angelica and Abigail at the Grand Canyon. “Who usually watches Abigail while you’re at work?”

“I’m lucky because Jake’s job allows him the flexibility to take care of her during the day. The last resort is a babysitter.”

“Is it hard for you?”

“Is what hard for me?”

“Leaving her every morning.” Angelica slid her finger gently across the picture they were both looking at.

“What do you think?” She whispered.

Madison opened her mouth to ask the question still fresh on your lips. Why did you leave? When Angelica looked up at her she could not speak.

“Did you like the dorms?” Jake asked as he passed Madison the salt. They were at a trendy restaurant off of Wilshire. Angelica insisted on the dinner destination, as she wanted to cram enough authentic Los Angeles experience into Madison’s packed scheduled. Angelica was making sure Abigail ate her food, explaining how finicky an eater Abigail was.

“They were dorm rooms not exactly the Connecticut mansion but I’ll get used to them.”

“What are you studying?

“Political Science.” Madison saw that Angelica’s eyebrows rose at the mention of political science but she didn’t say a word.

“A chip off the old block, that’s what she is.” Janice mockingly shook Madison’s chin with her hand as Madison attempted to pour salt onto her steak. A little bit of salt fell onto the table and Abigail quickly rubbed it into her hands.

“It’s all over you.” Angelica said as she wiped some of the salt off of Abigail’s hands.

“I just got such déjà vu.” Madison exclaimed as she recalled the day she shared with Evelyn and Angelica on the beach.

“What are you talking about?” Janice said enjoying the lemon-seared salmon before her.

“It’s nothing really…” Madison giggled softly in recollection. “Angie took me to the beach with Evelyn at the time I still really hated Evelyn and she poured sand all over Angie’s hair. It was just an ordinary day but after talking to Angelica that day I started seeing Evelyn in another way, a better way.” Janice and Jake both watched Angelica as Madison recalled those moments from the past.

“You didn’t always get along with Evelyn?” Jake asked genuinely interested in the answer. He was always curious about the woman who claimed the heart of his ex-wife. Evelyn was always a mystery of the past that they rarely discussed.

“I didn’t, it took me a while to understand her, and she has always been emotionally distant. Pair that with my awkward years, it was a bad combination.”

“You never had awkward years. You were always amazing you just didn’t realize it.” Angelica urged with sincerity and strength in her tone.

“Evelyn is a politician to the core, she can convey passion and conviction about everything but her own true emotions.” Janice explained her theory to Jake as he listened intently. She noticed Angelica tapping her fork against her plate, the discomfort apparent.

“Can we just change the subject?” Angelica hadn’t intended to ask the question aloud but all the faces turning to her assured her that she had. “Please.” She whispered softly.

“Yes, are you okay?” Madison asked before Jake could.

“Yes, I just am not feeling well it’s been a long day and I just want to get Abigail to bed.” Madison and Abigail were the only ones to believe the small white lie.

Chapter 11

Janice rummaged through her bag to find her cell phone, when she finally found it she saw it was Evelyn calling and pressed ignore for the third time that day. Three weeks had passed and Janice contemplated extending her vacation a week longer. California was having a soothing affect on both her and Madison. Evelyn insisted that if she didn’t return to work soon she would come get her. She contemplated the prospect of Evelyn searching for her and discovering she was staying with Angelica.

She eased back onto the table as a masseuse expertly massaged her aching muscles. “Thank you for bringing us to this spa Angie, it’s heavenly.” Madison moaned in agreement as the three lay side by side, at an exclusive spa on Catalina Island.

“Whenever I feel stressed or miss home, I come here.” Janice took note that Angelica still referred to Connecticut as home.

“I have to remember this place when the professors are kicking my ass.” Madison had felt truly confident about venturing off on her own for the first time since she made the decision to go to UCLA. She admitted to herself that having a familiar face close by would ease the transition.

“You call me and we can make it our secret retreat.”

“Hey you two better not forget about me when I’m stuck in Evelyn’s office, one call and I’ll be on the next flight out.”

“My dorm room will always be open to you Janice.” They all laughed. A few weeks ago the prospect of staying with Madison alone would have alarmed Janice. The past few years they had built an awkward and forced friendship. She often had to look over Madison and the young girl was never a willing participant. Madison was enjoyable to be around in California. She was more mature, seemingly at peace with herself. She imagined being away from Edward and Evelyn had a lot to do with it.

The beefy attendant helped Janice up as she decided on the steam bath as Madison and Angelica waited for their body scrubs.

“If you miss home so much why don’t you go back?” Madison had to ask what had been fresh on her lips her entire stay.

Angelica was taken aback by the question, her heartbeat quickened and she was unsure why. “Connecticut is no longer a place I feel welcomed or comfortable.”

“Why would you even think that way, Janice is there, I’m there, isn’t your mom on the East coast as well?”

“My mom visits me all the time she loves spending her vacations here with Abby and I.” Angelica’s tone was edgy as she felt the need to defend herself.

“Is it because of Evelyn?” Madison wasn’t sure if Angelica heard her because of her softened tone. She spoke as if quieting her voice would ease Angelica into territory long avoided. There was silence between them for what seemed like an eternity. Madison was about to repeat her question when Angelica responded: “It has nothing to do with Evelyn.”

“Who are you trying to shield from the truth, you or me? If it’s me remember that I am an adult now and you don’t have to do that.” Madison sat up on the table as Angelica did the same.

“I know I don’t have to shield you from anything, I just don’t want to talk about Evelyn, we had a falling out that is all.”

“I know you did Angie.” Madison was going to speak further and reveal what she knew but the masseuse was back to apply their scrubs. Angelica was relieved to be able to sit in quiet hoping the topic would be concluded permanently.

After getting dressed they all decided to go shopping and rummage through the various shops that sprinkled through the island. They passed a children’s clothing store and Angelica’s eyes lit up as she headed straight in with Janice and Madison close behind her. Janice picked up a miniature jacket when Angelica nudged her shoulder. Angelica motioned her head in the direction of a young brunette who smiled sheepishly at Janice. Janice’s eyes sparkled but she sighed with frustration.

“Of course a girl smiles at me and it’s some hot mom in a children’s store.”

“You don’t know if she is a mom.” Madison pointed out as they all casually observed the woman. “Go talk to her.” Madison knew this would be a good opportunity to continue her conversation with Angelica.

Sensing the same window of opportunity Angelica grabbed Janice before she could leave.

“You’re just going to walk up to her what are you going to say?”

“I don’t know I’ll say whatever comes natural?”

“Don’t leave me with her.” Angelica whispered as she held on to Janice’s arm.

“I need to speak with her about a few things.” Madison explained and Janice nodded in agreement. Janice eased her arm away from Angelica who held on tightly. With a quick yank Janice was off leaving Madison and Angelica by themselves by the kiddie sleepwear. Angelica looked over to the exit, planning a futile escape. She didn’t want to approach this subject but she thought about the guilt she felt for leaving Madison behind – she deserves some answers.

“Go ahead then ask me anything you would like.” Angelica held her breath she had avoided this conversation for five years.

“Were you in love with her?”

“Yes.”

“Are you still in love with her?”

“It doesn’t matter.”

“Of course it matters.” Angelica felt the walls of the brightly colored store closing in on her she walked towards the back and Madison followed behind her.

“When did you find out about her and I?” They reached the empty changing area. Madison stood close to Angelica so no one could overhear their conversation.

“After the miscarriage no one told me and I didn’t know for sure if you were together but I saw her need for you. You weren’t there and it hurt her.”

“You don’t understand why I left Madison.” Angelica’s voice echoed in the store as she walked into an empty changing room. Madison followed her into the room and closed the door behind them.

“Then explain it to me, she was devastated when you left so was I. I just don’t understand why you left.”

“I had no other choice Madison that is the truth.” Angelica tried to control her voice and her temper but her hands shook and her voice cracked. She placed her hands on Madison’s arms partly to stop them from shaking. “Your father was going to fire me and Evelyn was pregnant. I wanted her to come with me, she didn’t.” Angelica decided to leave out the threats Edward made against her.

“Dad knew about you two?” Angelica shook her head yes.

“When she lost the baby she was so depressed, I even tried being extra nice to her. She cried for you she wanted you there.”

“I cried because I wasn’t.” Angelica thought about the day Evelyn broke off their relationship. “She walked away from me and she has never tried to get back into my life.”

“You expected to her to not only drop everything but make that decision in an instant?”

Angelica wasn’t sure how to explain herself. She thought back to the intensity of her feelings for Evelyn as well as the blazing fear that accompanied it. “You don’t know my life, all that has happened.”

“I do know, I know you run away, that’s what you do.”

Janice was standing outside of the changing room. It had taken her a few minutes to find them but when she saw their feet circling each other in the changing room she decided not to knock on the door. She heard whispering and soft voices and all she could do was wait.

“What made you run?”

“I told you your father was going to have me fired I had to find another job I found one here. I left, I’m sorry I know you needed me and I let you down. You have no idea how hypocritical that was of me, I won’t let you down again.” Madison held Angelica in an embrace. She let go of her remaining anger. She had put more on Angelica’s shoulders than was fair. She was now more concerned with what Angelica wasn’t saying.

"I really needed to hear that, thank you."

"I didn't know what to do Maddy it was all so much bigger than I could handle. You meant so much to me and I am sorry."

“I forgive you, completely.” She kissed Angelica’s cheek and left the changing room. She quickly walked passed Janice and left the store. Her own emotions were swelling and she needed air. Janice walked into the changing room. Angelica was leaning her head against the wall.

“Do I even want to ask what is going on?” Janice waited for an explanation trying not to jump to any conclusions.

“I hurt her when I left, more than I realized Janice.”

“You can’t beat yourself up you didn’t realize how much she would rely on you so quickly. You had to get out of there we both know that.” Janice fully understood what Madison felt for Angelica she trusted her and with the people that surrounded Madison on a daily basis the most important gift she could give was that of trust. She also knew that once Angelica and Evelyn became involved Angelica lost all control over her life. She commended Angelica for leaving Connecticut and taking control back.

Angelica didn’t regret leaving Connecticut because it led her to having Abigail and nothing in life had ever made her feel happier than Abigail had. Abigail entered her life and everything changed, she changed. She grew up when she became a mother.

The drive back to the house was a quiet one. They had all shed a lot of emotions on that island and they enjoyed the silence, and understanding that was shared. Madison felt conflicted realizing that there was more to Angelica leaving than she initially understood. Angelica and Evelyn had an affair and her father knew about it. It was also clear that many circumstances led to Angelica leaving town. She wondered why Janice never explained the truth to her.

Abigail was waiting at the door when the trio returned from their trip. Angelica scooped her up quickly and juggled her daughter and a large bag in her arms.

“I got you something special darling.”

“You didn’t have to get me anything mommy.”

“I know but I wanted to.” Angelica placed a kiss on Abigail’s forehead and stood her back on the floor. Jake greeted the women and gave Angelica a kiss on the cheek. “When I saw this little number I just couldn’t resist.” Angelica revealed the sundress she had bought for Abigail who squealed in delight.

“Fashion show time!” Abigail rushed into her room to try on her new dress. They put down the rest of their bags and waited patiently for Abigail to return for her impromptu show.

“I don’t want to go back to civilization but if I don’t get back soon Evelyn is going to have my head.”

“All the packing I still have to do is going to take me all day tomorrow.” Madison said but she was interrupted by a tiny voice calling for her from the bedroom. A few minutes later Madison came out of the room and put on the stereo in the living room. Pigtails bounced as Abigail twirled into the room. She showed off her new sundress that she accentuated when Jake picked her up and twirled her in the air as she laughed uncontrollably. Angelica laughed but was quiet as she watched them all twirl around to the music. Angelica watched Madison dancing with Abigail and she felt the familiar warmth deep in her soul that accompanied seeing her daughter happy.

“Are you looking forward to living in the dorms?” Angelica asked Madison as she jumped up and down with Abigail. Madison stopped jumping and flopped down next Angelica.

“I can’t wait to start school, start fresh you know?”

“I guess what I am asking you is if you would rather live on campus or live here with me and Abby.” Madison mouth opened slightly shocked by the question. She waited for Angelica to take the offer back but Angelica waited patiently for an answer.

“You want me here?” Angelica noticed the hesitance in Madison’s question as she stood in front of her.

“I understand if you would rather live on campus. I’m sure there will be many great programs and you want to be around your peers. I know it wouldn’t be as exciting here it’s a family life we just enjoy having you around.” Everyone was watching them now as Angelica rambled on. Madison stood to meet Angelica she was slightly taller as she stood over Angelica. Tears filled her eyes. More of a family life… She pondered those words and it filled her heart with comfort.

“I would love to stay here.” Madison gave Angelica a hug and they held each other tightly.

“If you don’t like it or want to move on campus you can always leave. I don’t want you to feel any pressure.” Madison laughed knowing Angelica was completely unaware of how much Madison wanted to be there with her and Abigail.

Jake picked up yet another box out of the rental van that held all of Madison’s belongings. He felt uncomfortable watching the movers bring box after box into the house without helping them along. There was a nervous energy as they all waited for Governor Stratford to arrive at the house. He had watched both Angelica and Madison pace throughout the living room and needed to keep busy.

Madison did not ask her father if she could move into Angelica’s home for college, she told him. Governor Stratford agreed with the arrangement with the stipulation that he would get to talk to Angelica at length about his expectations. That meeting was going to happen and she hoped the meeting would go well.

She spent the entire summer looking forward to moving to California. She had spoken every night to Angelica preparing for her new life as a “Cali girl.” They discussed school, Angelica’s life in college, and much more. They had also discussed Angelica’s tumultuous relationship with her father and she hoped that this trip would be civil.

Angelica laughed as she watched Abigail set up Madison’s belongings.

“Sweetie, you shouldn’t touch Madison’s stuff let her put her things away.” Abigail ignored her mother as she reached to put Madison’s field hockey trophy on the shelf by the bed.

“Madison said I could help her set up the room mommy. Now please let me work.”

“I did tell her she could help.” Madison said as she entered her new room.

“This will look great in our bathroom.” Abigail picked up one of Madison’s paintings and brought it into the bathroom. “Daddy can you help me put this up?” Abigail screamed out for her father who soon came over equipped with a hammer and a nail to put up the painting.

“You can have the bathroom and I will move Abby’s stuff to my bathroom I’m sure you don’t want all her tub toys in here.”

“Are you kidding me? You will devastate her she has been calling me all week with ideas for our side of the house.”

“She is just so excited about you moving in, we both are.” The doorbell chimed and they both looked at each other, their nerves apparent. Angelica opened the door and Governor Stratford appeared without his usual entourage in suits. Angelica was instantly relieved to see that Henry hadn’t accompanied him as she had expected.

“Hello Governor Stratford.” Angelica said in a voice that was saturated with more confidence than she felt. He was taller than she remembered.

“Hello Ms. Montalvo, it has been a long time hasn’t it?” Angelica moved to the side as the Governor walked in. He took stock of the surroundings. He inspected it as if he himself intended to move in. Jake walked in and stood by Angelica’s side. He was and would always be protective of Angelica.

“Governor, this is my ex-husband Jake. Jake this is Edward Stratford.” Jake took Edward’s hand and shook it firmly. Edward smirked at him. He was surprised when he was told that Angelica had married a man. Jake was more rugged than he envisioned.

“It is nice to meet you Governor, I have heard so much about you.” Jake instantly regretted his comment.

“I’m sure that cannot be good, but I hope your opinion of me can be changed.”

“Hi dad.” Madison appeared and her timing was impeccable. Madison hugged her father, her eyes never leaving Angelica. “Would you like to see my room?”

“I would love to but first let Angelica and I speak in private.”

“We can talk in my office.” Angelica had an office equipped with a conference table in her home. She had designed the home that way. Jake and Angelica used to share it when he lived there. She would bring coworkers or reporters to the office when she had to really put on the charm. It was her home-court advantage.

Angelica invited Edward into her office. After taking in the surroundings Edward sat at the head of the conference table. Angelica took a deep breath and sat to his side.

“When Madison told me she would be taking the scholarship at UCLA I never envisioned she would be staying here with you.”

“I know she didn’t plan it that way either, but Madison and I are both happy it has turned out this way."

“I’ve noticed. Did you suggest this as a way back into Evelyn’s life?” Angelica hands balled up into a fist and she hid them under the table.

“I haven’t spoken to Evelyn in five years and would not complicate my life by attempting to reconnect with her. I would never use Madison.” Sensing Angelica’s anger Edward placed his hand on her shoulder.

“You’ve made that mistake before Angelica it is not an unfair question.” Angelica moved her shoulder and brushed his hand off of her.

“My care for Madison has never and will never have anything to do with Evelyn, I don’t appreciate you insinuating otherwise.”

“My daughter is choosing to live here with you instead of campus and I have to make sure she is in the hands of someone who has her best interest at heart.”

“You ask me this to protect Madison?” Angelica laughed sarcastically.

“Well, I know if you make another futile attempt at my wife and fail, again, it may hurt Madison even more than the first time.” Angelica stood up sensing that their conversation was not heading in the right direction. Edward stood as well towering over Angelica.

“My intention is to give Madison a safe and caring home to live in while she is in college. I care about her.” Edward bent down slightly and challenged Angelica with his eyes. He knew instinctively that Angelica truly did care about his daughter, he always knew that. He just did not like the idea of Angelica being back in his life.

“If it was up to me she would be nowhere near you. She has an affinity for you so I must let her make her own decision. If you harm her in any way I will make sure to cash in on my promise to ruin your life, do we have an understanding?”

“We do.” They both left the office and entered the living room where Madison and Jake waited for them.

“Sweetie, we have to get to the car dealership.” Madison stood up with gusto she was excited to pick out a new car. It was her gift for getting a full scholarship for college. Abigail came into the living room and took Madison’s hand. She walked past Edward without acknowledging him. She was used to having people in suits frequent the house. She pulled Madison towards the bedrooms.

“We have a lot of work to do.” Abigail said as Madison stood by her father. Edward bent down and patted Abigail’s head. She squinted up at the tall older man.

“Who are you little girl?”

“That is Abigail, my daughter.” Angelica said from across the room.

“Hey Mister.” Abigail said as she still held onto Madison’s hand.

“I’m Edward I’m Madison’s father.”

“You look more like a mister than a dad.” Abigail looked at him suspiciously. Madison laughed aloud.

“Abigail! That is not polite, you know better.” Angelica said her cheeks slightly red. Jake tried to will himself not to laugh but he let out a chuckle as Angelica hit him on the shoulder. Abigail frowned unsure why she was being admonished.

“I have to go shopping with my dad I’ll be back.” Madison kissed the top of Abigail’s head and said goodbye to everyone before walking out of the house with Edward.

Angelica locked the front door and looked back at Jake who was eager to speak with her.

“Why don’t you let mommy and I talk for a while.” Jake said quietly as Abigail walked to the bookcase, picked up her favorite Sesame Street book, and headed to her room. Abigail never liked when her father’s voice carried that tone so she followed his directions without complaint. Angelica ran her fingers through her hair and sat at the island in the kitchen.

“How did it go?” Jake asked about Angelica’s closed-door meeting with Edward.

“Five years hasn’t softened his anger towards me if that is what you are asking.”

“It wouldn’t soften within me either if I were him. But will you two be able to get along?” Angelica tapped the table contemplating the question.

“We both want the same thing.” Jake took out two glasses and poured them both a glass of wine.

“What is it that you both want?” Jake asked not sure of the answer.

“We both want Madison to do well in college, what did you think I meant?” Jake looked at her, his expression clear that they both knew what he was truly asking.

“I made clear to him that Evelyn and I are over and this doesn’t change anything.”

“Does she know Madison is here?”

“I let Madison decide if she was going to tell Evelyn or not, she decided not to. Madison is focused on starting school that is our one and only focus.”

“You really think that Edward won’t tell her?” Angelica took a sip of the Merlot it soothed the butterflies that still lingered within.

“I know he won’t, he doesn’t speak about me at all, none of them do, and Janice has made that clear.” Jake knew that Angelica had successfully avoided Evelyn for five years and her luck would soon run out. However, he felt that if Angelica wanted to continue in a state of denial he would not be the one to show her the light.

“All right sweetie, I hope you know what you’re doing.”

“So do I.” Angelica said as she finished off the glass.

Chapter 12

Angelica sat at her desk typing up a press release for Sasha Ellington’s perfume line debut party. Sasha had spent the past hour offering suggestions for the party insisting that Angelica planned it instead of the party planner Angelica had hired. Sasha was their most popular model and it was no surprise that the agency’s directors agreed with the young rising star. After the meeting Sasha asked Angelica to accompany her to the party as her date, Angelica initially said no. Sasha told her to reconsider. Angelica copied a picture of Sasha and pasted it to the press release. She let the computer mouse drift over Sasha’s elegant features. Her caramel skin was smooth as silk and her green eyes were the most striking eyes in all of professional modeling. This beautiful woman wanted her and she willed herself to feel something, anything, for the young model. Angelica’s phone rang and she welcomed the intrusion on her thoughts.

“Yes, Peter?”

“Miss Stratford is here to see you.” Angelica smiled and stood to unlock her door. When she opened it she saw Madison suggestively leaning over her assistant’s desk. Peter, an aspiring model almost fell to the floor when he noticed his boss standing behind him. Angelica shook her head and opened her door to allow Madison in. Madison slowly walked into the office. She walked suggestively knowing that Peter would be watching her leave and he was.

“You have to stop doing that to him he can’t concentrate when you flirt with him and he is behind on his work.”

“He is such a hunk. Do you really think he is into me?”

“If you being the only thing he talks about means he is into you then yes I think he is.” Angelica said sarcastically. Madison smiled very proud of herself and placed a piece of paper on Angelica’s desk. It was her class schedule and Angelica was happy to look it over. Angelica placed her legs up on her desk as she studied the paper. She saw the standard freshman classes’… Introduction to Political Science, Freshman Experience, Calculus II.

“You’re skipping Calculus I?”

“I took it in high school so I don’t have to take it again.”

“Very nice.” Angelica commented as she continued to look on. She read on. Public Speaking Dr. Amber Rivera - Room 306 Whitley Hall. Angelica removed her legs from their crossed position on her desk and sat up in her seat. Madison looked at her surprised by her reaction.

“Um, public speaking?”

“Yes, it is a requirement for my major, I’m a little worried about it.”

“Why are you worried? You are a wonderful public speaker.”

“When I was waiting to meet with my advisor some students were talking about Dr. Rivera I hear she is a real bitch.” Madison grabbed the latest issue of Cosmo that was on Angelica’s desk. “Hey you may even know her she has been a guest speaker at so many conferences in the area don’t you intellectual types travel in the same circles?”

Angelica shook her head. “No, I don’t believe I know a Dr. Rivera.”

“I better run my first class is in twenty minutes.” Madison kissed Angelica on the cheek and rushed out of the office. She forgot her schedule and Angelica called out to her but Madison was already out the door. Angelica placed the schedule in her briefcase knowing she could give it back to Madison later that night.

Madison found a parking spot close to the lecture hall. She got out of the Blue Pearl Sebring Convertible her father bought her. She did her routine inspection of the car before internally bidding the car goodbye. She got to the lecture hall and was surprised to see over one hundred students waiting for the class to begin. She hoped every class wouldn’t be this large. She was used to class sizes of twenty or less. She sat in an empty seat and took out her newly bought textbook and notepad. When she opened the pad she found a note in crayon from Abigail: Good luck in College Maddy! The smiley face accompanying the note was mirrored by the smile that adorned Madison’s face. She indeed was ready for her first class in college.

“Can I have some cracker jacks mommy?” Abigail asked Angelica as they sat in the familiar yellow seats of Dodger Stadium.

“Oh me too, me too.” Madison added still giddy over her first day at UCLA. Angelica motioned the stadium worker who was screaming the crackerjack offering. She bought two bags and gave them to Madison and Abigail. The New York Mets, Angelica’s favorite team was in town and Angelica and Abigail always went to the stadium when they were in town. It was a tradition Angelica was eager to share with Madison.

The public address announcer began to introduce the home team Dodgers and Abigail jumped up from her seat directly in front of them, which made Madison drop her bag of cracker jacks. She picked them up and leaned over closer to Angelica.

“How did she become such a Dodger fan?” Madison asked as she pointed to the Dodger jersey Abigail wore with matching Dodger hair bow that held her ponytail together. Abigail led the crowd in cheers as the home team took the field. Angelica shook her head in mock disgust.

“Jake is a huge Dodger fan and he had the home team advantage on his side so she naturally took to it, it’s my biggest failure.” Madison laughed at Angelica’s obvious exaggeration.

“Too bad Jake had that deadline he usually doesn’t miss an opportunity to team up with Abby to tease me about my baseball allegiance.”

“Angie, is that you?” Sasha Ellison called out as she walked up the stairs towards their box seats. She wore a baseball cap that could barely contain her long locks. Her eyes seem to glitter as the orange hues of the setting sun glistened over her face. She inspected her ticket then the seats in front of her. She made her way to the empty seat next to Abigail.

“You have got to be kidding me.” Madison whispered.

“I believe this is my seat next to the prettiest little girl in the whole world.” Abigail did not hear the compliment as she cheered for the Dodger’s leadoff batter. Sasha bent down and placed a soft kiss on Angelica’s cheek. Angelica’s body responded and her heartbeat raced. It had been years since she felt excitement from a woman’s soft lips on her skin.

“What are the odds we would be sitting next to each other?” Sasha said as Angelica removed the bags that were placed in the seat directly in front of her.

“It’s the agency’s seats so it’s not that shocking.” Madison said before receiving a swift elbow to the ribs.

“I didn’t know you were a baseball fan Sasha.” Angelica said as she watched Sasha sitting next to her daughter.

“It’s a great way to unwind after a long day but I am starving. How do you get something to eat around here?”

“You have to eat a Dodger Dog, it’s the only way. Angelica watched as Sasha looked around helplessly.

“Ick I don’t like hot dogs I don’t want like, ballpark food.” Madison shook her head. “Angelica do you think you can help me find something at the concession stand?” Sasha asked with a hopeful gleam in her eye. Angelica shook her head yes and they both walked towards the concessions.

“How about Chinese food?”

“Mmm, yes, that sounds lovely.” Sasha wiggled her hands around Angelica’s arm. They walked clear across the park to the best Chinese concession stand at the stadium. Sasha was being watched by almost everyone who walked by them and Angelica agreed with them all. Sasha had exotic looks that were made for magazine covers. Angelica was surprised that Sasha’s eyes were fixed solely on her. She felt honored.

“Now we just need some drinks and we are set.” They collected the food and Sasha bought two sodas.

“Not quite set.” Angelica stopped at a concession stand filled with Dodger fan gear. She picked up a Dodger cap but could not reach her pocketbook because her hands were full. Sasha reached into Angelica’s pocketbook, found her wallet, and paid the attendant.

“You’re such a good mom.” Sasha said as they walked back to their seats.

“Thank you but the cap is for Madison, it’s her first time at Dodger stadium.”

“Oh.” Sasha realized she had to learn more about this young beautiful woman staying with Angelica.

“She is a very pretty young woman, how long have you known her?” Sasha knew she was the daughter of the governor of Connecticut and surmised Madison must be wealthy and successful. She wondered if the girl was competition.

“I’ve known Madison since she was thirteen.”

“And you two became friends?”

“I looked out for her. I saw a little bit of myself in her when I was her age. She seemed so… I don’t know we just had a similar childhood.” When Angelica really thought was that Madison seemed so alone and to herself much like her own childhood. They grew up with different social and economic situations but they both grew up on an emotional island, alone. She knew that would forever connect them, but Sasha did not need to know that about either of them.

“Mommy you were gone so long it’s the fifth inning we are keeping count.”

“Yes, we have been counting for the past hour.” Madison said as Angelica placed a new Dodger cap on her head.

“Has it really been an hour?”

“Yes, thank you for the cap! Now I don’t feel like such an outsider. Everyone is dressed in Dodger blue but me.”

“I had to do something it was embarrassing!” Madison jabbed Angelica’s shoulder as Angelica and Sasha eased into the seats behind Abigail and Madison. Madison had moved into the seat next to Abigail when Angelica took Sasha to the concession area. Madison surmised that Sasha had planned it exactly that way.

By the seventh inning Angelica could sense that Abigail was getting tired and a little cranky. Abigail was sitting in her lap now and constantly interrupted Sasha as she spoke. By the bottom of the inning Abigail was asleep on Angelica’s lap. Sasha had put her arm around Angelica. Angelica wondered what it would be like if they spent more time in this family formation.

“I have to get her home.” Angelica whispered to Sasha although Abigail slept through the crowds loud cheers.

“I’ve had so much fun I wish it didn’t have to end.” Sasha hands rubbed the back of Angelica’s neck and Angelica’s entire body quivered. They all got up and Abigail came to and realized they were about to leave. She began to kick and cry. Abigail kicked Angelica and Angelica screamed out in pain.

“Now don’t hurt mommy, wow she is loud.” Sasha whispered the last part and Madison was the only person to hear her.

“She is three years old what do you expect?” Madison felt her whole body straighten with anger. She didn’t know she was protective of those she cared about until that exact moment. If she wasn’t sure if she disliked Sasha, she was sure as of that moment.

“You stop that, we are going home that is it!” Abigail pouted. She knew when Angelica was upset. Angelica's tone changed and even at three Abigail could sense it immediately.

“I’m sorry mommy, did I hurt you?”

“Yes, you did, you hurt mommy’s leg.” Abigail’s eyes watered they were still red with sleep.

“I want to go home mommy.”

They walked to the parking lot and Angelica placed Abigail in the car seat.

“I am going to walk you to your car.” Angelica walked over to Sasha who brushed her hand over the buttons of Angelica’s Mets jersey.

“I was dropped off so I don’t have my car here.”

“Then how were you planning to get home?” Sasha frustrated Madison for most of the night. She had spoken throughout the game and every topic was about her. Madison wondered why Angelica couldn’t see right through her.

“I was going to take a taxi.” Sasha remarked annoyed by Madison’s presence in their conversation.

“No, let me drive you home I want to make sure you get in okay.”

“Are you sure? I don’t want to be a burden.” Sasha opened the passenger door but Madison already occupied the seat. She waited for Madison to get out of the car and move to the back.

“It isn’t a burden but if you don’t mind I want to get Abigail into a hot bath and in her bed. So I will drop them off then drive you home.”

“That’s not a problem at all.” Sasha smiled as she looked out of the window. After they dropped off Madison and Abigail they would be truly alone and she knew deep in her heart that this night would be the night Angelica finally succumbed to their mutual desire.

The drive to Sasha’s Hollywood Hills home was quiet as Angelica’s radio played in the background. Each song that played was romantic and Angelica wished an upbeat song would play soon. It had been a long time since she was alone with a woman who wanted her. The way Sasha’s hand rested on her thigh made her keenly aware of Sasha’s intentions.

Sasha felt her whole body rage with heat as she softly rubbed Angelica’s thigh. She had spent months learning about the woman sitting with her. Angelica had been an out lesbian before she married her ex-husband. She was also a known womanizer but there had been no mention of a significant other for the past two years.

Sasha had a reputation herself for bedding some of Hollywood’s young hot starlets. She had grown tired of the young women who spent every night in nightclubs snorting coke and hooking up. Angelica was well respected - Angelica deserved her.

“Will you come in for a glass of wine?” The question had been posed and they both knew that a glass of wine meant staying the night. Angelica looked deep into Sasha’s eyes and sought a reason to stay.

“I don’t think I should. I don’t want Abby to wake up and me not be there.” Angelica had never spent the night away from Abigail and she didn’t feel sure that the time was right.

“It’s just a glass of wine and I really need to talk to you. I’m thinking of leaving the agency.”

“What? Since when?” Angelica was on high alert Sasha was vital to the agency and she knew it.

“Select Models has offered me a great deal, they really want me Angelica. I no longer feel wanted by Isabella.”

“Sasha that’s crazy you have to know how wanted you are with us.”

“I don’t, but maybe you can convince me that I am really wanted.” Sasha got out of the car and waited for Angelica to do the same.

“If you don’t know how much we value you by how hard we work for you, then maybe Isabella isn’t right for you anymore.” Angelica zoomed out of the large driveway before Sasha could protest. She felt her blood boil by the proposition Sasha made, she pressed the gas. The freeway was uncharacteristically empty and Angelica was able to get home quickly. She placed her keys on the end table and walked quietly hoping to not wake everyone.

“Welcome back.” Madison said as she watched television in the living room.

“I didn’t expect to see you up.” Angelica sat on the couch next to Madison and took off her sandals.

“It’s only 11:30 Angie.” Angelica laughed.

“I guess I’m always on three-year-old time. Where’s Jake?”

“He left about twenty minutes ago, I believe he didn’t think you would be home tonight or he would have waited for you to get back.” Angelica laid back and thought about Sasha’s hand and how it made her whole body warm with desire.

“I wasn’t sure if I would be home either.”

“Princess was okay with you dropping her off and leaving?” Sasha reminded Madison of the girls she used to go to school with, the ones who used to make fun of her. The girls with the perfect looks and confidence that accompanied having everything handed to them.

“No, she wasn’t, she insinuated that she would leave Isabella if I didn’t stay with her tonight.” Angelica didn’t feel comfortable with Sasha threatening her professionally.

“And by stay with her she means make love to her?” Angelica shook her head ‘yes.’ “She is so hot, but that personality has got to go.” Angelica laughed she couldn’t help but agree.

“The whole world kneels at her feet, it is bound to affect anyone.” Angelica saw good within Sasha, she found a dormant comfort in the possibility of sharing her life with someone, someone to rub her neck lovingly as she held her daughter like Sasha had at the game.

“As long as you’re not the one kneeling at her feet.” Madison got up to head and walked to her bedroom she was tired and had classes early the next morning.

“Let’s just hope I have a job in the morning.” Madison laughed as she walked away not realizing Angelica was very serious.

Chapter 13

The clock struck 6:00am and Madison quickly smacked her alarm clock quiet. She got up with her eyes still closed and walked into the bathroom to brush her teeth. She hated the morning and cursed herself for picking early classes every day as part of her daily routine. After washing her face she headed to the kitchen to pour herself some cereal. She saw Angelica lying on the couch and was surprised to see her up she usually awoke around seven. Before she spoke she noticed Angelica’s attention was on the television, Evelyn Stratford was being interview by Fox News.

Angelica’s arms were crossed and her hand rested on her lips. She did not hear or notice Madison pouring milk into a cereal bowl directly behind her. She watched the woman she thought about every night. She looks tired.

Madison put out a bowl of cereal for Angelica as she watched Angelica watch Evelyn on the screen. She felt as if she was watching a private moment. She finished her breakfast quickly and left the house. She wondered when Angelica would notice she was gone.

Evelyn fielded questions with the poise of a seasoned political veteran. Angelica’s heart pounded as difficult questions were thrown at Evelyn. She was relieved when the interview was over but saddened when Evelyn disappeared from the screen.

Madison sat in class and attempted to concentrate on two students debating gay marriage in front of her. How is it possible for two students to take a polarizing subject like gay marriage and make it boring? She thought to herself as she waited impatiently for the class to end. Dr. Rivera was everything students said she was: inexplicably stern, strict, and eager to give students hell. Why would a demon hide in such a cute little body? Madison continued to daydream.

She thought back to Angelica and how absorbed she was as she watched Evelyn on the television. She hadn’t realized how lonely Angelica was until she saw the pain in her eyes as they reflected off the television screen. She felt genuine empathy for her dear friend. She deserves to be happy.

Madison watched Dr. Rivera and smirked when she saw the small rainbow button clipped to her messenger bag. Dr. Rivera hadn’t chosen sides on any of the debate topics but her stance on gay marriage was obvious. When Madison noticed the rest of the class leaving she realized she had daydreamed straight through their release and quickly leapt to her feet.

“Madison, may I speak with you for a moment?”

“Sure Dr. Rivera.” The impeccably dressed professor walked with Madison towards the student campus center.

“I have been meaning to speak with you regarding the University’s debate team are you familiar with it?” Madison was amused as she walked with the professor. Students watched Dr. Rivera but no one dared to say hello.

“Yes, I have I believe you are their moderator?”

“I am and I think you would be marvelous on the team, you speak with great conviction and you are always well-prepared. Have you considered joining?” Madison was genuinely flattered by the compliment.

“Thank you I hadn’t given it much thought but now I will.” She’s not so bad after all. Madison smiled.

“I must say I have been an admirer of your father’s career.” Madison’s smile quickly faded. She was used to people getting close to her with ulterior motives because of her father, this time she didn’t see it coming. She remained quiet.

“An old friend of mine worked in your father’s office a long time ago I wonder if you remember her, she was there for a short time.” Madison was already planning her escape from another conversation about her father. The professor continued: “Her name is Angelica Montalvo, you don’t happen to remember her do you?” Madison stopped abruptly. “Of course not when she left you were still a child, it was just a shot in the dark.”

“Of course I remember Angelica.”

“Really? Dr. Rivera stood on the tips of her toes, a dainty reaction to the news. I haven’t seen her since college but I followed her political career. I lost track of her when she resigned from her position at your father’s office.” The new bright tone in Dr. Rivera’s voice was apparent and Madison wondered how closely Dr. Rivera’s friendship was with Angelica. Madison surveyed the professor she was in her mid-thirties and she was in Madison’s opinion Angelica’s type.

“I have wanted to reach her for a while but she is a tough woman to find.” Madison decided to give Dr. Rivera the information she sought.

“I am still in contact with Angelica. She is a friend of mine.” Dr. Rivera opened her mouth to speak but no words came out. The usually poised woman found it difficult to express herself.

“Maybe you can give me her number or a way to contact her, we used to be very close and I would love to speak to her again.” They were directly in front of one of the cafeterias on campus. Madison was taken aback by the array of emotions that suddenly dawned Dr. Rivera’s face.

They were definitely more than friends. “I think that can be arranged.”

Jake and Angelica placed the last grocery bag into Jake’s SUV. They had picked up some last minute necessities for Thanksgiving dinner.

“Your mother called me, her flight lands tomorrow at 10:00a.m. She also apologized for missing Thanksgiving because of her cruise.” Jake said as he swerved past a runaway shopping cart.

“Why is my mother calling you?” Angelica asked a question in which she already knew the answer – her marriage was the type of happiness her mother wanted for her and when she got divorced her mother was sadder than anyone involved. She made no secret she hoped for them to get back together. Angelica was relieved that they could enjoy Thanksgiving dinner in peace.

“Will Sasha be joining us tonight?”

“No, her family is flying in from Boston.” Angelica considered herself lucky that Sasha didn’t have her head after she rejected the model’s advances after the Dodger game. Sasha seemed to pursue her more vigorously ever since. “Sasha and I are not a couple, not even close.”

“That girl is determined to have you and she gets what she wants. If she wanted me I wouldn’t be here right now.” Angelica laughed and playfully hit Jake on the arm.

“You and I both know that nothing could stop you from being here right now, even a hottie like Sasha.” Jake nodded his head in agreement. He loved holidays especially Thanksgiving and nothing would keep him from sharing it with his daughter. Angelica thought about Sasha and the effort she made to be in Angelica’s life. Angelica had been scared to open her life to a woman after Evelyn. She pushed Sasha away in every way imaginable but Sasha still wanted her, she wondered if a relationship with Sasha was a risk worth taking.

“I wouldn’t even know what to do anymore.” Angelica placed her head against the car window as Jake laughed.

“I highly doubt you have forgotten how to be with a woman.” Jake laughed but he was worried about Angelica. Jake had been hurt when their marriage ended but deep in his heart he knew it was the best thing for his family to survive. He had fallen in love with Angelica quickly when he met her at a banquet he attended for his newspaper. He knew about her past with women but she enamored him. They became friends and it progressed to more but he always admitted to himself that she lacked a passion for him. He blamed it on his gender but the more he thought about it, he hadn’t seen her passionate about anyone - man or woman.

Angelica and Jake took out the bags from the SUV and headed into the house from the garage. Madison quickly ran over to them to help them with the bags. Angelica was surprised and elated when Madison asked if she could stay for Thanksgiving. Angelica had wanted to ask her to stay, explain to her that she was part of the family and if she left Thanksgiving wouldn’t be complete. She wanted to explain that Abigail would not be happy to share family dinner and not listen to Madison talk about her day. When she decided to speak to Madison about it the only words that came out were: “You can stay.” Madison followed that up with: “I would like to stick around.”

Angelica did notice that Madison was unusually quiet and feared she had regretted staying.

“Are you okay Maddy?” Madison put away a quart of milk and looked over at Angelica.

“Ummm… I’m fine I just have someone I would like you to meet.”

“Geez is it Matthew from the Lacrosse team? I knew it was a matter of time.” Madison blushed and took Angelica’s hands.

“No, it’s a woman.” Angelica looked at both Jake and Madison confused. Jake sat on the counter waiting for Angelica to register Madison’s intentions.

“Well, I had my suspicions, wait, are you setting me up?” Angelica realized that Jake pushing her to date and Madison bringing home a woman was not a coincidence.

"Yes, Angelica she is beautiful, intelligent, and the best part is you already know her.” Madison held onto Angelica’s hands afraid that Angelica would be upset at her. “You need to start dating, Jake has.”

“I don’t think those bimbos count.”

“Oh, they count.” Jake added trying to lighten the mood that began to suffocate the room.

“I know her? I’m not ready for this.” Angelica felt her heart beat catapulting out of her chest. Before she could protest Madison was pushing her towards the living room.

“And she is here now.” Madison walked Angelica over to the living room and was yanked back when Angelica stopped walking suddenly.

“Hello Angelica.” Amber Rivera got up from the sofa to greet her ex-girlfriend. Angelica’s felt her nerves dissipate but felt anger rise from a place deep within.

“What the hell are you doing here?” Madison’s head jerked in Angelica’s direction surprised by the harsh tone of voice.

“I am Madison’s professor what are the odds? It has been so long.” Amber walked over to Angelica and moved in to hug her. The hug was brief as Amber waited for Angelica to accept her embrace.

“How do you two know each other?” Jake asked as he walked into the living room. He was afraid Angelica wouldn’t take kindly to being set up and he was relieved to know that they had known each other previously.

“Well, Madison is one of my students and I asked her about Angelica knowing she had worked in Governor Stratford’s office, and...”

“No Amber he asked how you and I knew each other not how you knew I was here. Amber is my ex-girlfriend Jake.” Angelica’s hands shook as she walked away from everyone in the living room. “My ex-girlfriend, my first love, who decided to leave me during my father’s funeral.”

Madison’s mouth dropped open as her gaze drifted back and forth between Dr. Rivera and Angelica. Angelica left the room leaving them all to stand there dazed. They stood silently for a while looking at each other. Abigail walked in shortly after, she was about to speak when Jake picked her up. “Let’s go play outside for a while.”

Madison walked to Angelica’s bedroom and slowly opened the door. Before she could speak Amber busted in. “I have waited years to talk to you Angelica, to say I’m sorry.”

“Amber you left during my father’s funeral, not before, not after, during!” She screamed the last part and hoped Abigail wasn’t close enough to hear her.

“I didn’t know.” Tears filled Madison’s eyes she had wanted to do something nice for Angelica but saw that she had opened up very old wounds instead.

“Madison this isn’t your fault, she knew what she did yet she still decided to let you bring her here.”

“Yes, I needed to see you and tell you that I made a mistake, a huge mistake.” Amber walked over to Angelica and stood close their noses almost touched.

“We need to be alone.” Amber said as she looked over in Madison’s direction. Madison did not want to leave them alone. She had never seen Angelica so upset. Angelica shook her head giving her unspoken permission for her to leave.

“I have nothing to say to you.” Angelica could not believe that Amber Rivera was standing in her bedroom. Her breakup with Amber haunted her since college. It even affected her ability to open up to Evelyn fully. Amber, a woman she loved, left her at the most vulnerable point ever in life. She questioned what was wrong with her and the love she gave that Amber would want to break up with her. She now had Amber in front of her but she couldn’t ask any questions, all she felt was anger.

“That’s okay because I have a lot to say to you.” Amber leaned into Angelica and brought her hand up to Angelica’s neck she urged Angelica’s body in for a kiss. Amber’s lips were on hers before she could even process what was happening. She felt Amber’s tongue trace her lips and Angelica responded by wrapping both her hands around Amber’s back. She got lost in their kiss and embrace. It had been years since she felt a woman’s soft lips kissing hers. Years since she felt the swell of a woman’s breast through her shirt. When their kiss ended she placed her hand on her nightstand to keep herself from falling.

“I wasn’t ready to come out to my friends and family. I wasn’t strong enough to be there for you if it meant all my friends would find out I was a lesbian. I was a young fool.” Amber kissed Angelica again and pure need danced on each other’s lips. When the thrill of kissing a woman again subsided Angelica pictured the recurring nightmare she had of her father’s funeral and Amber walking away. It gave her the strength to push away from Amber.

“I have to check on the turkey.” Angelica walked out of the room and Amber quickly followed. Madison was putting away the groceries when Angelica joined her in the kitchen. Angelica placed various fruits on the counter for Madison to slice. When Madison began to slice the apples Angelica could see her hands shaking. Angelica placed her own hands over Madison’s.

“I told you it’s okay.” Angelica whispered.

“I should have asked you before inviting her here. She didn’t tell me that she hurt you.”

“I know Amber a little better than you do and I know she tends shirk the truth to get her way.”

“You tend to date many of those.” Jake said as he joined them in the kitchen with Abigail in his arms. He sat her down on the counter so she could watch them prepare dinner.

“I dated you Jake so what does that say?”

“It says you have much better taste in men than women. I take that back you haven’t been tasting anything recently.”

“Too much information.” Madison said as she kicked Jake. “She just has to find the right woman.”

“Can you two not talk about me when I am right here?” Angelica gave Abigail a small bowl of fruit to hold her off until dinner.

“You’re right, go entertain your guest so we can talk about you some more.” Jake pushed Angelica into the living room where Amber sat waiting. Amber patted the seat next to her. Angelica decided to sit across her.

“There used to be a time when you couldn’t go a few minutes without touching me.”

“That was because you constantly needed attention.”

“And you loved giving it to me.” Amber got up and sat next to Angelica.

“What are you expecting to happen Amber?”

“Madison told me you were single, I am single, and here we are. It’s fate don’t you think?” Amber took Angelica’s hand.

“It’s not fate Amber it’s Madison’s choice in school. You knew who she was when she enrolled in your class.” Angelica stood but Amber grabbed her arm to stop her from leaving.

“You’ve been this close for this long and you never came for me, why?” Angelica stared at her former lover. She searched for an answer, as she thought back to their time together.

“I just didn’t want to.” Angelica smiled as she felt Amber’s hand and their history release from her body.

“We were so in love, you never thought about me?” Amber’s eyes watered.

“I did, I thought about what you did and I blamed myself.”

“Let me make that up to you, we can start slow.” Before Angelica could respond Abigail walked into the living room. She jumped onto the couch and put on the television. Angelica took that opportunity to sneak away.

The Thanksgiving turkey was larger than the five would ever eat. Angelica carved slices for each plate. She couldn’t help but laugh because she could have never expected to be at a table with the group of people who sat before her. She placed a few pieces of turkey on Abigail’s plate who waited patiently in her booster seat. Abigail was the only person who smiled without a care in her world.

“So Madison, I’m surprised you decided to stay in Los Angeles for Thanksgiving why not go home?” Amber asked breaking the silence.

“That’s a personal question don’t you think?” Jake asked as Angelica shook her head.

“That’s okay Jake I am happy to answer that, I am home, Dr. Rivera.”

“You can call me Amber and I think it’s sweet that you consider this home now.”

“Her approval must mean the world to you Madison now you can rest easy knowing you have it.” Madison eyes grew wide at Angelica’s comment.

“Behave.” Amber reprimanded Angelica as everyone became quiet. Abigail began to lay out her Christmas list for Santa.

“I know you’re still upset with me.” Amber stated as Angelica began to laugh.

“I’m not, I thought I was, but I just don’t feel upset anymore.” Amber smiled and began to eat dinner. Angelica thought about the years she spent confused by Amber’s sudden departure from her life. Sitting with Amber she felt nothing. Nothingness had begun to fill every space in her heart not taken by her love for Abigail. She wondered if she would feel numb if Evelyn sat next to her. She thought back to the intensity that marked every moment between them. Not one moment with Amber ever felt like that.

Angelica thought about the unclear direction her life was taking if Jake and Madison felt they needed to fix her up. She had been closed off to falling in love again. Deep down she hoped she could feel love like her love for Evelyn again. Love that felt so intrinsically right it couldn’t ever be wrong. Looking over at Amber she knew how wrong a wanton love could be.

Angelica pulled up to the dimly lit home nestled in the Hollywood Hills. She was still jittery from the awkward Thanksgiving night. Amber did not leave her house without a stiff warning that Angelica would regret her leaving. While Angelica knew this time Amber left with no regret she did not like the feeling of loneliness that was now apparent to her. She had been lonely for years but found many ways to ignore those feelings. She drowned herself in work and family so she never realized how much she missed the touch of a woman.

The night was colder than usual as she wrapped her own arms around her. She made her way through the lawn and knocked on the oak door. After a few minutes Sasha opened the door. She smiled surprised to see Angelica.

“I hope I’m not interrupting anything?” Angelica felt nervous as she stood before Sasha with a purpose. She no longer wanted to live life without love’s embrace.

“My parents already went back to their hotel room. It’s cold why don’t you come in.” Sasha took Angelica’s hand and led her into the house. She did not ask Angelica why she was there or what made her come. She accepted that Angelica was there and that was all the information she needed.

Sasha offered Angelica a drink. Angelica took the glass of scotch and quickly finished its contents. They stood in silence taking in each other’s bodies. Sasha slowly moved to put her hands on Angelica’s hips. When Angelica did not move away she yanked Angelica close to her. She pushed her hips into Angelica as they began to kiss.

Angelica grabbed the back of Sasha neck and explored her mouth greedily. She pulled Sasha up onto the living room bar shelf. Sasha took off her shirt as Angelica continued to kiss her. Sasha wore a powder blue bra, the same one she had modeled in her very own lingerie calendar. Angelica allowed her hands to explore Sasha’s body as her tongue toyed with Sasha’s. Angelica felt her damp panties against her skin as her fingertips found Sasha’s nipples hard beneath the flimsy fabric.

Her hand continued down Sasha’s body. She rubbed Sasha’s sex and could feel Sasha’s clitoris hard against her fingers. She took off Sasha’s shorts and panties in one quick action. She pushed gently yet quickly into Sasha. Her fingers were instantly slick with Sasha’s excitement. Sasha moaned aloud, the sound slightly muffled by Angelica’s mouth. Sasha came quickly as Angelica’s knowledgeable hands pumped into her body. She placed her hands against the wall as the orgasm took its hold. She hoped not to fall off of the shelf as her body shook violently. Angelica continued to thrust deeper into her not letting up. A second orgasm hit her quickly and she looked to the ceiling and screamed.

After Sasha’s body calmed she slowly led Angelica’s hand out of her. Angelica’s head was on her shoulder and she hadn’t yet uttered a word. Sasha got off of the bar shelf and her legs were unsteady. She led Angelica to her bedroom.

Chapter 14

Evelyn stood at her mirror looking over the black Valentino dress she planned to wear at the Governor’s ball later that night. She stood lamenting the idea of spending the whole night out. She would have to charm and schmooze colleagues all night when all she wanted was to lay in bed with a good book. “How does this look?” Evelyn asked Janice who sat on her bed.

Janice watched Evelyn go through the motions of getting ready. “It will look great, do you mind if I head out of here early?”

“Where are you running off to?”

“The airport, don’t you remember I have to pick up Lisa, the woman I met on my vacation?”

“Ah yes, do you think I should wear my black stilettos?”

Before Janice could answer Evelyn screamed out into the hallway. “Maddy, do you know where my black Marc Jacobs are?”

“In my room I wore them to the fundraiser on the twenty-eighth remember?”

“Shit.” Evelyn began to walk into the hallway. “I’ll see you later Janice you can be on your way.” Evelyn walked into Madison’s room and she instantly felt the beat of the loud music pulsating in her eardrums. She walked over to Madison’s stereo and lowered the music.

“It’s not even that loud.” Madison said as she walked out of her bathroom.

“I know I just have the worst headache, can I have my shoes back.” Evelyn sat on Madison’s desk as she waited for her shoes.

“They’re in my closet this may take awhile.” Madison walked into her large closet and began to search through the wreckage known as her closet. Evelyn noticed pictures from a football game at UCLA appear on Madison’s computer monitor. Her laptop’s screensaver displayed various photos from her first semester in college. Evelyn watched smiling. “Why haven’t you shown me these pictures?” Evelyn asked as she watched the slideshow on the monitor.

“What pictures?” Madison asked from the deep depths of her closet. Evelyn was about to answer when a picture of Angelica came onto the screen. Angelica wore a light blue and gold scarf her arm was wrapped around Madison who had the UCLA emblem on her cheek. Evelyn’s eyes sparkled and her heart grew heavy as the pictures of Angelica continued.

Madison realized that Evelyn was referring to the pictures on her laptop as she ran out of her closet to turn off her laptop. She was too late as she watched Evelyn as she gazed at a picture of Angelica and Abigail she took on Christmas morning. She sat on the corner of her bed closest to Evelyn.

“I didn’t know that you see her in California.” Evelyn said as she reached for the mouse.

“If you move the mouse the images will disappear.” Madison explained as Evelyn moved her hands to her side.

“I live with her Evelyn.”

“You what?” Evelyn couldn’t hide her shock as her voice rose.

“I moved in with her when I started at UCLA.”

“Does your father know?” Evelyn tried to sound calm but her mind was racing faster than she could process.

“He has known since the beginning.” Madison was relieved that Evelyn knew the truth without her volunteering the information. She didn’t like keeping a large part of her life a secret while in Connecticut, now she was free to be herself. Madison got up and moved her mouse to make the picture disappear. She saw that she had a video conferencing request waiting for her and moved her body across the screen.

“I have a message, I have to take this.” Evelyn noticed the invitation flash across the screen. She shook her head and began to walk out of the room. When she closed the door she kept it slightly ajar and peered inside. She watched as Angelica appeared on the screen holding a child.

“We miss you.” They both said in unison. Evelyn felt her whole body embraced by the sound of Angelica’s voice. She missed her with every inch of her tall body. She smiled when she saw Angelica smile and was happy to see her old lover beaming with joy. She had thought about going to California to find Angelica on many occasions but her hope to do that died shortly after her miscarriage.

She walked away and ran over to her bathroom. She opened the medicine cabinet and grabbed a jar of tranquilizers prescribed to her. After she took the two tablets she looked in the mirror ashamed by what she saw. Lifeless eyes stared back at her.

The tranquilizers didn’t ease Evelyn’s racing mind as they made their way to the New Year’s Eve ball. She wondered how she could allow herself to be so numb to life for so long. She looked towards Edward and knew he was a good man. She also knew she would never be in love with him.

Madison watched Evelyn afraid that she would do something rash because of the anger evident on her face. She wondered if she should tell her father that Evelyn knew the truth about her college home. She decided it would be best to stay out of their marriage. She did however know she had to tell Janice when they got to the ball.

Evelyn quickly said her hellos as she made her way through the black tie crowd. When she found Janice she headed straight toward her.

“Evelyn, this is Lisa.” Janice introduced the first woman she ever brought to an event for the governor.

“You knew Madison was staying with Angelica and you didn’t tell me.”

“Will you excuse us?” Janice said as she walked with Evelyn to a secluded area of the room.

“Yes, I knew it, its Angelica’s private life not for me to tell.”

“I can’t believe this.”

“Don’t blame me for your mistakes Evelyn.” Janice began to walk away but Evelyn followed.

“What was I supposed to do? Lose my career, jeopardize her career, her life?"

“Your right you made your choice Evelyn now you live with it. I am both of your friends and I keep those relationships separate.” Evelyn was surprised by Janice’s tethered responses. “Another thing. I finally introduce you to a woman and this is how you treat her you can’t even say hello?” Evelyn allowed Janice to walk away understanding that she needed her space. She knew Janice was right she was being unreasonable. She wondered how long that had been the case.

Madison walked towards her and stood close by. She felt a heightened state of awareness take over her, she felt more alive and alert than she had in years. They sat down at the governor’s table as the other guests stood around for cocktail hour.

“How is she?” Evelyn asked after a long period of silence.

“How is who?”

“How is Angie?”

“She is doing well, her career is successful, and her daughter is amazing.” Evelyn smiled as she thought back to the computer monitor and Angelica’s smiling face.

“She is so beautiful.” Evelyn remarked to herself but Madison agreed aloud. “On the inside even more than her physical appearance if that is possible.”

“I know she is Evelyn.” Madison said as she observed the visibly shaken woman that sat alongside her. She once thought of Evelyn as the picture of beauty, elegance, and strength she didn’t see any of those qualities in the woman before her.

“Does she ever talk about me?” Evelyn’s heart began to sputter fearing the answer she sought.

“No, she doesn’t.” Madison watched the glimmer of light that shined briefly slowly dim. “But, when you’re on television she watches, she worries for you, I see it.” Evelyn smiled a brief sparkle in her eyes.

“You don’t deserve her.” Madison said flatly unsure what her remark would warrant in reaction.

“You’re right I don’t. But I’ll love her until the day I die.” Madison was taken aback by the sudden burst of emotion. She saw tears in Evelyn’s eyes that Evelyn quickly attempted to hide.

“What has gotten into you, you've spent five years away from her now you love her?” Evelyn herself couldn’t believe that five years had disappeared so quickly. She knew that Madison was too young to really understand why she made the choices she made. She thought she was protecting Angelica from disappointment. She felt Angelica deserved more.

“What makes you think she hasn’t moved on?” Evelyn grew frustrated unsure why Madison was interrogating her.

“I never said she hasn’t I’m sure she has but you didn’t ask me what she feels you asked if I love her.”

“She won’t want you like this, relying on prescriptions to get through the day.” Evelyn’s sat back she knew Madison was right. She was a fraction of the woman she used to be. A part of her died when she allowed Angelica to leave her life.

“I heard her voice today. I can’t go back to not hearing it again.”

“Oh this isn’t good.” Janice said as she overheard Evelyn’s last remark. “What are you thinking? Evelyn you have to leave it alone.” Evelyn’s mind was made up as it had been for a while. She had to see Angelica again she had to find out if there was hope for the two of them.

“Hello ladies.” Henry walked over to the table and gave each woman a leering smile. He paid close attention to Lisa a woman he had never seen before. Janice placed her arm over Lisa’s chair possessively. Henry saw that Evelyn’s eyes were red as if she had been crying. He laughed at the pathetic sight of his once strong cousin.

Governor Stratford walked over to the table. He leaned in to give Evelyn a kiss on the cheek but noticed her cheeks slick with tears. He sat down and looked at everyone seated for answers. Madison whispered something to him but he could not hear. He motioned for her to repeat herself but Evelyn interjected.

“Madison is trying to tell you that I know she’s been staying with Angelica.”

“What is going on?” The very mention of Angelica’s name was enough to make Henry’s whole body shake.

“Don’t act like you don’t know Henry.” Evelyn felt a blaring hatred for her cousin’s role in Angelica’s departure. He was mean to her and that was enough to send Evelyn over the edge.

“He isn’t acting, Evelyn, I never told him. Madison has been staying with Angelica Montalvo in California.” Henry’s eyes twitched with disbelief.

“Why would you be staying with her Maddy?”

“Because I want to Uncle Henry, she is my family.”

“She isn’t your family.” Henry snapped at her and Edward raised his hand in protest.

“You don’t know anything about family Henry.” The questioning of her life in California with Angelica angered Madison. She felt a rage bubble within her.

“I know she will ruin us all if we let her.”

“It’s time for us to walk away.” Janice said as she pulled Lisa away from all of them. Great she is going to think I’m dysfunctional after this trip.

“You don’t even know her!” Madison screamed loud enough that everyone in their vicinity looked in her direction. She followed Janice out of the room.

“I’m going to go check in on Janice.” Evelyn got up and followed the other women out of the room. Henry and Edward remained.

“We have to get a lid on this we can’t have Evelyn go and do something stupid.” Henry hands balled up in fists. All the political pundits spoke of Edward being the next presidential candidate with Henry as his Chief of Staff. They couldn’t afford this type of disruption.

“I know, but what can we do at this point? If this girl is still an issue after all this time, what can we do?”

“Don’t worry I’ll take care of this, we haven’t come this far to let this girl ruin us.” I haven’t come this far.

Edward thought back to the glimmer of light he was elated to see on his wife face. His heart broke into a million pieces when he realized he was not the reason for her hope. “I have to talk to my wife.”

Evelyn quickly packed a suitcase her hands shaking with every movement. She packed as many blouses as she could unsure how long she would be gone. Her heart pounded, she knew she wasn’t sure what her next step would be. She had spent most of her life meticulously planning every movement, now she wasn’t sure of anything, and she never felt so relieved. She picked up the bottle of tranquilizers she had taken from her bathroom. She threw the bottle in the garbage and continued to pack.

“Planning a trip?” Edward said from the bedroom door. He had watched his wife for a few minutes as she hurriedly packed her suitcase. She looked younger than she had in years, her eyes seemed naked without the dark circles that usually accompanied them.

Evelyn stopped her packing and stood in the middle of the room. She tried to think of something to say to explain herself. All she could do was throw her hands up and let them fall to her side.

“Talk to me.” He urged. He walked towards the bed and noticed the discarded pills in the garbage.

“I can’t do this anymore, Edward. This is not who I am.”

“This is exactly who you are.” He began to walk towards her. “Politics is your world Evelyn.” He took her hands in his. “You’re just not happy with whom you‘re sharing your life.”

“It wasn’t anything you did Edward.” She held his hands tightly.

“I know it isn’t, I’m not saying I understand this, but I can’t stand seeing you this way anymore.” Edward let Evelyn go as he sat on the bed.

“Are you leaving because of her, because of Angelica?” Evelyn sat down next to Edward. Her ten years of marriage played across her mind. She put her head on his shoulder.

“I don’t even know if she wants me anymore. I’m leaving because I need to do all I can to be happy. I can’t feel lifeless anymore.” Edward sat in silence.

“She loves you still, I still would.”

“I hurt her deeply.” Evelyn dropped her forehead into her hands.

“You did what you had to do.”

“After the miscarriage I should have gone to her, I should have told her how right her and I are together. I was just so depressed and I woke up one day and five years had passed.”

“The family had a lot to do with that."

“I figure if I can have enough courage to prove to her we are right the rest of the world will be easy.”

“I’ve never seen Madison so comfortable in her own skin. She has a lot to do with that. Both of my girls love her.” He laughed bitterly as she wrapped her arm around him.

“So now what?” She said softly.

“Now, I drive you to the airport.”

“Do you even remember how to drive?”

“We’re about to find out.” They both laughed.

Edward began the long drive to the airport in Evelyn’s SLK 300 Mercedes-Benz.

“I forget how much fun this is.” Edward said as he cruised down the highway. Evelyn was quiet as she formulated what she would say when she sees Angelica. She was annoyed with herself, she couldn’t think of anything remotely intelligent to say.

“What are we going to do about the family? Or worse Henry?”

“I’ll tell Henry first and when he gets over his anger he will help us spin this the best way possible.” Edward knew it might severely affect his political career. He also knew deep in his heart he had to let her go regardless. He felt as if a five-year guilt was slowly lifting with each passing exit. “If it wasn’t the winter I’d drop the roof on this baby.” He smiled.

“Slow down cowboy.” She laughed as she sat back in her seat to take a nap before the plane trip to California. She felt her nerves slowly turn to excitement as she thought of seeing Angelica and even holding her again. Her eyes became heavy as she pictured Angelica returning her embrace.

Edward attempted to stay behind the large 18-wheel truck in front of him. When he pressed his foot against the brake he did not feel the car slow down, or see the speedometer lower. He tried to press the brake again but he still could not feel the car slowing down.

Evelyn opened her eyes when she heard Edward slamming his foot against the brake. Before she could realize fully what was occurring she felt a sudden impact push her against her seat. The impact then pushed her forward and her head hit the dashboard. She felt a snap then blistering pain before she went numb. Before she could scream out her eyes became heavy – she drifted to sleep.

Chapter 15

Madison hoped it was all a dream. She had fallen asleep on the hospital chair she had spent the past twenty-four hours in. She looked around and saw no one in her vicinity. It was a rare moment of quiet as her drowsy eyes adjusted to the fluorescent lights. She had never felt the nagging sullen pain that accompanied true grief. She wondered now if it would sit at the base of her soul permanently.

Madison’s head rose as she heard Janice’s heels clank through the hallway. Janice entered the room and their eyes met.

“When can I see him?” Madison asked her voice more childlike and unsure than Janice had ever heard.

“I called your mother. She’s not doing too well but she will be at the funeral.” Janice kneeled in front of Madison. Madison winced understanding that “not doing too well” meant high on drugs.

“Is there anything I have to do?”

“No sweetie, Henry, the Staff, and I are making all the funeral arrangements.”

“I need to see my father now.” Madison’s hands shook so she held them together tightly. Her tone was firm and uncompromising.

“I don’t know how to say this Maddy.” Janice wished there was someone else that could share these dreaded details but she knew she was the only one. “They don’t think it’s appropriate for you to see your father in his current state.”

Madison’s imagination flashed images she couldn’t bare to witness. “I don’t care what they think I am going to go see him now.” Janice shook her head in silent agreement. She knew deep in her heart it was no one’s place to deny Madison the right to see her father.

Madison stood closer to the hospital bed, the bed she had been sitting next to since she reached the hospital. She kissed Evelyn’s head that was wrapped in a bandage stained with blood. She whispered: “I’ll be back Evelyn, feel free to wake up while I’m gone because I won’t be gone for long.” She traced Evelyn’s chin with her finger. Her body shook an automatic reaction to the scratches across Evelyn’s face and arms. She made sure not to touch the tubes in Evelyn’s nose. She left the room walking backwards hoping for a flicker of movement from Evelyn but she saw nothing. She turned around, pushed her shoulders back, and walked out of the room.

“Oh my gosh am I relieved to see you.” Janice said as she gave Angelica a hug. It took Angelica seven hours to get from California to the hospital. She got on the first flight out after she got off the phone with Janice.

“I can’t do this anymore.” Janice said as she held on to Angelica. Angelica wrapped her arms around Janice sensing she needed to be held.

“Can’t do what anymore?” Angelica asked gently.

“Being strong, I just can’t.” Angelica felt Janice become limp in her arms she helped her sit on a chair in the hallway.

“When was the last time you ate anything?”

“I don’t know.”

“Janice, wait here.” Angelica ran to the vending machine and bought a candy bar. She gave the bar to Janice and explained that she needed some sugar in her system.

“He is dead Angelica, he’s gone.” Janice looked passed Angelica as she spoke.

“Do you know what happened yet?” Angelica searched for answers in Janice’s eyes all she saw was a dark blue abyss.

“They were driving and they got into a car accident, that’s all I know.”

Angelica had many questions after hearing that mysterious circumstance. Why didn’t they have the usual driver or security escort? Where were they going? Who was driving? With all the questions floating in her mind only one mattered. “How is Evelyn?”

“She is still unconscious and the doctor won’t tell me anything.” Angelica wanted to crash down next to Janice. Her heart pounded with unadulterated fear. “Where is Madison?”

“She went to go see her father for the first time, since.”

Angelica stood up as if energy had just shot through her entire body. She called back for directions as she went in search of Madison.

Madison did not rush into the morgue as she initially thought she would. She stood by the elevator and looked to the double doors that led to her father. She thought it wouldn’t be real until she passed the doors. She placed her hands on the wall in-between the elevator doors. She closed her eyes and prayed for strength.

After a few moments she heard the bell of the elevator door as it began to open. She looked towards the door and her eyes began to water when she saw Angelica walk towards her. She put her head on Angelica's shoulder and allowed herself to be embraced for the first time. She cried aloud a shrill echoed in the hall. She cried for minutes as Angelica held her.

She reluctantly moved away from the embrace to look at Angelica.

“What is it Madison?” Angelica fought back her own tears. She wished she could shield Madison from the pain.

“Will you come in with me?” Madison said as she looked towards the daunting double doors.

“Of course.” Angelica took Madison’s hand as they walked towards the morgue.

As they opened the doors together a doctor began to walk toward them. Angelica whispered to the woman who looked over to Madison. Madison jumped at the harsh sounds of the refrigerated resting place. She felt Angelica’s hands around her waist holding her up when she felt she would fall. When she saw her father, she barely recognized him. She was sure she wasn’t dreaming as a new reality lay before her.

Madison walked out of the morgue and sat down near the elevator. Angelica stood over her but did not close the gap between them. Madison had spent her whole life as her own source of strength. Until her father had taken her in she took care of herself and her mother through dark days and uncertain nights. She did not have time to wallow in weakness and her fragility concerned her. She for once wanted to seek comfort from someone. She rested her head on Angelica's lap who rubbed her head.

“How long will you be here?” Madison said as she allowed Angelica to comfort her.

“As long as you need.” Angelica saw the uncertainty in Madison’s eyes and she wanted desperately to say the right words to comfort her.

“Do you want to see Evelyn? I think she would love to see you.” Madison stood up and held Angelica’s hand. She felt relief to look after Angelica even if it was brief, taking care of someone else was what felt natural for her.

Angelica needed to see Evelyn. When she heard Evelyn was hurt she felt a panic that hadn’t dulled on the cross-country flight. She shook her head ‘yes’ as Madison pulled her toward the elevator.

When she reached Evelyn’s room she saw a nurse standing over her. Angelica could only see Evelyn from the side. Bandages covered Evelyn’s flowing blonde hair. Clear tubes protruding from Evelyn’s body masking her innate elegance. However, when she got closer she saw the woman who had always taken her breath away. She did not notice the scratches that ravished Evelyn’s face. She brushed her hand against the cheek she had longed to touch for years. She lightly touched Evelyn’s lips and remembered how soft and full they were as they kissed her own. They were now cold against her skin.

She sat back in the chair Madison had pulled up to her.

“What happened to you?” Angelica asked wishing someone, anyone could answer that question. She wanted to hold Evelyn’s hand but she decided not to. What hurt her most was she was not sure how Evelyn would feel about her being there. They hadn’t spoken in five years and she wondered if Evelyn resented her leaving. She needed to be by Evelyn’s side but would not force her love or care on the helpless woman.

Madison stared at Angelica for hours as they quietly sat at Evelyn’s bedside. She wondered why she never realized the intimacy of Angelica and Evelyn’s relationship. It was apparent to her as she watched Angelica’s eyes take in the sight of Evelyn unconscious before her.

Angelica’s head rose when she heard movement outside of the room. When she recognized one of the voices she stood. Angelica began to walk towards Henry to offer her condolences but stopped short. Henry looked pale and his hands shook. He tapped his leg. It appeared to be a nervous twitch. He looked nothing like the suave man she once knew.

Henry jumped at the sound of Angelica’s voice. They stood staring at each other. Angelica’s eyes squinted as if trying to get a better look at the man. She took in the man and wondered what emotions hid deep within him.

“What are you doing here?” Angelica was annoyed by the question but did not show it.

“I am here for Madison.” She spoke partly to the truth. Henry shook his head in understanding and began to walk away. He peered into Evelyn’s hospital room but did not walk in.

Angelica woke up before her alarm. She had trouble sleeping. She was staying at the Governor’s Mansion. It had become an eerie place with a noticeable absence lurking in its hallways. She had decided to stay there for Madison and would have to endure the nightmares for a while.

She knew the silence that accompanied death and its numbing effect on one’s soul. She hoped she could shield Madison from some of that pain. She walked into Madison’s room and softly urged her to awake. As Madison slowly began to stir, Angelica placed the day’s clothing on the bed next to her. Madison took a moment to rub her eyes before taking the clothing. She walked over to her bathroom and closed the door. She internally estimated how many people were slated to be at the funeral. She knew it would be over 500 people. She knew she would have to answer many questions about her father's life and even worse, his death. She wanted to get through it quickly. She brushed her teeth and put on the day's clothes. She knew that the day was really for her father's followers than his family. She would find her resolve.

She left the bathroom and Angelica still sat waiting for her. She sat next to Angelica as they both stared ahead in silence, the last silence either would experience for most of the day. She wished more than anything that Evelyn could be there with them. Madison could not ignore the dull pain that settled in her heart when she thought about her guilt. Years had passed with Evelyn being a part of her life and she never apologized for how cold she was to her. Now she wished Evelyn was there to be the leader of the family she had always been.

"Are you ready to go?" Angelica asked as she held Madison's hand. Madison took in a deep breath and was relieved that resolve followed.

The funeral went by as a blur as many condolences came Madison's way. Angelica watched from afar always a few feet away. She could see the steely gaze in Madison's eyes. The blank stares allowed Madison to get through it all and Angelica was very familiar with the gaze. Her thoughts went back to Evelyn alone in a hospital bed and she was eager to return to her side.

"How did this happen?" Janice said from behind Angelica. Angelica gave Janice a hug happy to see her friend.

"That is a good question Jan." Angelica offered Janice the seat next to her as they allowed the many dignitaries in the room the chance to offer their condolences.

"The Vice President will be here. This has been all over the news." Janice explained understanding that Angelica had been so occupied with protecting Madison and staying by Evelyn's bedside she may not realize what would be waiting for them outside of the mansion.

"Everyone is already gossiping about who will be taking over for the governor and Henry seems to be the front runner."

"That's convenient for Henry isn't it?" Angelica looked over at the man they were discussing. He looked grief stricken although deep in her heart Angelica did not believe that grief was an emotion Henry could muster.

"What are you saying Angie?"

"Oh nothing, just thinking out loud."

"I feel so guilty for worrying about my job when tragedy surrounds all of us."

"You have your life and your future to think about that is natural Janice." Janice put her head on Angelica's shoulder and allowed her friend to shoulder her burden for a moment.

"You'll always have a job for me right?"

"I always would but you don't have to worry about that because you have Evelyn to work for and she is going to need you now more than ever." Janice placed her hand over Angelica's sensing that it was her turn to offer reassurance.

"I don't think I am what she truly needs." Janice whispered as Madison walked toward them. Madison sat by their side as she held her shoulders back, her posture tall and proud. She was putting on the strong front necessary for the day.

"They keep asking me all these questions about the future of the Stratford family like I can answer that right now." She yearned to be back in California back where she felt she belonged, where she had a normal life. It would be downright strange to anyone else, but for her it was a chance at living her own life.

"Don't feel any pressure sweetie; your only goal right now is to do well in college, that's what your father wanted." Angelica spoke the words that eased Madison instantly.

"What about you, how are you holding up?" Angelica perked up she had been daydreaming about Evelyn and feared that Madison had noticed.

"What me? I'm fine. I just want to make sure everyone gets through this."

"You're not fooling me, let's go see her." Angelica decided not to fight Madison's claim and was slightly concerned that she could not hide her emotions better. They both got up and slipped out of the parlor. When they returned to the hospital Evelyn was still in a state of sleep as they both greeted her. They both knew the night would be spent sitting idle but they were both comforted by this. They were happy sitting side by side without having to explain their feelings or share their emotions. They did not have to share any words to connect their thoughts Angelica's mind and heart were focused on Evelyn and Madison's heart and mind focused on Angelica the last semblance of a family she had left.

Janice tiptoed her way through the long, barren hallway of the hospital. When she reached Evelyn's room she acknowledged Angelica at her usual spot by Evelyn's side. She was concerned for her friend, whose darkened eyes told a tale of limited sleep and worrisome nights. She gently rubbed Angelica's shoulders before sitting down beside her.

"Anything?"

"No, the doctors say it's a matter of days now. I may not be here to see it." Angelica hated the idea of leaving Connecticut without Evelyn regaining consciousness from her severe concussion and full body trauma. "I have to get back to my daughter." Janice shook her head understanding that Angelica's concern was not just for Evelyn, but for her daughter she had never spent a night away from.

"Let's go through it again."

"Yes, I am to call you every day with status reports on Evelyn and Madison and I better call you when Evelyn wakes up or else." Janice was not sure if she was being listened to as Angelica laid her head on Evelyn's bed.

"If she woke up right now I am not sure if she would be happy or upset that I am here."

"Do you really question that?" She would be so happy to see you Angie you must know that." Angelica lifted her head as she rubbed Evelyn's hand.

"You can't tell her I was here Jan." Janice laughed, but frowned when she realized Angelica was serious.

"She is going to find out you were here too many people know"

"Fine, she will know but please don't mention it let it come out after she feels better." Angelica worried that the knowledge of her presence would be detrimental to Evelyn's recovery and she didn’t want anything to interfere with Evelyn's recovery.

"I won't go out of my way to tell her but I won't lie to her either." Angelica could not ask more of Janice. She leaned close to Evelyn and kissed her cheek. She whispered softly, Janice moved in slightly attempting to hear Angelica but she could not. Angelica rose to her feet suddenly determined to leave the hospital room for the last time. She had to get home to her daughter and prepare for Madison's return. She felt more determined than ever to give Madison as comfortable a home as possible. Edward and Angelica did not particularly get along but Edward respected and appreciated that Angelica would take care of Madison while she was in California, that responsibility had taken on a new meaning. She walked out without looking back. She knew looking back would be too difficult.

Chapter 16

The beeps were deafening, Evelyn counted the beeps realizing they were her own lifeline. She winced at the pain in her head and body that she was just beginning to feel. She opened her eyes and saw Janice sitting in front of her. She smiled and opened her mouth to speak but no words escaped.

Evelyn waited for Janice to make eye contact and was comforted by the look of pure joy in Janice's face.

Evelyn cleared her dry throat. "What the hell happened?" Evelyn asked waiting to hear what brought her to a hospital bed."

"I was about to ask you the same thing. You were in a car accident Evelyn, do you remember?" Evelyn winced again, this time due to the sounds of metal colliding that she instantly recalled.

"I remember packing to go to California and Edward, is Edward okay?" Janice did not answer instead she held Evelyn's hand. Evelyn shook her head in a show of strength but her shaking body revealed all Janice needed to know.

"Madison, oh my god how is she?" Evelyn attempted to get up but when she did a haze of dizziness took over and she sat back down.

"She is as okay as she can be considering the circumstance. She has been here often to see you. She is back at school but will be back this weekend. Your brothers are here every day as well." Evelyn was relieved to hear Madison was in California where she knew she was being cared for.

Janice yearned to ask why Evelyn was packing for California but she did not dare speak. She took mental note of the calls she had to make when Evelyn interrupted her thoughts.

"I have to get to California."

"I just told you that Madison will be back to see you this weekend." The gleam in Evelyn's eyes told of different intentions but Janice had to know for sure. "Were you and Edward on your way to the airport Evelyn?"

Evelyn shook her head 'yes' as her eyes watered with tears. She felt utter frustration as she remembered the fear and excitement that accompanied her decision to pack for California. She remembered how Edward's approval gave her hope for happiness for the first time in years. She could not allow herself to think of Edward being gone.

"Evelyn you're awake." Henry walked into the room and the sudden sound of his voice startled Evelyn. He slowly walked over to her and gave her a kiss on the cheek.

"What do you remember?"

"That is the question of the day isn't it?" Evelyn attempted to recall the ride to the airport but the more she tried her head throbbed. "I can't remember much."

"We have to rely on each other to get through this Evelyn." Henry said as he held her hand. "I'll have the publicist send out a press release about your improved condition and that we are standing by each other during this difficult time and will continue to steer Connecticut in the right direction."

"Your direction Henry?" Evelyn felt a queasiness moving from her stomach to her throat. She knew that there was a lot in her life that had to change and Henry would be the first thing to go.

"No, the direction Edward would have wanted the direction the family wants."

"Why don't you let her get her rest and when she regains her strength she will worry about that." Janice was hurt by the ambition she saw in Henry's eyes, she expected more compassion from family, even from Henry.

"Very well rest up because the country will need to see you in better shape soon." Henry left to a sigh of relief from Janice and Evelyn. Evelyn motioned Janice closer to her and she took a seat by Evelyn's side. Evelyn knew that she was lucky to have Janice loyally by her side.

"Can you tell me what I've missed, how long have I been this way, when is the funeral? I need to be ready for it."

"Sweetie, the funeral was three weeks ago. Many things have happened and when you are ready, I'll walk you through it." Janice embraced her boss and longtime friend.

"Do you believe in second chances?" Evelyn asked as Janice took in her hopeful yet concerned glance.

"No, but I believe in destiny and you can make things right." Evelyn shook her head and allowed the conversation to end there. She wanted to know if Angelica had heard about what happened, and if she showed concern for her or Edward. She feared the truth and decided she would become the woman Angelica deserved before ever approaching the subject again.

Angelica felt the sun simmer against her body. The heat was stifling but she enjoyed the steam that surrounded her. She felt at peace resting in front of her pool. She watched Abigail jump into the pool her floating rings creating a loud splash. Jake lay on his side and was slowly drifting to sleep. "January is not supposed to be this warm." Angelica pointed out as she played with the floating alligator that sat between the two of them.

"You'll get used to it."

"I already am." Jake smiled but he had felt uneasy since Angelica returned from Connecticut. There had been sadness below the surface within Angelica from the moment they met. It intrigued him initially, he wanted to know and understand what caused the inner workings of pain that seemed to be a part of her. When Abigail was born that sadness seemed to disappear. Jake noticed the same look of longing he had remembered seeing when he met her at a press conference five years prior.

"Are you okay Angelica?" He couldn't find anything revolutionary to say. Angelica smiled understanding that she wasn't very good at keeping her feelings away from Jake. They had shared their life from the moment Abigail was born and she was shutting him out, he deserved more than that.

"I am lucky that you are the father of my child do you know that?"

"I do, but that doesn't answer my question. Sasha came by to speak to me the other day she says you have been distant since your return." Angelica shook her head acknowledging that Sasha's claim was true.

"I've been focused on Abigail and Madison. Abby didn't take too well to me being gone."

"No, she didn't, but I am proud of you for stepping in and taking care of Madison, she adores you." Jake stood up and walked over to their daughter. "But you may want to clear things up with Sasha." Angelica knew Jake was right, Sasha deserved some answers.

Madison collected the negatives to bring over to world-renowned photographer Didi Tate. She was enjoying her internship with the photographer- it was a great opportunity. It was rare for a freshman to grab such a coveted position but Angelica was good friends with Didi, which helped.

"Thanks Maddy." Madison watched Didi closely inspect the negatives from the previous day. Madison enjoyed watching Didi at work, she was one of the best at what she did and Madison hoped to learn a lot from her. Didi crinkled her nose and Madison smiled.

"Would you like me to ask hair and makeup to stick around for a touch up?"

"How did you know I would want to extend the shoot?" Didi asked impressed with her young intern.

"Because whenever you crinkle your nose like that you're not happy." Didi smiled and Madison turned slightly red. She turned away hoping no one saw her and hurried towards the makeup area. Sasha's cheeks were receiving blush and Madison tried to ignore her presence. She informed the crew that the shoot would be extended and they all mumbled the usual expletives that would accompany having to work late on a Saturday. Sasha took her place in front of the camera never acknowledging Madison.

"Madison why don't you stay close I am going to have you take a couple of shots." Didi said as she brought over a director's chair. Madison sat down close to Didi and watched as Didi began taking pictures of Sasha. Sasha face was intense and serious as Didi commanded. While Sasha was not Madison's favorite person she admitted that she was one of the best models on the planet. Each movement Sasha made was precise and complimented the shot perfectly. Sasha suddenly smiled a distinct change from the intense stare she was directed, Madison looked back following Sasha's glance and saw Angelica entering the studio. Her own smile followed.

"Rough day?" Angelica whispered as to not interfere with the shoot.

"No, Miss Sasha has been less temperamental than usual." Angelica moved an errant strand of hair away from Madison's face.

"I ask because your face is red, is Didi working you too hard?"

"No harder than she can handle, right darling?" Didi walked over to Angelica and bear hugged her friend.

"Not at all." Madison responded and she took the camera Didi held out in her direction.

"How is the sexiest PR director in California?" Didi asked as she sat in the chair Madison had just vacated. "You checking up on me?"

"No need to check up on you, I wanted to check in with Madison, see how she is holding up." Didi and Angelica watched as Madison began taking pictures of Sasha. She took a different approach then Didi using different angles to capture the new emotions in Sasha's expression. There was a hint of vulnerability and Madison clicked vigorously.

"Madison is almost as good behind the camera as she looks in front of it, if it is possible." Didi watched Madison as everyone else in the room watched Sasha. She grunted when she felt small fingers pinch her arm.

"Don't even think about it Didi do you hear me?" Didi smiled but Angelica's face was stern. Although Didi trumped Angelica in height and brass she cowered slightly.

"Angie you don't have to protect her from me, I would never do anything to hurt her."

"She has been through a lot and doesn't need you to toy with her, and she is straight."

"Woah, relax I know what she is going through right now and I wouldn't do anything to upset her or you." Didi was a rising talent but it was Angelica's recommendation that gave her the break she needed at Isabella.

"I'm sorry. I know that, I just worry about her."

"She is doing well, that has a lot to do with you. The girl is intelligent and beautiful and I am a good catch myself just so you know." Didi playfully shook Angelica's chin as she spoke.

"I know you are but you're not working with the right equipment for her." Angelica pointed out.

"Hm, you think so?" Before Angelica could respond she felt a firm tap on her shoulder.

"What the fuck do you think you're doing?" Angelica spun around to see Sasha standing in front of her clanking her stiletto heels on the floor waiting for her to respond. When Angelica opened her mouth she interrupted. "You come in here don't even acknowledge me and you're flirting with my photographer, have you lost your mind?" Angelica took Sasha by the hand and walked her to the side of the studio.

"Can you lower your voice? Everyone is watching us."

"I don't care! You are not going to make a fool of me Angelica." Angelica could sense that Sasha's temper tantrum was just beginning and she did not want to have a public argument.

"Didi is there time for a break so Sasha and I can talk in private?" Madison had joined Didi as they both watched the confrontation.

"Sure thing Angie." Dee said once Madison nudged her to speak. Angelica walked over to the dressing room with Sasha following closely.

"Don't you yell at me like that, not in front of people, not ever." Angelica's voice was soft but firm.

"Then don't flirt with some bitch in front of me." Sasha threw one of her shoes towards the many racks of clothing in the room.

"I was not flirting with her, she is my friend."

"It looked like you were flirting and people were noticing. How would you like it if I flirted with someone in front of you?" Sasha took off the other shoe and stood barefoot her Valentino gown plopping unceremoniously to the floor.

"I would understand that you are not my girlfriend and you may date other people." Angelica ducked quickly to avoid the six inch heels flung towards her.

"What does that mean, I mean nothing to you?" Sasha began to tear and Angelica quickly closed the space between them. She went to touch Sasha but Sasha pushed her away. "I'm out of here." Sasha began to lift the dress off of her body. She felt hands hold her own in place.

"I meant that I know the whole world wants you and I have to respect that because you are a celebrity and we haven't committed to a relationship." Angelica felt Sasha's resistance weaken and she wrapped her arms around Sasha's waist, the dress still bunched up around Sasha's stomach.

"When are we going to make that commitment?" Sasha pulled the dress completely off and dropped it to the floor. She moved her hands around Angelica and caressed the small hairs behind Angelica's neck. She brought her in for a kiss. The kiss was filled with need and urgency. Sasha wanted to remind Angelica of the passion she could give her and Angelica needed to feel that passion. As they broke away Angelica leaned down and picked up the dress from the floor.

"As much as I want to finish this conversation you have a shoot to finish and I have a lot of work to do.” Angelica helped Sasha back into the dress. She found both shoes and knelt to the floor to put both shoes back on Sasha.

"You didn't answer my question but I'll give you a pass this time."

"I just need time Sasha."

"I won't wait forever." Sasha opened the door to see Madison waiting in front of her. She rolled her eyes. "Just always there." Sasha mumbled as she moved around Madison to take her place back in front of the camera.

"I heard a bang are you all right?" Madison asked as she walked into the room. Madison inspected Angelica's face Angelica laughed.

"Do you think she hit me?"

"It's not funny Angie I don't like that she yelled at you like that."

"It's not funny you're right but she is upset and rightfully so." They began to walk out of the room together.

"She is waiting for me to commit and it is to be expected that her patience would wear thin at times."

"As long as she relays her concerns to you not at you." Madison held onto Angelica's arm forcing Angelica to look her in the eyes.

"We will be fine I'll talk to her about how she handles her anger okay?" Angelica walked towards Sasha interrupting the shoot. Sasha gave her a slow kiss barely appropriate for the setting. Angelica walked out of the room as all eyes watched her leave.

"And she says I'm trouble." Didi said as she continued to look through her lens.

Janice was shakily rearranging folders in Evelyn's office when she heard familiar heels clicking in the hallway. She smiled and stood as if presenting the work she had done in the office. As Evelyn walked in she took in her office. It was tidier than she had left it and she was happy to be back in the familiar setting. She placed her bag on the seat in front of her desk and sat down. She felt nervous to return to work, and even more nervous about making all the decisions that were in front of her. She knew nothing of what the future held but she knew for sure one person would be by her side.

"What is on the agenda today?"

Janice was happy to begin with the familiar routine. "You have a meeting with Governor Jacobs at 10:00a.m. You then have to address the board members of the Bannister Foundation. You end the day at dinner with Henry." Janice was quiet as Evelyn looked on. "You look great Evelyn but how do you feel?"

Evelyn physically felt fine, the scratches on her face had disappeared, and her bruises were almost healed. However, she knew that her life needed recuperation long before the accident. "I feel nervous and hopeful."

"That is understandable you've been through so much. Governor Jacobs is eager to pick your brain." Adam Jacobs was lieutenant governor under Edward and acting governor for the remainder of Edward's term. Evelyn had heard the rumors that Henry would go after the position once the term was over. She had also heard rumblings that she herself would pursue the position, she had yet to comment.

"I am eager to hear what he has to say myself." Evelyn regretted not getting to know Adam better previously but she had no way of knowing that it would one day be important. "I have something for you Janice." Evelyn took out an envelope and gave it to her friend. Janice opened the envelope and her eyes widened in shock.

"What is this?" Janice asked unable to comprehend why a check with a large sum was in her hands.

"It is a thank you for sticking by me when I was depressed, for putting up with me when I made it difficult, and for being honest with me when it would have been easier to tell me what I wanted to hear." Evelyn was not getting the positive reaction she was expecting, Janice eyes watered, and Evelyn stood up concerned. She kneeled in front of Janice. "Why are you crying? I thought you would be happy."

"Is this a severance package Evelyn?" Evelyn understood the look of dread that spanned Janice's face. Evelyn took a moment before responding which only increased Janice's concern.

"It isn't severance pay I just know that there is going to be many changes in my life and I can't expect you to stick around with such uncertainty. If you do decide to leave I want to make sure that you are secure."

"I don't plan on going anywhere Evelyn. I want to work for you." Janice hugged her boss who was relieved to know that Janice would be the one constant in her life. They both got up and rearranged their clothes. "I may have to extend my trip to California though and maybe follow that up with a trip to see my family in London." Evelyn smiled and agreed. Janice was surprised that Evelyn didn't question her trip to California. "I may have to get a new car while I'm at it."

Adam Jacobs walked into the conference room and surprised Evelyn when he embraced her in a warm hug.

"I am so sorry for your lost and I am relieved to see that you are doing better." Evelyn thanked him as she sat to begin their meeting.

"You wanted to meet with me and I take it you are interested in my endorsement once you complete Edward's term." Governor Jacobs' body tensed he seemed taken aback by the notion.

"I am quite certain you plan to run once the term is over. I have greatly admired your work and Edward's my whole career. I understand that once my term is over you and I will have an intense but respectful fight on our hands." Evelyn felt that he was being sincere but she had been around enough politicians to know looks were deceiving.

"Very well then why did you want to meet with me?" Evelyn crossed her arms eager to show that while she had recently gone through a traumatic experience her reputation for no-nonsense was still intact. The governor continued.

"I wanted to pick your brain. I don't mean to be disrespectful but your talents were underutilized. I have heard that you have some strong ideas for the direction of the state, initiatives that I can begin and I would like to hit the ground running." Adam Jacobs seemed eager and willing. It reminded Evelyn of Angelica's once innocent and passionate view of politics.

"What makes you think that I would share any of my plans with you considering that you and I may run against each other in a couple of years?" Evelyn was playing hardball and hoped Adam wouldn't crack under her pressure.

"Because I think I know a little about your honor and integrity and this is a rare opportunity. I wasn't voted into this position I don't owe any lobbyist any favors so I can make a real difference for people." Evelyn contemplated the point. She stood up and excused herself from the room. Adam waited patiently understanding that the governor wasn't usually left waiting but Evelyn held a unique position in the state, she had more pull in his town than he could ever muster and she was reminding him of just that. Evelyn returned to the room quickly and took her seat across from him. She did not say anything as she slid her fingers across the oak table. She recalled sitting in that room with Angelica and the intense desire she felt. Adam sat in the seat Angelica had taken, she smiled, he did not elicit the same reaction.

Janice entered the room with various files in her hand and placed them in front of Evelyn. She quickly left the room.

"If I am going to give you my ideas we are going to have to start with education." Evelyn opened one of the folders and began to lay out possible ideas for the next two years.

Chapter 17

Angelica placed dishes and cups on the center table in her back yard. Madison was cleaning the pool as Angelica put the finishing touches on the backyard. The backyard was filled with green, white, and red decorations they were Jake's favorite colors. It was his thirtieth birthday and Angelica was throwing a surprise party at the house. She had invited all of Jake's family, friends, and colleagues for a pool party.

"These decorations are deliciously cheesy Angie." Madison said as she watched Angelica put together the place settings that adorned the Italian flag.

"Well, Jake has a sense of humor and he is proud of his Italian heritage so I decided to go over the top a bit."

"Still trying to get on his mom's good side?" Madison asked as she brought the appetizers out from the kitchen. Shrimps, crab cakes, and various salads were in place. Angelica and Madison looked over their creation with pride.

"I have no chance of getting on that woman's good side she thinks I've done one thing right my whole life and that is Abigail." Angelica pointed out as she recalled how upset Jake's traditional mother was when she heard they were getting a divorce. She cringed realizing that Sasha and Jake's mother Sophia may not be the best combination.

As guests arrived they enjoyed the appetizers set out in the backyard. Angelica had lasagna in the oven along with meatballs on the stove. Madison left to pick up Jake's parents Sophia and Robert from the airport. Every time there was someone at the door all the guests got quiet in anticipation. Angelica reminded them that Jake would call before he arrived. Abigail was in on the surprise. Jake had taken her to Universal Studios, one of her favorite places. She was instructed to call home when they were on their way.

Angelica heard another commotion this time it was because the world famous supermodel Sasha Ellington had arrived to the party. Angelica was putting out an Italian sausage hero when Sasha greeted her with a kiss. She heard the whispers that made her cheeks redden. Sasha was a site in a lime green bikini top and matching green draped skirt hanging loosely from her hips. Every man and woman in the room were in awe.

"Would you like to see what's waiting for you underneath this skirt?" Sasha whispered in Angelica's ear before stealing a quick bite of her earlobe.

"I would love to but I am playing host today so I think I have to put you to work."

"Work?" Sasha did not seem very happy with the idea. "I can't cook, decorate, or entertain."

"Can't and don't want to are two different things Sasha but I know you well enough to ask any of those things of you."

"Then what?" Sasha placed her arms around Angelica who gingerly moved them away from her.

"How about you take pictures with some of the guests who are eager to meet you?" Sasha removed her skirt to reveal a skimpy matching bikini bottom.

"You want me to play celebrity mascot show and tell, gotcha." Sasha strutted away and entered the backyard. Jake's four best friends from his hometown quickly followed suit they all gave Angelica a kiss on the cheek before running through the double doors and into the pool. Angelica laughed realizing Sasha had no clue how much testosterone was coming her way.

Angelica got a call from Madison who told her she was five minutes away with Jake's parents. Angelica's nerves began to play tricks on her and when she heard them at the door she made her way towards her former in-laws.

"Where is my granddaughter?" Sophia asked as a greeting towards Angelica.

"Hello Mrs. Reed she is out with Jake. We don't want him to figure out the surprise." Angelica gave Sophia a kiss on the cheek who quickly ran to the kitchen. Angelica smiled sheepishly as she was left with Robert whose arms were wide open.

"Come here and give daddy a kiss." Robert said as he wrapped his arms around Angelica. Angelica gave Robert a kiss on the cheek as he held onto her waist firmly. He had flirted with her shamelessly since she began dating Jake. It was an odd combination of harmless, yet inappropriate. She had learned to maneuver around his flirtation and welcomed it compared to the disdain his wife had for her. Madison entered the house after parking her car in their garage. Angelica mouthed: help me. Madison understood quickly and ushered Robert into the living room.

Angelica walked over to Sophia who was inspecting the lasagna that was almost finished in the oven. "What do you think?" Angelica asked, she cared for Sophia's opinion more than she would ever want to admit.

“It looks good but looks can be deceiving.” It did also smell wonderful but Sophia did not budge. Angelica's phone rang and she welcomed the interruption.

"Is this the birthday boy?" Angelica asked reveling in her planned surprise. "How far away are you?"

"I am a couple of exits away, seem a little antsy."

"I just want to make sure you have enough time with your friends tonight." It was the best lie Angelica could conjure up on short notice.

"This wouldn't have anything to do with the major surprise party does it?"

"How did you know, did our daughter spoil the surprise?" Madison walked into the kitchen with a beer for Angelica. Madison brought the bottle to her mouth but before she could take a sip Angelica took it from her and placed the bottle on the counter.

"I saw Madison sneaking decorations in early this morning." Jake shushed Abigail as she began to laugh listening to the conversation between her parents on the car's speakers. Jake had informed her that she knew once they got to the theme park, they were content enjoying the rides and planning how surprised Jake would look.

Madison stood close to Angelica listening to Jake on the phone. Her body stiffened when she heard Didi's voice in the living room. She was not used to her hands shaking as they did whenever she heard Didi's voice. She was relieved to start the internship that was waiting for her after the winter break. She did not expect to start with the grief that she was convinced would stay with her for the rest of her life, but she did. Her internship provided her with excellent company and a welcomed distraction.

Didi walked into the kitchen with a new case of beer in her hand. She kissed Angelica on the cheek. Didi moved in to kiss Madison as Madison went to give her a hug. They both giggled and Madison stood still as Didi kissed her on the cheek. The feeling of Didi's soft lips grazing her cheek set her ablaze. Her instinctive reaction was to put her hands in Didi's who squeezed them. If Didi was surprised by Madison's show of affection she did not show it. Angelica's look of confusion greatly contrasted Didi's smooth demeanor.

"The jig is up Jake knows about the surprise." Madison spoke hoping no one would hear her heartbeat pounding through her skin.

"How did he, um find out?" Didi found it difficult to speak as Madison's fingers playfully traced the outsides of her hands. The movement was friendly but for Didi the hint of intimacy awoken areas within her long dormant.

"He caught me with decorations."

"With these colors, I wonder how he could miss it." Didi pointed out the green streamers that adorned the kitchen.

"Hey, leave my kitchen alone, Jake will love it." Angelica pushed Didi who fell into Madison. Madison caught Didi by wrapping her hands around Didi's waist. Madison's perfume, a slight hint of cherry scent danced in the air. Didi placed her hands behind her back. She knew it was all she could do not to kiss her friend.

"Surprise!" Angelica heard her guests yell in unison as she rushed to the living room. Sophia had Jake in a bear hug as Abigail was greeted by her grandfather. Jake thanked everyone as Abigail made her way towards Madison. Madison instinctively picked up Abigail who was happy to embrace her. Abigail had become more affectionate with Madison since she had returned from Connecticut. Angelica surmised that Abigail hadn't been away from Madison since she moved in and Abigail had to readjust. Madison wondered inwardly if it was the innocence of a child that allowed her to know just how much Madison needed her care.

They all began to sing happy birthday by the pool. Madison watched with a forced smile on her face. She watched Jake hold Abigail in his hands as his friends and family sang to him in front of a ridiculously large birthday cake. She wondered if her own father held her often as a young child or if he wasn't yet ready to acknowledge her. The one thing she was sure of was that she would never again have the chance to be held by her father. She regretted that there was so much left unsaid between them.

Madison felt a strong arm wrap around her and Angelica's head against her shoulder. She both hated and loved how easily Angelica seemed to read her emotions. She looked over towards Didi who seemed to look at her with concern. She smiled appreciating Didi's baby blue eyes sparkling towards her. What exactly is behind those eyes?

Evelyn felt her hands shaking against her blackberry. She had attempted to play solitaire, check her schedule, and read through her saved e-mails on the flight from JFK to LAX. Nothing kept her from the anxiety she felt on what was quickly becoming the longest flight of her life. She was on her way to see Angelica and from there she did not know what would happen.

Janice had advised her to wait until everyone's lives returned to normal. Evelyn was working harder than ever planning her next step and Janice told her how dedicated Angelica was to helping Madison and to raising Abigail. Evelyn wasn't sure if Angelica would want to see her since Evelyn never tried to get her back. She was ashamed of her own lack of courage throughout the past few years. However, life had taught her how quickly one's world becomes meaningless without happiness. It took her life reaching that point for her to know the risk was worth it. She knew Janice secretly agreed with her decision, it was Janice who gave her Angelica's address. She wondered if Janice gave her the address so Angelica could give her the finality of rejection. She noted that Angelica hadn't returned to her either.

Jake grimaced as his head ached. He wasn't fully recovered from a hangover that was the result of drinking with his buddies at his not so surprise party. He was sitting with his laptop on his lap as Abigail played with a kitchenette set. Angelica's living room resembled a toy store every afternoon as they collectively waited for Angelica and Madison to return home. He thought about preschool that loomed in the near future for Abigail. Jake and Angelica had spent the last few days discussing it extensively and while they knew they were prepared he didn't feel ready. He shuddered as he pictured his daughter as a teenager, he hoped that climb was indeed slow enough for them to enjoy the innocent years. Abigail yelled "Boom!" Her superhero action figures were waging war against her Barbie's with the kitchenette set as the battleground. "Maybe not that innocent."

A knock at the door wasn't all that unusual during the mid-afternoon for Jake and Abigail. Neighbors were constantly over with home baked treats for Abigail. Jake and Abigail were a hit with the divorced first wives that were common in their L.A neighborhood. Jake always had a crowd of adoring women to speak with at the park with Abby. He knew that these women never usually took their kids out without their nannies but somehow found their way to the park when he was around, he was flattered. He tossed his hair in place and ran up to the door. He was not surprised to see a striking blonde woman staring back at him, but he was perplexed by who that woman was.

This must be Jake. Evelyn thought to herself as she studied the man before her. His hair was a rich black it swooped over his eyebrows perfectly. His eyes were sea green and his initial smile revealed sparkling white teeth. She felt a tremor of jealousy as she sized him up but was not sure why. His initial smile changed to confusion. He just recognized me.

"You must be Jake Reed, I'm Evelyn Stratford." Evelyn extended her hand and noticed Jake was cautious when extending his own.

"I know who you are please come in." Evelyn stood in the doorway as Jake just looked at her for a moment. She guessed he was sizing her up as she had just done to him. He shook his head as to physically tell himself to speak. "I take it you're here to see Madison, she’s in class."

Evelyn let out a drawn out breath before she spoke again. "I am looking forward to seeing Madison, however, I would never come to Angie's home without being here to see her." Jake's eyebrow curled up with suspicious. "After all this time." She added.

"She isn't expecting you." Jake noticed the familiarity in which Evelyn spoke of Angelica and the throbbing of his headache echoed between his ears.

"She isn't expecting me, I realize that, but I have to see her nonetheless." Evelyn resisted the urge to reveal her impatience so she allowed her voice to remain soft and calm. She was nervous but after years in politics she looked poised and unfazed. Jake ushered Evelyn into the living room. She paused for a moment as she made brief eye contact with the small child in the room. The child continued playing with her toys as Evelyn sat on the sofa.

"This is my daughter Abigail, now if you'll excuse me, I will be right back." Jake left Evelyn alone in the room as he quickly walked to the kitchen. He picked up the phone and collected his thoughts.

Evelyn couldn’t help but stare at the child who was now watching her. Her eyes were as familiar to Evelyn as her own reflection. The young Abigail walked over to the tall woman. She placed her small hands on Evelyn’s leg.

“Hi there Abigail I’m Evie.” Evelyn put her hand over Abigail’s. When Abigail smiled Evelyn felt the smile deep within her soul.

“Hi Evie, want to play a game with me?” Abigail was playing with Evelyn’s hand. She wrapped her full hand over Evelyn’s ring finger and swayed from side to side.

“I would love to what game do you want to play?” Abigail continued to sway as she looked up to the ceiling pondering the question.

“Let’s play hide and go seek it is my favorite.” Abigail was excited to play a game and began to dance, moving from side to side while holding Evelyn’s hand. Evelyn helped Abigail twirl around.

Jake slammed the phone onto the receiver in frustration. He couldn’t call Angelica and explain on the phone that Evelyn was there. He wasn’t sure how she would react and he didn’t want to risk her being too upset at work. He couldn’t simply tell her to come home without revealing anything that would just worry her. He hoped to get Evelyn out of the house before Angelica could get home that way he could tell her in person. Jake walked back into the living room and found Evelyn with her eyes closed counting.

“We are playing hide and go seek.”  Jake’s cell phone began to ring and Jake saw that it was Angelica calling. He turned around and picked it up.

“Hey how are you?”  Jake tried to muffle the concern he heard in his own voice. Angelica looked at her own cell phone with confusion.

“Maddy and I are on our way home do you need anything from the supermarket?" Madison and Angelica listened to Jake's trembling voice over the speakers in Angelica's car. Angelica looked confused and she tried to concentrate on the road and the conversation. Madison felt her heart painfully thumping against her skin. She realized that life had given her unexpected tragedy and she may never release the suspicion that pain was always just around the corner.

"Are you okay Jake, you sound weird?" Angelica could feel her body tense up quickly with concern.

"Nothing is wrong I just need you to get home soon." Jake was a bad liar he tried mercifully to think of a good excuse to rush Angelica yet not scare her.

"How is Abby?"

"She is great. I just have a date tonight I have to get ready for."

"Well, excuse me I will rush home so you can get pretty." Angelica smiled as she ended the phone call.

Madison put on the stereo allowing her pulse to simmer closer to normal. She hoped the sensation of fear would dwindle over time. What angered her most was the lack of control she felt over her own emotions. She felt the same lack of control around Didi. Didi made her feel contradicting emotions at every turn. She felt both safe yet nervous in her presence. She wanted to spend every moment around Didi yet felt the impulse to run away. They arrived at Angelica's house and walked into the front door. Madison accidentally bumped into Angelica who stood frozen near the door.

Evelyn locked eyes with Angelica and stood when Angelica walked in. Evelyn resisted the urge to rush into Angelica's arms. She felt all the pain that still ached throughout her body drift away. For a brief moment she felt transplanted back to the past they shared but as she stepped closer she knew all was different. Angelica looked different. She was older, unexpectedly more beautiful, with a hint of experience in her brow. Evelyn walked closer and before she could touch Angelica, Madison put her arms around her. She wrapped her arms around Madison and continued watching Angelica.

"I can't believe you're here." Angelica exclaimed, her eyes never leaving Evelyn's. Evelyn was not sure if the remark was a happy one.

"I needed to see you." Evelyn had pictured this moment for years and hated that nothing intelligible to say was coming to her mind. Madison let go of Evelyn and watched the two women take each other in. She walked away to allow them some time.

"How are you feeling?" Angelica asked marveling at how quickly many of Evelyn's bruises had healed.

"I feel okay, tired." Evelyn forgot briefly of her injuries losing herself in the touch of Angelica's skin. She worked solely on instinct when she put her hands on Angelica's she didn't fully realize what she was doing until she felt Angelica slowly pull away.

"What are you doing here Evelyn?" Evelyn winced at the cold tone in Angelica's voice.

"I've needed to see you, to talk to you." Evelyn suddenly felt vulnerable and desolate. Five years of questions and fears and the only feeling that absorbed Angelica was relief. She was relieved to see Evelyn doing better. She was relieved to have Evelyn at an arm’s length. "What is there to say after all these years?" Evelyn moved closer.

"There is so much to say." She whispered. She moved closer, close enough to smell the salt of the ocean on Angelica's skin. "I've missed you." She whispered.

"Don't do this Evelyn." Angelica was looking around the room frantically for Abigail who never waited long before greeting Angelica when she came home.

"She is in the hamper, we're playing hide and go seek." Angelica was surprised that Evelyn had been playing with her daughter. All she was focused on was soft fingers holding her waist. She felt the heat throughout her body and it made her feel unsure and anxious. She reluctantly moved away and walked towards the hamper. She could hear laughter in the straw hamper.

"Come on Missy, I know you're in there." Angelica said aloud as Evelyn opened the lid and saw a laughing Abigail waiting to be found. Evelyn picked Abigail up and released her from her hiding place. Abigail ran over to Angelica and wrapped her arms around Angelica's legs. "What are you doing in there?"

"Playing with Evie." Abigail hit Evelyn's hand as Evelyn placed her hand out for a high five.

"Is that so?" Angelica watched her daughter as she went off to greet Madison. It was safer to watch Abigail then look back to the woman waiting patiently for her attention. All she knew was that Evelyn needed to see her. She turned to look back at the woman who was now looking down at her own feet. She looked unsure and vulnerable and Angelica's heart twisted. "Would you like to go outside and talk?" Evelyn was relieved that Angelica took brief control as they walked out to the backyard. Evelyn was impressed by the home it was warm and inviting yet larger than she expected. The yard and pool were accented with rich brown tones and she could imagine Angelica spending many days by the pool with her daughter.

"You needed to talk to me?" It hurt Angelica to feel the wall she herself was putting up, she knew it was a necessity.

"It’s been so long Angie. I needed to see how you’re doing." Evelyn knew there was much more to say but she needed to first find the resolve.

"You were just in the hospital and you are worried about how I’m doing?" Angelica recalled how Evelyn had a way of saying exactly what she yearned to hear without trying.

"I know but I need to know about your life, all that I’ve missed.” Evelyn again moved closer to Angelica. Angelica closed her eyes for a moment and allowed herself to be held by Evelyn. She felt Evelyn’s breath close to her neck. It awoke her better judgment and she pulled away.

“You’ve missed a lot I’m not the same girl you fell in love with.”

“But you are the woman I would like to get to know” Angelica headed back towards the house. Evelyn hoped against hope that Angelica would not walk away. She had felt her walk away once and did not feel she could handle it again. When Angelica turned back around Evelyn’s heartbeat steadied.

“I cannot do this my life is just beginning to make sense. I cannot take this risk.” Angelica had fantasized about the moment Evelyn would step back into her life. For the first few years she imagined a fruitful reunion. However, the last two years she thought of the chance to throw her own happiness in Evelyn’s face. Neither result felt possible now that the moment presented itself. It was not fear or romance she felt all she could decipher of her feelings was fear.

“Why not?” Evelyn didn’t intend to sound wounded but it echoed in her voice.

“Because of the little one that likes to hide in hampers.” Angelica turned away to hide the tears that formed in her eyes. She had come to terms with losing Evelyn although it took years. Asking Evelyn to leave her life was more than she could bare, but for Abigail she could do anything. “She needs me now, you can show yourself out.” Angelica walked away and the familiar sight hurt Evelyn deep within her soul.

“Do you think I will give up that easily?” The shrill in her voice made it clear she was close to crying herself. Angelica slid open the double doors.

“Yes I do, you’re pretty good at that.” Angelica hurried into the house. Evelyn sat on the steps of the patio. She did not expect Angelica’s daughter to be the reason Angelica would push away. Given the reason she wondered how she could ask her not to.

Chapter 18

Angelica waited impatiently at her usual spot by baggage claim 3. Janice was surprised to see Angelica waiting for her she was sure she remembered asking Lisa to pick her up. “Fuck.”

Angelica turned around to see Janice walking towards her. “You couldn’t fucking warn me? I walked into an ambush.” Angelica had never been so upset at her friend. She felt betrayed and hurt that Janice would hide something as big as Evelyn heading to Los Angeles.

“I didn’t know Angie I swear it.”

“Bullshit you arrange all of her flights.” Angelica was loud enough that everyone in the area was watching them.

“Yes, and I arranged a flight to Hawaii she said she wanted to clear her head. I knew she wanted to come see you but she promised me she would wait.” Angelica had already taken Janice’s one piece of luggage and headed towards the parking lot. “I was going to warn you on this trip.” Janice tried to keep up with Angelica as they found Angelica’s car she was slightly out of breath.

“She is here and she went to my house. When I got home she was playing with Abigail.” Janice realized Evelyn had tricked her purposely arriving a day earlier than she would. Angelica was already in the front seat of her car. She had put Janice’s luggage in the back before Janice could formulate her next words.

“How did you feel?” Janice knew that Angelica would feel great pain seeing Evelyn. She was convinced Angelica had never allowed herself to come to terms with that relationship ending. She had just opened herself up to the idea of another woman. Evelyn’s timing was horrible.

“I felt like I wanted to jump into her arms and never let go as if nothing had changed as if no time had passed.” Angelica was driving quickly onto the freeway which made Janice put on her seatbelt with shaky hands.

“I’m sorry you are going through this Angelica.” They were silent for minutes although it felt like hours to Janice. When they passed Angelica’s exit she figured they were heading to Lisa’s home. When they passed Lisa’s home Janice began to feel uneasy.

“Where are we going sweetie?” Janice spoke soothingly sensing that Angelica was on the brink of sanity. Angelica did not answer, her eyes were on the road and they were blank. “I thought Lisa was picking me up.”

“I told her I would so she didn’t have to take off work. I promised to deliver you to her later.” Janice laughed uneasily.

“Deliver me in one piece I hope.” Angelica finally cracked a smile.

“I’m sorry for getting loud with you, I know this isn’t your fault Jan.” Angelica pulled off of the freeway at an unfamiliar exit. “I would have just hoped that at least some of your allegiance was to me after these years of friendship.”

Janice felt genuinely hurt by Angelica questioning her loyalty. She searched for the words to make Angelica understand the position she was in. The car suddenly stopped and she realized she was at a batting cage. “What are we doing here?”

“I need to think and this is what I do when I need to think.” Angelica went to the front desk and got them set up with their own cage. She came back to Janice with two bats in her hand. “I decided to marry Jake at this cage.” Angelica opened the cage door after setting the pitching machine’s speed to fast. “I also decided to get a divorce here.” She swung and missed the first pitch. Janice watched right behind Angelica directly outside of the cage. She wrapped her hands around the chain fence and spoke to Angelica.

“My loyalty is to you and to her as well.” She was startled by another ball hitting the fence as Angelica swung and missed again.

“How is both possible? And I wouldn’t keep your hands wrapped around the fence if you want to keep all your fingers.” Another whiff. “Fuck.” Angelica took a quick practice swing and moved back into the batter’s box.

“I keep my life with you and my life with her separate. I don’t talk to one about the other, period.” Janice placed her hands behind her back unsure where else to put them.

“Why Janice? Why do you do that?” Angelica never looked back.

“Because I can’t lose either of you and this was the only way to keep you both in my life and it not wreck us all.” Angelica finally turned around and stepped out of the box.

“I’ve put you in the middle for years I am sorry.” Angelica and Janice looked in each other’s eyes and an understanding passed between them. Angelica took a step back       the batter’s box and made contact with a baseball with her next swing.

“Well, it was working perfectly until one of you decided the Cold War was over.” Angelica laughed at the reference as she took another swing.

“Did you?” Janice asked.

“Did I what?”

“Jump into her arms?”

“I told her she could show herself out.”

“What!” Janice was surprised Angelica could respond so definitively especially without warning. It was then she realized that Evelyn didn’t tell her for exactly that reason but knew it wasn’t the moment to point that out. She took a mental note of it and reminded herself to take it up with Evelyn later.

“If I had jumped into her arms I wouldn’t be here yelling at you.” Angelica hit the ball solidly and it landed high onto the screen at the far end of the cage. Janice shook her head agreeing although Angelica couldn’t see it. She hurt for Evelyn knowing that her friend was in pain somewhere. “She looked beautiful and inviting, I’m not saying it didn’t kill me to do.”

“Then how did you do it?” Janice asked genuinely intrigued.

“It took me years to get passed the numbness that became part of my life when I moved here. I built my life here despite myself. Your turn.” Angelica opened the door and brought Janice inside. She stood Janice in front of the box and shook her head as Janice held the bat. “You’re doing it all wrong.” Angelica said as she brought Janice’s hands together on the bat. She helped Janice swing and encouraged her to follow through. She left the cage and set the pitching machine to slow.

“What if she has changed and is the woman for you now.” Janice asked as she forgot to swing at the first pitch waiting intently for Angelica’s response.

“I can’t take any chances I have my daughter now and she is my source of happiness and she deserves 100 percent of me.” Angelica watched Janice swing. She felt her own resolve strengthen as Janice made contact.

“You’ll never ask yourself, what if?” Janice decided it was time to hit the gym as she quickly tired in the cage. She spent most of her time caring for Evelyn during the last couple of months she hadn’t taken care of herself, another mental note.

“I have Abigail, my job, and Sasha, I won’t have time.” Angelica opened the cage door for Janice and took off her own helmet then Janice’s. “She never had to change for me, she just had to be willing to be by my side.” Janice noted the mention of Sasha as well as the slight chink in Angelica’s armor. If Evelyn knew that Angelica still had the glimmer of hope that quickly flashed in her eyes Evelyn would continue to pursue, she was relieved to know with certainty she would never tell her. Janice also knew that Evelyn couldn’t handle the rejection Angelica just dished out and was probably on her way back to Connecticut.

“If you feel you’re doing the right thing I support you, I just want to see you happy.” Janice put her hand in Angelica’s as they walked out of the sports facility. Angelica stopped and kissed Janice on the lips. “Thank you darling, I love you.”

“I love you too.” Janice whispered.

“Now let me get you to Lisa’s before she kills me. I have a meeting and you have a date.” Angelica drove away and back to the freeway. It took her a few minutes to arrive at Lisa’s driveway. Lisa was waiting outside and she did not look happy. “Fuck I swear she doesn’t like me I just know it.” Angelica whispered and waved at Lisa. Lisa waved quickly with an exaggerated smile. Angelica and Janice smiled at each other as Janice got out of the car. “Good luck.” Angelica called out to her friend.

Angelica walked into her office as Peter followed closely behind. Angelica sat at her desk and exhaled. Peter placed a cup of coffee on her desk and received the most appreciative smile he had ever seen for his efforts.

“Mrs. Lake should be arriving any minute for your meeting, Jake called, and Ms. Valenti is on her way down to sit in on the meeting. Isabella Valenti was the owner of the company and Angelica’s boss? However, it was rare she sat in on a meeting. She wasn’t completely surprised because Valeria Lake was a potentially huge client for Isabella. Angelica wasn’t the least surprised when Valeria decided to design her own fashion line. What surprised Angelica was that Valeria waited so long to put her eye for fashion and design to good use. She was honored to be in contention to have their models present her first line to the world.

“I hope you are ready to knock her socks off my love.” Isabella Valenti walked in dressed in a cream suit that oozed elegance. She kissed Angelica on both cheeks and sat in the chair to the right of the head of the table. Angelica appreciated the nonverbal show of support. It was Angelica’s show and she was ready to run it. She felt confident selling her company to anyone including a friend. She did not ask or want favors from anyone, especially Valeria who helped her land the position of communications assistant years before. Now she was the Director of Communications and she relished the chance to show Valeria the work she could do for her. She also relished the chance to get her mind off of Evelyn.

“Your appointment is here to see you Ms. Reed.”

“Please send her in Peter.” Angelica and Isabella stood preparing themselves to greet Valeria. Angelica did not show her shock when Evelyn walked in behind Valeria. She did not show any emotion besides the slight twitch of her eye, it was her only tell. Evelyn noticed it as she was the only person that would know to look for it.

“Angie, so nice to see you again darling.” Valeria kissed Angelica on the lips and gave her a hug. Valeria then brought her attention to the older sophisticated woman to Angelica’s right. “Isabella it has been far too long.” Valeria offered her hand, which Isabella shook and giggled. Angelica’s body instantly whipped in their direction. Another Valeria conquest?

“Ms. Montalvo nice to see you again.” Evelyn offered her hand as Angelica brought her own hand out in front of her.

“Mrs. Stratford, lovely to see you although I wasn’t expecting you. It's Reed now."

“Evelyn, is my silent partner in this venture, I hope you don’t mind.” Valeria hated springing this on Angelica. She did however know that she needed Evelyn as her investor and needed Angelica for her reputation as the best fashion show producer in Hollywood. She figured they would have to deal with the rest. Her dream was on the line.

“Of course we don’t mind please sit.” Isabella spoke when Angelica didn’t. She was relieved to see Angelica sit down with them.

Slightly perturbed Angelica was relieved that she knew her pitch by heart, it wasn’t just a pitch, it was who she was. “Valeria, I absolutely loved the designs you sent me. I think we can provide you with the perfect avenue to reintroduce yourself to the world. They know you as a champion of New York’s economic reform and working class, now they will know you as a talented fashion designer.”

Valeria’s heart began to race but her mouth remained shut. They had a plan going into the meeting and she was going to stick to it. “As the primary investor in this line I think it is imperative we make the biggest splash possible.” Evelyn spoke undeterred by Angelica glare.

“You have come to the right place then Mrs. Stratford.”

“Many would say the right place is Fashion Week in our home base of New York, Ms. Reed." Evelyn forgot how much she was turned on by Angelica when she worked, but this reminder was hitting her fast. She instantly felt it between her legs.

“Usually you would be right, and with any other company, I would have to agree.” Angelica leaned closer to both Valeria and Evelyn. “But no other company can provide you with the individual attention, quality of production, and model talent that we can. We are both a production company and modeling agency in one. We get you the best venue, runway, and class of models all in one winning formula. You can go hire a modeling agency, production company, PR firm, or you can hire one company to do it right.” Evelyn and Valeria looked at each other but did not say a word.

“We can offer you things other agencies can’t that is what Ms. Reed points out.” Isabella looked over at Valeria with intention in her eyes. Valeria winked and smiled.

“We want Sasha to represent the line and be one of the models on the runway for our opening.” Evelyn kicked Valeria underneath the table knowing her one bargaining chip was gone. She knew Valeria was desperate to sign a contract with Isabella Models, everyone knew that they were the best company to introduce a new designer. They were also the only company to adequately handle the added complications of Valeria’s political position. Evelyn was dedicated to help her friend succeed in this venture. The possibility of seeing Angelica was a bonus, a large bonus.

“Do you?” Angelica couldn’t help but smile at the request. You really want Sasha ladies you got her, be careful what you wish for. “Sasha’s services are something we can offer that no one else can.” Angelica pointed out. She smiled as Evelyn studied her intently. She was reminded of the many times they had spent together in meetings. If Evelyn wanted to work with her she was eager to show Evelyn that they could work together without romantic intentions.

“We want to work with you Angie don’t mistake our intentions. We are ready to start planning. I just needed to make sure we had everything needed to make this work.”

“Our company is at your disposal Valeria. I will give you the best opening show imaginable with Sasha as your official spokeswoman.”

“Deal!” Valeria exclaimed resisting the urge to kiss everyone in the room. Her lifelong dream was close to fruition.

“I was hoping for a personal tour of your departments since we will be doing business exclusively.” Evelyn sparkled, her smile widening as Angelica shot her a look of admonishment.

“Of course I will be happy to show you around myself.” Isabella stood as she offered her arm to Valeria. It was Angelica’s turn to smile. She caught herself sighing when Evelyn crinkled her nose realizing her plan was foiled.

“Enjoy the tour I will meet with Sasha and get her on board.” Angelica shouted out to them as Isabella rushed them out of the room.

Didi was working in her dark room developing pictures Madison had taken in the past weeks. The depth in the photos impressed her. She knew Madison had a future in photography if she ever chose it. She heard the ring of the doorbell. She cursed hating to ever be bothered in the dark room. She opened the door surprised to see Angelica on the other side.

“We don’t have any shoots set today.”

“We don’t but I have news.”

“Personal or professional?”

“Both.”

“This should be good.” Didi allowed Angelica entrance and cringed as Angelica inspected the work hanging in the room. They were not photos of models they were different scene in Los Angeles – tourists at Hermosa Beach, glimpses of the dark world of downtown LA at night, pictures of Didi working.

“Madison is becoming very good. She could start a collection.” How much time are you two spending together?

“How did you know Madison took these pictures?”

“I know Madison’s style, I know everything.” There was a threat swallowed deep within Angelica’s words and Didi was made nervous by Angelica’s protective tone. I hope… not everything.

“What’s up boss?” A change in subject was in order Didi thought.

“Valeria Lake is going to sign with us to present her first fashion line, runway show, and advertising campaign.” Angelica said unable to hide her own excitement. She knew many companies would jump at the chance, the line was already creating buzz in the industry. It was heralded as the next big thing.

“That is amazing congratulations!” Didi gave her friend a long bear hug.

“I want you to photograph the shoots for the ad campaign.”

“Even better.” Didi already had ideas for the campaign and was eager to get to work.

“Evelyn is her partner in the fashion line.” Angelica dropped the bomb.

“Madison’s stepmother that Evelyn?” Angelica shook her head.

“The same Evelyn you had a secret love affair with that you told me about drunk at your thirtieth birthday party?”

“That would be the one. And they want Sasha to be the spokesperson for the line. I am on my way to tell her.”

“Shit.” Didi leaned against the table. “That’s heavy.”

Didi recalled the pain Angelica revealed to her at what was supposed to be a joyous event celebrating Angelica’s success. Angelica was in need of comfort and they became closer the night Angelica revealed her past. She didn’t like what she heard of Evelyn.

“Well, it’s not right that she is trying to get involved in your work, but we all know you’re the only person that can make this a success.”

“I don’t know if she is making this business move to be close to me or because she legitimately believes in Valeria.” Didi placed another picture up on the line to be developed. In the digital age there was little need for dark rooms and old cameras. Didi felt something got lost in translation with the new technology. She was relieved Isabella financed her artistic freedom.

“Who cares why she is doing it. This gives you the opportunity to show her you have moved on and she can’t hurt you anymore.”

“You are right.”

“You have a good thing going here you, Madison, Abigail, and Jake. Don’t let her test the waters and use your family as guinea pigs.”

Angelica was thankful for the strength in Didi’s conviction. It was a perfect timing just as her own resolve slightly faltered. She got up and headed out the door. “Thanks Didi.”

Chapter 19

When Angelica heard her doorbell her heartbeat quickened. She wasn’t sure why she felt giddy anticipation over an unexpected visitor. She decided to rule out Evelyn’s surprise visit as a possible reason. She walked quickly to the door and pulled it open. She was surprised to see Janice standing at the door. Janice’s eyes were red it was obvious she had been crying.

“What’s wrong baby?” Angelica put her arm around Janice and ushered her into the house. Janice sat at the kitchen counter as Angelica sat by her side.

“Lisa doesn’t want to see me anymore.” Janice was caught off guard when Lisa told her she wanted to end their long distance relationship. She knew that she couldn’t make much time for their relationship but she thought they had a promising future. She did not fight the end. She walked out and called a cab service to take her to Angelica’s home.

“It will be okay honey, if she doesn’t know what she has in you, she doesn’t deserve you.” Angelica felt her words with a complete certainty.

“Thank you, I guess I didn’t make enough time. I should have come to California more often.”

“What about your job, all that has happened recently? What else could you do?” Angelica had been weary of Lisa but was committed to supporting Janice.

“I don’t know how else I could have handled the situation. She said my life was too dysfunctional.” Angelica hated to see her friend in pain. She held on to Janice’s hand tightly.

“We're too dysfunctional, she may be right.” They both laughed. They sat quietly Angelica was not sure what to say to make things better. Janice was content sitting with a friend, feeling the comfort radiating from Angelica.

“It is unusually quiet here today.” Janice got up from the counter and opened the refrigerator door.

“Madison isn’t home yet, Abby is asleep, and Jake is swimming laps in the pool.” Angelica watched as Janice pulled out a bottle of vodka from the fridge. Janice placed two shot glasses on the counter and began to pour. “I have an idea, let’s go out tonight.”

“I don’t know if I am up to it.” Janice swallowed down the drink quickly and poured herself another shot. Angelica called in Jake from outside. He came in with a towel wrapped around his waist. “Jake here is a shot, I can’t have it I’m driving, and we are going out.” Janice took another shot. “Let me make some calls we have to get you out of this funk before it really starts.”

The bar Angelica and Janice walked into was crowded on a Thursday evening. Angelica said hello to a few patrons and walked straight to the back towards the VIP area. She gave the imposing bodyguard a kiss on the cheek as they made their way deeper into the establishment. Angelica smiled when they reached Valeria who waited for them at a table in the corner of the room.

“I am here to bring the celebration.” Valeria declared as she gave Angelica and Janice hugs.

“What are we celebrating?” Janice asked unsure why Valeria was in California. She had seen Valeria spending more time with Evelyn and wondered if there was a connection.

“Angelica and I just got into bed together.” Angelica laughed as Janice waited for an explanation.

“Metaphorically speaking… Valeria just brought her fashion line to Isabella.” Angelica ignored the wink Valeria shot in her direction. They sat down as Janice ordered a round of tequila.

“That is great Angie, you should have told me.” The waitress bought over three shots.

“It’s not that big of a deal.”

“It’s not? You told me I was going to be the star of fashion week.” Valeria offered Angelica a shot but she declined.

“You are. I’m sorry there is just a lot going on right now.”

“What has happened to you, you were once a sweet talker now so awkward with the words?” Janice laughed as Angelica pinched her arm.

“Maybe its motherhood that has defeated the player in her?” Janice pointed out as she looked over to the commotion developing outside of the VIP area. The famous Sasha Ellington sauntered towards them.

“I was never a player to begin with.” Angelica felt a soft hand caress the back of her neck.

“Can I join the party?” Sasha asked as she swallowed down Angelica’s shot and sat at the table.”

“More shots over here.” Janice shouted across the room.

“It is the woman of the hour.” Valeria took in Sasha with a glare that Angelica sensed was full of pure desire. Angelica watched Janice who was staring off seemingly deep in thought. Angelica kissed the top of her head.

“You deserve better.” Angelica whispered.

“That isn’t what bothers me. I just realize I allowed myself to be blind. She wasn’t right for me and I don’t think I wanted her to be.”

“That doesn’t make any sense.”

“It does to me.” Janice explained as Valeria stood and raised her glass.

“To Sasha, I am excited to work with you and cannot wait to see my creations on you.” They all raised a glass. “I envy the person that gets to see you once you take my clothes off.” Valeria stared at Sasha as the starlet returned the fervent gaze.

“You hear that baby, she envies you.” Sasha said as she kissed Angelica on the lips. Valeria was taken back confused briefly until her smile spanned wide across her face.

“So you two are an item that is just fascinating.” Valeria purred as their waitress brought another round to the table. Angelica decided to join them and took a shot of tequila to her throat. The burn was a welcomed sensation, as she suddenly felt very uncomfortable.

“I thought you weren’t going to drink.” Janice pointed out.

“We are going to have to get a taxi because I have changed my mind.” Angelica ordered another drink as Sasha moved her hand up her thigh under the table.

Didi rushed out of her car and into the club. She was late and hoped Madison wasn’t waiting too long for her. She gave her name at the front door and was quickly ushered to the back. She waived when she saw Valeria across the room. As she approached she noticed Angelica and Sasha sitting next to someone unfamiliar, a remarkably beautiful someone.

“Nice to see you again Didi.” Valeria said her thick accent accentuating Didi’s name in a way that made Didi turn slightly red. Angelica opened her mouth to say hello but Sasha’s lips quickly covered her own.

“These two are quite drunk.” Valeria explained as Didi shook her head in agreement, Angelica wasn’t one for public displays of affection.

“I’m sorry Didi this is Janice, one of my best buddies in the whole world.”

“Why haven’t we met before?” Didi was instantly taken by the woman seated before her. She took Janice’s hand and held it.

“Janice this is my friend and coworker Didi.” Angelica laughed as Sasha bit her neck; she was ticklish in that spot.

“That is a good question. I think Angie has made it her duty to compartmentalize her life.”

“Well, that’s all over.” Angelica’s voice slurred. “Life has officially gotten in the way.”

“Are you a model? Janice asked noting that Didi’s handsome features highlighted a youthful demeanor. Didi laughed but again her cheeks reddened.

“I am not a model, I’m a photographer. I shoot them, I don’t take them.”

“Maybe you should consider a career in modeling.” Janice couldn’t believe she was flirting. Something about Didi’s smile put her completely at ease.

“That is very kind of you, what is your day job?” Didi moved closer as the music in the club pulsated louder. She felt her body insulate with heat, a signal she was nervous.

“I am Evelyn Stratford’s Chief of Staff, pretty much a glorified personal assistant.” Janice inched closer as well. She was quickly forgetting the heartbreak that inundated her earlier that night.

“Don’t listen to a word of it Evelyn couldn’t function without her.” Angelica pointed out as Sasha kissed her temple.

“She can’t function without you either.” Angelica nose crinkled and Janice smiled proud to have caused the reaction.

“Sorry I’m late I had to stay and speak to Dr. Rivera about a paper due.” Madison took her seat after kissing everyone hello. She lingered longer against Didi’s lips as the table took notice.

“Wonderful.” Angelica said plainly.

“Dr. Rivera was a bitch to me today. Why am I always surrounded by your jilted exes?” Madison teased as Didi whispered in her ear.

“Her professor is your ex?” Sasha asked Angelica letting go of her for the first time since they met at the club.

“Another round?” The waitress asked as she picked up the used glasses from the table showing up before Angelica could answer the question.

“I’ll have water.” Madison ordered as she grabbed Didi’s hand underneath the table.

“Make that two waters.”

“No more tequila for you?” The waitress asked Angelica with a wink.

“I’m done, beautiful.” Angelica touched the waitress's arm as she began to walk away. “Wait weren’t you in Jasmine’s Revenge?” The waitress's beaming smile made Angelica certain she was right.

“Yes, I was Jasmine. I can’t believe you recognized me.”

“You were great in it.” Angelica complimented the waitress who rushed to get their drinks.

“Is that a porno?” Sasha asked visibly annoyed with Angelica.

“No, it’s a funny slasher movie, I loved it.”

“I forget how much of a dork you are.” It was the first comment Janice had made in a while.

“I don’t like when you drink you get too social.” Sasha said with disgust.

“Social? Seriously?” Madison asked annoyed quickly and thoroughly by Sasha.

Angelica and Madison thanked their waitress for their glasses of water. Angelica pleaded with her eyes asking Madison to leave Sasha alone.

As they got ready to leave the club Angelica thanked the waitress for calling them cabs. Sasha wrapped her arms around Angelica directly outside of the club. “Let’s go home.” She whispered softly in Angelica’s ear.

“I am bringing Janice home with me she has had a rough day. I asked Valeria to share a cab with you and make sure you get home.”

“Let’s go sexy.” Valeria called out to Sasha who let go of Angelica.

"I need you to take me home and stay the night with me." Sasha pleaded with certainty in her tone.

"I have to be there for my friend tonight." Angelica was irritated with Sasha's lack of understanding.

"Everyone comes before me Angelica I am sick of it. Is she more important than I am?"

"This is not a game or competition, she is my friend and she needs me right now. She has been an important part of my life for a long time." When Angelica attempted to put her arms around Sasha she pulled away.

“You’ll regret this.” Sasha yelled as she walked away. Angelica opened the door for the second cab and allowed Janice, Madison, and Didi to get in before her. She got in and called out instructions to the driver.

“Angie I really, really cannot stand her.” Madison said with unequivocal certainty.

“I know you can’t sweetie.” Angelica said as Janice buried her head into Angelica’s shoulder.

“The question is why do you like her?” Janice asked as she watched Didi watching Madison.

“She’s a good friend, a companion, company when I am lonely.” Angelica answered honestly.

“She wants much more than that.” Didi pointed out worried that Angelica was putting herself in harm’s way. Women like Sasha did not handle rejection well. Her own experience with models at their peak of stardom was decisively negative.

“I have been completely honest with her she knows I am not ready for a commitment. She is simply used to having all the attention on her.”

“What a load of crap you are more than ready for a commitment just not with her.” Madison studied Angelica’s eyes intently. They maintained eye contact Angelica not daring to look away. “You are settled into a family life you adore, you don’t see a wife being a part of that?”

“I don’t know.” Angelica’s voice was soft. Her heart ached when she realized she herself had begun to doubt a future with love and happiness.

“You can’t live your life scared, that’s not living.”

“I’m not scared. Life isn’t always easy to maneuver Madison.”

“Like hell you’re not, I watch you emotionally pull away at every turn and it hurts everyone around you.”

Angelica didn’t answer she gazed outside the window. “Enough.” She whispered.

“What did you? We can’t hear you.” Madison said.

“Enough.” Angelica looked back in Madison’s direction. There were tears in her eyes.

“Why…”

“Let her be.” Didi interrupted Madison before she could continue her question.

“I don’t feel well.” Janice interrupted as her stomach began to quiver. Didi was relieved because the steel in Madison’s gaze told her that she was not happy.

“We better get you home, before you throw up all over me.” Angelica whispered in Janice’s ear as Janice smiled.

Angelica heard two quick knocks on her office door before it opened. Evelyn walked in and closed the door behind her. She leaned her back against the door taking in the woman she had been thinking about all day. Angelica’s hair was pulled up in a bun and a pair of glasses hung low on her small nose.

“I told my assistant that I wouldn’t be taking any appointments today.” Angelica pushed her seat away from her desk. She leaned back as she looked calmer than she felt. She is stunning.

“I can be very persuasive Angelica.” Evelyn stood in front of Angelica’s desk. “He is way too nice to be anyone’s assistant. He wouldn’t dare say no to me.” Evelyn resisted the urge to make her way around the table. She had arrived unexpectedly and felt it only fair to give Angelica the space to move closer or move away.

“I remember your persuasiveness Evelyn, how can I help you? Did you decide to buy Isabella and become my new boss?” Angelica asked sarcastically.

“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you about the partnership with Valeria.”

“Why didn’t you?”

“I was afraid you wouldn’t come to the meeting.”

“Do you really think that I would miss a work meeting just because I want to avoid you?” Evelyn was unsure how to answer the question Angelica spoke first. “You would be right I would have found a way to miss that meeting.” They both smiled.

“Come to dinner with me.” Evelyn asked unable to maintain the idle chit chat.

“Are you asking me out on a date?” Angelica asked genuinely surprised by the offer.

“I know I am not a super model but I think I still qualify as a date candidate.” Angelica’s mouth opened slightly at the subtle mention of Sasha.

“We can’t do this Evelyn.” Angelica’s voice revealed the uncertainty she felt.

“We can Angie, it's just dinner.” Evelyn took a deep breath and made her way around the table. She leaned on the edge next to Angelica and waited for her response.

“A quick dinner?” Angelica wasn’t sure why she was entertaining the idea.

“Lightening fast.” Evelyn’s sense of victory could not be contained as she held out her hand to help Angelica up. They stood briefly face-to-face Evelyn holding Angelica’s hand close to her body.

“Where are we going?” Angelica asked her voice barely a whisper.

“We are going to my car, for now.” As they walked out to the car Angelica was unsure if it was prudent to be alone with Evelyn. However, she needed to have some of her questions about the past answered. The dinner could be productive she surmised. “I’ll drive back here after.”

“After what exactly?” Angelica asked as she got into the car.

“Just get in the car.” Angelica needed to prove to herself she could truly move on. She decided to let Evelyn lead the way.

When they arrived at the beach Angelica wasn’t very surprised. She knew Evelyn loved the beach as much as she did so it was a natural choice. Evelyn opened the door to the back seat and took out a cooler and picnic basket.

“Do you mind grabbing the beach towels? I can’t hold it all.” Evelyn asked as Angelica grabbed the remaining items from the car.

“You got a picnic basket and everything.”

“I had a lot of time in a hospital bed to prepare this in my mind.” It was Evelyn’s attempt to lighten the tension but the only response she got was silence. They quietly set up the towels and surf and turf dinner Evelyn had picked up from her favorite Los Angeles restaurant.

“I felt so helpless and scared when you were in the hospital. I’ve only felt that way once before.”

“When I decided to stay in Connecticut?” Evelyn offered remembering her own mistakes.

“No, when Abby was two she got a bad fever and I knew she was sick but I couldn’t figure out what was wrong. I just wanted to make everything better.”

“She had you there to take care of her. Even at two she could feel that.” Evelyn found it remarkable that Angelica had this whole new role in life she could get to know. She was enthralled by the look of love in Angelica’s eyes when she discussed Abigail. “I envy her.”

Angelica knew how unaware Evelyn was about Angelica’s feelings towards her. Angelica wanted nothing more than to care for Evelyn. She felt like her love was not enough for Evelyn that is what pained her the most. “Do you really think what we had was more than just lust and good sex?” Evelyn wiped a dab of tartar sauce from Angelica’s lip with her napkin as Angelica spoke.

"I have never felt more connected to anyone than I feel to you even after all these years so to answer your question, yes I think it was much more than that.” Angelica remained quiet in a subtle agreement. She herself felt more than lust linking them. Evelyn’s controlled response caught Angelica off guard, she baited Evelyn into a fight and it didn’t work.

“Why didn’t you try to get me back ever?” Since Angelica’s attempt at changing the subject did not work she decided to ask the one question she asked herself many times.

“I was afraid, to admit to myself what it means for me to be in love with a woman. I was afraid that you wouldn’t want me back, afraid to answer to the world.” Angelica admitted to herself that Evelyn’s concern was reasonable. “Why didn’t you ever come back to Connecticut?” Evelyn encircled Angelica’s fingers with her own.

“I didn’t want my heart to ache anymore.” The revelation hurt Evelyn deeply. She kissed Angelica’s temple a kiss devoid of suggestion. She wanted to comfort Angelica make up for the years she allowed to pass without her. Evelyn wrapped an arm around Angelica whose back rested against her chest. “It did anyway.”

“Do you think you will ever go back?’ Evelyn asked as her heartbeat thumped against Angelica. Her senses reacted to the heat of Angelica’s body pressed against her. It had been a long time since anyone had been that close to her.

“I’ve been back to Connecticut since, since everything happened.” Angelica felt Evelyn’s nipples hard against her body as her own nipples responded. She was relieved that she was sitting with her back to Evelyn so she could hide her own pleasure.

“When were you in Connecticut, why didn’t anyone tell me?” Evelyn quieted as Angelica repositioned herself more firmly against her body. She loved the way the silk of Angelica’s blouse felt against her cotton shirt.

“When I saw you, you were sleeping but you didn’t look peaceful. It scared me that so much emotion could still consume me like they did when you were in that accident.”

“What do you mean, when you saw me?” Evelyn lips brushed against Angelica’s cheek. Angelica stammered for the right words to say, unsure of how much to share.

“Thinking of this moment, the possibility of being this close to you again, got me through Angelica.”

“Was it the accident that made you decide to come here?” Angelica fought the emotion that choked her words as she spoke.

“No, it was seeing pictures of you on Madison’s computer and hearing you speak to her on her webcam. I knew I needed to see you, I needed a chance to be happy.” Angelica turned into Evelyn their noses brushing against each other as she peered into Evelyn’s warm blue eyes.

“I was in Connecticut to see you in the hospital. I had to see for myself you were going to be okay. I needed to hold your hand and feel it warm against mine.” Angelica felt Evelyn’s hands against the small of her back.

“I felt you, but I thought it was me dreaming.”

“I’m not someone you should want to dream about.” Evelyn felt her body cool with the sudden absence of Angelica’s body. She quickly got up to run after Angelica. She ran in front of Angelica and held both of Angelica’s arms in front of her.

“Did I say something wrong? I didn’t mean to, I’m sorry.” Evelyn felt panicked and desperate. She sensed that if Angelica left her that day upset she might never get the chance to be alone with her again.

“You didn’t say anything wrong I just know that I am not all that you think I am.”

“If you could know what I know, you’d never doubt how amazing you are.” Angelica allowed Evelyn to hold onto her but kept her body away from Evelyn not trusting herself to maintain a clear mind if they were to touch again.

“I know that I am hard to get close to, I can be cold and distant, and I don’t blame you for staying in Connecticut. You couldn’t risk your life and your career, not for me.” Angelica felt a burden lift as she revealed her own ineptitude. She knew deep down that it was her own flawed view of love that truly drove Evelyn away.

“Is that what you think? I didn’t leave with you because you were distant? I was a married woman you were protecting yourself.” Angelica finally relented and allowed Evelyn to bring her closer. “Who are you trying to fool? I felt your passion and knew your love.”

“I have hurt so many people by shutting down on them, people who didn’t deserve to be hurt. I am not the person you think I am.” Angelica’s tears were quickly met by Evelyn’s fingertips wiping them away.

“I made mistakes too. The biggest one was not realizing how much I could die inside by not doing what my heart wanted me to do. I almost died on the outside as a result.”

“Shh, don’t say that, don’t think like that.” Angelica held the back of Evelyn’s neck and wrapped her fingers around locks of hair. “I don’t want to shut down and hurt you.”

“You won’t do that to me. I will show you that you don’t always have to be the strong one.”

“How are you going to do that?” Angelica was surprised by the one sensation that overwhelmed her. Her desire for Evelyn was intense but the relief she felt to have Evelyn safe in her arms trumped any other emotion.

“By giving you what you need.”

“Anything I need?” Angelica placed a kiss on Evelyn’s chin. Evelyn’s fingertips dug into Angelica’s side.

“Anything, everything.”

“Well, right now I need to go home and kiss my daughter goodnight.”

“Of course darling.” Evelyn kissed Angelica’s forehead as they collected their belongings they held hands unable to release the tangible proof they were inches away from one another.

It was late afternoon in Los Angeles outside the St. Vibiana complex and the view of the setting sun tinting the world in golden beams was lost on Angelica. Headset in place, Angelica was in full work mode. The fashion show was to be the crowning gem in the Valeria line and Angelica was the ringleader juggling the models, crew, and press. Evelyn’s presence also made her pulse race. She hadn’t spoken to her since Evelyn dropped her off back to her car.

Angelica walked into the models changing area and was surprised to see Evelyn assisting Valeria in a last minute alteration.

“Something I can help with ladies?” Evelyn turned around quickly at the sound of Angelica directly behind her.

“Yes, you can ask your model how she could gain ten pounds the week of the biggest fashion show of her career after fittings.” Valeria asked as she made alterations to the skirt that hugged the model’s body closely.

“She is just very stressed.” Angelica whispered to the model who seemed like she was about to cry. “What happened? It is odd to gain that much in a week are you okay?”

“I’m pregnant.”

“Well, that explains it. Now hurry up so I can release this woman’s leg.” Evelyn complained to Valeria as she watched Angelica in action. She was giving orders into her headset but her tone was calm despite the surrounding chaos. Evelyn stood up and touched Angelica’s silk adorned arm.

“I’ve been thinking about you.” Evelyn proclaimed unsure of what else to say.

“That is great to hear.” Angelica smiled but it lacked authenticity. She had spent the days after their picnic in a panic due to how natural it felt to let Evelyn back into her life.

“That is a cold response. I was hoping you felt the same.”

“I’m sorry. I'm not sure how to respond to you." Angelica brushed her hand against Evelyn's.

"I thought we had a good time.” Angelica crashed into Evelyn as someone pushed passed her in the busy dressing room. She placed her hands on Evelyn’s waist.

“I had a great time, and yes I’ve been thinking of you.”

“But?”

“But, I have to be very careful, it's not just about you and I anymore I have a child now.”

“And I love that about you.” Evelyn couldn’t hide the desperation in her voice. She wanted so badly for Angelica to see how she had changed.

“I believe you and as much as I would like to jump into your life I have to make my decisions with a clear mind.” Angelica released Evelyn from her firm grasp. She took a step back but Evelyn quickly took a step forward.

“Then I will keep showing you until you can choose me with a clear mind.” Angelica walked away. She was relieved that Evelyn couldn’t see the butterflies fluttering in her stomach when they touched.

Madison made her way to the front row of the runway. She spotted Jake who had a seat right behind her. Angelica’s name was printed on a label on the seat to her right and Evelyn’s name was printed on a label on the seat to her left.

“Do you think Valeria made these seating arrangements?” She asked Jake who laughed as Didi approached them both.

“Is this seat taken?” Didi plopped down next to Madison and put her head on Madison’s shoulder. Madison wrapped both of her arms around Didi enjoying the brief moment of intimacy.

“Actually, it is taken but the show doesn’t start for a half hour. I wish you could come sit with us.” Madison spoke softly into Didi’s ear.

“I wish I could but I have to work.” Didi regretfully moved away from the embrace. “Jake where is your baby mama I need to run a few things by her.”

"She is checking on things in the back you know she can't rest until the show starts."

"I hope that's all she's checking on." Didi was surprised to see a look of anger on Madison's face.

"What does that mean she can do as she pleases?"

"She has a girlfriend and Evelyn is bad news." Didi remembered how long it took for Angelica to let go of her pain and start a new life and she felt protective of her.

"Sasha isn't her girlfriend and you don't even know Evelyn, Didi."

"I know what she did, that's all I need to know." Didi stood and as she walked away she passed Janice and Abigail heading towards the seating area. She smiled at Janice who waved hello.

Janice was disappointed that Didi would not be joining them as she sat next to Jake. Abigail could barely contain her excitement as she waited for the event to begin. She loved watching the models racing by in beautiful colors and sparkling sequins. She sat as her feet dangled high above the floor waiting for her mother. She knew her mother had planned the whole event and she was eager to inform anyone who would listen.

Angelica smiled at the sight of her daughter waiting for the fashion show as she headed towards them. She kissed her daughter and took her seat next to Madison. She held her breath and allowed Abigail to stand directly in front of her.

"Hey guys," Evelyn greeted everyone as the reporters descended upon her. It was her first public outing since the death of her husband so she expected the response. She said a few words and they let her off the hook.

"How is Valeria handling the big day?" Madison asked as she felt Evelyn's glare passing through her to Angelica.

"She is doing remarkably well. She knows we are in good hands." Everyone was watching Angelica but she did not notice. She loved the moments right before a show when her work was done and she could watch what she helped put together unfold in front of everyone. She especially loved watching with her daughter. It bothered her to realize that the only feeling consistent within her at that moment was the desire to sit beside Evelyn.

Valeria made her way to a small room where Sasha was rearranging the dress she had on, one of many for the show.

"You look so sexy." Valeria said as Sasha responded with a roll of her eyes attempting to hide how excited she was to hear the compliment.

"Well, I am wearing a dress you designed so you may be biased."

"No, that isn't it, it is you." Valeria placed a hand on Sasha's hip. Sasha flinched with surprise.

"You can't do things like that someone can walk in, Angelica can walk in."

"So what if she does, I wouldn't lie to her about us."

"Us? There is no us." Sasha spoke the words but her feelings weren't behind them.

"But you want there to be." Valeria whipped Sasha around and kissed her lips. Sasha returned her kiss and she sighed in relief unable to play it cool.

"I am with the person I want to be with."

"So then why did you make love to me?" Valeria had her arms wrapped around Sasha who fit perfectly against her body.

"I was angry and not thinking clearly I regret doing that to Angelica, please let go Angelica likes to check in with me right before a show." Valeria was not holding her anymore but Sasha did not move away.

"With Evelyn around I don't think you will be getting that visit, when you're done pretending I am not what you really want let me know." Valeria walked towards the stage entrance and her pulse raced. She felt her senses electric within her skin anytime she was around Sasha but she knew these feelings were also caused by the event. She thought of her mother working in a factory as a tailor in her homeland Brazil when she was a child. If only she could see me now. She decided to focus solely on the show. She did not have the time or desire to allow anything to ruin the moment for her. It was time for the show to begin.

Chapter 20

Henry Grant tapped his fingers against the pictures sitting on top of his desk. It was an embrace filled with familiarity and intimacy he remarked internally. Angelica hands around Evelyn's neck as Evelyn gazed into Angelica's eyes. It was indeed a private moment that found the photographer's lens.

Henry crinkled up the picture and threw it on the floor. He knew deep within this was the information he would learn when he hired an investigator to follow Evelyn. He felt a frigid anger within his soul harden over his body. The reach of Evelyn's selfishness amazed him. She did not care how her choices affected her own morality let alone the lives of those who worked hard on Edward and Evelyn's political empire. He hoped to create a modern day Kennedy family with him one day taking office himself. Instead his cousin was queer, his meal ticket was dead, and he had no financial means or political clout to run for office on his own.

It was Evelyn who was supposed to be alone in that car when it crashed on the highway. He had conjured the perfect plan he knew that the widowed husband made for an intriguing candidate who would have a good chance at the presidency. He knew it was their only chance, the divorced husband of a lesbian would mean doom for their chances. He held up his end of the bargain did all he could do to help Edward be in line for a run at the office. What he could not envision was his cousin's ability to make yet again another task difficult for him.

When Edward died he did see another chance before him. The same plan still in place as the world consoled Evelyn. Now these pictures meant the political end for Evelyn as well. His dream to run the White House was dwindling but there was still hope. All that stood in his way was Angelica. He could feel her suspicion all over him. She knew somehow what he had done, and she was the only thing standing between him and success. Evelyn would fall in line if she was not in the picture just as Evelyn had always done. Madison would realize her full potential in politics if away from Angelica's watchful eye. Angelica was the only loose end to tie.

Angelica could not calm the nerves chipping away at her stomach. The moment reminded her of a day she dreaded, a day looming close by.

"Relax Angie I am sure she is doing just fine." Jake rolled his eyes. The idea that his child had to be interviewed by a preschool was beyond his comprehension. As they waited for their daughter in the waiting room at Alexander Prep he knew that many things had changed since he was a child.

"I went to good ole public school where my biggest concern was figuring out which girl would play spin the body with me." Jake noticed a Sports Illustrated magazine on the coffee table and began to skim through its contents.

"Well, the only option for me was private school." Angelica peeked in the direction of the Dean's office but the door was still locked.

"Too good for public school, such an elitist you are."

"Not an elitist the public school where I lived was too dangerous and I was just too small." Jake laughed as a tall lanky woman walked Abigail towards them.

"It isn't funny, hey baby how did it go?" Angelica kneeled on the floor and hugged her daughter.

"It was fun we played with shapes. I like school."

"You do baby? I am so happy!" Angelica was relieved that Abigail seemed happy. She ignored her lingering thought that this event marked the beginning of Abigail's school career officially out of her home.

"Mr. and Mrs. Reed please come into the Dean's office I will bring little Abby to our playroom." Angelica wanted to correct the administrative assistant and inform her that they were divorced but decided against it. They walked into the large office with floor to ceiling windows overlooking the school football field.

"Your child is very bright." Mr. Hurley the Dean of Admissions welcomed Angelica and Jake.

"Thank you, will you be offering her a spot for the fall?" Angelica had a way of getting to the point that Jake truly appreciated.

"We want to give her additional tests. She scored very high in reading aptitude but was average in mathematics and science."

"She is four and you already met with her for an hour." Angelica's fingers curled up into a fist as her anger boiled.

"I realize this but we have to make certain that Abigail is Alexander Prep material."

"Let me save you some time, Abigail is not Alexander material I am not going to put her in a situation of constant stress as early as preschool." Angelica got up and waited for Jake to follow suit. “This was a bad idea.”

"Does she make all of your decisions for you?" Hurley asked Jake as he walked them towards their door.

"Thank you for reinforcing every pretentious prep school stereotype Mr. Hurley." Jake said as he shook Mr. Hurley's hand.

"You are right I do the talking he does the writing and his next article for the Los Angeles Sun may very well feature you Mr. Hurley." As they left the office Angelica was very satisfied with the shade of red Mr. Hurley's face had turned. She marched into the play room and took Abigail by the hand. They were back in Jake's car before she spoke again.

"Daddy is going to take us to Chucky Cheese’s sweetheart." Angelica smiled and hoped her anger wasn't evident in her face. Abigail raised both her hands in a pose denoting victory.

"What did I do right mommy?" Abigail exclaimed as she thought about which game she should play first.

"You did so well taking your first school test we are going to celebrate." Jake explained as he signaled for a right turn leading to the highway.

At the restaurant Jake brought Abigail to their favorite game Skee ball. He helped her throw the ball toward the targets. Angelica watched from afar noting that Jake always seemed like an overgrown kid whenever he was in the vicinity of arcade games.

"Fancy meeting you here." Angelica willed herself not to smile as Evelyn eased into the booth in front of her.

"How did you know I was here?" Evelyn rested her hands onto the table as she pondered the question.

"You twittered your location you should be more careful."

"Well, I am sorry I wasn't expecting to be stalked today." Angelica briefly brushed her finger across Evelyn's bracelet. Evelyn held her breath as she watched the fleeting touch.

"Not stalking just opportunistic games and Angie are a heck of a combination." Evelyn smiled as her dimples framed her face.

"That is an odd combination of flattering and troubling."

"What brings us to Chucky Cheese's today?"

"My daughter was called average today by a school dean." Angelica was very troubled by the atmosphere she had almost allowed her daughter to enter. So much was changing for her and her daughter leaving for school was a moment she dreaded.

"That little girl is anything but average I can't believe she didn't get in."

"She got in I just can't send her there to be judged, she is going to get that enough in life. Preschool should be about discovery and having fun." Evelyn tried hard to focus on their conversation but the more she listened to the woman Angelica had become the more she wanted to have this conversation deep in an embrace.

"You're making the right choice mama."

"Don't call me that." Angelica's reddened cheeks showed that she enjoyed the nickname despite her protest. "The fashion show is over so why are you still in California?"

"Aren't I wanted here? I was thinking I may stick around."

"A daunting possibility."

"Afraid I will whip you in 3 point shootout?" Evelyn asked as she placed her fingertips against Angelica's. Her heart fluttered when Angelica wrapped her fingers around Evelyn's hand.

"You're on."

Didi rested against her Audi A5 fidgeting with her SLR camera. She watched various students enter and leave the library on the UCLA campus. She took pictures of the majestic building having always been a fan of Romanesque Revival architecture. Focusing on the building was safer than focusing on the many beautiful women who had passed her in the twenty minutes she had been waiting for Madison. She rose in stature when she saw Madison leave the building. Madison was laughing and she held the door open for a woman Didi did not recognize. The brunette with the curly hair brushed her hand over Madison's hand as she walked away. Madison looked up and waved when she saw Didi. Didi was concerned by the affectionate gesture by the stranger but Madison's hug hello washed away any doubts. She opened her passenger seat and waited for Madison to settle into the seat.

"Did you have a good day in class?" Didi asked as she felt her hands slick against the steering wheel. The nerves she felt around Madison were like nothing she felt before. She always felt like a fish out of water.

"Is that really what you want to talk about, school?" Madison rested her hand on the inside of Didi's thigh. "Pull over." Madison instructed. Didi quickly obliged pulling over to the side of the road. She leaned in close to Madison. Madison traced Didi's lips with her own. When she felt the tip of Didi's tongue against her lips she parted her mouth to allow Didi entrance. As their kiss intensified Didi allowed her hands to rest against the tapered edges of Madison's jeans. When her fingertips met skin Madison broke their kiss.

"Will you take me home?" Madison asked as Didi froze the hue of her cheeks went from a reddened hue to a glacier pale.” Your home silly."

"Oh, I thought you meant, okay." Didi put the car in drive and ignored her rapidly beating heart as she merged back into the lane.

Angelica took a sip of the Pina Colada on the table next to her. She never tired of the California sun beating down on her body. She especially loved the evening sky as the sun went down. She glanced at the clock hanging against the patio wall.

"Waiting for someone in particular?" Janice asked as she turned over, the sun sizzled against her back. She was looking forward to the sun going down.

"It is not like Madison to be late and not call." Angelica could not shake the sense that something bad was going to happen. It had been haunting her for weeks.

"I'm sure she is fine sweetheart she may have lost track of time." Janice noted the pensive way Angelica fidgeted with concern. She wished she could ease her paranoia, however, given Angelica's past, she knew it was warranted.

"Hey have room for two more?" Angelica was relieved to see Madison but was surprised to see Didi close behind her. The look in her friends' eyes did not lie, Angelica sat up.

"I'm sorry I didn't call, we got caught in heavy traffic." Madison sat on the edge of Angelica's lawn chair. Janice greeted Didi who brought over a chair to sit next to her.

"Heavy traffic, right. I prepared chicken wings for the game tonight will you help me bring them out?" They walked into the house and began to work in the kitchen. "Look you shouldn't have to explain why you're out living your life I shouldn't worry like I do, I am sorry." Angelica began to walk over to the refrigerator but Madison reached out for her.

"Don't apologize for worrying about me or caring about me, I wouldn't have it any other way."

"I obviously make it hard for you to tell me the truth, stuck in traffic, really?" Madison crossed her arms and put her head down.

"Okay we didn't get stuck in traffic I just know that you don't like Didi and I spending time together after work."

"It's not that I don't like it Madison, I just know she is falling in love with you."

"We are just having some fun." Madison watched as Angelica prepared her famous potato salad. "You know you’re the reason for my freshman fifteen right?" Angelica laughed as Madison lightened the tension in the room.

"You are at a point in your life where you are dating and having fun." Madison shook her head in agreement. "Didi may come across as a player to some but make no mistake she is enamored with you and is looking for something serious."

"She doesn't even know me that well, she can't be falling for me, she likes the idea of me."

"Don't underestimate how intriguing an idea that may be for her." They both walked out to the backyard. Madison prepared the food while Angelica checked on the grill.

"What about you, are you dating or want something serious."

"Neither."

"Now who's lying?" Madison pointed out as she sat across from Angelica at the patio dining table.

"What are you talking about?"

"I know about that little date you had with Evelyn. I saw the picture of Evelyn and Abby from a photo booth." Angelica dropped the tongs but quickly recovered.

"They have taken to each other, but that was not a date. Jake was there for crissake."

"Make no mistake she is enamored with you."

"Ha ha ha, touché now get your butt over here and help me."

"Those two make a good team." Janice pointed out as she watched Angelica and Madison work by the grill. Janice stole a peak at Didi as she leaned back in the chair and closed her eyes.

"That they do, it scares me."

"Why because Madison has had a crush on Angelica since she was thirteen?" Didi's eyes shot open wide and she sat back up in her chair. "No because I know Angelica doesn't approve of Madison and I."

"You don't approve of Angelica and Evelyn."

"That's different, enough about me, are you thinking of staying in California." Janice pondered the question she loved being around Angelica and her family but her life and job were in Connecticut.

"When Evelyn goes back, I will go back."

"Evelyn is a lucky woman surrounded by other stunning women." Janice blushed at the compliment that Didi delivered casually as if Janice would hear compliments often.

"Evelyn only has eyes for one woman." Janice pointed out as she watched Didi ease into the conversation with her. Her whole body relaxed for the first time and Janice yearned to massage those tight muscles.

"Lucky Angelica then." As Didi spoke Abigail ran out of the house dawning her Dora The Explorer swimsuit. Abigail cannonballed into the pool. Splashing both Janice and Didi. Jake followed her out of the house.

"Hello dear." Angelica said as she kissed Jake on the cheek.

"You two are the most well-adjusted divorced couple ever." Madison commented as Jake and Angelica both smiled in agreement.

"You should have seen us married."

"Brutal, let's not revisit." Jake asked as he swiftly grabbed a chicken wing off the grill.

"Did you fight a lot?" Madison was intrigued because she could not imagine them fighting.

"No, we didn't fight it was just painfully..."

"Silent." Jake found the word Angelica could not. Madison decided not to ask any more questions because the idea that what had become her family life may not have existed as it was terrified her.

Chapter 21

Angelica zoomed past a slow moving vehicle on her way to her office on a busy Monday afternoon. She had taken the morning off to spend it with Janice who was meeting her at her home. She was not one to speed but when she got the message that she should rush to her office she did not waste any time. She hoped for her assistant's sake that the issue was one worth disrupting her day. Janice and Angelica rushed out of the elevator and towards her office Angelica could already see most of her stuff on the office floor. Her assistant was standing amongst the mess. When she walked in she first saw pictures of her family thrown to the ground.

"What the fuck happened?" Angelica asked but as she inspected the specific damage she did not need to know the answer. "User" was written in lipstick on the wall behind her desk.

"Sasha said you had told her to wait for you in your office I should have never let her in. She had a baseball bat in a large bag and just went to town. By the time security got here it was too late."

"It's not your fault Peter, how could you know she would do this?" Angelica said as her heart hurt. The idea that someone was so angry with her as to do this to her office made her feel terribly ashamed. Janice picked up Angelica's Master's degree certificate. The frame was shattered.

"What a fucking bitch." Janice said the anger in her voice echoing in the room. "Using her would have been committing to her when you didn't want to."

"Somehow that doesn't make me feel any better." She wondered how Sasha even knew she was considering ending their relationship.

"Go pick up your daughter from school, I will coordinate the cleanup." Janice said knowing that Jake was at a conference in San Diego. Angelica made her way to the elevator knowing that she would have to hurry to make it across town to the school Abigail had been attending for about a week. She unlocked her car when she was still several rows away in the company indoor parking lot. When she opened her car door she felt a red hot flash slash through her shoulder. The strength of the impact caused her to jerk around as her back slammed against her car. She felt another burning sensation in her stomach she realized she had just been shot when she fell to the floor. Her eyes drooped and her vision blurred. She could not get her mind to focus as she tried to look at the person who shot her.

"Hey you, stop!" Angelica heard office security yell out as the person who shot her ran off. She thought of her daughter as she began to drift. She thought of all the fears and insecurities she lived her life with and how little they mattered in that moment. She thought about Evelyn and wished she had Evelyn to scoop her in those strong arms and rescue her from the cold concrete damp with her blood. More than anything she knew she would never see her daughter again and she hoped she had said "I love you" enough. Angelica's eyes rolled back just as the security officer made it to her.

The blistering headache was what she felt first. She tried to look around but the bright lights of the hospital room blinded her for a moment.

"Janice?" Angelica reached out to Janice seated beside her. She saw the tears in Janice's eyes, she raised her shaky hand to brush away the cold tears.

"Why are these things happening to us?" Janice asked unable to control the anger and pain bellowing within.

"Where is Abby?" Angelica asked as she looked around the room to see if they were alone.

"She is home with Jake."

"Jake is in San Diego."

"Your lucent and talkative Ms. Reed, I'm Dr. Reinhardt, how are you feeling?" The doctor came in and checked the machines surrounding Angelica. "This may sting a bit." Dr. Reinhardt brought a flashlight to Angelica's eyes.

"Is she going to be okay?" Janice asked as she stood to observe.

"We still have to take a few tests but you are very lucky Ms. Reed the bullets did not hit any vital organs." Dr. Reinhardt looked over at Janice who shook her head. As the doctor left, Janice went over to Angelica and took her hand.

"There is a detective here that would like to speak to you. She has been waiting all day for you to wake up." Angelica clutched Janice's hand tighter before she spoke. "Can you talk to her?"

"I will speak to her." Angelica steadied herself as Janice walked outside the room and quickly returned with a tall statuesque woman by her side. The woman's jaw tightened as she made eye contact with Angelica. Angelica could sense the fury deep within this woman.

"I will leave you two to talk." Janice said as she walked out of the room.

"Ms. Reed I am Detective Tenley Peters how are you feeling?" The detective sat close to Angelica. The woman's eyes held Angelica's which made Angelica feel calm.

"Like shit but it could be worse, couldn't it?"

"Yes, it could. Do you remember what happened?" Angelica closed her eyes and saw the moments replay before her. The pain shooting through her shoulder, making eye contact with the shooter before another shot ripped through her, the cold concrete. She felt a hand take hers which caused her to open her eyes.

"I remember everything."

Evelyn paced the hallway floor waiting for a chance to go into the hospital room. She looked over at Janice who sat with her head against the hospital wall.

"How did she look when she woke up?"

"Like I said, she looked tired but she seemed coherent."

"I wish I hadn't walked out when I did." Evelyn nervously rubbed her hands against her face.

"You went to get a snack, you have to eat Evelyn."

"I should have been there." Evelyn's voice echoed through the hallway.

"Ladies, is everything all right?" Detective Peters asked as she walked out of the hospital room.

"Was that helpful detective?" Janice asked as she peeked through the door's window.

"Very helpful, she has tremendous resiliency." Detective Peters could not hide her admiration in her voice. Evelyn swallowed her usual territorial response.

"Are you going to get the asshole who did this?" Evelyn asked eyeing the detective with pure scrutiny.

"Count on it." Detective Peters walked away as Evelyn and Janice rushed into the room.

"It is great to see you darling." When Angelica responded with a smile Evelyn's heart soared.

"Please come closer." Evelyn leaned over Angelica's bed. Angelica traced her fingertips over Evelyn's chin and brought her closer. She placed a kiss on Evelyn's lips brushing over Evelyn's plump lips, the connection was fleeting but the relief they both felt in that kiss could last forever.

"I was afraid I'd never get to do that again. I am so sorry."

"Sorry for what baby?" Evelyn felt teardrops welling up in her eyes.

"I'm sorry for hesitating to get back together even though I wanted to from the second you showed up in California."

"I am not the easiest person to put faith in, but that's going to change."

"I love you and that's enough." Evelyn kissed Angelica. This kiss was deeper as her tongue caressed Angelica's mouth. Evelyn was afraid to hurt Angelica so she broke off the kiss. Angelica although breathless smiled as she kissed Evelyn's hand.

"Does this mean I should start looking for places in Los Angeles?" Janice asked her excitement palpable.

"Yes."

"No." Angelica replied much to Evelyn's surprise.

"I am not going back knowing you're here." Evelyn searched Angelica's eyes she wanted so desperately to be accepted by those eyes.

"Didn't you want to run for office? You could do so much good." Angelica held onto Evelyn's hand and gaze.

"I did...I do, but I'm here now, this is more important."

"We don't have to make any decisions right now, we have time." Angelica attempted to rise but when she did she felt a mind numbing pain attack her entire right side. She dropped back down in pain. They all turned to the door when they heard a timid knock.

"I'm sorry to interrupt but it's getting hectic out there and the doctors are ready to make a statement." Detective Peters walked into the room.

"What's hectic?" Angelica looked around for answers but all she heard was silence.

"Sweetie, what happened to you has been all over the news." Janice answered when Evelyn couldn't.

"Why? I don't understand." Angelica felt a headache coming on, it was intense and her vision blurred.

"Ma'am, we have reason to believe that Sasha Ellington may be involved in your attempted murder." This woman she did not know took her hand. The pain that pierced her body did not dull as she pictured the man who tried to take everything from her.

"Sasha couldn't have done this, it was a man, and I remember his face." She felt breathless as all she could not figure out was laid before her.

"They know that Sasha destroyed your office." Evelyn tried to help Angelica understand. Do you remember that?"

"I do remember." As machines started beeping and her eyes began to droop she let go. She was tired and she could not fight it any longer. Doctors came in and as her friends left she allowed herself to drift back to sleep. She hoped to wake again when the pain went away.

The night sky caused the room to glow in fluorescents. Angelica hated hospitals although waking in one she was relieved. She would rather be sleeping in the bed than waiting by the bed. It meant everyone she loved were okay. As she lie there though and saw Madison with a textbook laying clumsily on her side asleep, hurt is what she felt next.

"Angelica, is that you?" Wounded, hopeful eyes peered at Angelica.

"Yes, it is sweetheart." Angelica pushed herself up with shaky arms and moved over to one side of the bed. Madison jumped up and gingerly slipped into the bed beside Angelica. She stared into Angelica's eyes. Angelica stared back unwavering.

"I'm not going anywhere."

"I'm not going anywhere." Angelica repeated as Madison lay next to her. Madison's arm wrapped around her.

"I'm not going anywhere." Madison moved her head against the side of Angelica's neck.

"Don't leave me alone." Madison's felt tears stream down her face. As all her fears flooded her. She could not bare losing Angelica again. Angelica was her beacon. “Tell me you're going to be okay."

"I'm going to be more than okay. I'm going to be better, for you, for Abby."

"When I heard you were here I felt, so lost." Angelica held Madison close by her side.

"I love you Maddy and I'm not going anywhere."

"I love you too." Madison closed her eyes. She had never uttered words as true. She never felt the words returned so surely.

Chapter 22

"Dr. Reinhardt I can walk out of this hospital I don’t need a wheelchair."

"Please Angie you need to be careful." Janice pleaded with her eyes.

"I am careful, my legs are fine, they did not get shot. My daughter is waiting in the car and I refuse to let her see me in a wheelchair." Janice continued to help Madison pack up Angelica's belongings. They stood in silence as Evelyn walked forward she held up Angelica's sweater. Evelyn helped Angelica into the sweater. She traced her arms as she gently helped them through.

"You will walk out of this hospital so your daughter can smile and be unafraid. Because if you need help look at me and I will help you walk." Angelica held the vest Evelyn wore.

"Whoever did this to me will not cause me to walk out of this place in a chair."

"You're right." Madison agreed.

They were able to sneak out of the back of the hospital while reporters waited out front. Angelica had been shielded from the publicity, they all wondered how much longer they would be able to do that. As they waited for the elevator doors to open Angelica closed her eyes in anticipation. When she opened them she took a deep breath. The parking lot was very different from the one she had been shot in three weeks prior.

Angelica stopped but she felt a hand at the small of her back steady her. She continued on, Jake stood at the far end of the parking lot with a smile that warmed Angelica's fluttering stomach. He spoke towards the car but Angelica could not hear what he said. Abigail got out of the car and called out to her mother. Angelica willed herself not to cry as she tried her best to hurry towards Abigail. Jake held Abigail stopping her from running across the parking lot. They stared at each other as Angelica walked a trip that took an eternity for the two of them.

"Mommy." Abigail whispered as she hugged Angelica's legs. Jake leaned over and kissed Angelica. Evelyn and Jake helped Angelica into the car. As Angelica sat she watched Evelyn get down on her knees, eye-level with Abigail.

"I have pictures for you I'll show you when we get to your house, okay?" Abigail shook her head and smiled before she hugged Evelyn.

"I missed you mommy." Abigail peaked into the car as Angelica smiled.

"Mommy is coming home."

Janice ordered a scotch as she sat at the bar at one of the oldest lesbian bars in West Hollywood. When the drink arrived she held it for a few moments before taking a sip. She was not sure why she found herself in a bar. She wanted to remove herself from a very hectic life, even for just a few hours.

"Hey there." Didi sat by Janice and ordered a scotch for herself.

"Hi Didi what are you doing here?"

"Having a drink after a horrible day at work. I was working with Isabella and without Angelica there to coordinate it was a disaster."

"Well, she will be back to work soon. You know she is chopping at the bits." Didi ignored the flowery scent dancing before her as Janice spoke.

"All of us are eager to have her back."

"Evelyn is dreading the day, so fearful of Angelica driving into that parking lot. Angelica still won't talk about what happened. She needs to take her time I guess." Didi placed her hand over Janice's chair.

"What about you?" Didi asked and waited. Janice looked surprised it was a question she hadn't really planned for. She herself hadn't wondered how she was doing.

"What about me?" Didi laughed unsure why the question was a complicated one.

"How are you doing? Evelyn is considering moving here permanently that has to add some complication for you. It is a big step."

"It is, but she is doing what she wants for a change not what others want."

"And what do you want?" Janice felt the pulsating beat bounce against the walls and into her body. She hadn't noticed the way Didi's blue eyes sparkled like the ocean around midnight. They were dark blue and she found herself lost in their embrace.

"I want my friends and family to be happy and I want a life filled with love."

"Don't you have that now? I see the love everyone feels for you and I don't blame them. I've never seen..." Didi stopped speaking when she felt Janice's hand in hers. It felt so right, so comfortable she did not want to dare move. "I've never seen someone give love as purely as you do."

"Is there anything greater to give?" Janice asked as she leaned close to Didi whose hand was now resting on her thigh. Janice contemplated moving away from Didi, to stop whatever journey they were about to embark upon. However, the look of longing in Didi's eyes connected deep within Janice's soul.

The trip to Didi's home was a quiet one. They had quickly decided to leave the club and Janice wasn’t having any second thoughts. Their hands danced against each other as Didi eased through traffic. Janice smiled as she appraised the surprisingly warm home.

"Did you take these pictures?" Janice asked referring to a framed photo of the beach.

"No, that's an Ansel Adams, one of my favorites, Birds on a Beach. It represents the true beauty in this world we don't do enough to protect." Didi leaned close to Janice. Her lips grazed Janice's neck. She placed small kisses up Janice's ivory skin.

"It's spectacular, dynamic, and beautiful...like you." When their lips met Janice's body sparked with a desire she hadn't ever felt before. She felt Didi's hands all over her body. She tried desperately to take off her shirt but as quickly as she moved she could not move fast enough. They fell onto the couch in the living room. Their bodies crashed into each other and when she felt Didi's hand against the silk of her panties she shuddered with desire. She tried to pull down Didi's jeans but Didi moved away.

"Let me take care of you." Didi fell down to her knees and wrapped her arms around Janice's butt. She squeezed the tender flesh and enjoyed the tiny squeal it evoked. She kissed the inside of Janice's thigh as she eased Janice's leg over her shoulder. When Didi spread her finger against Janice's swollen flesh her own clitoris responded. Didi could not bare waiting any longer as she took Janice in her mouth. She stroked her tongue against Janice. She moved feverishly engrossed in the sweet taste of Janice bucking against her mouth.

"That feels so good, I'm going to come." Janice pushed her nails into the couch trying to maintain her balance.

"Yes, keep going, faster." Didi moaned against Janice the encouragement pushing her to reach heights of pleasure with her lover.

"I'm coming." As Janice spoke she cried out feeling whole for the first time in her life. Didi tried urgently to taste all she could of her new lover holding her mouth close to Janice. She licked and tasted Janice until Janice whimpered and moved away. She felt Janice urging her up and when they kissed she felt like she could dance on clouds.

"I can stay like this for a long time." Didi remarked as she rested her head against Janice's breast.

"I want you to stay for a long time." Janice voice held hope that was exactly where they would stay.

Angelica enjoyed watching her daughter painting in her living room. She was painting what was beginning to look like the dog she was hinting she wanted. Angelica shuddered when she realized she could have missed a lifetime of moments if the bullets had hit her a few inches further in the wrong direction. When she heard someone at the door the mixture of excitement and concern gripped her stomach as it had since she returned from the hospital. Joy and terror were always a moment away. She gingerly stood but could not beat her daughter to the door. Abigail reached for the doorknob but froze as if just remembering her parent's warnings. She put her hands back at her sides.

Angelica could see Evelyn waiting at the door through the painted glass. As Angelica opened the door Evelyn wrapped her arms around Angelica basking in their embrace.

"Hey there's my favorite girl." Evelyn said as Abigail embraced her. Angelica was again surprised to see the familiarity in their greeting.

"How are you feeling?" Evelyn asked trying to hide the concern she felt in her tone.

"I am feeling good."

"You are?" Evelyn asked skeptically.

"Well, I feel better every day." Angelica answered honestly. As they walked into the living room, Evelyn watched how Angelica moved, she was timid but steady, she did look better every day.

"I have pictures I wanted to give to you and to Abigail." Evelyn beamed when she took out the various pictures she had taken. “I meant to bring them over sooner.” Angelica took the pictures and took her time admiring every picture.

"When did this happen?" The smile on Angelica's face made Evelyn's heart soar.

"It was that day." Evelyn was unsure how else to put it.

"What day...Oh, that day."

"Jake was in San Diego, Madison was in class, and Janice was already on her way to the hospital." Angelica brushed her hand against Evelyn's cheek unsure why Evelyn felt the need to justify her being there for Abigail. "Jake called the school to tell them what happened."

"Thank you so much for being there." Angelica kissed Evelyn on the lips without hesitation. "Now how did you end up at Universal Hollywood?"

"I was worried but I knew I had to get her away from that fear, so I thought what would any kid love?" Angelica smiled enjoying the pictures and the sight of her daughter happy. She felt Evelyn's hand trace her own as they took in the pictures. She leaned into Evelyn and allowed both of their bodies to relax against the couch. Evelyn was holding her now. She allowed herself to get lost in the embrace. She felt years drift away, time melt in the warmth engulfing her soul.

"I never stopped loving you." Angelica's words were a light whisper. Evelyn kissed Angelica's soft cheek.

"Ladies, I'm sorry to be a buzz kill." Jake had walked in without them noticing and his attempts to make noise did not get their attention. "I'm cooking dinner, remember Ang?"

"Yes, that's right." Angelica looked over to Evelyn.

"I have to show you something, I was hoping I could take you somewhere." Evelyn helped Angelica to her feet as they walked to the door.

"Jake we'll be back."

"Right."

"Where are we going?" Angelica loved riding in a convertible, the night air felt cool against her face.

"We are going to my condo." Evelyn had signed the papers that morning and was eager to show it to Angelica. "I want to be with you, if it means staying in California that is what I am willing to do."

"We have time to make those decisions." Angelica reminded Evelyn as she rubbed the back of Evelyn's neck.

"Time is fleeting Angelica. I was in a car accident you were shot, anything can happen." Evelyn pulled up to her new driveway. She felt her emotion build within her but she put the car in park and hoped to leave all the negative thoughts in that driveway. As she got out of the car she felt Angelica's firm arms around her.

"Some things don't happen by chance, I won't leave anything else out of our control." Angelica kissed Evelyn all of her certainty she put into that kiss. "Everything will be okay, I promise." Evelyn took Angelica hand and brought her into the home.

"I wanted something small but big enough for everything we, I would need." Angelica walked through the home as Evelyn played the role of tour guide.

"Three bedrooms?"

"Yes, a master bedroom, an office, and?"

"A kid's room?" Angelica pointed to the room with a pink motif that could not be confused as anything but a child's room. Before Evelyn could explain she was silenced by Angelica making her way to the master bedroom. "This bed looks so comfortable." Angelica teased as she sauntered into the room.

Angelica shut the bedroom door and stood against it. Evelyn walked over to Angelica, took her hands and placed them over Angelica’s head. She pressed her body against Angelica as they kissed with a slow urgency. Angelica moaned into Evelyn's mouth when she felt Evelyn's body rub against her. Evelyn's hands moved to Angelica's blouse. She slid off the blouse and grabbed Angelica's breast greedily. Evelyn felt a desire she had never felt before she wanted more than to just making love to Angelica, she wanted to devour her.

Evelyn brought her lips to Angelica's breasts and sucked on her nipples. Her head quickly moved down Angelica's flat abs. She traced Angelica's muscles with her tongue. When she reached the scar left from the bullet entry wound she touched it with trembling fingers. Angelica wrapped her hands within Evelyn's hair. Evelyn felt encompassed by Angelica. It was the safest she had felt in years. She kissed the wounds wishing for them to disappear. She kneeled and spread Angelica's legs slightly. She lowered Angelica's skirt and was face to face with Angelica's soft pink sex. She stuck out her long tongue to show Angelica the instrument that was about to give her a plethora of pleasure. She traced Angelica's lips as Angelica let out a moan that began in her lower stomach and surged up her body to release through her mouth.

"I love your body." Evelyn said as she stared into her lover's sex. She put her hands behind Angelica and squeezed her butt. Angelica screamed out in surprise.

"New tricks" Angelica wrapped her hands around Evelyn's neck as she was quickly scooped up and brought over to the bed.

"I've had years to think about this moment."

Angelica looked into her eyes and said: "Touch me again please." She put her hands on the back of Evelyn's head to urge her forward. Evelyn quickly pushed her hot mouth into Angelica's sex while letting her fingers move all over Angelica's body. Angelica moved back and forward. As she thrust forward, Evelyn's tongue moved deeper inside her. The feeling of Evelyn's tongue fucking her and Evelyn's touch all over her was more than she could take.

"Oh yes baby, harder." Angelica's body moved back and forward at a torrid pace. Her legs barely held her up and she tried to steady herself, but the pleasure was taking over her.

"You are so amazing. I'm going to come." Angelica could feel Evelyn everywhere. Angelica screamed as her nectar exploded into Evelyn's mouth. Evelyn's face shimmered like ice. Evelyn moved up on the bed and put her arms around Angelica.

"You are amazing, hold me." Angelica held Evelyn tightly as she helped Evelyn out of her clothes. They lay naked and Angelica felt their heartbeats fall into step with each other. She knew what she needed to do.

Chapter 23

Janice jumped out of the bed after she peeked over at the alarm clock. She was supposed to meet Evelyn at her new home and she was over an hour late.

"I'm sorry I have to take a quick shower and run I am late for a meeting." As Janice ran into the bathroom Didi plopped back down into bed. What have I done? Didi realized she had the most amazing night of her life. She also knew that she wanted to start a relationship with Madison. She got up and walked over to Janice who was at the bathroom sink.

"I was thinking, after work would you like to go to dinner? There is this Indian restaurant I've wanted to try." Janice freshened up her makeup with the emergency morning after kit she always had in her purse.

"I can't I have to work really late tonight."

"Tomorrow then?"

"I have dinner with friends tomorrow." Didi began to brush her teeth avoiding eye contact with Janice.

"Do you regret last night?" Janice folded her arms and waited for an answer. "I'm a big girl so if you are having second thoughts you can tell me."

"Last night was amazing." Didi rubbed Janice's arms in an attempt to reassure her. "I am starting something with Madison and really want to see that through."

"When did you decide this before or after you decided to sleep with me?" Janice quickly put her things back in her purse. "Look if you want to shack up with eighteen year olds be my guest, I hope I am still around when you want something real." Janice walked out of the apartment and down the stairs to her car. She was angry with herself for allowing the night before to occur. She did have fun and she allowed herself to believe that the feeling she attached to it were fantasies for her future and not real potential between them.

The drive to Evelyn's was a quick one. She let herself in and called out for Evelyn who called her upstairs. Evelyn was lounging stretching luxuriously over the bed. "Why are you still in bed I'm over an hour late?"

"You just missed Angelica." The smile on Evelyn face we a welcomed sight for Janice.

"How long was she here?"

"It doesn't matter, what matters is that life is looking more hopeful than it has in a long time."

"She was here that long huh?" Janice threw a pair of jeans and an old shirt in Evelyn's direction. "Why did she leave?"

"She had to get on a flight to New York she said she had to take care of a few things. I offered to go but she said she would be back tomorrow morning."

"You were that good huh?" Janice dodged the pillow flung at her as they both laughed.

"I'm not sure about this Angelica, it's dangerous."

"What is there to worry about, I explain to the Bannister family that Henry is behind the car accident and my shooting, they believe me, and we take care of him." Angelica took a sip of the champagne she was given by the flight attendant.

"If Henry is involved in what we think he is then there could be a serious danger."

"I am not going to let another member of my family be a victim because of him. It ends now." Detective Peters wanted to make sure Angelica was ready for what they were about to do. Her voice was calm and determined Peters knew she was ready.

"What do you know about The Bannisters?" Angelica asked taking in the imposing woman seated next to her. They had been working together since the shooting she knew that Detective Peters was risking her own career by allowing Angelica access to classified information. Their relationship needed to be one of trust; Angelica's life depended on it.

"The Bannister’s are known for their charitable work and underground crime. They are considered heroes for their work ridding Connecticut of low-grade gangs and violence. They do things the police can't in turn the police look away regarding their tactics. Brian Bannister recently relinquished control to his younger brother Ronald Bannister."

"That is our in Tenley. Evelyn describes Ron as a good guy they love each other greatly."

"You haven't told Mrs. Stratford about our plans?"

"She would ask me not to do this but I have to, I have to protect all of us. She doesn't realize what happened to her wasn't an accident I am not going to scare her until we can say the person who did this is neutralized." Peters marveled at the strength of the woman sitting by her side. She was also curious about the relationship between Evelyn Stratford and Angelica. She knew Angelica had been dating model Sasha Ellington but she seemed very close to the politician.

"When we settle the matter on the East coast Ms. Ellington will be cleared as a person of interest in the case." Peters watched for Angelica's reaction but received little else besides an icy glaze.

"Good, what she did was wrong, but she had nothing to do with what happened after her little stunt." Detective Peters removed her seatbelt to face Angelica.

"I'm sorry but how do you keep calm, I have to know because you can't wait until you're in front of Ronald Bannister to snap."

"My daughter could have been in that car with me, my daughter."

"I am going to protect you and get this man for all he has done." They were quiet for the rest of the flight as an understanding passed between them. When they arrived at the baggage claim they met a driver waiting for them. It was a long ride to the Bannister estate. Angelica felt her heart beat thump wildly in her chest. She was taking a chance, knowing she was being counted upon. Her family counted on her to keep them safe. Tenley Peters trusted her judgment in what to do.

"Angelica, nice to see you again." Ronald Bannister greeted Angelica with a shake of the hand. He greeted Detective Peters and gestured towards the couch in his office.

"We are here out of respect for you and your family Mr. Bannister." Peters quickly took stock of her surroundings. They had security, too much security for any normal family.

"I am here out of love, love for my family, and love for your sister Ron."

"Angelica I know we don't have a good history but please know I've only done what I thought was best for my family. Why did you bring the authorities with you?"

"She's here for me and she has learned a lot about you and your family.

"I'm not having this conversation in front of the authorities Angelica."

"So then let's talk, you and me." Angelica whispered in Tenley's ear and waited for the detective to leave the room.

"It was one of your guys that shot me Ronald."

"That's not possible Angelica that's not what we do, we help people, and we have no reason to hurt you.

"Evan Blake, is he one of your guys?" Ron stood up and sat at the edge of his desk.

"You have my attention."

"He was sloppy I saw him when he left me for dead. Detective Peters brought him in and he admitted he did it." Ronald brushed his hair back with his hands. He thought about his sister and the feelings for Angelica he knew she felt.

"Angelica I did not order that you have my word." Angelica stood now standing eye to eye with Ron as he sat on the desk.

"I wouldn't be here if I thought you had, Henry set it up. He also set up the supposed accident that killed Edward.”

“That’s not possible.” Ronald’s voice rose not out of anger but of surprise. He searched his mind for an answer to the accusation and he could not find one.

“Blake admitted everything, he killed Edward and shot me, Evelyn was his target he is getting side money from Henry.” Ronald began pacing the room an uncharacteristic show of emotion.

“Why did you tell me? Why not have the authorities go after him?”

“We don’t have enough on Henry, the confession of a murderer won’t be enough to convict him, and there is no evidence. I want him out of my life.” Ronald kneeled down in front of Angelica who was sitting back down.

“He will admit to everything, he won’t have a choice, but we can’t let him get away with what he has done to the family.”

“I understand, I want more for him than what the authorities can provide, I need a message sent.” Ronald shook his head in agreement.

“But do not kill him.”

“You want a message sent the message needs to be no one hurts our family.” Ronald placed his hands on Angelica’s shoulder.

“I won’t become like him I won’t do that to my family.” Angelica spoke with clarity and conviction. “Get him out of our lives out of politics and we have Blake to take the fall for the rest.” Ronald laughed as he sized up the dainty woman in front of him. All of his instincts about her had been right. He regretted not trying to convince Edward and his brother Brian to keep her around.

“And the authorities?”

“You will have enough time to handle this family matter.” An understanding passed between them. Ronald asked Angelica for a moment as he called in a man in a suit. He was a large man at about six foot four and weighing at least 350 lbs. They spoke for a moment quietly, the man left the room without ever looking in Angelica’s direction.

“Speaking of family, my sister told me she was on her way to California to get you back, I take it she succeeded.” Ronald continued their conversation seamlessly. Angelica smiled but did not answer the question. He continued: “My family was against you, I never was.”

“Well, they better get on board. All the madness must come to an end.”

“I’m at the head of the family now. My opinion is the only one that matters.” Ronald spoke with a conviction Angelica believed. She, however, was not as trusting with her safety.

“We will see.”

“Evelyn doesn’t know everything there is to know about the family, it is better that way. As a politician we can’t have her being culpable for everything.” Ronald went over to his desk and took out two files from his desk. He placed them in front of Angelica.

“That is a list of our involvement in the community this past year.” Angelica looked over the material.

“Not all of this is legal.”

“Legality is subjective. We get things done that the authorities can’t. They respect us and we respect them, we are all here to better the community.”

“The local law enforcement knows about this?”

“The good guys need people like us on their side Angelica that is the reality we allow the world to go around.” Angelica opened the second file and noticed it was her file. She saw pictures of her and her family. She was concerned but looked on casually. Ronald watched her take the file in.

“I check up on my baby sister.”

“Not well enough.” Ronald stood up, as did Angelica.

“You are right, and we have trusted the wrong people, we won’t make that mistake again.”

“Can we invite Detective Peters back in now?” Ronald picked up the phone on his desk and called out instructions.

“Angelica, please keep as much as you can away from my sister.”

“I will do what I can to protect her but I won’t keep secrets if she asks.” Detective Peters walked back in and looked to Angelica to see how it went. Angelica shook her head ‘yes’ as she got up to meet her by the door.

“I give this back.” Angelica gave Ronald the first file back while keeping her own. “I watch you arrest Evan Blake for my attempted murder.”

“What about Henry?” Peters asked as she heard a commotion outside of the door.

“Henry just got here, please ladies sit for a little while longer.” Ronald called from his phone and within seconds Henry entered the room with two large men in suits.

“Sit here Henry. I have heard you have been a busy boy.” Ronald spoke slowly as he forcefully helped Henry into his seat. Henry’s face was slick with sweat. His stare ventured straight to Angelica.

“Don’t listen to a word they say Ronald, Angelica has been out to get all of us since she left New York.” Angelica smiled as she watched Henry squirm in his seat. Henry made a sudden move towards Angelica but Detective Peters met his leap with an un-holstered gun to his head. “Always have a dyke to protect you don’t you Angelica.”

“Oh Henry you should have known better, you never ever betray family.” Angelica said as Ronald pushed Henry back into his seat.

“Look at you sitting there with that arrogant look on your face. You think you’ve won but I am always one step ahead. Remember that Angelica.” Angelica stood up her chest thumping with Henry’s threat echoing in her head.

“Don’t listen to him your family is safe, remember, we have protection on them, if anything was wrong I would have gotten word.” Angelica shook her head comforted by Tenley's reminder.

“I’ve sent pictures of you and Evelyn to every tabloid from here to California revealing you two for the deviants you are.”

“I hope you don’t mean the e-mails you attempted to send on your Blackberry on the way here. We blocked those.” Ronald called in a few of his men who slowly made their way into the room.

“When will you learn Henry? We’ve outlasted you in every sense of the word.” Angelica made her way towards the door. She heard Henry screaming for her but she kept walking.

Chapter 24

Madison waited anxiously at the baggage claim watching as throngs of people made their way passed her. She resented how they all managed to bump into her as they passed. When she made eye contact with Angelica she was surprised to see Detective Peters with her. She felt fear grip her again as it had so many times in the past year. Angelica hurried to her as if sensing her fear.

“It’s okay Maddy, I’m all right, and it’s not what you’re thinking.” Madison took Angelica’s bag from Peters' hand. Madison moved towards Angelica and whispered in her ear.

“She is super hot but I thought you were with Evelyn now.” Angelica laughed surprised by the remark.

“It’s not that either.”

“Not what?” Peters asked innocently confused. Angelica opened her arms wide and gave the detective a hug.

“Thank you for everything Tenley.” Madison followed suit and gave the detective a hardy hug.

“What was that for Ms. Stratford?”

“That was just because I wanted to. It is also a reminder that if you need me for any more questioning you know where to find me.” Angelica pushed Madison away from Detective Peters and towards the exit.

“I can’t take you anywhere.”

“Hey let me have some fun I have been at this awful place for over an hour.”

“Yes, I did expect a leggy blonde to pick me up at the airport but I expected a different one.”

“Older one you mean. Yes, Evelyn asked me to pick you up and bring you straight to your house.” Angelica sat back in the car disappointed by the news. She needed to see Evelyn, hold her, and see for herself that she was okay. “Don’t fret you will see her soon, it’s all part of her plan.” Angelica smiled and took a deep breath. Pleasant surprises were a new and welcomed feeling.

Nothing could ever compare to seeing her daughter after any absence, even if it was just one night. Angelica scooped up her daughter as she walked into her home.

“You have to see the dress mommy.” Abigail held on tightly to her mother as she gave her small kisses as they walked. Jake waved hello as Angelica made her way to her bedroom. A red sequenced dress was laid out on her bed.

“Evelyn left that for you this morning.” Jake explained after following her into the room. Angelica picked up the card sitting on top of the dress. She read it aloud: “A car will be waiting out front my love, see you soon. Evie”

Angelica was intrigued by this romantic side of Evelyn she hadn’t gotten the chance to know previously. She picked up the dress and placed it in front of her as she looked into the mirror.

“Are you going to put it on or what?” Madison asked watching with as much intrigue as Abigail.

“Not with the two of you watching, out.” Angelica motioned to the door as they both left.

“Fine but I am going out to meet Didi have a good night be home by curfew young lady.” Madison called out as she walked away from the room.

“You too.” Angelica called back although she hadn’t paid much attention to what was said. She was running into her bathroom for a quick shower, she had a very attractive woman waiting on her.

Madison opened the door of the studio with her work keys and called out for Didi. Didi had just finished setting the table she had placed at the very center of her workspace. She lit the candles as she felt Madison behind her. She felt a kiss against the base of her neck she turned to face Madison and kissed her. The kiss had to be a special one and Didi put all of her care into the embrace. Madison moaned her approval in Didi’s ear.

“Is all of this for me?” Madison asked as she noticed takeout from her favorite French restaurant.

“Yes, it is I wanted to make tonight special.” Didi pulled out the chair for Madison and poured her a glass of wine.

“What are we celebrating?” Madison asked as she began her meal.

A lot I hope. Didi thought as she allowed the question to linger in the air.

Angelica thanked the chauffeur as she exited the limo that had been waiting for her outside of her home. She entered the dimly lit restaurant and was quickly ushered into a private room at the very trendy restaurant on Santa Monica Boulevard. When Angelica saw Evelyn she paused suddenly. Evelyn wore a short sequined black dress that accentuated her long legs. Evelyn was waiting alone in the private area; there was one table in the entire section. Evelyn stood to meet Angelica with a soft but eager kiss.

“I’ve missed you." Evelyn whispered as she traced the straps of Angelica’s red dress.

“You certainly planned a lot in twenty-four hours.” Angelica pointed out as she kissed Evelyn again. They sat down and a waitress quickly came over to them with menus. Evelyn held Angelica’s hand as they looked over the menu. Evelyn’s smile warmed Angelica and she hoped the smile could last the entire night.

“I’ve been thinking, you and I have really enjoyed our time together right?” Didi asked as they finished up the dessert they were sharing. They were mostly quiet during dinner but the silence was comfortable for Madison.

“Of course we have.” Madison shook her head unsure where the conversation was heading.

“When a relationship reaches a certain point you ask yourself where are we heading, are we getting serious or ending it.” Didi rambled on as Madison put down her fork understating for the first time where the conversation was heading. “I think you and I owe it to each other to get serious, we are compatible in so many ways.” Didi kneeled in front of Madison and took her hand. “I really like you and want to see where this can go. I want you to be my girlfriend.”

“I thought we were both looking to have fun when we got together.” Madison mentioned as she held Didi’s hand.

“I know but I think things have changed don’t you? I am ready and want to take care of you.” Madison eased her hand out of Didi’s

“I think you are great Didi but things haven’t changed for me, I am not ready for a commitment.” Didi was frozen by the revelation. She had watched how Madison looked to Angelica for comfort and care and thought she wanted the stability of a relationship. She looked away unsure where exactly she took a wrong turn.

“What do you want then?” Didi asked genuinely interested in the answer.

“I want to enjoy college. You’re right a lot has happened and I just want to focus on enjoying my life not defining it.” Madison leaned forward and kissed Didi’s forehead. Didi still did not move so Madison slowly picked up her purse and sweater. “I’m sorry.” She left the studio, as Didi remained seated on the floor.

“So what exactly are we celebrating?” Angelica asked as she took a sip of her Chianti.

“You mean besides our amazing night two nights ago?” Evelyn asked with a wiggle of her eyebrows. Angelica shook her head yes. “I don’t know if we are celebrating as much as we are sharing time.”

“I love how that sounds.” Angelica pointed out as she stood. She placed her hand in front of Evelyn. “May I have this dance?” She asked as Evelyn took her hand. They stood as Angelica wrapped her arms around Evelyn. They swayed to the song that danced lightly across the air. Evelyn closed her eyes as Angelica placed her head on Evelyn’s shoulder. They swayed in unison and Angelica couldn’t help but think of how far they had come. She picked up her head to look into Evelyn’s eyes.

“I trust you, with my heart, my family, everything.” Evelyn felt tears form in her eyes as she allowed Angelica’s words to sync into her consciousness. She knew she had Angelica’s love but having her trust meant just as much to her. She knew it was the hardest thing for Angelica to give.

“I trust you too, I trust in us.” Angelica kissed Evelyn understanding that trusting in what they share would get them through anything else that came their way. The soft kiss bellied the need she felt beginning in her fingertips and spreading throughout her body.

“Maybe we should continue this at your place?” Evelyn asked breathless from the kiss they had just shared. She looked around noticing that she had one hand on Angelica’s breast the other on her butt. Angelica smiled as she forced her body heavy against Evelyn’s

“What do you think?” As they collected their belongings Evelyn’s phone rang, Angelica stopped to watch Evelyn answer. She was waiting for the moment but still felt nervous as she waited.

“When? From what?” Angelica stood patiently waiting for Evelyn to finish. When Evelyn hung up the phone she put her hand in Angelica’s.

“That was my brother Ron, Henry, he’s my god, he’s dead.” Angelica brought Evelyn into her and gave her a hug. “Ron is on his way to your house he just landed.” Evelyn was too shocked to question why Ron chose to meet them at Angelica’s.

“Are you okay?” Angelica asked as she brushed her lips against Evelyn’s. Her voice cracked confused by the news. He expected to hear Henry was taking a leave of absence. She knew he would never return but she never expected Ronald would betray her trust and have him killed.

“I’m not sure how I feel.” Evelyn answered honestly.

“Let’s go home baby.” Angelica took Evelyn’s hand and led her outside. They both entered the limo and Evelyn put her head in Angelica’s lap.

“How does a man in his forties just die?” Evelyn asked and Angelica shook her head unsure of what to say.

“When your brother gets here we can sit down and figure it all out.”

“I should feel worse than I do.” Evelyn thought back to the times Henry succeeded in upsetting her life. She didn’t feel happy but she wasn’t wrecked with pain either.

“No, you feel as you should.” Angelica brushed a few strands of hair out of Evelyn’s eyes. “When I went to Connecticut I went to meet with your brother Evelyn.” Evelyn sat up surprised by what she was hearing.

“Why were you meeting with him?”

“Henry was behind my shooting Evelyn. He hired the guy who did it.”

“No, that’s not possible; my family wouldn’t go that far.” Evelyn’s voice wavered. She felt the guilt of her family life pound within her.

“He acted alone Evelyn.”

“I hate him.” Evelyn felt tears streaming down her face. She started sobbing reliving how close she was to losing Angelica.

“Shh, he is gone now.” Angelica was relieved that they got the call after the night they shared. When they reach Angelica’s home. Madison was sitting in the living room with Jake. They both stood when Evelyn and Angelica walked in.

“Where is Abigail?’ Angelica asked as Madison greeted her with a hug.

“Already sleeping in her room.” Jake answered as he hugged them both. “The others are on their way.” Evelyn sat down at the kitchen table. She felt that nights like the one she was experiencing had happened too often. Angelica sensed Evelyn’s pain and kissed her forehead. That was the only difference and exactly what Evelyn needed. Evelyn noticed Janice walk in as Angelica pulled up a chair next to her.

“Hey ladies I got the call to come over, I’m sorry about your loss.” Janice said as she looked for Didi but did not see her there.

“How does she know about Henry?” Evelyn asked Angelica who walked back into the living room after looking in on Abigail.

“Janice is your right hand – Ronald spoke to her.”

“What is going on that I don’t know about?” Evelyn asked but no one was listening. Everyone’s attention was towards the front door where Ronald had just walked in behind Janice. Ronald walked over to his sister and gave her a kiss. Evelyn was surprised when he greeted Angelica with a hug.

“Ron, please tell me what is going on.”

“Angelica brought a few things to my attention of which I am not proud. Henry was responsible for the attack on Angelica.” Evelyn took Angelica’s hand, and stared deep within the depths of her eyes.

“How did you find out baby?” Evelyn asked quietly.

“I knew deep down, I just knew.” Angelica felt tears but she quickly brushed them away. “Detective Peters and I had been working on it ever since.” Jake walked over to Angelica and kissed her on the back of her head. Angelica looked around and took strength from her family surrounding her. She knew she needed their support.

“Henry also caused the accident you and Edward had Evelyn.” Evelyn’s eyes shot open. Everything finally hit her consciousness, the events of her life she thought to be chance were due to malicious intent. She thought back to that car ride with Edward, she closed her eyes and heard the smashing windows, and crumpling metal.

“He couldn’t have anticipated Edward would be in the car with you.” Angelica explained further.

“Why?” Evelyn asked breathless. She felt anger searing within. Henry had orchestrated the events that led to Edward’s death and Angelica’s near miss. Evelyn looked towards Madison who was also hearing this for the first time. As Evelyn embraced Madison Angelica put her hand on Ronald’s arm. Angelica motioned for Ron to follow her into her guest room. When they were both inside she locked the door.

"You weren't supposed to kill him Ron, that wasn't part of the deal." Angelica's hands shook. She felt relieved that a madman was no longer after her. But after facing death so intimately she couldn't fathom securing that fate for another human being.

“I made you a promise and I kept it.” Ronald embraced Angelica. “Henry committed suicide in his home.”

“I don’t believe you.” Angelica peered into Ronald’s eyes.

“I don’t blame you but it is the truth. He overdosed you can read the coroner’s report.” Angelica shook her head and imagined what losing his career could have done for Henry. She knew Ronald was telling her the truth.

As they walked back into the living room they all looked towards Angelica. Madison walked over to Angelica and put her head on Angelica’s shoulder. Angelica held her close.

Jake went into the kitchen and took out a few champagne glasses. He poured the champagne Evelyn had bought for the night into each glass. Evelyn took the glass placed in front of her and quickly downed its contents. Jake refilled her glass.

“Evelyn there are pictures of you and Angelica carrying on in a more than friendly way.” Ronald did not enjoy discussing his younger sister’s personal life but knew it had to be done.

“I thought you were able to get those pictures before he sent them.” Angelica said as she felt her hands ball into fists.

“I thought so as well, we missed a few. I have called a press conference for tomorrow so Evelyn can explain these pictures. I think it is best for you to go and speak."

“How bad are they?” Janice asked unsure how it was possible to have any incriminating pictures of them.

“You guys are on the beach, they are not overt but it is obvious you are more than friends.” Ron explained as he took out a few of the pictures. Evelyn and Angelica inspected each picture. They both wondered how long they were being followed but neither voiced the concern. “If you still intend on running for office this is a damaging blow right before an election year.”

Evelyn put down the pictures and traced the tip of her glass. She watched everyone flare about through the murky bubbles in her champagne glass.

“Are you okay?” Angelica asked as she sat next to Evelyn.

“I’m fine, I’m quite calm.” She said as she closed her eyes. She took a sip of her drink. Scenes from the past six years began to play in her mind. The love she shared with Angelica, Henry’s betrayal, losing Edward, she recalled them all in that moment. “Who would have thought that we would be faced with this now? We were so close to being past everything."

“Is it really that surprising? The truth always has a way of swimming to the surface. We need to address what’s happening.” Angelica tried to reason with Evelyn. We have to talk about the press conference tomorrow morning.”

Angelica took the glass from Evelyn and placed it on the table in front of them. Evelyn’s friends and family stood around her now. They waited for guidance and a plan. Evelyn stood up before them, her sequined black dress clinging to her muscular thighs. She felt a tension rising from the floor through her legs and into her chest. As her chest pulsated, she opened her mouth to speak. As she spoke all she heard were the loud thumps echoing in her chest.

“I thank you all for coming over tonight. I know you are all wondering what I’m going to tell the world tomorrow." She paused as she looked into the eyes of her loyal friends and family. She knew that her story was one that had never been told. She could cower in silence with her head down ashamed of her predicament. She could stand at a podium eyes fixed on the floor, and explain her life. She could shake, she could tear, and she could pretend that she owed them an explanation.

“I’m going to tell them everything.”

“What is everything?” Angelica asked through a wavering voice.

“I am going to tell them that I love you.”

“So you don’t want to run for office?” Ronald asked as he walked up from the bedroom. Evelyn had recently seemed more motivated to go back to Connecticut because of the good she could do.

“I want to run but I want this more.” Evelyn took Angelica’s hand and kissed it softly.

“I want you to run for governor.” Angelica said the words but she was not sure herself why she would. She knew that politics was a world she ran away from, but a world she missed. It was a love they both shared and she couldn’t stand the idea of taking it away from Evelyn.

“Our life is here, Abigail’s school is here, I can’t go back to Connecticut now.”

“We don’t have to decide a permanent home right now. We just need to make a statement.” Angelica pointed out as her heart swelled by the inclusion of her daughter in Evelyn’s plans.

“Now if I only had a speech writer to help me put everything I feel into words.” Evelyn teased playfully as she sat Angelica on her lap.

“No speech writers around but I know a former media consultant that may be able to help.” Angelica kissed Evelyn softly as she held on to her tightly.

“So let me get this straight.” Janice stood. “The wife of a fallen governor is going to come out as a lesbian and announce her plans to run for office.” Evelyn shook her head ‘yes.”

“You forgot the best part, we’re going to win.” Evelyn was sure of it.

Chapter 25

Evelyn felt small fingers tapping her arm. She thought for a moment she was dreaming, but when the small fingers pinched her, she realized she was very much awake. She opened one eye and saw Abigail staring at her just a few inches away from her face.

“I’m hungry.”

“You’re hungry?” Evelyn was unsure why she found the question to be complicated. She looked over to the alarm clock that read 7:00a.m. She then understood her own fogginess.

“Maddy already left and mommy is sleeping.”

“What do you like eating for breakfast?” Evelyn asked as she reached for her robe on the floor.

“I like cookies. Mommy said it was okay this morning.”

“Oh she did?” Evelyn smiled impressed by Abigail’s attempt at manipulation.

“Walk over to this side munchkin.” Angelica spoke as both were startled she was awake. Abigail tiptoed over to her mother’s side of the bed. She crossed her arms behind her back. She put on her most innocent expression.

“I let you eat cookies for breakfast?”

“No mommy but Evie likes cookies.”

“Don’t blame Evie, go brush your teeth and I will make breakfast.” Abigail rushed back to her room.

“Oh my god I can’t believe she saw me like this.” Angelica wrapped her arms around Evelyn and pulled Evelyn on top of her. She gave her a searching kiss.

“A Mets tee shirt and shorts are very sexy but I don’t think she minds.” Angelica said as she kissed Evelyn’s neck.

“You know what I mean, she saw me in bed with you. That feels good.” Evelyn moaned forgetting briefly of her concern.

“And she was so concerned by it she tried to trick you into making her cookies for breakfast, how traumatized she must be.” Angelica laughed unsure why Evelyn still looked worried. “I spoke to her, don’t worry she is fine.”

“You spoke to her?” Evelyn asked as she noticed how thin the fabric of her shorts was as she sat on top of Angelica.

“Yes, I explained that we are special friends who love each other.” Angelica repositioned herself so their bodies met with every movement. Angelica slowly swayed her body enjoying Evelyn’s heat pinned against her. “It was harder to explain it when Sasha first stayed over, it is easier now.” Evelyn rolled her eyes and moved away from Angelica. “I forgot how jealous you are.” Angelica laughed as she got up, put on her robe, and went to brush her own teeth.

After sharing the sink with Evelyn, Angelica scooped up Abigail on the way to the kitchen. She placed Abigail on her customary spot on the counter. She took out a roll and broke off a small piece and put it in Abigail's open mouth. She kissed Abigail's nose as she put a piece of bread into her own mouth.

"I think I may cook breakfast after all." Evelyn said as she passed Angelica in the kitchen. She looked inside the cabinets and took out various items.

"What are we having for breakfast?" Angelica asked humored by Evelyn fumbling about in the kitchen.

"It's a surprise." Evelyn said as she began to stir pancake mix in a bowl while Angelica began to brew a fresh pot of coffee.

"When do we have to leave for the press conference?" Angelica asked as she edged past Evelyn to grab the sugar.

"We have an hour to play with even in L.A. traffic." Evelyn found the remote and put on the small television in the kitchen. She put on CNN. Angelica hugged Evelyn who was instantly hooked on the screen. Angelica eased the remote out of Evelyn's hand and changed the channel. She put on Cartoon Network.

"Yes." Abigail exclaimed noticing that her favorite cartoon was on. Evelyn kissed Angelica softly their lips parting slightly.

"I'm sorry. I'll get better at realizing those things." Evelyn poured the batter into the frying pan.

"You're doing great." Angelica assured Evelyn as she watched her prepare the meal.

"Mommy, can we go see the fishes again?" Abigail asked as she took the cup of orange juice her mother was offering.

"Yes, we can, but not today. Today we are going to my office to take a lot of pictures."

"Do we have to go with Sasha? I don't want to." Angelica took a sip of her coffee regretting that Abigail did not enjoy her time with someone Angelica had decided to date.

"Sasha won't be there sweetie." Angelica scooped up Abigail and stood her on the floor. Abigail took her seat at the dining room table.

"Yummy it smells good."

"Guess what I made you Abby." Abigail sat up in her chair to peak over the dish to see what was inside. "I made you cookies." Evelyn had mixed a small amount of chocolate chips in the pancake mix. Abigail's eyes widened happy with the offering.

"Can I eat it mommy?" Abigail asked still mindful of the rules.

Angelica granted Abigail permission as Evelyn tried a bite of her pancakes and was impressed with her own results.

"You may be a lot better at this than you realize."

"Loving her is loving you." Evelyn whispered as she looked over to Abigail. Angelica wrapped her arms around Evelyn. She waited for Abigail to move between them but she didn't.

"I'll have to remember that cookie trick when she is older." Angelica kissed Evelyn.

"That won't work when she's older." Evelyn pointed out as she looked over to the clock. "Are you ready for this?" Evelyn couldn't hide her concern. She wished she could shield Angelica from the intrusion of the media. She knew however that a life with her would never grant Angelica that freedom.

"We have been through it all but here we are. I am more than ready to tell the world I love you." She straightened Evelyn's shirt. "I am ready to see you do what you have always been meant to do." Evelyn shook her head in agreement. She knew the time had come to be who she was, fully, for the first time.

Angelica shielded Abigail's eyes from the flashes of the cameras. There were more reporters than she expected, but she reminded herself that Evelyn didn't belong to any normal family. She also knew that a lesbian affair wasn't a story told every day. She looked into Evelyn's eyes and the confidence she saw comforted her. Noticing Madison and Janice enter the room and head her way also allowed her to relax. Angelica put Abigail's hand in Madison's and headed towards the podium.

"I would like to thank all of you for coming today. I have had many press conferences to introduce new lines or a new designer but I can't remember the last time we have fit so many people into this room." The chuckles in the room were of the nervous variety.

The crowd was not the usual fashion and entertainment media, the titans of media made up the composition of the room. "Ms. Stratford will begin with a brief statement followed by a Q&A session. Please hold all of your questions until that time." Angelica motioned for Evelyn to join her at the podium. Evelyn kissed her on the cheek as cameras flashed briefly blinding her.

"First I would like to address the passing of my cousin Henry Grant. He was a passionate politician with strong convictions. During this most recent tragedy we will continue to find strength through our work in public service." Evelyn took a deep breath relieved the words came out of her mouth without spewing the hatred she felt when thinking of Henry. She locked eyes with Angelica. She knew hate was a fleeting feeling as long as she looked into those eyes.

"Concerning the recent pictures published of me, it is true. I am involved romantically with Angelica Reed." She allowed the succession of camera clicks to subside. "She is the woman I love and we have the support of my family in the life we are building together. We decided together that I still have much to accomplish as a public servant and will continue to follow those dreams. Any questions?" Evelyn had a roomful of hands up to choose from.

"Ms. Stratford, are you a lesbian?" The first question was pointed and Evelyn was relieved to answer.

"Yes, I am a lesbian."

"What does this mean for your future in politics?"

"It is who I am but not all I am about, my political views and goals have not changed."

"Did you love your husband?"

"I did and I still do very much."

"Is it true that he cheated on you with other women?" Angelica stood up and reached the podium quickly. She knew she should not show anger at the press conference but could not ignore the uncouth question.

"Mr. Stratford is not here to defend himself so can we please focus on questions worth answering. He is part of our family and his child is an important part of my life please respect this." Angelica placed her hand on Evelyn's back hoping it would calm her down. She knew Evelyn was becoming flustered. When she saw Evelyn's shoulders relax she knew Evelyn was finding her composure.

"Ms. Reed a question for you, did Evelyn steal you away from Sasha and this is why she allegedly shot you?" Evelyn was about to speak but Angelica took the microphone.

"Sasha did not shoot me, and I cannot comment on what happened to me. What I can say is that I did not leave Sasha for Evelyn nor did she steal me away."

"What does Madison think of this relationship?"

"Madison is here and supports us immensely." Evelyn said as she looked over to her stepdaughter who returned her wave with a wink.

"Will you run for office in Connecticut or California?" Evelyn made eye contact with Angelica not quite sure of the answer.

"We will go where we can do the most good and see what is best for our family?"

"Thank you for your time today that will conclude this press conference." Angelica spoke in an unwavering tone that did not deter reporters from yelling out more questions. They walked off the stage hand in hand. Janice was the first to greet them whispering affirmatives into Evelyn's ear. Angelica walked over to her daughter and scooped her up. She then kissed Madison's cheek. For Angelica it was not for show or reporter's benefit. They finally had each other to live free from restriction and the relief was palpable. As they walked out and Angelica looked into Evelyn's eyes she knew her family was finally complete.

Table of Contents

Prologue

Chapter 1: January 2007

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10: Five Years Later

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18

Chapter 19

Chapter 20

Chapter 21

Chapter 22

Chapter 23

Chapter 24

Chapter 25